True Feelings

Disclaimer: don\'t own

Warning: same as before, sex scene, don\'t like it don\'t read it.
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Tatsumi wondered the streets of earth after work by himself. It was already dark out; street lamps were on all around him. He walked to bars, bakeries, and back to the park where it happened. He hoped that he would find Tsuzuki or at least a glimpse of him. He sat down on the ground in the park under a cherry blossom tree.

He drew his knees up against his chest laid his head down. It’s already been a day since Tsuzuki was kidnaped. It’s all my fault, this wouldn’t have happened if I didn’t give him that case. I’m so stupid. His shadows danced around him in the night as he fell slowly into a deep depression.

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Watari walked back to his lab working late into the night. He was preoccupied with events that took place earlier that day. He finally finished with the reports he had to type and just sat there staring at the computer screen. He didn’t want to leave where he was; there was a cot in the lab for late nights so he could stay there if he wanted.

But something was amiss, just not right. He wouldn’t have been so uptight if Tsuzuki was here. Right about now he would have been bar hopping with his best friend or doing something with him. Not today, he thought, maybe not ever again. Watari smacked himself across the face, “ Stop thinking like that! You will see him again and you know it!”, he said out loud.

He let out a sigh, packing up his stuff to leave. Walking past the secretary’s office he noticed Tatsumi wasn’t in his room.\' That’s odd Tatsumi never leaves his office until much later.\' The blonde headed out to Tatsumi’s apartment to check to see if everything way fine. Tsuzuki’s kidnaping seemed to have affected him the most, so leaving him by himself was not a good idea.

Tsuzuki had affected the scientist as well but it wouldn’t bring him back any faster if he became a wreck as well. He needed to be the strong one for the other two shinigami.


He came to Tatsumi’s apartment and knocked on the door, “ Tatsumi, are you there?”
Hearing no answer he knocked again, and again there was answer. He had a spare key to the room that the secretary had given him awhile back. He unlocked the door and looked around the room. There was no sign that the blue eyed man had even entered the room. This wasn’t a good sign, that meant the man had never came home. The only places he would be were in his office where it was quiet or back to where `it` happened.

Knowing that the secretary wasn’t in his office the only place he would be was `there`. \' Out of all the places a human can go, why do they chose a place where they were hurt? No matter what it was that happened people seemed to find comfort there.\'

Watari walked around the empty park looking for the secretary. A draft started to pick up blowing the scientists hair everywhere. He took a hair ribbon from his pocket and tied his hair back to keep it from being any worse a mess. He walked forward pulling his lab coat closer to him as the wind picked up even more.

In the distance he saw a man sitting on the ground with... Shadows all around him! Watari started to run towards the man, “ Tatsumi.” The man didn’t move or look up from his spot but the shadows flickered. The blonde slowed down coming to a walking pace towards the secretary, taking care from the shadows.

He reached down to touch the secretary on the shoulder but the shadows had leapt up to block him. Watari jerked back not expecting the shadows to defend their master and called to the man, “ Seii, answer me, please.”

The azure eyed man looked up slowly and noticed the blonde dodging the shadows that came his way. Tatsumi’s eyes widened with fear and the shadows evaporated into the night.

“ Taka.... I’m...”, the secretary started to say but Watari cut him off.

“ Let’s... just get... home... ok?”, he said trying to catch his breath. He helped Tatsumi up and they walked to the secretary’s apartment though the empty streets.


When they made it back to the apartment Watari sat Tatsumi down on the couch. The blonde left the older man to get a glass of water. Walking back he hand the secretary the water. Tatsumi’s eyes were bloodshot indicating that he had been crying earlier before Watari found him.

“ Thanks”, said and drank all of the water that was in the glass. The scientist took off his glasses, rubbing the bridge of his nose with his fingers and sighed.

“ What’s the matter, Taka.”

“ Nothing... It’s nothing.”, he said putting on his glasses and giving Tatsumi a smile as if nothing really was the case. “ Don’t worry about it, just I think it’s time for bed.”

“ Why do you say that?”

“ Wha.. It’s after eleven an night, you need some rest for tomorrow.”, Watari said wondering where Tatsumi’s mind was to ask such a question.


They were both in bed trying to sleep. Tatsumi had his back to the blonde staring at the wall and Watari was on his back looking up at the ceiling. Both of them were wide awake making it seem like eternity waiting for the sun to come up.

The older man was thinking about Tsuzuki; how he was bugged by the purple eyed man for money to go buy some sweet cake and occasionally some beer. About the puppy eyes he received when things didn’t go the other man’s way. He felt the tears roll down his face as he thought of his ex-partner.

He tried not to let Watari know that he was crying so he moved his pillow to the front of his face to muffle any sobs that escaped him. Watari noticed that the older man brought the pillow in front of his face. He heard the secretary mumble something and grabbed his shoulder gently to turn him over.

Tatsumi didn’t budge; not wanting to have the younger blonde find out. Watari sat up to peer over at Tatsumi only to have the man move his head farther down to avoid his gaze.

\' I can’t believe I’m going to do this\', Watari thought he put one leg over Tatsumi so the secretary was positioned between the blonde’s legs. Not the best position to find the scientist in, in a time like this but it made things a little easier for the man. Trying once again to turn the man over, Tatsumi resisted. Watari grabbed the pillow and pulled it until it came loose from the secretary’s grip.

“ Leave me alone.”, Tatsumi said in a slightly angered voice.

“ Come on Seii, quit acting like this, it won’t help the situation.”

“ Taka... please”

“ Seiichirou, quit being so stubborn.”

“ Yutaka!.. please”, Tatsumi said as he rolled over to face the blonde. His eyes widened a bit and blush crossed his face as he noticed the blonde’s position.

“ Seii...”, he said but was cut off by Tatsumi’s mouth. The secretary wrapped his hands around the blonde man’s neck and pulled him against the bed. Watari slowly eased his way down to the bed to take the weight off his arms.

Like before, Tatsumi unraveled his arms from the scientist’s neck and moved them to under his pajama shirt. He ran his fingers along Watari’s spine making him shiver. Watari pulled away from the touch, “ Seii... I already said no.”

“ Please... Taka... I really want this.”, the secretary said, his face flushed with embarrassment.

“ I can’t...It doesn’t feel right.”

“ Please... Taka... Please.”

“ Are you sure about this?”

The blue eyed man leaned up and kissed the blonde again. Watari nibbled the secretary’s lower lip hoping that his decision was best. Tatsumi opened his mouth allowing the scientist’s tongue to explore his mouth.

The blonde started to unbutton Tatsumi’s pajama shirt. Upon removing the man’s shirt, Watari caressed the fine toned chest in front of him, still assaulting the secretary’s lips. The older man pulled away from the blonde and arched his back as Watari began to play with his nipples and lick up his chest.

Tatsumi began to moan out in pleasure making the scientist hard. The sound of the secretary’s voice was making Watari very uncomfortable in his clothes. Kissing the secretary along his neck and chest, Watari his hands up to his own shirt.

He removed his shirt with ease then removed his pants and boxers so that he was nude. Tatsumi looked up at his soon-to-be lover through his lust hazed eyes. He blushed when he realized Watari was naked about him. He had seen the scientist naked once before at the springs but that had been under a different circumstance. There, they were just friends not even knowing how each other felt, but here they were going to lovers.

Watari began to remove Tatsumi’s restraints so that in the end they were both naked as the day they were born.

“ Seii, do you have anything to use as lube?”, the scientist whispered in his ear. “ I don’t want to hurt you.”, he said stroking the secretary’s cock to emphasize his point.

The azure eyed man inhaled deeply and clutched the bed sheets in his hands. He tried to tell the blonde an answer to the question put his vocal cords refused to work for him. “ Drawer”, he managed to get out, feeling a dip in the bed as Watari sat up. The scientist reached up over Tatsumi causing his hair to run along the secretary’s chest and causing there erections to brush against one another. The older man bit his lip to suppress the moans he might make.

Searching the drawer with his hand and keeping his eyes on the man below him, Watari came across a bottle. He pulled the bottle out and read the label, “ Baby oil?!” The secretary began to blush madly, “ Umm... I...umm” The blonde grinned to hear the other man stumble over his words.

“ It’s fine”, Watari said with a smile on his face. He opened the bottle pouring the oil along Tatsumi’s chest then placing down the bottle. The scientist rubbed the oil up the older man’s chest and slowly back down again; his hair lightly caressing the man’s chest in the wake of the blonde’s hands.

Tatsumi shivered as Watari moved his hands to the man’s thighs. With oil still on his hands he began to rub it on the secretary’s thighs with feather like touches. He was slowly spreading the blue eyed man’s open as he rubbed his thighs.

Watari grabbed the bottle once again and poured a generous amount in his hands. Closing the bottle he placed it on the other side of the bed no longer needing it. He placed his hands on his cock and stroked himself slowly. He was trying hard not to thrust into his hand and let out a groan of frustration.

The scientist stopped what he was doing and went back to Tatsumi. “ Seii, I’mgoing to put your legs over my shoulders, ok? It will make easier for me.” The brown haired man lifted his leg a bit showing the blonde that it was ok. Watari lifted up the secretary’s legs and rested them on his shoulders.

The secretary felt the younger man’s hands cup his ass. Watari spread open the other man’s ass and circled his finger around the man’s opening, teasing him.

Tatsumi felt Watari’s finger circle around, “ Please” Watari complied and stuck one finger in. The secretary’s breath was caught in his throat as he felt the finger enter him. Slowly he added in a second finger, thrusting them in and out of the older man’s body to get his used to the feeling.

He added a third finger and felt Tatsumi clamp down, trying to stop the intrusion. “ Relax, it will only hurt more if you remain like this.”, Watari said. The secretary relaxed enough so the scientist could continue what he was doing. He began to stretch the older man open and when he felt the man was ready the golden eyed man pulled out his fingers.

“ Are you sure you want to go through with this?”, Watari asked one final time. Leaning over the older man’s body.

“ Yes”

Without saying another word the scientist guided his penis forward into Tatsumi’s body. The secretary inhaled sharply grabbing hold of Watari’s arms. The blonde didn’t move waiting for the secretary to get accustom to feeling him inside.

Tatsumi lessened his grip on the scientist’s arms indicating that he was ready. Watari moved in the secretary’s body slowly. The blue eyed man thrashed his head side to side as the blonde thrust into him. Watari grabbed the older man’s cock and started pumping it in time with his thrusts.

Tatsumi moaned out in pleasure as Watari continued his ministrations. The scientist rubbed his thumb on the head of the secretary’s penis coating it with the pre-cum that flowed out of it. The blonde brought his lips to meet the older man’s moaning softly as he was reaching his climax.

“ Ahh.. Taka..!”, Tatsumi yelled out as he spilled his semen over Watari’s chest. The secretary’s body clamped over the golden eyed man’s shaft bringing him over after a few thrusts. The scientist collapsed on top of the older man, panting hard.

When the brown haired man was able to move again he wrapped his arms around the scientist’s body holding him tight. Watari was able to move again after catching his breath and pulled out of Tatsumi slowly.

The blonde laid next to his lover and kissed him softly on the lips. His eyes started to droop slightly. Tatsumi put his arm over the blonde’s side, stroking his back slowly and closed his eyes. He soon fell asleep exhausted from their activities. Watari feel asleep to the sound of the older man’s soft breathing.

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Sorry if this chapter kinda sucked. I lost motivation in the middle of writing this scene for some reason. Well I hope to see reviews for this part, I have one request when you write your reviews this time ( well more a question )

The question is \' Who would you like to see paired with Hisoka?\' It doesn\'t matter who or if they are paired up with anyone or not.

Write your opinion in the review. It plays a part later on in the story.

\'Till next time