Night\'s Obsession

He sighed deeply as he came in Ken for the fourth time. He growled and sighed Ken dozing lightly beneath him. He was looking for a way to feel like he was Ken's but it seemed no matter how many times he made love to his koi he couldn't find that feeling. He growled and drifted off into sleep. He sat up suddenly as a memory assaulted him. He had forgotten Ken had been raped and he claimed his koi back by making love to him the very day he was raped. He knew he was out cold for at least a few days so he should be fine and he also remembered the cross and his ring. He gently kissed Ken and started to tickle him.

Ken's eyes flew open and he looked at his lover who was still rested on top of him. "Ken make love to me." He blinked and smiled pulling Ran down for a deep kiss. "Ran, baby only if you are sure." His lover nodded and nuzzled his neck and kissed his face. He smiled and nodded and nuzzled back. "Ok koi but you are going to be in control of this. I don't want to hurt you in any way so you have to tell me if you want me to stop of if you are feeling a lot of pain." Ran smiled at him and kissed him tenderly. He smiled brightly then frowned. "Ran I don't have lube. I'll go get something can you wait here?" His lover nodded and he grinned pulling on boxers and a shirt and rushing down the stairs and into the kitchen looking around. His mother turned to him and smiled. "Can I get you something Ken dear?" He blushed and shook his head turning quickly and smacking into Yohji. "Yotan we need to talk." He dragged his friend out of the kitchen and lowered his voice so it was a very soft whisper. "Do have any lube?" Yohji blinked at him and smiled shoving a small bottle into his hand. "Last I saw you Kenken Ran was licking you clean so why do you need lube?" He smiled and blushed looking down. "I don't but Ran's body does. I'm going to claim my koi back and I need to be gentle. Thanks Yohji." He smiled shyly and sprinted back up the stairs.

Yohji stood looking at where Ken had once been and sighed deeply. Form what Crawford told them this whole thing was far from over but he didn't have the heart to tell Ken. Once this ended Ran my never be the same none of them would. So far he was expecting three to die the thing was he didn't know who those three were. Their lives would never be the same and there was no one to blame. He leaned back against the table and stood listening to the sounds of the house. Mrs. Hidaka came from the kitchen and looked at him for a while. "What did Ken need Yohji?" He smiled knowing how much Ken's parents blamed themselves for his sudden and long departure. "What is not important, plus if your son tried to ask you for what I gave him he would have passed out on the floor." He turned to Ken's mother who was ringing a rag in her small hands looking nervous. "It's nothing bad is it?" He shook his head and draped his arm along slender shoulders smiling. "No nothing bad or dangerous just something he needed to make Ran and himself relax a little." The lady glared at him suddenly turning into an over protective mother. "It was lubricant so your son could make love to Ran." The lady seemed to deflate then sat sniffing and wiping her eyes. "My son is growing up and making love to another man meaning Ran has made love to Ken. Oh god if Ran breaks up with Ken...my poor boy." He smiled and pulled his second mother into a hug. "Don't worry Ran and Ken have been though a lot. They fight just like any one else but Ran has a horrid tendency to confess to Ken and your son has the largest capacity to forgive of anyone I know. They'll work things out and they will last forever its Shion and my sister I'm worried about. I used to worry about Ran and Ken now I know I don't need to. Don't worry Ken is like the little brother I never had so I keep and eye on him just like I do my little sister and Kai loves Ken and well you know my sister would string up anyone who hurt Ken. In fact I've seen it. The man before Kase slapped Ken once and Kai gave that man the beating of a life time." He felt the lady in his arms nod and grinned as a few very loud screams came from Ken's room and not one being from the brunet. Ken's mother snickered and He laughed.

Ken set the lube down on the nightstand and looked at his love striping quickly and climbing onto of him straddling his hips and looking over the lovely pale body. Ran still had a few fading bruises but they were marks showing things were healing. He slowly kissed sweet lips and sighed happily nibbling along his lover's jaw. "So haw do you want to do this Ran?" He asked softly and Ran looked at him blankly. "With you." He smiled and chuckled softly kissing his lover deeply. "Tell me if it hurts in any way." His lover nodded and he thought for a few seconds then smiled softly grabbing some massage oil from his nightstand. "Roll over koi." Ran blinked at him but did as he was told and he poured some of the sweet smelling oil onto Ran's back. He massaged Ran's back slowly and released a few knots and smiled kissing down Ran's spine humming softly. "Ken what are you doing?" He grinned and nipped at a tender ear. "Relaxing you. I want this to be good for you Ran not painful. I love you baby and I want to show you that." Ran looked up at him and rolled over kissing him deeply. "You have Ken and you continue to each and every day with everything you do. Make love to me kitten." He smiled tenderly and nodded.

Ran waited and Ken slowly lifted one of his legs slipping a slick finger into his entrance. He flinched and held his breath letting the pain go away Ken staying perfectly still inside of him but gently rubbing his leg. "It's ok baby it's only me. I'm here baby." He felt Ken kiss his leg and he grabbed onto the free hand holding it tightly. "Do you want me to go on?" He nodded once and Ken slowly started to move the single finger inside him rubbing his inner-walls and kissing his leg and chest then lips. He stayed there for a while totally relaxed not feeling any pain when the second finger was slipped inside of him and stilled. He shifted a bit because it was slightly uncomfortable but not painful and sighed as the two fingers started to move stretching him slowly while he was showered with Ken's kisses. He flinched a bit as the third finger was added then relaxed pulling Ken closer. "Ken just make love to me already." His lover nodded and he watched as Ken tenderly stroked himself till he was dripping with lube then slowly crawled over him kissing him deeply while slowly sinking into him. It always hurt a bit when Ken made love to him but this was down right painful. He whimpered and Ken paused and he wrapped his legs around his love and pulled him down sighing happily. Ken was still for a long while and peppered kisses over his face and neck then kissed his lips deeply as he slowly started to move. Ken hit his magic spot and he cried out in pleasure screaming Ken's name and holding him more tightly.

Ken bit his lip as he slowly thrust into his love making Ran cry and toss his head in pleasure begging him to go faster. He remembered the night he was raped and Ran made love to him slowly kissing him the whole time. He locked his lips onto his lover's kissing him deeply. He felt Ran pull away and scream his name clamping down tightly on him. He came quickly and smiled softly kissing Ran's face allover and slowly pulling out settling on top of his koi. "Anything I can do for you my sweet princess?" Ran glared at him then chuckled softly nuzzling his ear. "Go run my fucking bath." He snickered but didn't move except for to kiss his love.

Ran woke up some time in the middle of the night shuddering and sweating. Ken was still there curled into his side and mumbling happily about something. He sighed and settled feeling Ken snuggle into him. He looked at his lover in longing and sighed rolling over so as not to look at the sweet face. For a moment after Ken made love to him he could feel the connection again but now there was nothing. He held the cross on his chest and felt a few sobs break through. Soft hands fluttered over his sides and soft kisses were pressed to his back. "What's wrong baby?" He couldn't look at Ken he couldn't face his lover and tell him they no longer had a connection. He would have to make it easier on his sweet love the light of his life. "Ken I don't love you any more." Ken moved like liquid lightning pinning him to the bed and glaring down at him. "It's bad to lie to me Ran. I've been lied to, beaten, abused mentally and physically by every one else I have ever dated. Up till now you have been totally honest with me so don't start lying now." He nodded and swallowed hard closing his eyes. "I don't have a link or connection to you Ken." There was a soft chuckle and he looked up into Ken's loving face. Ken touched the ring to the cross and he shuddered in pleasure. "Silly koi we still have our connection and our link you just can't feel it because Hiroshi is getting in the way. Close your eyes, relax and reach for me not physically but mentally you'll find me koi." He did as was told and tried reaching for Ken's warmth his light but darkness swirled around him and only the tiniest pinprick of light could be seen.

Ken sat and watched his lover for a while then closed his eyes and started reaching for Ran helping him fight the darkness. It wasn't Hiroshi that was causing the darkness in Ran's mind but Ran himself and that's why his lover needed to think it was something else so he wouldn't get lost in his own depression. He linked onto Ran and started feeding him his happiest memories with his lover and some of his own darker times more or less to prove to his lover that there was no need to fear he would always be loved. He felt Ran try and pull back but held on more tightly and felt Ran's mind settle and relax letting the memories wash over him. He opened his eyes and looked at his lover who was blissful. Violet eyes opened and he grinned feeling Ran's link pulse through him. "See baby I told you." His lover smiled and kissed him deeply snuggling into him and sighing happily. "Thank you kitten." He nodded and kissed Ran's head softly. "It's been fading for a while Ran on your end at least even before Hiroshi came. You've been having doubts about us haven't you?" His lover nodded silently and sighed.

Ran sat for a while snuggled into Ken. He had never really had doubts about them together or about Ken being faithful or Ken's love it was self-doubt he was facing. He knew he loved Ken but he didn't know if it was enough. What he felt he lacked he made up for in sex or clinging to his lover for dear life afraid that if Ken was away from him for too long or if he didn't get enough pleasure from him he would see that he really wasn't worth having. "Koi talk to me, tell me what's going on." He sighed and snuggled into his lover burying his face in a warm chest. "I doubt myself Ken. I don't know why but I do." He felt Ken sigh and pull him closer. "Ran when I first met you, you were the most confident man alive. You took one look at me and said to yourself I want him and you got him baby. So what is really going on? Over the past few months you have been clingy and totally sex crazed no you've been like that ever since the whole thing with Takatori ended. I love you Ran but you need to tell me what is going on in that head of yours." He bit his lip and held onto his lover tightly. "I'm afraid I'm not good enough and that one day you'll realize it and leave me. I love you so much Ken and I'm afraid that it won't be enough so I try and please you more and keep you with me more because I'm afraid. You are so sweet and wonderful and forgiving and after the whole Takatori thing I was afraid you wouldn't need me." Ken pulled him close and kissed him softly. "Ran if I needed you it wouldn't be good for the either of us. I want but I don't need you, I need to be with you because I love you but I don't need to need you to love you or stay with you. You don't need me and you still love me and care for me. We don't have to need each other Ran we just have to want to be with one another." He nodded finding great wisdom in Ken's words but he couldn't always help it he was paranoid.

Ken lifted Ran's chin and looked into beautiful violet eyes and smiled softly pulling Ran close. "I love you Ran. I love you with all my heart and soul and you just need to relax and trust in me and the love I have for you or you are going to lose your mind and personally I'll love you even if you are stark raving mad. Now I'm in this for the long haul. I love you baby I'm your little kitten so I wont leave my master." He nuzzled Ran who chuckled and sighed happily. "I love you too Ken kitten. I do trust you Ken and I know you love me." He felt Ran yawn and stretch a bit. "As for now kitten I think it's nap time." He nodded his agreement and snuggled into Ran so they were curled up like happy little kittens. He smiled and sighed happily drifting off into happy dreamland.

Ran woke and Ken was curled around him. Some days he really wondered how Ken could get his knee to his nose while the other leg was wrapped around the both of his. He grinned and fluttered kisses over the knee that was litterly touching his chin. Ken groaned and the long leg wrapped around his shoulder stretching out slightly so all he saw was a long expanse of finely toned tan thigh. He rose and eyebrow and looked into the sweetly sleeping face next to his own and grinned grabbing Ken's leg and slowly licking the heated skin. His lover squeaked and jerked his leg down and bounced up looking around then glaring at him. "I hate you." He grinned and pulled his lover back down inhaling Ken's intoxicating scent. "I let you sleep when I wake up before you." He smiled at his now pouting lover and kissed him softly. "Yes but kitten you do not wake up with me fully pressed into your side while one of my legs is touching your chin." His lover pouted and rolled over so all he saw was soft silky hair and an expanse of back. Ken was beautiful and he was realizing that even more now. "Not my fault I'm flexible and happen to sleep in odd positions." He chuckled and kissed the nape of his lover's neck softly and snuggled into him. "No it's not but it was very odd to wake up with your face and your knee even with my head." He felt Ken chuckle then roll over and snuggle into him. "Feeling better today Ran?" He nodded realizing he felt like his old self again.

Ken snuggled into Ran and sighed happily feeling like he had his old lover back again. He smirked slightly and sighed. "Ran I'm sorry to tell you this but until you get rid of Hiroshi I'm going to go to Ireland with Kai." His lover was silent and he tried not to hold his breath. "Funny Ken." Quick as lightning he was being tickled then kissed passionately. He grinned up at his lover who was smiling softly and gently petting his head. "I love you kitten." He smiled and kissed Ran softly feeling safe and warm. "I love you too koi and I'm glad you are back to your old confident self. I kind of like you cocky." His lover chuckled and kissed him deeply pinning him to the bed.