True Feelings

Hi there, this is the chapter that picks up where Tatsumi wakes up after his scene with Watari. Umm... this chapter is manly Watari\'s and umm... yeah see you at the bottom.

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Tatsumi woke up first looking at the clock. It was almost time for work; he got a quick shower then walked back to his room. He saw that Watari was still asleep, then the dread hit him. He, Seiichirou Tatsumi, had just slept with another man. It wasn’t just any man, it was his colleague.

He loved the blonde with all his heart but he regretted sleeping with him. It wasn’t really the fact that he slept with the man he loved but the reason behind it. He let the golden eyed man continue to sleep as he teleported to his office.


He was filing papers when Watari walked in. There was an awkward silence between the two as they just stared at each other. “ W..Watari what are... what do you need?”, the secretary said.

“ I wanted to.... never mind.”, he said and turned around walking out to leave.

“ Taka, I ... I need to speak with you later during break ok?”, the blue eyed man said needing to tell the blonde of his deceit.

“ Sure”, the scientist said in a monotone voice, “ If you need me anytime today I will be filling in for the doctor in the clinic.”

Tatsumi watched as the shinigami walked out of the room. He sat down in his chair hoping that this meeting would never come.


Watari walked out of the room heading towards the clinic slowly, knowing perfectly well what the secretary wanted to talk to him about. He sighed and pushed those thoughts out of his mind and entered the clinic.

003 flew in meeting him, “ Hey sweetie, did you have a nice time over bon’s?” The tiny owl flew on his shoulder and
gave a hooting happily. “ That’s good”, he said stroking his finger along the bird’s chest.

“ Ready to help me start finding something that could be used in my potions?”, he said cheerfully. The bird hooted with uncertainty towards her master’s request. “ What do you mean? Of course we will find something to use. Now lets get searching.”


Tatsumi walked to the office that Hisoka work at and saw him sitting there, he didn’t look good. He noticed the empath’s eyes as he got closer to where the boy was sitting.

“ Kurosaki, what’s wrong? Why are there bags under your eyes?” The empath looked up slowly not saying anything, it looked as if he hadn’t slept at all that night. “ Go and see Watari about this. He is in the clinic grabbing gods know what.”, the secretary said.

“ Yes, Mr. Tatsumi”, Hisoka said, his voice was dead of emotions. The kid didn’t move at all, he just sat there still.

“ Now, Kurosaki”, the secretary demanded, only worried about the boy. He watched the young empath walk slowly from the room heading off to the clinical area.

“ No that’s not it.”, the blonde said placing some of the jars on the counter. 003 rested on his shoulder; she had flown in to work ahead of Hisoka to find her master. The tiny owl gave a hoot as the boy walked in the room. Watari turned around and saw the kid looking down at the ground leaning against the door frame.

“ What’s the matter, bon? Did something happen?”, he said walking away from the cabinet towards the shinigami. Hisoka looked up, a tear rolling down his face, “ It’s nothing, I was told to come see you anyway.”, he said quietly.

“ Look, you can’t tell me it’s nothing. I might not be an empath but I can tell when something is wrong.”, the scientist said seriously, his face no longer showing his cheerful side.

“ I had a nightmare, it was about Tsuzuki.”, the empath said clutching his stomach. He fell to his knees and vomited on the floor.

Watari stood there watching the boy; there was nothing he could really do for the kid. When he saw that Hisoka was done he helped the boy up, “ Go home, bon. We can handle everything here, just go home and get some rest.”

Hisoka nodded and vanished out of the room to his apartment. Poor kid, this doesn’t seem to be any good for him. I’ll have to find someone to watch him in the mean time.

The golden eyed man walked over to the phone and dialed a number, “ Hi, this is Watari”, he said to the person on the other line.

“ Look can you do me a favor?”

“Great, I need you to take care of Hisoka for a bit do you mind?”

“ Glad to hear you are so happy, can you come by later today and pick him up?”

“ I’ll be waiting outside, I need to talk to you before you take him. Thanks so much, see you later.”, he said hanging up the phone. The blonde turned towards his companion, “ Well, looks like Hisoka is taken care of, now all we need to do is watch after Tatsumi.” The blonde scientist continued to search the cabinets keeping his mind off his soon-to-be encounter with his lover.


Tatsumi walked outside and sat in chair seated by a table under the cheery blossom. Tea was already placed out on the tables wait for their occupants to drink from there glass. He sat down and rested his head back and closed his eyes shielding them from the bright sun. The blue eyed man felt horrible inside for what he was about to do.

Footsteps were heard coming closer to him then the sound of a chair being pulled across the grass. The blades of grass began to snap in half as they got entangled in the legs of the chair. The brown haired man lifted his head up and looked at the person occupying the chair.

“ Taka, I ... there is something in need to tell you.”, the older shinigami said. Watari was just looking at him; a serious look played across his face, not speaking a word. 003 was not on her master’s shoulder as usual, playing with his hair or anything of that nature. She was nowhere to be found, and the secretary hoped it would stay that way.

“ I need to talk to you about last night... Wh... what I did was wrong. I took advantage of you...”, the azure eyed man said as tears stared the flow slowly down his face. He had hurt the man he loved in the worst way possible.

Watari just sat there unmoved; he felt as if it was his fault for what happened yesterday. All this pain filled his body was it would have made the situation worse if he showed his lover the pain through he emotions.

The secretary continued keeping his voice steady, “ I lied to you and I can’t hurt you. I want... I don’t think we should be together anymore.”, more tears flowed from his eyes. He felt as if someone had punched him in his stomach over and over a few times.

“ Seii... I knew that you were doing it.”, the blonde man said looking down at his cup of tea. There was a slight breeze that picked up some of the trees petals blowing them past both the shinigami’s faces. A petal landed in Watari tea cup floating there until the tea had taken over and sunk it to the bottom of his cup.

“ I don’t... think we should see... each other anymore.”, Tatsumi’s voice said this time cracking up mixing along with the tears flowing down from his face. The younger shinigami stood up reaching out to touch the other man when Tatsumi backed away some.

“ Seii, please I....”, he began then was cut off by the secretary’s voice.

“ Damn it Yutaka, I love you but I don’t want to hurt you anymore!”, the brown haired shinigami yelled turning his back on his lover and teleported away from him. Watari sank down in his chair letting the wind blow his untied hair over the front of his face. He walked back to the clinic upset about what had just conspired but he couldn’t let that affect him at work.


Tatsumi had teleported to work and grabbed the files he needed to work on then to his apartment. The last thing he wanted was to see Watari again that same day. He sat down opening up the files trying to read what was written on them but was unable to read what they said. The tears had stopped falling from his eyes but still clouded his vision.

He hated himself for putting his lover into this position. He just sat there in his kitchen and trying to work on the reports hoping that the blonde wouldn’t show up at his house.


After work had finished, Watari walked outside to meet who he had spoken with on the phone. He saw them in a distance and ran over to meet them. 003 had flown ahead of him circling around the shinigami.

“ Hey, ladies. Thanks for coming on such short notice.”, he said to the girls cheerfully.

“ We would do anything for Hisoka. Oh, guess what?!”, the first girl said overly excited. “ We bought Hisoka a new dress! It is so cute, isn’t it Saya.”, said the light blue eyed girl. Her hair was about shoulder length and she wore the same clothes as her close friend.

“ It is so cute. I saw it before Yuma in a catalog and we just had to get it.”, said the green eyed girl. Her hair was tied back in a braid instead of the pigtails she usually wore.

“ I need to talk to you girls before I gave bon over to you.”, the blonde said turning seriously. He told the girls what had happened over the past couple of days; about what had happened to Hisoka in earlier that day. They stood there taking all of this in not interrupting the scientist as he spoke.

“ And one last thing, please tell no one of this. We are trying to find Tsuzuki as it is and don’t want everyone else to panic. The only ones that know of this are Tatsumi, Hisoka and myself. So you would he us greatly by not speaking a word of this to anyone else. Do you promise?”, he said speaking in a very low voice incase anyone else was around.

“ Sure we promise. We wont tell a soul, I swear.”, Yuma said; there was no cheer left in her voice. “ We will take Hisoka off your hands and make sure he eats and is ok, the whole deal.”

“ Thanks girls, this really means a lot to me.”


Watari walked the girls over to the empath’s house only to find that he was sleeping peacefully on the couch. He didn’t stir until the golden eyed shinigami said his name when talking. The scientist watched as the boy shot up from bed with a terrified look on his face.

“ It’s ok bon, it’s just me. Relax everything is fine.”, the blonde man said soothingly to the young shinigami. The girls remained quiet looking at Hisoka with concern on their faces. “ I want you to go with the girls and sat with them for awhile. Don’t worry about work or anything just focus on getting yourself in better shape, ok kid-o?”

Hisoka just stared at him dumbstruck then his gazed was on the girls. They smiled at him, “ Come on Hisoka your coming with us. Oh, and don’t worry about clothes... we have plenty for you to wear.”, said Yuma brightly.

The young empath looked back at the scientist hoping to get out of going but seeing no way out, he sighed and walked towards them. The girls grabbed his arms and winked at the blonde man before teleporting to there house.


Now that bon is completely out of the way the only thing left for me to do is help Tatsumi, the young shinigami thought. He really wanted to talk to the blue eyed man but he made it clear that he didn’t want the blonde around him anymore. The way Watari was taught when he was a kid was that life was rough and sometimes you had to take a stand.

003 hooted on his shoulder as she had remain silent throughout the night as Watari was talking to Saya and Yuma. “ 003, I want you to go home and watch the rest of the birds for me ok? Make sure they all stay out of trouble.”

The tiny owl hooted and flew off out a window that the boy left open. The scientist took a deep breath and let it out slowly, nervous of what was to come.


Watari had teleported into the secretary’s apartment and took his shoes off at the door. He found papers all other the kitchen table; walking over to them and saw that none of them were finished. The blonde walked out to the living room and found no sign of his lover. He turned and walked to the bedroom finding Tatsumi was fast asleep.

He shrugged of his lab coat and laid down next to the secretary resting his arms over the older man’s chest and fell asleep.

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Well hope you liked it. The next chapter will pick back up to where Tsuzuki and Muraki were left off. I might write the next few chapters with only them.

I warn you now, the plot from here on out with get very confusing for some and there will be lots of twists in the story. Again if there is anything you don\'t understand Please write it in a review.

Please Review if you want to see some Mur/Tsu and possible Tsu/Mur in the next chapter ^_^ It makes me happy to know that there are people still reading this T-T Anyway \'till next time.