True Feelings

Hi. Hope you enjoy this chapter. I hope I didn\'t offend anyone with my last A/N chapter. Anyway here is this chapter for you, all my faithful readers. Please Review! ^_^

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Warning: This chapter contains a lemon, if you don\'t like it don\'t read.
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Muraki woke up and watched his lover sleep peacefully. He reached his hand over and brushed Tsuzuki’s bangs out of his eyes. The shinigami knocked his hand away in his sleep and turned over. Muraki smiled, \'even in his sleep he still refuses my touch.\' The platinum blonde reached over pulling his lover back towards him.

“ Asato, wake up.”, the doctor said shaking the guardian lightly. “ Get up.”

Tsuzuki just rolled over again, “ Five more min........”, he said without finishing the sentence. Muraki was getting a little agitated but amused still by the way the younger man was acting. He shook Tsuzuki a little harder this time and got the shinigami up.

The purple eyed man opened his eyes slowly and sat up, “ What time is it?”, he said in a groggy voice. The silver eyed man just smiled at his lover, “ I doesn’t matter what time it is. Did you have a good sleep?”

Tsuzuki jumped not expecting anyone to answer his question. He turned to see the doctor smiling back at him. His face flushed from anger as he remembered hearing the doctor’s voice in his head. “ I heard you say my first name in my sleep!”, he said; his voice filled with hate.

“ So I did”, he replied calmly.

“ You have no right calling me by my first name, Muraki!”

“ Why? Are we not on a personal level? We are lovers after all, aren’t we?”

“ Yeah, but...”

“ But nothing, you even loved it last night. You showed me how much you did physically and vocally.”, he said leaning close to the man.

He kissed his lover on the lips gently; this time not having the shinigami fight back. Muraki reached for the brown haired man’s wrists holding them above his head. The doctor moved his mouth down bit by bit kissing the exposed flesh.

The platinum blonde moved his leg to the other side of the guardian, straddling his hips. Tsuzuki groaned as he felt the weight of the older man’s body on his own. Muraki bit down on his lover’s throat lightly and licked at the wound exciting a moan out of Tsuzuki.

The shinigami’s member started to swell and the silver eyed man’s ministrations. The older man grabbed the guardian’s wrists holding them above his head with one hand and using the other to run his fingertips down Tsuzuki’s chest.

Tsuzuki felt a light pain in his stomach then it growled lightly. The doctor leaned up and looked at his guardian with a slight smile on his face. The brown haired man blushed madly with embarrassment. Muraki just laughed lightly and got off of his lover.

“ I’ll make you something to eat then.”, he said as he walked to the closet to get some clothes. He was naked still from the night before, not bothering to cover himself as he walked to the closet. Tsuzuki blushed as he watched Muraki, unable to take his eyes off the doctor’s backside.

Muraki walked into his closet and picked out two thin silky yukatas for himself and his love. He walked back out and tossed the amethyst eyed man a deep purple one. He looked back up at the doctor; his eyebrows raised.

“ What? Did you think that all I owned were tuxedos? I have other things to wear when I am at home. There is not much reason to wear such fancy clothes when I am here all alone.”, he said and put on his silver yukata not caring if Tsuzuki was still watching him. He walked out of the room to cook the shinigami something to eat for breakfast.

The brown haired man watched as the doctor put on his clothes and waited until he walked out of the room, to start putting on his own clothes. He walked out to the kitchen and saw that Muraki was watching him out of the corner of his eye.

“ I knew you were taller then me but I didn’t think you were that much.”, he said lifting up his arms showing how baggy the yukata was on him. He turned doing a three-sixty to show how low it hung too. Muraki smiled and turned to his cooking once again; he was cooking pancakes with eggs on the side.


He sat down next to Tsuzuki placing the plate of food in front of them. They ate in silence and then Muraki got up, taking the plate to the kitchen.

“ Umm... Muraki, do you mind if I... Can I go outside for a bit?”, the shinigami asked shyly. “ I have been inside for two days, I haven’t been able to see anything except just out the window.”

“ Why? It is the same as looking out the widow besides if I let you out then you will leave.”

“ No... I won’t. I have nowhere to go. Nobody cares for me back home, they abandoned me so there is no point to leave.”

“ Why would you say something like that? I thought you trusted the other especially that dark haired secretary.”

“ I know they don’t care, if they did I wouldn’t still be here.”

“ What makes you so sure they gave up looking for you?”

“ Because... your still alive.”

“ ....”

“ Can I just go outside for a bit. I won’t leave, I promise.”

“ How do I know your just saying that, you could be lying to me.”

“ Please, I mean it, I wont run away.”, Tsuzuki said; his eyes showing his seriousness. In reality he hadn’t thought of
leaving just wanting to go outside.

“ Very well, I guess you can go out.”

Muraki walked with the guardian to the porch which was on the opposite side from the room that held the dolls. He slid open the door and walked out. Tsuzuki stood behind him not walking past the door. He wasn’t sure if something was going to happen to him if crossed the barrier. The possibilities were endless as to what it would do if he tried to cross it if Muraki still had it up.

The doctor turned around and noticed that the shinigami was still in the house. “ Well, what are you waiting for? You wanted to see the outside so what is the problem?”, the doctor said.

“ Well, umm... Can I walk outside?”

“ Of course, isn’t that why we are here in the first place.”

“ What about the barriers? Are they down?”

“ Yes, so it is safe to come out here.”; Tsuzuki stood his ground not from his spot, “ Well what seems to be the problem now?”

The guardian hesitated a second longer then walked outside slowly. He looked around at his surroundings and his eyes lite up. There were many different breeds flower surrounding the outside of the house. There was a great big sakura tree in the middle of the yard.

“ Wow, See it’s much better to see it for real then inside through windows.”, he said as he walked towards the tree. He looked up into it shielding his eyes with hand as the sun rays leaked down through the tree’s branches. The ground was littered with petals that had fallen off the tree.

Muraki watched in fascination as Tsuzuki walked around kneeling closely to the flowers. The shinigami seemed at peace looking at the flowers. He turned around to see that Muraki was standing the same spot, “ They’re beautiful. I never pictured you to have these types of flowers, I just pictured roses everywhere.”

The silver eyed man walked inside leaving Tsuzuki. He walked his room and slipped two things into his pocket. Then went into the den area and sat down in the chair knowing that the shinigami would soon follow.

Sure enough Tsuzuki walked in and sat down on the floor looking up at the doctor. The platinum blonde had his eyes closed sitting there waiting for the younger man.

“ Is anything wrong?”

“ ...”

“ Don’t start this again, Muraki.”

“ ...”

“ Fine, you can stay like that then.”, the purple eyed man said. He got up and walked to the bedroom to grab his clothes. He stopped in the door way not remembering where they went. He remembered taking them off but he didn’t see them in the bathroom when he woke up.

Lost in thought of where his clothes were he failed to hear the footsteps that approached from behind. A pair of arms wrapped around his shoulders and a chin rested on his shoulder.

“ What are you looking for?”

“ My clothes, what else?”

“ Why? You look some much better without any on.”, Muraki said as he reached his hands down and undid the
shinigami’s yukata. He moved his hands under Tsuzuki’s robe a grasped his cock. The purple eyed man hissed as he felt the cold hand around his member.

Ever so slowly did Muraki stroke the younger man to hardness. Tsuzuki couldn’t help but moan as he felt the doctor touch him passionately once again. Sweat broke out all over the shinigami’s body as Muraki continued. The doctor nibbled on the corner of the guardian’s ear making him moan louder.

“ I love you so much, Tsuzuki.”

“ ... stop... lying...”, said the shinigami between pants. \' Damn him, How can he always make me feel this way?\'

Muraki stroked him knowing full well the other man couldn’t resist him. Tsuzuki’s cock swelled in the doctor’s hand and soon became really painful. The platinum blonde’s hand movements became faster wanting to bring the guardian over.

Tsuzuki felt his cock twitch then he came over in Muraki’s hand silently. Satisfied with his lover, Muraki lifted up Tsuzuki to the bed. The amethyst eyed man was unable to move after he reached his climax and laid there shivering. A smile spread across the doctor face as he climbed onto the bed and sat between the shinigami’s legs.

“ Now to finish what we started earlier.”, Muraki said as he reached into his pocket. He pulled out both objects and placed one on the bedside table. He held the same ribbon as the night before and tied Tsuzuki’s hands once again to the headboard.

Muraki untied his robes and deposed of them on the ground. Muraki ran his hands up and down the shinigami’s thighs making him become erect once again. Tsuzuki tried to keep his breathing under control as he felt warm hands move up and down his legs. He grabbed the object that he placed on the table and unscrewed the cap. Again Tsuzuki noticed that the silver eyed man started to pour it on his hands, oiling his fingers and started to struggle with his hands.

“ Oh come now Tsuzuki, we are past the first time so you can stop struggling. Though you can continue if you want, either was is fine for me.”, he said adding a smirk at the end. He raised up one of the brown haired man’s legs and placed it on his shoulder, doing the same with the other.

Not wasting anytime, Muraki slid one finger into Tsuzuki’s opening. He felt around inside his lover and without warning he slide a second finger in. Tsuzuki gasped as he felt the doctor’s fingers enter him, sliding in and out of him slowly.

Muraki felt around for the shinigami’s prostate knowing Tsuzuki would love it. The guardian of death arched his back as he felt the doctor brush his fingers over a bundle of nerves. The feeling made his penis swell up and brought pain to him. After a few strokes of his prostate the purple eyed man came again.

Tsuzuki was left there unable to move as Muraki inserted his last finger. Slowly and skillfully the older man stretched his lover until he felt he could take him. Muraki removed his fingers and poured more lube in his hand. He carefully moved his hand against his cock not wanting to bring to much self-inflicted pleasure. He put the head of his penis at Tsuzuki’s opening and
slowly slid inside.

He held still before moving not wanting to hurt his lover. He felt that Tsuzuki was ready and slowly slid in and out of the shinigami’s body. The purple eyed man panted as he felt Muraki move inside of him and grabbed the headboard for support.

Everything seemed to melt away from his mind and he focused on the feeling. He pushed against the headboard in time with the doctor thrusts. The doctor undid Tsuzki’s hands so he could join in. Each time Muraki slid back inside the shinigami’s body he was rewarded with hearing Tsuzuki’s moans of pleasure and his name said over and over.

Muraki was reaching his climax fast as the friction was building from his thrusts. He bit down on Tsuzuki’s should as he spilled his seed inside of his lover. He collapsed on top of Tsuzuki panting hard and unable to move.

Tsuzuki moved back, sliding Muraki out of him. He turned the doctor over to his back and looked down at him. This is the first time he had ever seen the silver eyed man so vulnerable. The brown haired man grabbed the bottle on the night stand and poured some on his hand. He grabbed Muraki’s cock and slowly started to pump him.

He wanted to let the platinum blonde to feel the way he had. Muraki was unable to move to get away from his lover.

“ Don’t... please”, the silver eyed man said trying to catch his breath. Tsuzuki continued giving Muraki a hand job as the doctor was starting to be able to move again.

“ Nooo... stop... don’t do this to me”, he begged as the shinigami’s hand moved faster. Muraki’s mechanical eye started to glow red and he yelled at Tsuzuki.

“ STOP SAKI!”

The doctor’s whole world went black as he climaxed in Tsuzuki’s hands.

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Well, I hope you liked this chapter because the next is all about Muraki\'s past. Make\'s you wonder how I\'m going to write it out and why he said that, but I think all of you can guess that by now. Anyway, I hope to update faster for you guys later. \'Till next time

PS- I had a really bad headache when writing the lemon so if you don\'t like it, it wasn\'t all my fault