True Feelings

Hey, so sorry for the late update. Just being honest here but I was too lazy to type it up and another reason was I had exams. I studied for my math but still made a bad grade on my test. T-T But the good news is I still passed my class.

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Tsuzuki loomed over his lover crying. He was trying to shake Muraki awake. “ Please Muraki, don’t do this to me. I said I was sorry.”, he said continuing to cry. \' Everyone around me always gets hurt, it’s all my fault for everything.\'

The doctor opened his eyes slowly and sat up. Tsuzuki laughed and hugged his lover reassured that he was ok. Muraki just sat there and looked at the shinigami, “ What time is it?”

The amethyst eyed man shrugged his shoulders, “ You were out for at least thirty minutes. Are you ok? You kept mumbling the name Saki and it looked as if you were in pain?”

The silver eyed man got up from the bed and put on his robe without saying a word. He walked out to the porch after gabbing some cigarettes and his lighter, and sat on the porch like he always did. He leaned against the pillar outside and closed his eyes. The doctor often smoked when something was troubling him.

Before now, he never thought twice about that memory. He was too preoccupied with bringing his half-brother back to focus on anything else.

Tsuzuki put on his robe to go and join the older man. He walked out to the porch and stood in the doorway. He had not seen a clock anywhere in the house but the sun was still bright as ever. It must have been some time in the afternoon.

“ Don’t worry it’s safe.”, Muraki said not looking at his guardian. The purple eyed shinigami walked out and sat down facing Muraki.

“ Muraki... Are you really ok?”

“ Back in Kyoto when I was trying to bring him back it didn’t work.”

“ Him?”

“ Saki.”

“ Who’s Saki?”

“ The boy I tried to bring back to life with your body. My half brother, my parents’ murderer!”, finished with venom in his voice. The doctor inhaled some of the smoke from his cigarette and put it out on the edge of the porch. He let the smoke flow out of his mouth slowly and then continued to talk.

“ His body was no more but his head remained in my possession.”

“ Muraki... I...”

“ But something wasn’t right.”, the silver eyed man said cutting off the guardian as if he never spoke a word. “ I should have seen it before. Ever since that day in Kyoto I always looked back wondering. Now I realize that even if I did attach his head to your body, he would never have come alive.”

The doctor put a hand on his head and started to laugh. Tsuzuki sat still; caught off guard by the sudden outburst.

“ How foolish I have been. I was to focused on retrieving you that I didn’t even notice.”

“ Never noticed what?”, the dark haired man asked, not sure if he really wanted to know the answer or not.

“ Tell me, do you know how I got my eye?”, he said moving his hair away to reveal it. The sun reflected off his eye and shown brightly. The shinigami shook his head; as many times as he had seen it he never questioned why Muraki owned it.

“ My,my. I figured that you would have known already. You must not only have the files of the crimes that I have committed but files on my past as well.” Muraki sighed, closing his eyes as he remembered what happened.

“ That bastard killed my parents.”, he said calmly, not opening his eyes. “ He raped me, made me how I am now.”

Tsuzuki’s eyes widened as he heard the doctor speak of his past.

“ Then as if he wasn’t satisfied enough, he tried to kill me. His attempt was flawed but before he died, gave me this eye.”, the silver eyed man said paying no look to his beloved. He felt relieved to tell someone what happened. The only other person he told was his best friend Oriya; but that was different.

“ My hatred drew me to such horrid levels. I should have sensed it; his soul was no longer attached to his head.”, Muraki spoke again.

“ What?! How do you know this?”

Muraki smirked, “ You seem just as interested in this as I am. While I was lying there unconscious, I had viewed my past once again.

“ The last I saw it was in a nightmares in my youth. They had ceased to be when I became a doctor. The last thing a doctor needs is to be distracted in the line of work. Seeing it vividly as I did raised a question; If Saki’s soul was no longer in his body then where is it? Then seeing his face once again reminded me of something or should I say someone.

“ Even if his personality is flawed his physical appearance was perfect. Saki was reincarnated.

“ You haven’t even noticed have you? All these years he has been under our noses.”, Muraki finished with a sadistic smile on his face.

“ What do you mean under ‘our’ noses? I don’t know what your brother looks like so there is no way I know who he is.”, Tsuzuki said convinced that his logic was right on the matter.

“ Oh, but you do. Most believe that if a person is reincarnated they lose all memory of their past lives. I think that they remember it but they keep those memories trapped in the back of their mind. They just need a little push to remember who they really are.

“ You know who Saki is but you are refusing to believe he exists. But no matter, sooner or later you’ll see it.”

Muraki stood up and walked inside, “ There is something in the fridge that I think you will like, if you are hungry.”

“ Huh? Wait where are you going? You just can’t just leave me here by myself again.”, the dark haired man said chasing after Muraki.

“ You did fine by yourself before.”, the doctor said as he walked to the bedroom to get dressed.

“ Where are you going? Can I go too?”, Tsuzuki asked hoping the answer would be yes.

“ No”

The shinigami’s face fell; “ Why not? Please, please can I go? I promise I wont leave your side I just want to go somewhere else. It’s already been three days, four if you count today. I just want to go someplace then your backyard and in this house.”

“ Well maybe next time but not now.”, Muraki said pushing aside everything his lover said as if it meant nothing.

“ Please?”, Tsuzuki said giving the doctor a teary eyed look.

“ No, I stand by my word. You can’t leave this house until then.”, Muraki said finishing his ties as he pushed by Tsuzuki.

Grabbing his coat he turned to the guardian, “ I will be back home later with some things for you.”, and with that he walked out the door.

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Another chapter finished. ^_^ Well, if anyone has any ideas or anything suggestions for upcoming things, write it in the reviews.

Oh! And one more thing, Who do you think is Saki\'s reincarnate? Write it in your review; cookies to those of you who gets it right.