She don't have to know

Pairing- Haru and Ayame

Summary: Haru loves Ayame but he is engaged to Rin. Hatori and Ayame have been going steady and having problems for awhile. But when Hatori goes out town with Akito, Ayame has an affair with Haru. What will happen to the secret lovers when Ayame realizes he loves Haru too.? Extreme YAOI….Read at your own risk


Disclaimer: I do not own any of these characters. They belong to Natsuki Takaya. I also do not own the lyrics to “She don’t have to know.” They belong to John Legend.



Chapter Two: Outsider

“What do you mean you are going out of town?!” Ayame yelled.

“Akito has to go out of town to handle some financial documents with the Sohma Estate. I have to go to make sure that Akito’s health is somewhat stable during the trip. It was totally unexpected. I am sorry but we are going to have to cancel our trip.” Hatori said calmly packing his suitcase.

“This is such bullshit! You know we have been planning this trip forever to the hot springs. You haven’t touch me in two fucking months! It is always Akito over me. I wish that he would just die already.” Ayame walked over to Hatori and pushed the dragon’s suitcase on the floor. “You are not going. I refuse to let you go. You have to say no to him.” Hatori looked at Ayame in shock. He didn’t have time to hear the snake bitch and moaned. He knew this argument was going to be bad because Ayame cussed at him and he never cussed unless he was pissed.

“You care more about him than me, don’t you?! You would think that with everything he has done to you, you would stop doing what he says. I am not important anymore to you. I always have to deal with you and your self pity. I love you but you have to learn that this relationship isn’t just about you!”

Hatori was being to get frustrated and punched the wall closest to him. It hurt like hell but he didn‘t care. “That is it! I am sick of this shit. You are always on my case about something. How can you say I don’t love you. I put up with your self-centered bullshit. You are never happy. What more do you want from me?!” Hatori grabbed Ayame by his wrists tightly causing the snake to wince.

“I won’t you to stop comparing me to Kana. She is not with you. I am with you. Since you won’t fuck me anymore why don’t you go fuck her or Akito! Especially…” Before Ayame could get anything else out Hatori punched the side of his face. Sending him into the wall next to the bed. He hit the wall so hard he almost blacked out from the pain. His body slid down the wall in pain. Ayame could taste his blood full his mouth. He felt like someone hit him with a brick. Ayame just looked at Hatori stunned. He tried to get up using the dresser next to the wall but knocked down his lamp in the process. Hatori looked back at Ayame with pure hatred in his eyes. The snake was actually scared for once of the dragon. He never had raised his hand to him. Ayame tried to get up again when Hatori came towards him. Hatori pulled tightly on the snake’s hair. Ayame struggle to get free. Hatori pulled his hair tighter and dragged Ayame to the middle of the room. He let go of the snake’s hair.

“Don’t you dare talk about her that way. I will fucking kill you!” Hatori sat of top of Ayame, straddling his hips. He grabbed Ayame by his neck tightly causing the snake to fear for his life.. Ayame couldn’t believe that Hatori was choking him. He began to squeeze. Ayame was grasping for air. “After everything we went through and this is how you repay me. You treat me as if I am nothing to you!” Hatori yelled while shaking the snake. He couldn’t help this anger he felt towards Ayame.

“P..Please…let go of me!” Tears began to well up in the snake’s eyes. Hatori let go of Ayame’s neck. Ayame began to choke and gag for air. Hatori grabbed the snake’s wrists. Ayame looked Hatori in his eyes. He began to talk calmly afraid that he would upset the angry dragon more.

“I love you. I given you all of me. I let you see a part of me nobody has ever seen. I have held you when you asked me and even when you didn’t ask. I listen to you. I let you confide in me and yet you still treat me like an outsider in your life. I guess now I know my place in your life. Go to Akito I will still be here for you when you get back, because unlike you I will love you regardless of how you treat me.” Ayame began to cry harder. His whole body trembled with fear and sadness.

Hatori released the snake’s wrists causing him to fall to the floor. Hatori got off the snake. He was shaking when he packed up the clothes on floor and the rest in the drawers. He couldn’t believe he snap like he did but he was tired of Ayame.

“I will be back in a week. When I get back I don’t know if there will be an us. But I prefer you wait for me before we call it quits.”
With that Hatori left Ayame’s apartment.

Ayame couldn’t move. His body began to throb with pain. He felt like his heart had been ripped out. His body hurt from the assault he received. He couldn’t decided what hurt more his heart or his body. He laid in the spot Hatori left him in all night. He slowly cried himself to sleep. The only thing making him smile a little was an unexpected dream of a boy with white and black hair. The boy held him in his dream. Told him that he didn’t need Hatori because he was going to be there for him. He loved him and he would never let anyone hurt him again.

To Ayame it felt so real, but it was only a dream that would never come true.


NEXT MORNING


Ayame woke the next morning in the same spot. He rolled over to look at the clock on his dresser. It was noon. He slept way later than intended. He tired to get up but realized that his body was still in pain. He managed to get himself up. His whole body ached. He looked at his wrists. They were bruised. He head felt like it was split in two. He knew his face was bruised. He could still feel the throbbing on the side of his cheek. He was heading to the bathroom to go look at the damage with someone started knocking at his door. He tensed up. He didn’t won’t anyone to see him right now, especially with the bruises he was covered in. He figured if he didn’t say anything than they would go away.

“Ayame, open up. It’s Haru. I know you are here. Mine told me you would be here today.” Haru knocked again.

Ayame was worried now. He knew that Haru would flip if he seen him like this. He didn’t want to explain to the ox that Hatori gave him the bruises. He didn’t want to see the look of pity or anger in Haru’s eyes. Who knew what he Haru would do to Hatori if he found out. Ayame wasn’t going to open the door, but his body was not listening to his mind. His hand was already turning the doorknob when he decided he was going to ignore Haru.

“What do you want, Haru?” Ayame lean against the door frame facing the black and white hair young man.

“What happen to you?” Haru looked at the snake’s face in disbelief. The whole right side of Ayame’s face was a mess. He had a black eye and a swollen cheek. He had a bruises on his neck and wrists. He could only imagine what the rest of his body looked like.

“Nothing happen. What do you want, Haru?” Ayame avoid those grey eyes. He knew that if he looked at his eyes he would crack and break down.

“If nothing happen then look at me and say nothing happen.” Haru looked at his older cousin waiting for an explanation. He knew whatever happen it was Hatori who did it. He just needed Ayame to say it. His cousin looked him in the eye.

“Why does it fucking matter?! What the hell do you want from me, Haru!” Ayame was now trembling. He knew he couldn’t hid it. He was breaking down. Those eyes broke him and there was nothing he could do about it. “GO AWAY, HARU! I can’t see you right now.” He was being to feel faint. Haru notice Ayame beginning to fall and caught the snake before he hit the ground. He picked up the other man bridal style and closed the door to Ayame’s apartment. He took him to the bedroom. As soon as he got to the bed room he noticed the broken lamp and scattered clothes. He also noticed a hole in the wall. It looked like someone punch the wall. He was really pissed off now. Someone hurt Ayame, his Ayame. He laid Ayame softly on the bed. He sat beside him. It looked like Ayame was sleeping. He was going to wake him, but he figure it would be best to let the snake sleep. He was probably exhausted from the abuse he encountered.

He looked at the pale man. Ayame was gorgeous. Even with bruises he was still beautiful. He ran his fingers through the snake’s silver locks. His hair was so soft. He remember the last time he ran his fingers through Ayame’s hair was the night they had their one time affair. He didn’t want to leave Ayame the next morning but he had no choice. He studied the rest of Ayame’s face. This was the first time since that night that he got to be close again to the snake. He loved Ayame. He loved everything about him. He wish he could have him all to himself. The ox sighed to himself and was getting rid to let Ayame sleep. When he felt the snake began to stir.

“Mmmm…Haru?” Ayame opening his golden eyes to find himself staring back at grey eyes.

“Ayame, you okay? You had me worry there for a second.” Haru caress the top of the snake’s head.

“ I am fine just a little sore that is all.” Ayame sat up. Haru and him were almost nose to nose.

“What happen to you? Was it Hatori” Haru asked while caressing the snake’s face softly so it wouldn’t hurt him. Ayame lean into Haru’s touch. It felt so good to be caress. He looked back at Haru. He could feel the tears building up in his eyes. He couldn’t lie to Haru. He knew for some strange reason the ox would protect him. He began to cry. Haru pulled him close to him. He was crying in Haru’s chest.

“It will be okay. I won’t let them hurt you anymore. I promise.” Haru began stroking Ayame’s back.

Ayame grew angry for some reason. He pulled away for the Haru. “Why do you care? You are marrying Rin. You can’t protect someone you don’t love or belong to.” Ayame glared at the ox.

Haru looked back at the glaring snake and was shocked that Ayame would accuse him of not loving him. “What makes you think I don’t love you?” Haru asked. Ayame pulled his knees to him. He leaned against the headboard.

“Don’t give me that shit? All of you are the same. Shigure, Hatori, and you. You only care when it is convenient for you or when the wenches you are dating are done with you. I am tired of being last. I am tired of being an outsider to everyone. I am done with you all, leave now. I want to be left alone.” Ayame looked back at the ox. He could tell he struck a core in Haru. Haru looked hurt and angry.

“I am not leaving you. I came here to talk about us.”

“About us. There is no us. We fucked once and now there is an us!” Ayame got out of the bed. He walked to his living room. He didn’t know why he was getting angry at Haru. Haru didn’t do anything to him. All he tired to do was comfort him. He headed to the door so he could let Haru out. Haru followed him to the living room. Ayame looked at the ox.

“So, is that all it was to you! You were the first person I had ever been with. You are the only person I have been thinking about nonstop. I fucking fell in l….!” Haru stopped. He couldn’t torture himself any longer. He walked up to Ayame backing him into a corner.

“Don’t do this Haru, please. It will just complicate everything. You are going to get marry to Rin and I am with Hatori. That is our faith.” Ayame began to cry again. He fell to his knees. For some reason he wanted to take everything he said back. He wanted to be love my Haru. He wanted to be held by him.

“I sorry Ayame, but I can’t hold back anymore. I have to tell you.” Haru sighed and lower himself so he could face the snake. He looked at his golden eyes. “Ayame, I love you. I loved you since that night. I don’t care if you are with Hatori. I don’t care if I am with Rin. I love you. I want to be with you, only if you have me.” Haru looked at Ayame. He wiped Ayame’s tears away. He rubbed his thumb over Ayame’s soft lips. Ayame’s body began to tremble. He wrapped his arms around Haru’s neck and began to kiss him. It was a sweet chaste kisses. Haru wrapped his arms around Ayame’s waist. Ayame broke the kiss.

“I am sorry for what I said. I didn’t mean it. I am tired of everyone leaving me.”

“I won’t leave you. Please let me have you, Ayame. I can’t let you go. I let you go a year ago but I won’t now.” Haru pulled Ayame up with him, so they were now standing.

“I will let you have me. As long as you promise not to hurt me.” Ayame whispered in Haru’s ear.

“I promise.” Haru took Ayame’s hand and lead Ayame to his bedroom.