Too much love kills

Part II

It was like a dream, me and Sakuma-san together at the party. I’d never been in a such place before. People were dancing, drinking, chatting, and all the different kinds of light made that place seem magical.

“Kumagoro is happy that you came.” Ryuichi waved his stuffed bunny.

“I’m happy, too.” I smiled. Actually the word “happy” couldn’t fully express what I felt. Being with Sakuma-san was like heaven.

“What do you do in America, Subaru-chan?” I was asked.

“Well, I go to school, and live with my brother. It’s only a temporary stay.”

“So you’re gonna come back, like me.” Ryuichi got excited.

I felt the same way. Maybe someday Nittle Grasper would be reunited. I asked Sakuma-san about that, but he said he don’t know. Then he changed the topic. We talked about various things, Ryuichi being cheerful, and funny all the time. Not only was he good-looking, but also kind, warm, and friendly. He was really a God to me.

Then the music changed, and Sakuma-san changed too. I heard Nittle Grasper’s song, and noticed that Ryuichi became serious. He looked at me with a penetrating gaze, and I shivered. He took something from his pocket, it looked like a small container. He withdrew a pill from it, and swallowed. I didn’t know what it was, but he smiled.

“Would you like one?” He asked.

“What’s that?”

“Something which will make you see stars.”

I’d never had experience which such stuff, but if Sakuma-san took it, it couldn’t be so bad, could it?”

“Ok...” I said, not sure if I’m doing the right thing.

“So take it.”

Instead of giving me a pill, Ryuichi put one between his teeth. I nearly fell from the chair. He couldn’t be serious. Not that I have anything against kissing a guy. Actually I had suspected that I’m gay. The problem was I felt so awfully embarrassed.

‘What should I do?’ I thought.

Ryuichi was waiting patiently, looking at me encouragingly. At that point I knew he won’t stop, so I got closer, took the pill from his mouth, and swallowed it. I think my blush was so visible he could see it in the dark. But the most frightening thing was that I became aroused. I hope he didn’t noticed it, otherwise it would be such a shame.

“Come one!” Sakuma-san did another unexpected thing. He grabbed my hand, and dragged me to the dance-floor.

I was afraid that people would look at us strangely, but they didn’t care. Ryuichi embraced me, and now there was no doubt he felt my erection. Yet, he didn’t seem to mind at all. He looked at me closely, and I noticed the devilish glimpse in his eyes. We moved very slowly, but his face was getting closer to mine. At some point I just closed my eyes, hypnotized by the music and ligths, and felt his lips on mine. My heart was pounding in my chest, my body was on fire. I wanted to give myself to Sakuma-san in any way possible. His tongue slipped into my mouth, he started tasting me. It wasn’t my first passionate kiss, but definitely the first which turned me on so much. We were kissing so long that I nearly lost my breath, and even when we finished our lips were close to each other.

I remember I laid my chin on his shoulder, and saw Mr. Winchester looking at as from the distance. He seemed very angry, although he tried to hide it. He stood there for one more minute, and then just left.

The drug took an effect on me. I didn’t feel embarrassed anymore. I didn’t care what was right, and what was wrong. I only wanted to have fun, and be with Sakuma-san. I felt an overwhelming joy. Everything seemed perfect. Never before had the world been so beautiful.

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I don’t remember how we got to his room. It wasn’t important. Me and Sakuma-san together – only that mattered. Whatever he wanted to do with me I would let him. That’s why I didn’t resist when he started undressing me. We laid on the king-sized bed, Ryuichi licking my chest. When his fingertip touched my nipple I shivered. When he started sucking I moaned. I still had my pants on, and my erection became painful. I think Sakuma-san noticed it, because he took off everything I had left on me.

“You’re beautiful.” He said admiring my body.

I blushed. No one had ever told me that I’m beautiful.

“You’ve never done it with a man, have you?”

“I’ve never done it with anyone.” I became even redder than before.

“Don’t worry, I’ll make sure you like it.”

Despite the drug I felt slightly afraid. Sakuma-san undressed, and I noticed he’s quite big. I started wondering how it’s going to fit in me. It would probably hurt, but I wanted to be with him anyway.

He covered my body with his, and started kissing me. At the same time he explored every inch of me with his hand. He rubbed my nipples, my dick, and finally he touched my entrance. I tried to relax, but I felt too anxious. It was a totally new situation for me, and I couldn’t help tensing up. When the finger slipped inside me, I gasped. It didn’t hurt, but felt weird. My muscles clenched, and my breath became quicker.

“It always feels awkward at the beginning.” Ryuichi explained, moving the finger inside me, stretching me a bit.

When he took it out I knew what was coming. Although he lubed himself, the penetration hurt so much, that I screamed. My hole was stretched so wide that I was afraid I’m gonna be injured. I didn’t like this new feeling until Sakuma-san grabbed my dick, and started rubbing it. Pleasure returned, and I nearly forgot about pain. I got accustomed to the feeling of Ryuichi’s penis going in and out of me. The pace of thrusts increased, and I moaned in ecstasy. I can’t fully describe how it was having sex with Ryuichi. It was like going straight to heaven. I wanted him to fill me with his seed, to claim me his, and only his.

My muscles tightened around his dick when I finally came. Sakuma-san thrust in me one more time, so deep I swear I saw stars, and then I felt warm liquid bathing my insides. He slipped out of me, which created very dirty sound, and laid beside me. His semen was slowly coming out of my gaping hole. Ryuichi shoved a finger there, and took it out, bringing it to my face, so I could taste him. I did, and I knew I’m his forever.

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I didn’t feel guilt the next day. I lost my virginity, but with a person I truly loved. The day was beautiful, and I felt great. Ryuichi was back to his cheerful, hyperactive self, and he hugged me, smiling.

“Thank you for the best night of my love. Kumagoro wishes he hadn’t gone sleep so early.”

“I think I should be the one saying ‘thank you’.”

We wanted to kiss, but suddenly we heard a knock to the door.

“Wait here.” Ryuichi put on a dressing gown, and went to check who’s there. I couldn’t see it, but I heard voices. “Hi, K-chan! Great day, isn’t it?”

“You slept with that kid, didn’t you?” K sounded very serious.

“Does it matter?”

“Yes it does. I don’t know, maybe in Japan it’s normal, but here having sex with a minor is considered a crime. I don’t want you to get in trouble.”

“Nobody knows. And he’s not a child. Well, not anymore.”

“You know I disapprove your life-style. One day you may regret your actions, and I’m trying to prevent it.”

“Bye, K. See you at the rehearsal.” After that i heard the door closing.


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