Remember my Love

Remember my love.
chapter 2

Genjo Sanzo glared out the window of the inn. Smoking and drinking to pass the time as he waited for Hakkai to get finished fixing up the wayward half-breed. "Damn how did this happen?" He asked no one in particular. "What the hell happened to him?" Another cigarette butt was added to the already overflowing ashtray. "I've missed him so much." He covered his face with trembling hands.

His head snapped up at the sound of the door squeaking open. A very weary Hakkai entered and sat on the chair next to his.

"He's asleep for now."

Sanzo poured the tired healer a cup of tea. "And how is he?"

"Some of the injuries will leave scars and some of the older wounds were infected." He shook his head. "I really want to kill who ever did this to him."

"If I thought for one moment that the bastard I got him from was the one responsible I wouldn't have let him go but…" he ran a hand through his hair."He had boasted about having just bought him off of someone else."

"I'm not sure I would have been so lenient."

"Hakkai I was just so fucking happy to see him in one piece that I couldn't think of anything else." His hand trembled as he lit another cigarette. "I thought he was gone and then to find him like that…it was all I could do not to jump up and grab him right there and then." Hakkai placed a hand on Sanzo's wrist.

"I know Sanzo. We all thought he was dead."

Sanzo looked into the tired green eyes. "Dammit Hakkai I'm such a selfish bastard. Of course you two were worried too."

Hakkai patted the thin wrist a few times. "But it was worse for you Sanzo."

Loosing his valiant effort not to shed a tear Sanzo sobbed out. "I just missed him so fucking much Hakkai. I thought I was going to die."

Not wanting Sanzo to feel pitied Hakkai changed the subject. "So what's Goku been up to? He's not usually this quiet."

"He's been helping the innkeeper with some odds and ends. Says it makes him feel useful." Sanzo shrugged. "God you look nearly dead Hakkai, go to bed before you collapse."

"I believe I will do just that." He stiffly rose and made his way to the bed. "But what about you? I know for a fact it's been several days since you slept or eaten anything for that matter." Hakkai tried to sound stern but failed miserably.

Sanzo waved the concern off. "Later. I just don't feel up to either of those things right now."

Hakkai shrugged. "Suit yourself just don't get sick like before."

"Shut the fuck up and go to sleep Hakkai." Was said without any true malice. Hakkai quietly chuckled and lay down. "I'm gonna go sit with him for a while." Sanzo said as he left the room. Hakkai gave a tired nod and closed his eyes. A small shape zoomed down from the top of a bookshelf.

"I'm fine Hakuryu. Just exhausted." He scratched the chin of the little white dragon. "You're also happy we found our friend aren't you?" Hakuryu gave a small chirp and curled up on Hakkai's stomach. "We've missed him so much." Master and pet drifted to sleep.

Sanzo entered the room to find Gojyo flat on his back, snoring lightly. He sat on the chair that Hakkai had left at the bed side and watched the red head breath. "God what all happened to you?" He reached out and brushed back a few strands of hair that had slipped over a sunken cheek. "You look like hell. It must have been a nightmare." Soft fingers traced the twin scars and the left cheek. "I've even missed these stupid antennae." He twirled one around a finger.

He let his mind wander back to that day two years ago.

They had nearly won. The castle was in ruins and crumbling fast. Then there was a cry of someone in trouble. It was the female demon companion of the brat prince. And she was trapped. Goku was busy pissing around with the prince, Hakkai was injured but started towards her, but Gojyo gallant man that he was, was closer and faster. Unwilling to let her be seriously hurt ran at top speed to save her…just as Sanzo had begun the chant to bring the scriptures to life. It all seemed to move in slow motion. He had tried to stop but the incantation was almost finished. The only thing Sanzo could do was hope that with the interruption it would not be at full strength. He watched in horror as Gojyo threw the girl clear of the rubble but could not get out of the way to save him self. Then the scriptures wrapped the area in sutra cocoon and everything vanished. Sanzo had collapsed at that point, waking up later under a tents protection. Goku was crying in a corner. Hakkai was sitting next to him trying to comfort the young man. And even Kougaiji's team was there talking quietly among themselves.

"Where's Gojyo?" Sanzo called out.

"We don't know." Was the answer from Gojyo's brother. Goku began to sob harder then Lirin, the princes little sister joined him in the crying as did Yaone the girl Gojyo had saved…no had sacrificed his life for. Sanzo stood up and walked out of the tent wanting to be by himself…

A knock at the door startled him back to the present. "Hey Sanzo did you want something to eat? I can bring it up if you want." It was Goku being unusually quiet. "Hakkai's asleep and I'm hungry so I thought I'd check with you."

"Not really Goku but maybe some tea." Sanzo said.

"'kay." And the boy left the room. Sanzo wiped some sweat off his forehead. He always did that when he thought back to that day. Even now it was still fresh in his mind and heart.

He felt it happening again. The tears just wouldn't stop.