Changed Memories

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Suzaku bit his tongue and sat back, looking to the floor some. "You were almost jumped when people thought things were going on." He lied, glancing over some.

".... But it would of been worth it wouldn't of?" He looked up to Suzaku now tilting his head to the side. ".... If you love someone you'd do anything for them right?"

Suzaku nodded and turned to face Lelouch again completely, folding one leg in Indian style. "Yeah, but I didn't want you getting hurt. So I jumped in." He said, smiling a bit. "It's very important, Lelouch, that you keep this a secret, alright?"

Lelouch nodded lightly as he listened to the other. ".... So have we done it yet?"

Suzaku shook his head a bit. "No. We've just been so busy with our personal lives, yesterday was the first time we had a chance to get together, away from everyone else." He smiled and leaned forward a bit out or random habit.

"Then what happened to make me lose my memories you said I hit my head so how'd it happen?" He spoke placing his left index finger to his bottom lip.

Suzaku blinked, then shifted a bit. "You fell...Over a cliff yesterday..." He continued to lie, reaching up to lace his fingers through Lelouch's hair. "You were out all night, and I didn't want to risk hurting you anymore, so I didn't exactly clean you off. You still have dried blood in your hair."

"Oh." He whispered out finally looking down to his knees. "So you undressed me to so I'm only in my boxers."

"Your clothes...Needed to be thrown away." He said, frowning. "Lelouch, try not to think about it too much. The doctor said it'd be wise if you just relaxed." He said with a light murr, before he let out a sigh, congratulating himself inwardly on his acting before he glanced up at Lelouch. "Let's go get you cleaned up the rest of the way, huh?"

"I can clean myself." Lelouch smiled as he pushed himself up off of the bed. "So you don't want me to remember anything Suzaku?"

Suzaku watched his back a moment, his eyes widening for a split second at the comment, thinking the other knew, but shook the thought away and gave a sad smile. "I want you to remember the important people in your life, Lelouch. Just, not the accident..." He spoke, this time being rather truthful.

"But what about important events, like that girl in that photograph, or Nunnally being sent to the hospital..." He lowered his head slightly as he leaned back against the door. "What if someone calls out to me and I don't know what to say or do?"

"I'll explain to them what happened. I'll have time to let them all know, since you won't be allowed out for a while. And those events...I'll tell you about them later." He explained, offering Lelouch a small smile.

Lelouch nodded as he pulled a few strands behind his left ear. "Can you show me where the shower is Suzaku so I can wash off and lay back down?"

Suzaku nodded and stood, walking towards Lelouch, still smiling. He gently took the other's hand in his own and started to lead him towards the bathroom, knowing that everyone was more than likely asleep in their rooms, due to it being late.

"I don't even remember the doctor's Suzaku." He whispered out as he followed the other still.

"You don't need to worry about that, Lulu." He replied, smiling back at the other some. Once they reached the bathroom, he pushed the door open and stepped aside to let Lelouch in. "I'll stay, incase you start to get light headed."

Lelouch nodded lightly as he moved into the bathroom starting the water up and letting the bathtub fill up. ".... Suzaku you seem nervous about something."

Suzaku followed the other in, closing the door behind him and locking it, before turning to look at Lelouch some, shaking his head. "It's nothing..." He replied, looking down. "Just, relieved."

"That I'm alive and not dead at the bottom of the cliff?" He tilted his head to the side. "Wish I remembered what happened..."

"Hm? Oh, yeah." He smiled and leaned against the door, letting his eyes fall to the floor as a sign of respect. "We were goofing around, and you slipped. I couldn't save you in time. But, at least you're awake, and alive."

"I forgive you so I don't want you to worry about that ok?" Lelouch looked back to Suzaku turning the water off then.

He nodded and smiled a bit, shifting some. "Alright then." He lifted his eyes a bit, though kept his head tilted down, almost glaring at the other, though made sure his bangs hid his face enough so Lelouch couldn't see. "Are you sure...You don't want me to join you, Z...Lelouch?" He asked, catching himself, lifting his head with a smile, his eyes closed.

"I'm sure I'm still capable of some things at least give me a bit of dignity." He smiled as he listened to the other tilting his head to the side. "Did you say my name wrong?"

"Alright..." He replied, before blinking, and shaking his head. "No...I think you're hearing things..." He replied, looking slightly confused, though cursed inwardly at himself for almost slipping.

Lelouch nodded lightly as he took off his boxers and slid into the warmth of the water and bubbles.

A light sigh escaped Suzaku's lips as he slid into a sitting position, keeping his eyes locked on Lelouch as he lost himself to his own thoughts for a short moment.

Lelouch looked back over to Suzaku tilting his head. "Are you sure your ok?"

"Yeah, I'm fine." He replied, forcing a smile. "Just thinking about some stuff." He replied, pushing himself up and walking over to sit next to the tub, his back to it so he was staring at the door now. "If you think you remember anything, tell me about it, alright?"

"Alright, but you made it sound like it's not that important earlier..." He frowned.

"It's not important for you to remember, but I really need to know if you remember anything. The doctor said it would be good if you let me know if and when you remembered anything." He replied, drawing his knees up, glaring at the floor now.

"..... Suzaku your making me worried that something’s wrong with me..." He whispered out.

Suzaku forced a smile and glanced back. "Sorry. I promise nothing's wrong, Lulu." He spoke, turning a bit, reaching up to lace his fingers through Lelouch's hair once more. "You're perfectly fine. Except for the memory loss."

Lelouch nodded as he closed his violet orbs halfway as he moved into the warmth of the water. "I feel like something missing.... I mean I still feel like I'm twelve..."

Suzaku watched him, that soft smile still on his lips. "I'm sure the feeling will pass soon enough, Lulu. For now, you needn't worry." He spoke, removing his fingers from the other's hair, returning to his previous position, facing the door. "I'll have to get you an outfit from my closet when we get back to the room. I hope my clothes fit you."

"I don't have any clothes at your place? I thought we would be on that step where I stay the night at your room." He smiled trying to joke now. "How come we can't go to my room and get my stuff?"

Suzaku smiled at the humor, then glanced back with a raised brow. "You're room is all the way across the school's campus. Wouldn't want you walking around in a towel, or just your boxers would we?" He asked, with a small wink.

Lelouch blushed slightly as he sank into the water to hide it from the other.

Suzaku chuckled and turned to face the door again. "Still shy, I see." He teased.

Lelouch peeked up a bit and looked to Suzaku glaring slightly. "Maybe."

"Maybe, huh?" He asked, turning to completely face the other, sitting on his knees, hands on the side of the tub. "Aw, don't glare at me, Lulu." He then half whined, though smirked afterwards.

Lelouch looked away from the other as he moved grabbing the hose behind him to wash the blood from his hair.


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Next morning


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Lelouch sat quietly on the floor wearing a pair of blue silk pajamas given to him by Suzaku when they returned back to the room. It was morning now and was sitting on a pillow watching the television set his purple orbs never leaving as he listened to the news come on a bit of curiosity started to rise as he saw a figure speaking out about how the Britannians were going to be falling soon. "Suzaku? Who's this person?" He spoke out never allowing his violet orbs to pull away.

Suzaku, who was just getting dressed for school, a donut in his mouth, turned his head over his shoulder while he buttoned up the jacket to the uniform, with a 'Hm". His eyes widened a bit and he let the donut fall forgotten on the floor as he walked over and turned the TV off, shaking his head. "You don't need to worry about that man, Lelouch. Anything you hear about him, just ignore it, alright?" He asked, turning to the paler teen, trying to keep the panic from his voice. "Just let the government officials deal with it." He added, walking over, kneeling in front of Lelouch. "Is that understood?" He then asked, frowning.

Lelouch blinked looking up to Suzaku as he nodded a sad expression crossing over his face. ".... I-I didn't know you said it was ok to watch TV...." He whispered out before lowering his head his body shaking as if he had done something terrible wrong. Lelouch didn't understand the other's view at this point not really understanding that he had come face to face with his alter ego Zero.

Suzaku blinked, then sighed lightly and offered a small smile. "It's okay, Lulu. It's just...You're always so reckless, and you do like to get involved with dangerous stuff. I just don't want you getting hurt, alright?" He asked, calming down a bit as he reached up to brush a few stray strands of hair from the other's face. "Do you want me to skip class, and stay here with you?" He then asked, tilting his head.

".... No." He spoke up. ".... I'll be fine here I'll be quiet and wait for you to come back home." Lelouch smiled as he looked up to the other now his head tilting to the side. "I'll be good I promise."

"Alright. I'm trusting you, Lulu." Suzaku said, leaning up to place a quick kiss on the other's cheek before standing. "It's still okay to watch the television, just ignore anything related to that person named Zero." He then said, turning towards the door. "I'll probably be in late. I have to meet up with someone right after school, so be patient." He added, glancing over his shoulder.

Lelouch nodded as he looked at the other still. "So I'm still not allowed outside or near the window?"

"Correct. We don't want people bombarding you with questions." He replied with a wink and a weak smile. "I'll bring something home for you to eat during lunch break." He then said, turning the door knob, waiting for a reply.

Lelouch turned his attentions away from the other as he looked to the window that had been sealed shut. "Ok Suzaku."

He waited a short few seconds longer before he pulled the door open and left, sighing as soon as the door was closed, resting his one hand over his heart. "I just have to hope..." He whispered to himself, heading down the hall, hoping to avoid questions about Lelouch for the time.

Lelouch tried his best to keep himself entertained for the time being moving around the house and sorting through things on his book shelf before moving and starting to clean the apartment.

Upon reaching school, Suzaku slid into his chair in home room, resting his head on his arms, which were folded over the desk, turning his head to stare out the window, his eyes becoming half lidded now. What if...What if they find out about Lelouch? Or worse? He thought to himself, closing his eyes. What if Lelouch starts to remember? He continued with a heavy sigh, wishing the day would hurry and start so it could end.

Lelouch was now laying in the middle of the floor almost close to a dead body. He didn't have the TV on fearing that he would see something involving Zero.

Suzaku pulled his key from his pocket and unlocked the door to the apartment, walking in with a small bag of food in hand. "Lulu, I'm home for lunch!" He called in, closing the door behind him, raising a brow at how clean the place looked now. "Lelouch?" He asked, walking for the front room.

Lelouch rolled over onto his side then stomach as he pushed himself up onto his knees looking to the other. "I'm in here Suzaku."

Suzaku followed his voice and paused, smiling some. "You kept yourself busy I see. I brought something back for you." He then said, holding the bag up as he walked over, kneeling in front of him. "Weren't too bored were you?"

"... I cleaned your room up for you so you wouldn't have to worry." Lelouch smiled looking to the other now.

"Thanks, Lulu." Suzaku replied, sitting down with him now, holding the bag out. "Hungry?"

He nodded looking up to the other now. "Yes what did you bring me?"

"Nothing much, unfortunately. It's just a sandwich. When I leave here, I'll be meeting up with that person, instead of going back to class. So I actually might be home after school." He then said, leaning back on his hands a bit.

"Thank you for the sandwich and ok." He smiled taking the bag that held his lunch. "When will I be allowed to go outside?"

"Don't mention it." He replied, before frowning, seeming to think for a moment. "It'd probably be wise to keep you out of site of everyone for a while, but if you really want to go outside, I suppose we could go for a walk later tonight." He offered, tilting his head a bit.

Lelouch smiled at that as he nodded. "I would really like that Suzaku." He moved starting to unwrap his meal and moved taking a few bites of his turkey sandwich.

Suzaku smiled back and closed his eyes, laying back with his arms folded behind his head. "I have about ten minutes before I have to head out..." He then said after a short moment of silence.

Lelouch looked back to the other frowning as he stopped eating his meal. ".... How long...?"

"Ten minutes left before my break is over..." He replied, glancing to Lelouch. "Is something wrong, Lulu?" He then asked, sitting back up and tilting his head.

Lelouch looked down to his sandwich shaking his head. "... Just miss you is all..."

Suzaku gave him a small smile and leaned forward, placing a small kiss on the other's forehead. "I'll come straight home, alright, Lulu?" He promised.

Lelouch nodded as Suzaku placed against his head. ".... Alright."

He sat back again and glanced to the tv, noting it was off. "Have you kept it off all day?" He randomly asked.

"..... I didn't want to accidently see Zero and then you get upset with me." He frowned.

"I see..." He trailed, staring at their reflections in the black screen, before smiling again. "How's your head feeling?" He then asked, turning to look at him again.

"It doesn't hurt as bed well until I scratch and forget about the cut." He frowned taking a bit of his sandwich.

Suzaku nodded and glanced to the clock. "You really should be careful. When I get home, I'll take another look at it, and bandage it back up, but I need to be heading off." He said, pushing himself up.

Lelouch looked up to the other sadly as he frowned once more. ".... How come Zero is so bad?"

Suzaku stopped and glanced at Lelouch, frowning. "He's killed countless innocent people, claiming that sacrifices needed to be made in order to create a new world where everyone could live in peace." He replied, before his eyes narrowed. "He threatened to kill Nunnally before." He then lied, clenching his fist. "I don't want you to have to relive those horrible memories..." He added.

"..... But why would he threaten to clean Nunnally?" He spoke up looking to the other as he stood leaving his half eaten sandwich.

"She...Lelouch, it wasn't too long ago that Nunnally became a Viceroy. She was doing everything she could to get Zero to turn himself over, but it didn't work. He rebelled more and went after her."

".... So what happens while she's in the hospital with everything going on?" Lelouch looked to the other as he frowned.

"They have someone taking over for her for the time being. It's just until Nunnally can get out of the hospital." He replied.

Lelouch nodded sadly. ".... What am I to do right now though...?"

"You need to remain in hiding for a bit. Hopefully you'll regain some memory of your real friends during the time you're resting." Suzaku said, glancing at his watch now. "I'm running late, Lulu. I'm sorry. Please, don't wander off." He then said, hesitating before he leaned in and placed a kiss on Lelouch's lips, before turning to head off.

Lelouch let the other leave now as he sat back down in the middle of the floor to finish his sandwich moving so his back was to the other.

Suzaku walked from the apartment without another word, sighing once more once he was outside. "Too close. I should really think these things through..." He muttered to himself as he walked down the hall, heading for his destination of where a meeting was being held for the Knights of the Round.

Lelouch finished his meal and moved back to the others bed crawling in beneath the covers hiding away in the dark.


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It was a little later, and Suzaku had finally gotten home from the meeting, tossing his jacket on the coat rack as he walked into the apartment. "Lelouch! I'm home! Sorry I'm late!" He called, listening for a response. When he got none, he wandered further inside, looking around. When he saw no sign of the other, panic took over and he turned, running for the door and taking off down the hall, cussing under his breath. "Shit...Did they find him? Did they know?" He asked himself. Once he was outside, he started towards a random area, praying he didn't have to look long before he found Lelouch. Sure enough, it wasn't too much longer he found said teen in the garden. He sighed in relief, though his eyes narrowed and he slowed to a fast paced walk, heading straight for the teen. "Lelouch." He said, coming to a stop in front of him.

Lelouch looked up to the other as he smiled holding up a small grey kitten he had found in the garden when he couldn't find his way back to Suzaku's room. "I tried looking at the faces and tried to determine who my friends were...., But it's really hard when I don't know what say." He frowned sadly. "Can I keep my new friend though?"

Suzaku's eyes narrowed and he knelt in front of Lelouch. "I told you not to leave the apartment. Did any of them talk to you?" He asked, then glanced to the kitten. "I suppose..." He then said, standing and grabbing Lelouch's wrist. "Come on, let's just get back inside before someone sees you." He said, murring.

Lelouch moved to his feet once the other grabbed him he was confused by the others actions as he held onto the kitten with his free hand. "You told me though..."

"That's what the pictures are for." He said, glancing back to him as he started to walk. "It's a little too risky for you to be out here right n..." He started, coming to a full stop when he heard an all too familiar voice.

"Brother!" A young, shorter teen called with blondish hair called.

Lelouch bumped into the Suzaku hearing the voice as he turned to look to Suzaku confused thinking the young teen was calling to Suzaku. "I didn't know you had a brother."