Secrets

A/N I am glad people are reading my story even if they aren't reviewing it oh well here's the second chapter.

Dee walked right pass Ryo and headed straight for the apartment. Ryo watched him go, he looked over to the man Dee had been talking too. Ryo didn't know what to think about this man he wasn't anything like J.J who would definitely pounce Dee if Dee would give him the chance. But what was this man's intention? He watched this Roy character leave in the opposite direction.

It was then that Ryo should head back to see if he could get some answers to who the hell was this man? and should he should been concerned about it?

he walked into his apartment He walked into the kitchen, Dee had definitely been here. the vase was shattered against the wall the rose was cut into small pieces all over the table. If it wasn't for the fact he was concerned about Dee he'd be furious with the mess that lay around the kitchen. He went to the bedroom and found Dee laying on the bed clutching his pillow cursing to himself.
"Dee are you alright?" Ryo asked concerned.
"Fucking prick. why the hell did he have to come back." he mumbled into the pillow.
"Hey Dee would you mind telling me what your relationship with Roy was?" he asked soon regretting the question.
Dee bit his lower lip.
"What happened?" Ryo asked.
"It happened after the death of Jess and Arnon's death."

flashback
Dee sat quietly in the attic. He still couldn't believe all what happened Jess and Arnon were really gone. "There you are." Roy said coming over to Dee and placing a hand on his shoulder. "Mother told me to come get you for supper."
Dee turned and looked up at Roy as Roy looked down at him. "Hey you alright Dee? after the death of Jess and Arnon you just locked yourself away. We all miss Jess and Arnon man I was close to Arnon as much as you and i miss him just as much."
"I was just wondering how Arnon could actually go through with it all! How!" Dee asked annoyed.
"I know man i wonder that myself since his death three months ago. Hey Dee would you like to try an experiment?"
"What kind of an experiment?"
Roy came closer and placed his lips against Dee's. Dee was shocked and a bit surprise at this action. The kiss was different gentle and sweet almost he fell into the kiss as Roy ravished his mouth.
Roy ended the kiss. "Come on Mother will be wondering what’s taking so long we can experiment further after everyone goes to bed okay?"

Later that night after curfew Dee snuck out of bed and headed up to the attic. There he met Roy who had with him a bottle of lube, Roy wrapped his arms around him and kissed him deep. Clothes were soon flung all over the place as they now stood naked together admiring the other.
"So you want this?" he asked grabbing his member and lightly stroking it putting on a show for Dee.
"I...Uh... I'm not so sure about this Roy." Dee said slightly blushing. "Come on Dee your in good hands you want to know how Arnon could go through with it right?"
Roy got him to lay down as he placed more kisses all over him, he began licking Dee's nipples "Ahh! Roy!"
"Shh! we don’t want to wake the whole orphanage up."
He continued down Dee's stomach to the semi hard cock down below. he lightly squeezed it hearing Dee moan he stroked it a few times getting it to its full mass before he put his mouth down on it.
"Oh god!" Dee gasped feeling this amazing blowjob given to him. As Roy continued sucking him he opened the bottle of lube and rubbed it on his hands then ran his fingers down towards the much needed interest. He lightly pushed a finger in Dee gave out a grunt. as he watched Dee relax and suck on his finger he inserted yet another slowly moving back and forth
"More!" Dee exclaimed.
Roy figured it was time for his member to be inserted into Dee. Roy lubed himself up he slowly pushed as gently as possible into Dee. Dee gave off a moan if it hadn't been for Roy placing his lips to his in a passionate kiss he might have woken up the orphanage. Roy waited for him to get comfortable before he continued forward. Dee was in a state no return as Roy began to steadily fuck his ass he jerked him off as well. (So this must be what Arnon felt) Dee thought pleased. "Damn Dee your so fucking tight your going to make me cum." Roy said as he sped up the pace on both his thrust and him jerking Dee.
Dee was coming more persistent at every moment he was becoming to like this feeling. "Roy I'm going to cum." he said between breaths before he shot his load up into Roy's hand.
Seeing this made Roy go over the edge as he shot his load deep inside of Dee. "I love you!" Dee said as he pulled Roy down to him. As Roy lay there next to Dee he pondered what Dee just said. No he couldn't be in love with him it must be on the high from the sensation. He wasn't sure on his feelings toward Dee after this. he got up slowly pulled his clothes on lightly kissed Dee's forehead and left both him and the orphanage without a word.

Dee woke up that morning to find Roy wasn't with him. He headed downstairs and asked Mother if he seen Roy. "Dee it seems Roy left the orphanage .” She said with a frown.
“What? But I…” Dee collapsed to his knees and fought back the tears that were trying to escape his eyes.

End flashback
“After that I tried everything to get over him. Dating men and women but the pain never subsided. I refused to ever bottom with another guy again. Hiding that emotional part of myself with my male dominance. Then the day I met you Ryo, as we walked down that hall together introducing myself to you and looked at you closely. I saw Roy in you Ryo. I was stunned at the close resemblance. You see, Roy was part Japanese too your hair color was the only difference I could tell at the time. Roy was a lighter brunette. I felt my heart skip a beat as if it was debating on whether to shatter further or start the mending process.”
Ryo was quietly listening to Dee he had no idea .
“At that moment I wanted to kiss you and yet beat the crap out of you at the same time. As I got to spend time with you I noticed you were different Ryo. When I first got you to kiss me I knew for an instant you were nothing like Roy you better. I was excited my heart was mending it wanted nothing more than you.. When you became overly emotional when I stopped you from killing Leo and brought you back to my apartment, the way you acted like a whore trying to allow me to sleep with you not caring. I saw myself in you and it sickened me. I realized that me taking advantage of you I was no better than Roy and that name left a fowl taste in my mouth as I thought about. I wanted you willingly not emotionally inclined.”

“I’m sorry.” Ryo said.

“It’s not your fault. The night you let me take you I couldn’t enjoy it as much as I would like too. That morning I woke up from it and found you no where I felt horrible like a cheap whore I may not have been on the bottom but I felt like a whore none the left. How could I let it happened again my heart was on the verge of breaking again. When I saw your note I was so relieved that you didn’t just up and leave me.”

Ryo pulled Dee closer to him in a hug “I will never leave you Dee remember that I love you.”
“I know I love you too my heart had mended itself pretty good up until now when he decided to come back.” Dee shook his head. “Hey are you actually going to go through with telling Bikky about your relationship with me?”

“Yes.”

“I think maybe I should go home back to my apartment so you and Bikky can sort it out and I’ll be back in the morning ok?”
“Thanks Dee but are you sure you’ll be okay?”
“Yeah I’ll be fine.” Dee said as he kissed his lover’s forehead before getting up from the bed and heading to his apartment.