Fun New Game

Disclaimer: I do not own Saiyuki or any of its characters.

Coming to Terms.


Gojou managed to stand. He felt cold and noticed that the fire had conge completely out. Damn. He looked ar for for his shirt. He was still pulling it down as he settled next to Hakkai.

“Well, at least he didn’t catch us completely naked and getting it on. “

“I don’t think that would have mattered much.” Hakkai tried shifting his body up right. “Ah shit.”

“Whoa there darlin’. You really are in bad shape. What happened?” Gojou took Hakkai into his arms and helped eased his lover into a more restful position.

“Thanks. It’s not important. What’s important is that we found you.”

They fell silent for a moment just feeling each other’s presence and listening to the quiet rustling of the trees.

Hakkai looked up into Gojou’s face and smiled.

“What?”

“You’re quite incredible you know?”“Eh?“Eh? What’s so incredible?”

“You always end up putting people back together. I guess that’s why I love you.”

“Well just don’t go telling the world that I actually have redeeming qualities. It ruins the bad boy image.”

“Really?” Hakkai reached up for Gojou’s face. “Then you better kiss me, before I tell everyone the awful truth.”

Gojou smiled wickedly at Hakkai’s forwardness and bent to take what was offered to him.

Hakkai gave himself over to Gojou’s soft lips. It was a welcomed easiness compared to the desperation of the last few days. He knew exactly why Goku had turned to Gojou for solace because he did it himself every night. Surrendering to Gojou was like saving his soul. With a single touch Gojou could surround Hakkai with love and tenderness. The edgy, cavalier attitude that greeted the world was a disguise meant to distract people from the real man. Hakkai was glad he had found the real Gojou.

Gojou let go of Hakkai’s mouth. “You think we should go look for them?”

“mmmmm” Hakkai moaned dreamily, “not yet. Let Goku deal with Mr. Grabby Hands for a while.” He craned up wanting Gojou to kiss him some more.

“Mr. Who?…”

*****

Sanzo’s heart beat fast and hard as his feet pounded into the ground. He reached out and caught the edge of Goku’s cape. He pulled it back suddenly causing the boy to topple down to the ground and flounder on to his back. Sanzo landed directly on top of him. He spread over Goku’s body pinning him to the earth. Sanzo was beset by a series of pummeling fists striking at him blindly.

Goku struggled trying to get back up and keep running. He flailed his arms and contorted his body attempting to through Sanzo off. He wanted to be free. He didn’t want to depend on anyone anymore. All they ever did was hurt him, chain him up, and control him. Sanzo wasn’t any different.

Sanzo gained control pinning the boy’s arms above his head. He was leaning over Goku looking down at the defiant face, waiting for his breath to return. He could feel Goku’s chest fighting for air too, as the warm body beneath him rose and fell. He tried to accommodate Goku’s breathing and still maintain his hold by sliding his body down below boy’s chest. Sanzo stiffened as their hips came into contact. His body was quick to recognize Goku writhing between his legs again. The more the boy pushed to remove him the more excited Sanzo became. After having been denied Goku’s contact he couldn’t help grinding his hips into Goku’s.

Goku felt the hard shaft pressing into him. It was hopeless. He couldn’t bring himself to amass the power he needed to get out from under his master. As much as he wanted to be free he wouldn’t willingly hurt Sanzo. He closed his eyes and stopped struggling. That’s all I am anyway, a place to lay his depravity. Sanzo felt heavy against his body. He continued to lie there passively as his master’s body rubbed and bucked on top of him. He felt Sanzo transfer control of his arms to one hand. The other ran down Goku’s arm to his throat and to his chest. Sanzo’s face bent down and brushed along his jaw line.

Sanzo was on fire. He wanted to rip Goku’s clothes off and take him. His body cried out for him. He wanted Goku inside him, over him, around him. Goku was still, no longer fighting beneath him. Sanzo let go of Goku’s hands and began feeling the boy all over searching for openings in the clothing. He kissed the boy’s chest and rocked suggestively against him. Goku made a small sound that Sanzo didn’t really comprehend. He was lost in the sensations of having Goku under him again. A hard column of flesh was forming in Goku’s pants. Sanzo’s hands and mouth pushed and prodded at the bulge to mat bit bigger. The body beneath him was trembling.

Sanzo had let him go yet he could not move. He wanted desperately to get away. He pleaded for Sanzo to stop but the monk just lowered himself to knead Goku’s groin. Goku began to cry as Sanzo opened his pants and began kissing and licking his cock making it hard against Goku’s will. “Why do you hate me?” the boy hissed.

Sanzo looked to Goku’s face hardly believing hat he had heard the boy say. Goku’s eyes were closed tight and he was sobbing. Sanzo noticed Goku’s hands at his sides clenched in tight fists as if he was enduring the worst pain imaginable. The lust-ridden fog lifted from Sanzo’s mind. What was he doing? He was on top of Goku touching him, pleasing him but the boy was silent and crying not moaning and begging for more.

Goku felt Sanzo’s weight lift from him but he didn’t move. He stayed still on the ground waiting for Sanzo’s to say something, anything.

“What makes you think I hate you?”

Goku slowly sat up and shrugged. He wiped his dripping nose on his sleeve and pulled his legs up around him. He remained slouched and downcast under the monks glare. “The only time you seam to like me is when were doing it. Even then it’s like… like I could be anyone.” Goku stopped as rage began to fill his chest. “Why do you even bother to do it with me? Is it just a process of elimination? Gojou’s too much of an ass tok Hak Hakkai too much of an equal, so it just leaves me?” Goku fell silent letting the pain of meaning nothing to Sanzo replace the rage. “Don’t you know how much …I…” his voice trailed off for a moment and returned as a whisper. “It hurts so bad when you’re gone. Like I can’t breath.” Goku turned into a puddle of tears, his body closing in on itself.

Sanzo sat in a state of dull shock. A foreign torrent of emotions ran unchecked through his being. While he couldn’t disagree with Goku that his actions often appeared callous and uncaring, he was angry that the boy would be with him for so long and still not know a damn thing about him. He obviously did not think Hakkai was too honored a person to fuck and Gojou, well the opportunity just never presented itself. He sighed. It would have been so much easier to be with Hakkai. At least he never would’ve had to explain himself. He looked at the small being crying next to him. He knew it wasn’t Hakkai that he wanted. For some stupid illogical reason what little passion and heart he had claimed Goku as it’s home. It was Goku, who couldn’t understand his terrible mood swings, annoyed the hell out of him and followed him around like a damn little puppy, that connected him to life.

“Don’t expect me to turn into somppy ppy sentimental buffoon.” Sanzo growled.

He let out another sigh and closed the gap between them by letting his thigh rest against Goku’s. “I hurt when you’re gone, too.”

Goku wiped his eyes and sat up. So Sanzo did like him, at least a little. “So, now what do we do?”

“Might I suggest getting naked and going at it for a few days?” said an overly cheerful voice.

Goku and Sanzo turned in slow unison to see Gojou and Hakkai standing behind them.

“Man, Sanzo, that was the lamest profession of love I’ve ever heard. You’re never going to get some ass with that line.”

“Shut up before I kill you.”

“Now, now, Sanzo you don’t want to ruin this romantic moment by splattering Gojou’s brains all over it. I’m sure he was only trying to help.”

A bullet rushed past Hakkai’s ear.

“Come on there’s a storm rolling. Hakkai says we can make it to the next town in like an hour if we’re lucky.”

Sanzo gave a hrumph as he stood. Hakkai and Gojou were already walking away. Goku was still a little despondent sitting on the ground. Sanzo ran his fingers through the soft brown hair. Amazing gold eyes looked up at him. “Come on. We’ll get some food and you’ll feel better.” Goku stood up and Sanzo suddenly noticed the boy was almost eye level with him. When did that happen?

Goku caught Sanzo’s stare, “What?”

Sanzo put a slender hand to Goku’s face and kissed the boys cheek before he began to walk away.

Shit, Goku thought, am I ever gonna understand him? He quickly set his pace to catch up to his master.

~TBC~