True Feelings

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WARNING: There is explicit scene in this chapter. Like I said before, If you don\'t like it don\'t read. To those of you who do like. Enjoy!!
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Tsuzuki waited until Muraki left the room to reach into his pocket to get a paper fuda. He might not have been able to leave but that didn’t mean he couldn’t send a message to the others. He tried to turn it into a messenger bird but it didn’t work. He pulled out another fuda trying to again to make the bird and again it didn’t work.

Frustrated that it didn’t work he gave up after the fifth try. The doctor walked in the room with a tray in his hand. He placed the tray on the table in the middle of the room and motioned for the guardian to sit with him. Tsuzuki walked over to the table and sat on the floor opposite of Muraki so they where both facing each other.

“ Did I not tell you that there was no way to leave here? That also meant for the use of magic in the house. The only way for you to leave is for me to allow it.”

Tsuzuki was even more scared at this point, he felt weak, he always did in situations he couldn’t control. \'Oh great he saw the fudas. I was hoping he wouldn’t. Could it get any worse from here.\'

“ I hope you like what I made. I wasn’t to sure what you liked to eat other than desserts.”, Muraki said with a smile. Tsuzuki looked down at the food, it was Nikujaga. Tsuzuki liked it but it wasn’t his favorite dish. Muraki started to eat his food and noticed that Tsuzuki was still just staring at it.

“ What’s the matter Tsuzuki? I didn’t poison it if that’s what you think. I wouldn’t poison someone because I believe that to be a cowardly way to kill. Now please eat.” The shinigami picked up the fork and started to eat, surprisingly it was delicious. Muraki waited for Tsuzuki to finish before collecting the plates.

“ What did you think about dinner, Tsuzuki?”

“ It was really good, better then I thought.”

“ Glad you enjoyed it. Do you want dessert?”, Muraki said and watched Tsuzuki’s eyes light up at the word. The doctor got up and brought the tray to the kitchen and brought out the dessert and wine. Tsuzuki eyed the dessert as Muraki placed it in front of him. It was fresh apple cobbler with ice-cream on the side. Tsuzuki wanted to eat it all right then but he didn’t want to seem like a slob to Muraki. Almost all the fear he had washed away at the mention of pie

“ Tsuzuki you can eat the cobbler any way you want. You don’t have to wait for me.”, Muraki said kindly. Tsuzuki was delighted to here this and he ate his meal in record time. This time Tsuzuki waited for Muraki to eat. Muraki looked up at Tsuzuki when he was done, “ Do you want the rest of mine?”

“ Umm... no.. go ahead you eat it, it’s your piece.”, Tsuzuki said but deep inside he wanted more of the pie.

“ Are you sure Tsuzuki, I won’t be able to finish the rest of it?”

“ Well... ok then.”, Tsuzuki said and grabbed Muraki’s plate eating the rest.

“ Would you like some wine, Tsuzuki or would you like some sake?”

“ Sake, please.”, something is up here, why is he acting all nice to me?

Muraki poured a glass of sake for Tsuzuki and poured a glass of wine for himself. “ Come with me Tsuzuki, let’s drink in the den.”, Muraki said and held out a hand for him. They walked in silence to the den and sat down by the fire.


Muraki was still drinking from the same glass when Tsuzuki was on his fifth. Tsuzuki was deep in thought and didn’t realize that Muraki kept filling up his glass after every drink he took. Tsuzuki looked at Muraki, “ Why? What do you want from me?”

Muraki just smiled at Tsuzuki grabbing his shirt and pulled him close to Muraki’s face. His face had an eerie glow from the fire. “ This is what I always wanted from you since I saw your picture in my grandfather’s file.” Muraki kissed Tsuzuki on the lips lightly. Tsuzuki was trying to comprehend what was going on that he didn’t notice Muraki pushed him to the ground lightly.

Muraki took advantage of shinigami’s confusion and deepened the kiss. As Tsuzuki gasped doctor snaked his tongue into Tsuzuki’s mouth. Muraki rubbed his tongue against the younger man’s trying to get a response. Getting none he crawled on top of Tsuzuki and grinded his hips down.

Tsuzuki moaned from the feeling and started to panic. He tried to shove Muraki off of him but to no avail. Tsuzuki was too intoxicated up to a point where his strength wasn’t enough to get away from the doctor. Muraki pulled away and looked down at his shinigami, a smile on his lips.

“ Stop fighting it Tsuzuki, I know you want this just as much as I do.”, Muraki said as he bent down and nibbled on Tsuzuki’s ear, his fingers working on taking off the man’s tie. Tsuzuki started to shiver with pleasure and cursed his body for betraying his mind.

“ Please... Muraki... stop it”, Tsuzuki said, still trying to push him off. Muraki smiled at Tsuzuki’s efforts, “ But Tsuzuki your body tells me different.” Muraki put his hand on Tsuzuki’s manhood and started to stroke it. The friction from the fabric increased the feeling, making it easier for Tsuzuki to become hard.

Tsuzuki bit his lower lip to suppress his moans from Muraki’s touch. “ See”, Muraki said as he started to pat Tsuzuki’s now growing bulge. “ Let me show you what you’re capable of.”

Muraki undid Tsuzuki’s belt and pulled it off then began to unzip his pants when Tsuzuki grabbed his hands to stop him. “ Stop fighting”, Muraki said as he grabbed Tsuzuki’s hands and bound them together with the belt. Muraki put guardains’s hands above his head and placed the same spell he used on Hisoka to keep them in place. He resumed to unzip Tsuzuki’s pants now that Tsuzuki could no longer stop him.

“Stop... Stop this Muraki” While caressing Tsuzuki’s cheek Muraki replied, “You can’t hide your true feelings forever Tsuzuki.”

“Muraki!”, Tsuzuki blushed at the thought of Muraki’s implication. Muraki placed one finger over Tsuzuki’s lips, “Shh” Muraki leaned over and gently kissed Tsuzuki on the lips, putting his thumbs in Tsuzuki’s pants.

“ Please don’t do this to me”, Tsuzuki pleaded.

Muraki leaned forward and began to kiss Tsuzuki on his neck right above his collar bone. Tsuzuki closed his eyes and mumbled “ Muraki please..”

Muraki moved up and whispered into his ear, “Are you afraid?”

“ Afraid?”

“ Yes, afraid. Are you afraid that you will develop feelings for me Mr. Tsuzuki.”

In shock, Tsuzuki looked over at Muraki in confusion. \'What is he talking about? I could never fall in love with Muraki ...could I?\'

Muraki moved off of Tsuzuki and started to pull down the shinigami’s pants, making Tsuzuki start to panic even more. He tried to kick Muraki once he was off but Muraki easily dodged. He pulled Tsuzuki’s pants off successfully along with his socks and shoes then again sat on top of him.

Muraki stared down at the shinigami, Tsuzuki now only in his boxers and shirt. Muraki leaned over and started to kiss Tsuzuki right under his neck as he began to unbutton Tsuzuki’s shirt. As Muraki undid the buttons he would kiss the newly exposed flesh. When the doctor got to the last button he pulled the shirt up to the younger man’s hands. Tsuzuki started to shiver from the bareness from his body despite being near being close to a fire.

Muraki began to run his hands down Tsuzuki’s body watching the mixed emotions that played across his face. Muraki ran his hands back up again stopping at Tsuzuki’s nipples. Muraki leaned over and began to lick Tsuzuki’s nipple while caressing the other. He began to roll it between his thumb and forefinger.

Tsuzuki felt the cold air now replaced with the warmth of Muraki’s touch. A moan escaped his mouth as Muraki worked on his nipples. Muraki brought both nipples to hardness when he lifted his head to look at Tsuzuki. Tsuzuki let out a whimper as Muraki pulled away, “ See Tsuzuki, I told you that your body wanted this more than your mind.. Now I’ll have to punish you for lying to me and yourself.”

Muraki leaned over and kissed Tsuzuki right under his navel, then he ran his tongue up Tsuzuki’s body giving Tsuzuki chills. Muraki moved his hand down to Tsuzuki’s boxers sticking his thumbs into his boxers, and slowly pulled them down to his ankles. Tsuzuki was too busy battling with his inner demons to notice Muraki removed him boxers. The doctor looked down very pleased at the sight of Tsuzuki’s arousal.

Muraki wrapped his fingers around Tsuzuki’s cock and started to pump him slowly. Tsuzuki started to squirm, “Muraki....stop!” Tsuzuki shook his head in denial. He wanted it but didn’t at the same time.

“ Sorry but I have no intentions of stopping here.”

Muraki moved forward towards Tsuzuki and began to kiss him roughly and aggressively, thrusting his cock faster. Muraki slowly slid his tongue into the shinigami’s mouth. Muraki stopped pumping Tsuzuki and started to kiss Tsuzki’s chest moving farther down towards his cock. Muraki gently moved his lips over Tsuzuki’s cock and licked the pre-cum off.

Tsuzuki couldn’t help but shiver from the over drive of pleasure. Muraki brought Tsuzuki’s cock into his mouth. Tsuzuki bit his lip in pleasure. He didn’t want to give Muraki the satisfaction of him actually enjoying this.

Tsuzuki wanted to pull Muraki’s hair up to make him stop but the spell held his hands in place. Muraki began to suck Tsuzuki’s cock making him moan in pleasure. He couldn’t hold himself back anymore. Tsuzuki tried to buck into Muraki’s mouth to make more of him be taken in but Muraki was sitting on Tsuzuki holding him in place. The fare casting a perfect silhouette on the wall.

The doctor loved the thought of Tsuzuki wanting him as badly as he wanted the purpleeyed shinigami. The thought of being able to pleasure him without resisting made it so much better. Tsuzuki let out another moan. Muraki began to suck his cock more aggressively, wanting to taste Tsuzuki so bad.

\" Ahh.. Muraki...\", Tsuzuki moaned. It felt so good but wrong at the same time. \" Muraki... don\'t...\", Tsuzuki pleaded; it felt as if he was about to explode. Tsuzuki inhaled a sharp breath, and had cum in Muraki’s mouth while screaming out the doctor’s name.

Muraki moved his eyes and looked toward Tsuzuki, enjoying the sight and taste of the guardian. Tsuzuki was indeed enjoying this. Muraki placed his hands on Tsuzuki’s thighs and began tracing his fingers up and down them. Muraki once again leaned over and kissed Tsuzuki on the forehead, while Tsuzuki laid there panting.

“ Very good Tsuzuki, now it is time for some rest.”

Tsuzuki laid there as the sight of Muraki got dimmer and dimmer. He slowly faded into unconsciousness. Muraki picked up Tsuzuki and placed him in his bed.. He undid the watch on Tsuzuki’s wrist and slipped it into his jacket. The doctor pulled the covers over him and laid next to Tsuzuki. He leaned over and kissed Tsuzuki one last time before the night ended, “ Good night Mr. Tsuzuki.”

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Well, what do you think? This is my first Yaoi fanfic so I appologize to those who didn\'t like it. Oh, I noticed after rereading this part that I didn\'t give Muraki anything. For the handjob I mean. I don\'t know what Muraki could have used right then and there without leaving the spot. The only thing I came up with was the wine sitting near by. In my opinion that would have been worse than what I wrote. If there are any ideas for this then write them and I\'ll edit it in later. Thanks for all your support guys. I\'m happy to know that people are still reading this story. See you in the next chapter.