Insensitive

I do not own the
song Going Under, it belongs to the wonderful Evan*escence. Yes, I
misspelled it on purpose, I am of the belief there is a troll out
there trying to make us stop sharing the inspiration of wonderful
music. I point to the disappearance of Lodrelhai’s wonderful
AMV “Ran” from everywhere I knew to look, as my
evidence. Which is sad both for those missing out, and I believe for
the artist as well. It was that AMV that introduced me to them, and
forced me to buy the CD.

If you haven’t
heard the CD Fallen, you should.

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“If Siberian
and Bombay were fit, it would be a different mission. But as it
is...you’ll have to hide this from them.” Manx shook her
head at having said something so stupid. Of course he would hide a
solo mission. Especially this one.

“Crashers?”

“Can not go
where you can. It is not a rescue, Abyssinian.”

“Hai.”

Now
I will tell you what I’ve done for you.

Three
widely-separated patrols, each taken out within an hour of the
others, to draw attention outward.

50,000
tears I’ve cried.

One
guard died with his pants open, relieving himself by the wall.

Screaming,

Locker
room, where the guards going on and off duty changed. Two men, one
woman he had to chase, and a uniform.

Deceiving,

He
carried his katana wrapped in his coat. One at a time, three enemies
took the uniform at face value until it was too late.

And
bleeding for you.

The
blood smears were a problem. He was leaving a trail, for any left
alive to follow. He didn’t have time to clean up.

And
you still won’t hear me.

So
he’d just have to not leave any alive.

....I’m
going under....

None
deserved life anyway.

Don’t
want your hand this time.

Especially
not him.

I’ll
save myself.

Fifteen
minutes.

Maybe
I’ll wake up for once (wake up for once)

Make
sure of the target, detonate the charges.

Not
tormented daily defeated by you.

Simple.

Just
when I thought I’d reached the bottom.

He
caught himself marking the escape routes Kritiker suggested, shook
his head.

I
dive again.

No
rescue.

I’m
going under (going under)

“Aww,”
said that annoying sarcastic voice in his head that sounded like
Kudou at his worst, “did little Aya get his feelings hurt?”

Drowning
in you (drowning in you)

This
was not about that. This was a mission. From Kritiker, delivered by
Manx.

I’m
falling forever (falling forever)

“And
you just jumped at it, didn’t you?”

I’ve
got to break through.

It
had to be done. Kritiker could not allow—

I’m
going under.

“If
it were Ken or Omi or six months ago, you would have planned
differently.”

Blurring
and stirring the truth and the lies.

“What
did you think would happen? That you’d live happily ever
after?”

So
I don’t know what’s real and what’s not.

Distracted,
he almost got shot. “Focus,” he snarled, as the guard
fell dead at his feet.

Always
confusing the thoughts in my head.

“Oh,
yes, focus,” the voice sneered. “Don’t think.
Not until it’s too late.”

So
I can’t trust myself anymore.

A
mission. It was a mission, he had orders—

I
dive again.

“And
Abyssinian always follows orders.”

I’m
going under (going under)

“Did you think
it would last?”

Drowning
in you (drowning in you)

“Did
you think you deserved him?”

I’m
falling forever (falling forever)

“You
want to make him pay for your weakness.”

I’ve
got to break through,

This
was a mission. He walled the voice away, took note of his
surroundings, compared it to the maps he’d been given.

So
go on and scream.

Ignore
it. Mission. Turn right.

Scream
at me, I’m so far away.

Mission.
Pay. Third door.

I
won’t be broken again.

Here.

I’ve
got to breathe.

Security
card. He had three. Red was from the highest-ranking.

I
can’t keep going under.

Four
obstacles, and the target. Step, parry, slice, don’t bother
dodging the blood.

I
dive again.

Parry,
slice, step, dodge, back, slice, more blood... The third screamed as
she died, the target lifted his head.

I’m
going under (going under)

Don’t
look. Swing. Last obstacle. Don’t wipe the blade yet.

Don’t
wipe it ever.

Drowning
in you (drowning in you)

He
knew. Yohji knew, he could see it in his eyes. He licked swollen
lips in a bruised face, and spoke. “Kami, you’re
beautiful.”

That
was what he chose to say?

I’m
falling forever (falling forever)

He
lifted his sword.

I’ve
got to break through,

“Do
it. Do us both a favor.”

I’m
going under (going under)

He
lowered it.

Going
under (drowning in you)

“Will
you hurry up? That’s what they sent you for, isn’t it?”

“May
I...kiss you?”

Yohji’s
eyes widened. “You’re not planning on getting out. God
damn you, Aya, I’m not worth that! Get out, damn it, run!”

Aya
raised his sword, attacked the restraints while Yohji cursed him.

I’m
going under.

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On
the CD case, the lyrics say "I'm dying again." However,
I've listened to this song thousands of times, and I think they
goofed on the liner. "I dive again," makes a LOT more
sense, and I swear that's what Amy Lee sings.

I
invite you to buy the song and decide for yourself. ;) But in the
meantime, won't you review?