Secret Confessions

Mana and Shinji returned to class, and the school day continued on. Last period ended and both Mana and Shinji wished each other a safe journey home. Shinji’s mom had promised that Kaworu could come over for the night, but since Kaworu didn’t go to school today Shinji decided to take some measures of his own. He opened his backpack on the sidewalk near a phone booth, he looked up class 2-A, and found Nagisa Kaworu in the student directory. He read the address, it was the same complex Rei lived in the Negraido Apartment complex, and it was only a good ten minute walk from the school.
Shinji picked up the phone, sliding his phone card through, and dialed Kaworu’s number. The phone rang for five successions and then Shinji got the answering machine. “Hey this is Kaworu; sorry I’m not here right now please leave a message and I’ll get back to you.” BEEP.
“Hey Kaworu it’s me Shinji, I’m just calling to say since you didn’t come to school today I’m going to your apartment and pick you up there. See you in a few.”
Shinji put the receiver back and exited the phone booth. The sun was still high up in the sky because of the summer days. He went down the main road the school was on. He soon found a fork in the road, the left leading to his house and the right to Kaworu’s.
This is my last chance. He thought and headed for the right, running up the street to the big complex in the distance. The clouds in the sky seemed to darken near the building. It didn’t take long by the time Shinji reached the elevator to the complex that it started to rain. He looked and there was a sign reading “Out of Order” on the elevator doors. Shinji sighed hoping the world would comply nicely and let Kaworu be home. He found the stairs and ran up them climbing higher and higher, getting wet from the rain.
Shinji climbed endlessly getting soaked to the bone. He then finally reached his destination; the ninth floor. Shinji opened up the student directory to make sure his eyes weren’t playing tricks on him. There it was, Nagisa, Kaworu Class 2-A lives in Negraido Complex apartment 909. He put the book back in his bag and was staring at the door to room 909.
Shinji stared at the door for two minutes listening to the rain and then he moved to open the door. He put his moistened hands on the doorknob and turned, shouting “Its me Shinji, I’m coming in Kaworu.” He opened the door to find it unlocked and when he looked in all he found was a bed, a kitchen, a bathroom. Not even a television was there but a bookcase of many books. The one thing missing from this picture was Kaworu.
Shinji fell on the floor in tears, wondering where his love went. Shinji crawled up into a ball lying there, listening to the rain. Exhausted from the rain Shinji fell into a slumber escaping his harsh reality for a much fluffy and less rational world. As Shinji lay on the floor with the door open a dark figure approached the innocent Shinji. The person shook Shinji awake. “Get up.” The person said.
“Why be so wimpy?” the figure said picking Shinji from the floor and onto his feet. Shinji couldn’t make out who it was from his reddened eyes.
“Why are you here?”
“I-I was looking for Kaworu, he’s a classmate of mine, a good friend too.”
“I’m surprised you’d be looking for him, today is just another one of his monthly work days.”
“Wo-work days?” Shinji asked trying to figure why Kaworu would need to work.
“Yes, Kaworu works to pay for this housing; he has no parents so he’s on his own. I only ask that he works for my brother once a month and I let him stay here. And the tips he makes provide him money for food.” By now Shinji could make out an old looking manager type woman.
“You should change out of those clothes and drink some tea, would you like me to help?” the woman offered.
“If you would be so kind.”
“I’ll go turn on the stove and make some tea, while I’m in the kitchen you should change into some dryer clothes, I’m sure Kaworu wouldn’t mind if you borrowed an outfit from him.”
Shinji took off his white button down shirt and his black pants as the old woman entered the kitchen and filled the tea pot with water and green tea leaves. Shinji went through Kaworu’s drawers and found a pair of blue denim jeans, a white t-shirt, and a blue old navy sweat jacket. Shinji quickly changed into them as the old woman returned with a pot of tea and two cups.
“I am Keiko, the manager of this building. I was doing my rounds when I found Kaworu’s door open and you sleeping in his room. Care to tell me why?”
Shinji blushed slightly. “Well, Kaworu and I had made plans for him to sleep over and he didn’t show up to school, so I got worried and called up his apartment but no one answered and then, I thought I would visit him in person so I looked up his address and here I am.”
“You must’ve had to climb all those stairs and in the rain, no wonder you were sleeping when I found you.”
“Yeah…do you know when Kaworu will be back?” Shinji said sipping his tea.
“Hmm…shortly I should assume, but the sun is already setting, I think you might have to sleep over here instead.”
“Wha!?” Shinji looked outside to see that indeed the sun was setting and the day was already over.
“Umm is it okay if I use the phone to call my parents then?”
“Sure go right ahead.” Keiko said handing Shinji the receiver of a dial phone; it rested on a corner of the coffee table.
Shinji dialed his house and his mother quickly picked up. “Is that you Shin?”
“Yes mom it’s me. I’m at Kaworu’s apartment.”
“Oh okay, I got worried when the sun started to set and you weren’t home yet, so are you going to stay over there instead?”
“Actually that’s why I called, it seems Kaworu was working so he’ll be home soon, the manager of the building is here with me so I think I’ll be fine for now.”
“Okay good, then just be safe my little Shin.”
“I will mom.” And Shinji hung up the phone.
“Okay now that that is settled. Let’s watch some television.”
“But…I thought Kaworu had no TV?”
Just as Shinji said that, Keiko pulled out a handheld TV from Kaworu’s bed.
“I gave this to him when he first came here.”
They sat waiting for Kaworu to come home watching a baseball game. By the end of the fifth inning Kaworu came home. Keiko looked at her watch and shut off the TV.
“I’ll leave you two alone.” She said and stepped out.


“Umm…hey Shinji, how did you get here?”
Kaworu was still wearing his uniform, he had on a white dress shirt, a black jacket, black pants, a black bowtie, and even dress shoes on.
“I walked here, when you didn’t come to school I got worried so I called and no one answered so I thought I would come here and check on you. Then your manager Keiko came and told me you worked for her brother once a month for rent.”
Kaworu sat down next to him, his jacket and bowtie off, and his dress shirt half unbuttoned exposing his gleaming albino skin.
“You must’ve gotten wet in that rainstorm.”
“I was alright, but Keiko took my clothes to dry and she said I should find something from your dresser.”
“I think it suits you quite well.” Kaworu said putting a hand on Shinji.
“When I got here though I was sad you weren’t here. I cried because all day I worried about you.” Shinji started to sob and found himself in the arms of Kaworu lying on his chest.
“It’s okay I’m sorry I made you cry, I won’t do it again.”
Shinji lifted his head from Kaworu’s chest, he leaned over and Kaworu stepped back putting a hand down on the floor to give him balance. Shinji leaned closer to Kaworu and Shinji’s lips lapsed over Kaworu’s. Kaworu moved his hand under Shinji’s sweat jacket and t-shirt, starting to fondle his chest. Shinji moaned allowing Kaworu to enter Shinji’s mouth with his tongue. Both boys began to explore each other’s mouths.
Shinji started to unbutton Kaworu’s shirt and Kaworu took off Shinji’s excess clothing, except his pants. Kaworu lay on top of Shinji both wrapped around the other. Kaworu gave faint kisses down Shinji’s body, from his neck down to his naval. Shinji moaned as Kaworu descended further and further to the bulge in Shinji’s pants.
“Is it just your pants or are you happy to see me Shinji?” Kaworu said unbuttoning Shinji’s pants.
“Wa-wait, Kaworu.” Shinji said trying to hold back his hormones.
“Are you sure this is what you want? You won’t have a guilty conscience doing this?”
“I wouldn’t have started if this wasn’t what I wanted Shinji.” Kaworu said pulling off Shinji’s pants and underwear.
“Hey, no fair! Why is it I’m the one that’s naked and you’re not?”
“Fine I’ll make it ‘fair’ for you Shinji.” Kaworu said, taking off his pants. The sleep over at Kaworu’s turned out to be more than just a friendly get-together for Shinji. It was the start of Kaworu’s commitment to Shinji, his adoration and affection to Shinji and Shinji’s returned feelings for Kaworu.
Kaworu slowly moved his hands down Shinji’s body, feeling the warm body that was now his lover. Shinji trembled at the soft touch of Kaworu’s skin on his, he even moaned slightly as Kaworu wrapped his hands around Shinji’s erection. He quivered as Kaworu’s hands moved in a rhythm; Shinji didn’t want to just enjoy this. He wanted Kaworu to enjoy it too. Shinji moved his hands around Kaworu’s body and quickly found his lover’s erection.
Kaworu released a moan as his hand moved faster around Shinji’s erection. Shinji moved away from Kaworu for a moment. “What’s wrong?” Kaworu said in between heavy breaths. Shinji crawled on top of Kaworu and kissed his body lightly all the way down till he reached Kaworu’s erection. Shinji licked the shaft and the tip of the head before he tried to swallow all of Kaworu and bobbed up and down in a slow manner.
Kaworu began to breathe heavier as Shinji engulfed him but he was not satisfied with the pace. Kaworu grabbed Shinji’s head and forced Shinji, moving his head up and down furiously. Kaworu became flushed and went over the edge, his sperm spewing into Shinji’s mouth.
“So I’ll take it that you enjoyed that.” Shinji said licking off remaining cum from Kaworu’s head. Kaworu ruffled Shinji’s hair in response, he kissed Shinji passionately and moved down his body and copied Shinji. He slowly and lovingly took Shinji into his mouth, tongue wrapping around his lover’s erection. Shinji panted and moaned at this new feeling. Before Shinji could reach his climax Kaworu stopped, he flipped Shinji upside down so he was lying on his stomach.
“Why d-did yo-you stop Kaworu?” Shinji asked slowly coming back to reality from his pleasures. In answer Kaworu licked his fingers and slowly pressed one against Shinji’s entrance.
“Why not go all the way tonight my love?” Kaworu told Shinji as his digits plunged into Shinji, as Shinji got used to Kaworu’s finger he slowly inserted more until three of his fingers were moving in and out of Shinji. He moaned louder than normal as his pain morphed into pleasure. “I think you’re ready.” Kaworu said he grabbed some lube he hid away in a drawer. Kaworu squeezed some out and coaxed his new found erection. Shinji lay on all fours, ass in the air waiting for his lover.
Kaworu slowly put his length in Shinji; he could feel Shinji’s body trembling in response. “Relax Shinji; it’ll only feel worse if you don’t.”
Shinji relaxed his lower muscles; Kaworu slowly went in and out of Shinji. He moved a hand over Shinji’s erection and found a rhythm to satisfy both motions. Both Kaworu and Shinji were panting and moaning, Kaworu quickened the pace. His body rocking against Shinji’s and Kaworu’s hand racing up and down Shinji’s shaft. Kaworu gave one more throbbing plunge into Shinji as his hand brushed forcefully down Shinji.
At that moment both boys reached their limits, Shinji spewed his seed all over Kaworu’s hand and Kaworu had let his sperm seek refuge in Shinji. They sat there breathing heavily as their passions for lust ceased. Kaworu slowly went to the kitchen to wash away the cum from his hands and pulled out a futon. Shinji curled into the bedding and Kaworu joined. They fell asleep side by side, embracing one another.
Time went by truly fast for Tokyo-3, more and more people began to come because Tokyo-3 was now the new capital of Japan, Mana encouraged Shinji and Kaworu more, partly because she knew it would make Kaworu happy and partly because she started to fall in love with Shinji’s friend Kenske. They had been seeing each other after school watching clouds and airplanes fly by in the fields and playing war then camping out at night.
All three of the stooges now were in relationships, Toji and his existing relationship with the class rep; Hikari, Kenske with Mana, and Shinji with Kaworu. All three couples would sit on the rooftop during lunch sharing each other’s lunches, flirting with each other. Overall enjoying the life they had and the love they shared. From Mana’s encouragement, Shinji and Kaworu became more intimate with each other to the point where Yui; Shinji’s mom, would rarely see her little son. He would be staying after school with Kaworu or be sleeping over at Kaworu’s. It was on one Saturday when Kaworu worked, that Yui confronted her son about his relationship with Kaworu. Shinji was in his room playing a game when his mother came in.
“Hi, Shin. I hardly see you now a days.”
“I know I’m sorry mom, its just…”
“You like being around Kaworu don’t you? It’s okay I understand, he’s a good friend…you like him as a friend don’t you?”
Shinji turned to look at his mother. Her eyes seemed to say ‘I know’ Shinji started to tear up and went over to hug his mother.
“Oh mom, I’m sorry if I hurt you.”
“No, I’m just happy you’ve found someone that makes you shine for your bright future. But, instead of always going over his house you don’t mind if he comes over here, now and then? So I can see my son with the person he loves.” Yui said with a smile.
“Sure” Shinji said smiling.
Later in the night Shinji’s phone rang, Kaworu was on the other line.
“Hey Kaworu, how was work?” he said sleepily.
“It was busy; the café was full of couples for Valentine’s Day. I’m sorry I couldn’t spend it with you, Shinji.”
“It’s okay but umm, for tomorrow instead do you mind sleeping at my place?”
“Sure why not, I got a cake set we can share that my boss gave me. But why so suddenly..?”
Shinji explained the situation, and how his mom wanted to see the two boys together.
“That’s sweet of her, I don’t mind. We can all share the cake then. It’s getting late though, so if we want to spend the day with each other we both have to get going to bed.”
“Yeah, I’ll see you tomorrow Kaworu, g’night and sweet dreams.”
“You too, Shinji...”
The next day Shinji was woken by his mother; Yui cleaning the apartment.
“Mom why clean this early?”
“Well I don’t think it would be polite to leave the apartment in such a mess when your friend is coming over. So come on get dressed and out of bed so we’ll be ready when he heads over.”
“Alright, alright...” Shinji said agreeing with his mom even though he lacked sleep, he took a bath and got dressed, he even helped his mother with cleaning around the apartment.
Shinji heard the doorbell rang as he finished cleaning his room. He ran for the door. But his mother beat him to the door. She opened it letting Kaworu in.
“Oh Kaworu what a surprise, it’s so nice to see you.” Yui said with a sincere smile.
“Hi, Mrs. Ikari! It’s good to see you.” Kaworu said with a smile.
He stepped in the apartment and saw Shinji trying to restrain himself, because he did not know how he should act now that his mother knew. Kaworu decided to help out and walked over to Shinji and gave him a warm embrace.


“Aww, you guys make a cute couple.” Yui said.
Shinji’s mother went to grab her purse and came back in. “Okay well I have to go get some shopping done, now you two behave while I’m gone. And since you’re sleeping over, remember Shinji don’t stay up too late. You both have physicals tomorrow for the NERV facility.” And she left out the door.
“We do!?” was all both Shinji and Kaworu could say.
“Oh in the midst of this I forgot, here is the cake set I got from working.” Kaworu placed a brown box on the kitchen table.
“We can all share some later on.” Kaworu said with a smile.
Shinji and Kaworu stayed in the living room, they brought two mats to sleep on and had a stack of DVDs to watch as Shinji sat in Kaworu’s lap. Both enjoyed each other’s company. When the world was quiet and night had arrived, Shinji and Kaworu went to sleep. Kaworu slipped into Shinji’s mat instead of his own.
“Hey, Kaworu go sleep in your own mat.”
“Come on, Shinji it would be better if we slept together anyways. You can’t complain.”
Shinji just blushed and slipped in beside him. Their legs entwined and their arms wrapped around each other.
The next morning their lives would change, they and other students would become subjects to NERV’s agenda. They’d help create mankind’s ultimate achievement…Evangelion.
TO BE CONTINUED…