Just another sin

(( Quik An: This chapter is in Ashita's/ The Friend's point of view...))


Doku-ni.. Doku-ni Kami-samma when you really need him Where is he... Ne?
... I ask you this, where is he when you truly need him..
He certainly wasn't there when I needed him...
No...
When we needed him...
I only wish I could talk with Koumyou about this...
But..I can't.....
I don't want to burden him once again with my problems...
He's already helped me once...
And That was just a drop in the bucket compared to this
This thing that's spiraled out of control...
And swallowed me completely to drowned me in it's depths

Zettai Omoidatta......
It was the very moment my heart split in two...
She was beautiful... my friend..
I won't lie...
I love her to death for all the joy and beauty she's opened my eyes to but the things I've seen, That I experienced that night.
They make me worry for her. That man she's with... He.. He can't be good for her...
No....
"Haa-chan" As she affectionately calls him isn't good for her at all..
Demo...
Who am I to tell her this....

I have no business telling her anything....
'specially when I found my self in the same position she has...
I suppose I should try to explain it....
I'd visited her like so many times before...
That day she confessed to me that she was rutting
and more than alittle "Needy".
I asked what she thought would help.
She asked me to show her how to take care of the problem...
It embarrassed me but how could I resist with that face..
I showed her what to do..
and Watched as she sat there pleasuring her self
with an amused smile and a blush of my own
as she asked if she was doing it right...
I had sensed him at the door.... but I said nothing..
I knew he was watching.. The bastard..
I heard her.. When she released....
and the sound of her voice.. Was beautiful ..
I swear I'd never heard a more bewitching sound...
I had to say something... I whispered to her to look to the door.
She whipped around with fear she knew now...
I just assumed it'd be akward as he walked in...

I was wrong.... The smile on his face so fake...
I'd since moved to a closer position making it
all the easier for him to violate the both of us...
I lay there when it was over my mind reeling as I thought about
What'd happened and wondered how many times he'd done this to her...
It truley sickened me.... just to think about it... was bad enough...
But then I heard her mutter.."Aiishiteru Haa-chan.."
before she she slept.
She loved him?.. Hilarious..
Even I could tell her words were only lust ridden
Just like before as she came...
when she screamed HIS name..
It was probably only something... She'd trained herself to do..
She diddn't know any better...
...poor girl...
Osanai Ningyou..

That's what he'd called me at the door before I left the next day..
His hand locking on my wrist
disgustingly skilled lips finding ther way to my neck
then my ear as he whispered almost growling that I'd better come back...
Who is he to order me around....
But I did go back and I probably will again
Not because he wants me to but,
Because I don't want MY Lilliana
No MY Precious Li-chan
to be alone...with... him
I'd rather she stayed with me But..
Then you'd put me in the place of that bastard.....
Probably already have...
So I'll continue to go..
Till she realizes... she doesn't need to stay in place like that...
Omoidatta...
Watashi-na Otesudai....
In this maelstrom of emotions and decisions..
Demo....
Watashi-wa Shinanai
Yakusoku.....