Changed Memories

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Suzaku murred and shook his head. "I don't...." He said, glancing to Lelouch some. The boy smiled as he came to a stop in front of them, before he frowned. "Brother, what's wrong?" Rolo asked, tilting his head.

Lelouch blinked looking to the teen confused before looking up to Suzaku. "How come he's calling me brother?"

"Lelouch...This is Rolo...Your brother..." Suzaku said, looking away some. "From a different mother." He added, and Rolo shot him a small glare, before turning worried eyes on Lelouch.

"What happened to you, Big Brother?! What did Suzaku do to you?" He then asked, blinking when Suzaku stepped between them, facing Rolo.

"He slipped last night and hit his head. He's fine, Rolo, now go away. He should be resting right now, and he doesn't need the questions." Suzaku said.

Lelouch didn't understand that the other was an imposter or that he wasn't really his brother. But Lelouch figured that it most of been from his memories being taken away by the accident. "I'm fine Rolo I'm just staying with Suzaku he's helping me out and helping me recover my memories." He smiled cheerfully.

Rolo frowned and looked past Suzaku. "Don't you think you should stay with family?" He asked. Suzaku smiled a bit. "If he goes back with you, he'll be questioned, and it was advised that he not be questioned." He said, keeping hold of Lelouch's hand, starting to lead him away now.

"Why doesn't he stay with us then at your room... It might help me remember everyone, beside Nunnally is in the hospital and Rolo must be lonly right now." He frowned sadly unaware that he wasn't supposed to know anything about Nunnally.

Rolo's eyes narrowed and he grabbed Lelouch's other wrist before they were too far away. "Nunnally's not in the hos..." He started, only to have a hand shoved over his mouth.

"Rolo, that's not nice. Lying to Lelouch like that." Suzaku said, having released his hold on Lelouch in order to defend himself in case Rolo decided to fight.

Lelouch blinked once he was pulled dropping the kitten the process. He pushed away from Suzaku moving now to chase after the kitten that was running down the hall.

Both turned to look after Lelouch, Suzaku letting go of Rolo and chasing after him. "Lelouch! Get back here!" He called. Rolo's eyes narrowed and he turned to head back to inform C2 of his discovery about Lelouch.

Lelouch came to a stop at the end of the hallway picking the kitten back up into his arms as he sat on his knees petting the kitten softly.

Suzaku came to a stop next to him, sighing heavily. "Lelouch, I'm not going to tell you again, stop taking off like that." He said, holding his hand out. "Let's go before someone else spots you." He then said.

Lelouch frowned as he took the others hand now holding the kitten close as he followed Suzaku back to his room. ".... Suzaku are you made at me...?"

Suzaku opened his mouth to reply, then closed it again and sighed lightly, shaking his head. "I'm just really concerned, is all. I'm sorry..." He replied.

Lelouch moved close to Suzaku resting his head against the others chest hiding his face away.

Suzaku blinked, then wrapped his arms around Lelouch's shoulders, frowning. "You okay, Lulu?" He asked, a little more worried.

".... I want to remember.... And I tried..." He whispered out finally.

Suzaku sighed, shaking his head. "It's not going to be that easy, Lelouch. Chances are, you may never get your memories back." He said, letting his eyes slide half closed, secretly wishing the latter was the case.

".... Would that make you happy Suzaku...?" Lelouch looked now to the other.

"Wha?" Suzaku asked, startled. "W-would what...Why would you ask such a thing?" He then asked, blinking a bit.

".... You seem just like your happy like when we were kids..." He frowned.

Suzaku shook his head. "I'm happy...That you're still alive...After that fall. And there are some things from the past few years that would be best that you forget, but I don't like seeing you like this." He replied.

Lelouch nodded sadly as he looked to Suzaku sadly. ".... I'm ready to go back to your room Suzaku...."

Suzaku nodded and took a gentle hold of Lelouch's wrist, leading him back to the room, keeping his own eyes glued to the floor.

Lelouch lowered his head as he held the kitten in his free hand not dareing to let the kitten slip away this time.

Once there, he opened the door to let Lelouch in first, stepping aside and watching Lelouch closely.

Lelouch stepped in keeping his head low as he moved in laying down on the others bed curling into a ball with the kitten playing with a string from the blanket.

Suzaku followed him in, frowning as he closed and locked the door behind him. "Forgive me, Lelouch, but you can't remember some of those things." He said to himself, walking over and sitting on the bed behind him. "You're upset..."

".... I really tried to remember..." He whispered out in a sad tone as he ran his fingers over the kittens back.

"You shouldn't try so hard. The important memories will come to you in time. Others will just fade into the background with time. The things that you don't need to remember." He said, lacing his fingers through Lelouch's hair, staring at the back of his head for a few moments.

".... I want to remember how we became a couple...." He whispered out.

Suzaku smiled a bit and shifted, laying down next to him. "If you want, I can tell you, Lulu." He spoke, closing his eyes as he rested his forehead against Lelouch's back.

".... No.... I want to remember on my own..." He whispered out sadly.

"If you insist, but it may be one of those memories you never get back." He spoke in a hushed tone.

".... I can wait." Lelouch moved rolling over to face the other. "When I remember we can have sex ok?"

Suzaku blinked, looking up, before he smiled a bit. "What if you never remember?" He asked, wrapping his arms around Lelouch's shoulders, rolling so he now lay ontop of Lelouch, though didn't move after that, keeping his eyes locked on Lelouch's.

".... Then we don't have sex..." He whispered back the grey kitten moving curling up beside Lelouch.

Suzaku's let eye twitched once, but he forced a small, sincere smile. "That seems a little unfair, Lulu. We have been together for about a year." He said, finding that lying was getting easier.

".... Then it shouldn't take that long to remember." He smiled in return.

Suzaku forced back a murr and rested his head on Lelouch's chest, sighing lightly. "You don't believe me, do you?"

"I do I just want to remember on my own..." He whispered.

He hummed a response, letting his body relax on top of Lelouch's, eyes sliding closed. "Alright then..." He then said after a moment.

".... Are you upset with me...?" He looked to the other frowning.

He shook his head and lifted his head a bit to look at him. "Of course not." He replied with a smile.

"Ok." He moved leaning up kissing the other gently. "Thank you for letting me keep the kitten Suzaku."

Suzaku returned the kiss and nodded in reply. "You're welcome, Lelouch." He replied, resting his head back on Lelouch's chest for a moment. "Do you still need me to check that wound on your head?" He then asked after a moment, suddenly remembering.

"No.... It's fine I can take care of myself." He replied softly.

Suzaku chuckled and shook his head. "If you were capable of doing so, you wouldn't be in this position." He said, in an attempt to lighten the mood as he moved and sat up, straddling the other's hips, his hands resting lightly on Lelouch's stomach. "Sorry, I shouldn't have made a joke out of that..."

"... It's ok..." He spoke softly looking to the other. "Were you really looking forward to the sex that much?"

He blinked, then shrugged and tilted his head. "A little, but I can wait, if you're wanting to." He replied in an indifferent tone, as if either decision Lelouch made wouldn't bug him much.

Lelouch nodded as he moved sitting up and sliding into the others lap.

Suzaku smiled and wrapped his arms around Lelouch's waist, tilting his head some. "Sure you're okay?"

"Yeah, I just feel a little off about everything..." He rubbed the side of his head.

"That's to be expected." He spoke, leaning up a bit. "Don't worry. I promise everything that's important will fall into place for you." He whispered out, capturing Lelouch's lips with his own.

Lelouch returned the kiss gently before breaking away to look at the other. ".... I don't remember Rolo at all.... I thought I would of... He looks to be the same age range as Nunnally and me..."

Suzaku frowned, shaking his head. "He didn't come into the picture until two years ago. He's about a year older than Nunnally. He'd been living with his mother up until a year ago..." He explained with a light shrug. "Though, he doesn't like Nunnally..." He added.

"Why doesn't he like Nunnally?" He whispered out.

"He's jealous of your relationship with her." He replied, frowning. "He said he was alone until he met you, and thinks Nunnally wants to keep you to herself." He added.

Lelouch looked to Suzaku sadly as he lowered his head. ".... I-I try to be fair to everyone."

Suzaku smiled and placed his fingertip under Lelouch's chin, getting him to tilt his head back up. "You are fair, Lulu. He's just being selfish."

".... Maybe I should spend time with him though tomorrow." He smiled kissing the others cheek.

Suzaku closed his eyes a bit and shook his head. "I'm sorry, Lelouch, but you really shouldn't." He said, feeling his heart start to beat in his chest, though kept a calm composure.

"Why? He's my brother just like Nunnally is my sister I need to take care of them.... Even if I don't remember Rolo..." Lelouch rubbed the side of his head.

Suzaku shook his head, frowning. "He'll lie to you to get you to himself." He said.

".... Are you scared he'll take me away from you...?"

Suzaku gave a small nod and lowered his head some, deciding he'd play a game. "Just last week, we got into an argument because Rolo told you lies about me." He said in a sad tone.

".... What kind of lies and why would I believe him...?" Lelouch frowned.

He shook his head. "He tried to tell you...That I was using you, and that I was going behind your back with someone else." He hid his face in Lelouch's chest. "He had pictures of me hanging out with Shirley, told you were on a date, and you believed it...I don't know why, you just did..." He continued.

Lelouch lowered his head now feeling guilt rise within him. ".... I'm sorry..." He whispered out.

He nodded and kept his arms wrapped around Lelouch's waist. "It's okay. We talked it over three days ago. I just don't want him lying to you anymore." He replied, lifting his head a bit to meet Lelouch's eyes.

Lelouch violet orbs met emerald as he tried his best not to cry. ".... Can we lay down Suzaku...?"

"Lelouch...?" Suzaku whispered, suddenly feeling guilty himself, before he offered a small smile and nodded, loosening his grip. "Of course." He replied, placing a small kiss on the other's cheek before he could move.

Lelouch slipped away from the other as he moved into his spot picking the sleeping kitten into his arms to hold while he slept.

Suzaku moved and laid down next to him, wrapping an arm around the other teen once more as he let his eyes slide closed. "Everything's going to be okay, Lelouch..." He whispered out.

Lelouch nodded faintly feeling the others arms wrap around his form.

"Rest well." He then said, seeming to nod off.


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Lelouch sat silently in front of the masked man known as Zero, thinking it was nothing more then a nightmare since Suzaku had scared him to avoid watching anything the other said. He found it weird that he could feel his hands moving to his face and touch cold metal and unhooking a lock in the back of the helmet. Once he let the mask away he opened his violet orbs to look up and see himself staring back at himself. Fear rose in his form as he moved his hand forward placing his hand against the cold glass a shiver running over his slender form as he shut his orbs tightly. Lelouch woke from his dream sitting straight up breathing hard as cold sweat rolled down his body as he tried to get a grip on what was going on.

Suzaku groaned, feeling the other move, rather sit up, but seemed too tired to wake up fully. He kept his arm wrapped around Lelouch's waist, and murred lightly. Though he didn't sit up, nor wake up fully, he let himself remain in a half conscious state, to listen for the other if he tried talking to him.

Lelouch rubbed his face as his kitten mulled as he tried to curl up and go back to sleep. Lelouch looked down running his fingers threw the kittens fur as he moved back down curling up against Suzaku.

Once more feeling the other more, Suzaku finally opened his eyes with a soft 'hum', staring at Lelouch's face for a short moment. "Lelouch?" He murmured, his voice laced with sleep, concern, and curiosity.

".... Just a bad dream I'm ok..." He whispered back as he rolled over his back to the other as he continued to pet the kitten.

Suzaku frowned this time and shifted behind Lelouch, sitting up a bit. He rested his hand on Lelouch's shoulder and rolled the teen back onto his back, moving to sit on top of his lower stomach, keeping the other teen's shoulders pinned down. "You were always a horrible liar, Lulu. You can never look me in the eyes longer than three seconds." He spoke, raising a brow.

Lelouch frowned looking up to the other sadly the kitten crawling away. ".... I-I had a nightmare that's all..." He spoke out sadly.

"About?" Suzaku asked, shifting and laying down on top of him, resting his head on Lelouch's chest now.

".... Do they know what Zero looks like under his mask...?" He whispered out.

Suzaku lifted his head quickly, his eyes widened a bit. "Wh-what? Why?" He asked, sitting back up.

".... I dreamt that I was behind his mask.... I don't know maybe it's because you have me so scared of him..." Lelouch looked back up to Suzaku still frowning.

Suzaku bit his lower lip, and looked down a bit, panic rising in his chest, but he hid his eyes to hide the fear. "I'm sorry...I didn't mean to scare you, it's just...I don't want you trying to get involved with the whole thing." He sighed, laying back down and wrapping his arms around Lelouch's shoulders. "I'm afraid of losing you..." He whispered.

Lelouch blinked when he heard the others last words his purple orbs filling with sadness. "... You won't lose me Suzaku.... You love me and I love you, you've never given me a reason to hate you that I can remember anyways and you've never lied to me..."

Suzaku nodded and relaxed a little bit, before tensing up a bit once more at Lelouch's last words, slowly nodding. "I know..." He muttered, forcing himself to relax.

".... I'm sorry I woke you up Suzaku... You should lay back down you got school in the morning..." Lelouch placed his hand against the others cheek.

"Can I use you as a pillow?" He asked quietly, slowly shifting to lay next to the other, not really waiting for a reply, using the other as a pillow.

Lelouch nodded faintly as he laid his head back against his pillow the kitten returning shortly after biting Suzaku on his hand hissing.

Suzaku squeaked and pulled his hand away, sitting back up and placing his hand in his mouth, where he had been bit, murring. "What the hell?" He asked, glaring at the kitten.

The kitten moved away from Suzaku and onto Lelouch's pillow curling in a ball.

He sighed lightly, forgiving the kitten before laying back down, and closing his eyes.

Lelouch stayed awake for a short time never really able to fall asleep right away as he moved his hand to rest against Suzaku's chest.

Suzaku smiled a bit in his sleep, curling up to Lelouch, soon falling into a deep sleep, until his alarm went off, telling him it was time for school.

Lelouch hadn’t slept at all, but had kept quiet so the other could rest knowing full well Suzaku would have another long day.

Suzaku jumped lightly when he heard his alarm and groaned, cursing lightly under his breath. "Is it time to get up already?" He groaned, glancing to the clock. "I suppose so..." He answered himself, sitting up. "You still awake?" He then asked, pushing himself up out of bed to go get ready.

Lelouch nodded faintly as he moved to curl up in a ball to rest. "I couldn't sleep, but I stayed put so you could rest." He smiled faintly.

Suzaku smiled as well and nodded. "Thank you, Lelouch. I slept well with you at my side." He spoke, pulling his closet open to get a clean uniform, disappearing inside the closet to get dressed. He reappeared a few minutes later, stretching his arms over his head.

".... Are you going to be home for lunch?" Lelouch murmured out as he sat up in bed pulling the kitten into his lap. "The kitty needs food Suzaku."

He nodded and smiled lightly. "I'll sneak off campus to bring you both something to eat." He replied, walking over to grab his shoes and school bag. "But, I won't be home after school. I have another meeting." He added.

The young teen looked up to the other blinking before looking down and nodding sadly.

He frowned and walked over, sitting down in front of him, brushing his bangs from his face. "I'm sorry, Lelouch. It's really important. It involves Zero..." He said, looking down some.

".... What about Zero?" He asked curiously keeping his head low.

He shook his head. "Not sure yet." He replied, pushing himself up again. "I'll be home around noon for lunch." He then said, smiling a bit.

Lelouch looked back up to Suzaku tilting his head to the side. "What do you do? What kind of job do you do Suzaku?"

"I'm a Knight of the Rounds..." Suzaku replied, looking away some. "I'm also Nunnally's Knight." He replied.

".... So you kill?" He spoke finally thinking things over now.

Suzaku stopped in his tracks, his muscles twitching a bit at the statement. "I'm not proud of it..." He said, letting his head drop. "But...It's necessary to protect the ones I care for most."

"So you'll kill Zero to save Nunnally and I?" He tilted his head to the side.

Suzaku didn't reply for a minute, before looking to the clock. "I'm late, Lelouch. I'm sorry, but we'll talk when I get back for lunch." He said, walking for the door.

Lelouch moved following the other now standing by the door way with the kitten in his arms. "Can I go visit my brother today?"

Riku Inari: Suzaku glanced at him, holding the door open, frowning a bit. "...I don't think that'd be wise. You really need to stay inside. Here." He said in a tone that said that was the end of that conversation.

Lelouch nodded faintly as he looked to the other one last time. ".... Have a good day at school Suzaku...."

"Thanks." He said, smiling shortly after. He placed a quick kiss on the other's cheek before he left, closing the door behind him.

Lelouch lowered his head once the door had closed. He allowed the kitten to jump to the floor as he moved now around the room looking now for something to keep him entertained until the other came back.


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A few hours had passed since Suzaku had left, and a young woman with long green hair and golden eyes walked up to the door, knocking on it. She wore a pair of white jeans and a white, long sleeved shirt, the sleeves belling out towards the bottom. In her free hand was a pizza, and she shifted her weight, waiting for the door to be answered.

Lelouch and the kitten both perked when they heard knocking on the door curiousity rising in the teen as he moved running to the door thinking Suzaku had returned, but lost his key. Lelouch opened the door smiling before it faded away when he saw it wasn't Suzaku.

"Good afternoon, Lelouch. Suzaku sent me here with this. He ordered it for you, but he had to go to something important involving the school counsel." The girl spoke, holding the pizza up, glancing past Lelouch. "May I come in?"

"I can take the pizza from here." He spoke up reaching out for the pizza.

She frowned and lowered the pizza a bit. "Lelouch, you need to remember." She said, pushing her way into the room, still holding the pizza.

Lelouch tried to shut the door only to be pushed back. "Suzaku will be coming back soon now go!"

She frowned and turned on her heel, after placing the pizza down, walking over to Lelouch so they were almost face-to-face. "I told you. Suzaku is busy." She said, resting her hand on his chest. "You had a nightmare this morning, didn't you? Involving Zero?" She asked, tilting her head.

Lelouch tensed when the girl spoke as she made her way in and towards him causing him to step back and grab his kitten. "I wasn't that loud..."

She smiled and leaned up a bit closer. "Lelouch, you have to remember." She spoke quietly. "Remember your promise to me." She added, keeping her eyes locked on his.

He froze in place the young kitten shivering in his hands. ".... I don't remember you..."

"My name is C2. A while back...You and I made a contract..." She started, frowning.

Lelouch tilted his head to the side confused. ".... We made a contract?" He whispered out.

She nodded. "You were to become..." She started. Just then, the door opened and she looked over, her eyes narrowing a bit. "Suzaku..." She murred. Suzaku's eyes narrowed and he stood where he was in the doorway, fists clenched. "Get out. I'd hate to have to show Lelouch what happens when my protective side kicks in." He growled, glaring at the woman, who then smiled.

Lelouch looked up to the other blinking confused by both then fear started to rise within him. ".... I-I Suzaku...."

"You can't lie to him forever, Suzaku. He'll remember, and then you'll be left all alone." She spoke up, stepping away from Lelouch.

Suzaku murred and walked further in. "Lelouch, you are, by all means, to stay away from that witch. She's a liar, and will say anything and everything to turn you against me." He said, keeping his eyes on her.

C2 just continued to smile, and shook her head. "Rolo and I will be waiting for you." She then stated, walking past them, keeping her eyes ahead of her. "Leader of the Black Knights." She then said, walking from the room, leaving Suzaku and Lelouch alone once more.

Lelouch looked back up to Suzaku taking hold of his arm as he looked to him frightened and unsure of what was going on. "..... She said you ordered pizza for me then forced her way in..... I tried to keep her out, but I couldn't..." Lelouch lowered his head as he spoke up once more. "..... Is she another sibling.... And who are the Black Knights?"

Suzaku turned to Lelouch now, shaking his head. "It's okay...And she's not a sibling. She's a torturous witch...And..." He trailed, the anger subsiding as he seemed to become depressed. "Lelouch, they're allies of Zero." He spoke in a quiet voice, looking down a bit now, avoiding looking at Lelouch. "Just...Ignore what she says, and stay away from her, alright?" He then asked.

Lelouch looked to the other sadly as he gave a faint nod. ".... I thought you were supposed to kill anyone who harmed Nunnally and I.... Why would Rolo be working with Zero..."

"Because...He cares about Zero's life...As much as I care about yours...Lelouch, no matter what...You'll always forgive me, won't you?" He asked, finally lifting his head to look at Lelouch in the eyes.

Lelouch nodded at the other as he smiled. "I'll always forgive you Suzaku."

Suzaku nodded, unable to find his voice at this point, reaching into his jacket. "I'm sorry...Lelouch..." He then forced out, slowly removing his hand from his jacket, keeping his eyes locked with Lelouch's still.

Lelouch blinked as his smile faded. "Are you scared that I won't love you anymore Suzaku?" He moved close wrapping his arms around Suzaku's neck as he moved in placing a kiss on the other's lips his smile returning.

Suzaku's eyes widened a bit, before they slid closed, wrapping one arm around Lelouch's form, finally pulling the dagger completely from his jacket, smiling a bit into the kiss, before breaking it. "I love you..." He spoke barely above a whisper as his grip on the weapon's handle tightened till his knuckles turned white, smiling sadly at the other.

Lelouch returned the smile as he moved resting his head against the other's shoulder.


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