Saiyuki: Reborn

Typical fanfic disclaimer: I don’t own Saiyuki so please don’t sue me! Please don’t use any of my characters without permission. This fic was written as a one-on-one RP so the POV tends to change often.

This story takes place in the modern world. After the events of the series, Sanzo, Hakkai, and Gojyo continue to be reincarnated over the next several hundred years, but their monkey friend ages differently. Goku is left on earth to seek them out each new generation.

Italics for thoughts

Author\'s Note: Just a quick one. My co-writer and I haven\'t seen
all of the anime yet, which was why we went for a reincarnation
story. Just so you know what we\'re assuming, we\'re saying that they
didn\'t become lovers until just after the Journey to the West. It
won\'t really come up, but just so everyone can get an idea of where
we were when we wrote this.

Please read and enjoy!


Saiyuki: Reborn
Chapter Four:

Goku kissed him eagerly, carefully laying himself out on top of the other. When they were both breathless and gasping, he pulled back just enough to meet hooded violet eyes. \"Do you remember any of this?\" he asked softly, almost a whisper. He ran a hand through thin hair, pushing back Huyen\'s bangs, eyes widening on the dark mark on his forehead. Of course it\'s there--he\'s still Heaven\'s Chosen.... Goku brushed his thumb gently over the spot, wiggling his hips against the other. \"Do you remember me?\"

\"Maybe....\" There were still only flashes of visions that might have been memories, but nothing he could hold onto for long. Still, he\'d made up his mind not to disappoint the other, and he pulled Goku down into another kiss. Maybe if we stay like this for a while longer…it will come back. He rubbed at Goku\'s waist and hips encouragingly.

Goku pressed into him, though he\'d calmed a little. Even if he was heated and desperate, he wasn\'t sure he could force himself on Huyen if the other didn\'t remember him. It…would just be strange. Not that my body is listening, he thought with a touch of humor, already trying to get between Huyen\'s legs. Deciding that, for now, this was okay, Goku reached down to urge Huyen\'s thighs apart with tense hands. Just…for a bit longer. Maybe he\'ll remember if we keep doing this.

Huyen shuddered a little as he complied. It had been a while since he\'d had such an aggressive lover, but just as he was thinking that, he was already wrapping his legs around Goku\'s hips. He…he feels good. He moaned softly as Goku moved against him, and he wrapped his arms around firm shoulders.

\"Yes....\" Goku shifted his hips, rubbing faintly against the other before regaining himself. He set to kissing Huyen\'s lips, cheek, and jaw. Feels so good. As he traveled lower, he suddenly bit at the blonde\'s neck--not enough to really hurt, but just playfully, and he growled.

At first Huyen was too startled by the sound to react. He really is supposed to be some kind of demon…right? He gulped, his heart pounding a little faster, but he couldn\'t deny that Goku\'s animal-like sounds and affections were exciting as well. He began to pull at Goku\'s shirt, trying to tug it off him.

Panting softly, Goku shook his way out of the shirt, tossing his hair back with a laugh. Maybe...if we\'re just having fun. In the beginning, I was always silly. Maybe if we\'re silly now…. It had been a long time since he\'d felt free enough with a lover to actually be playful--after Sanzo had died.... Goku grinned and pawed at the other\'s stomach. \"Are you having fun, Huyen?\" he asked, bending forward so he could push up the taller boy\'s shirt, and he drew his tongue in a line up from his navel.

Huyen jerked slightly beneath him, and blushed when Goku glanced up. \"Tickles,\" he explained sheepishly. He reached down to tug a little on Goku\'s hair. \"But...yeah.\" He licked his lips as he flexed his thighs against Goku\'s ribs. \"I\'m not used to it…but it\'s fun. I guess.\"

He laughed, crawling forward so he could hover nose-to-nose with the other. \"What would be fun?\" he asked, honestly curious. \"I mean, it\'s been a couple hundred years--you must have some new ideas and stuff. What do you like to do?\" His eyes brightened. \"You wanna be on top?\" Come on--lighten up. Sanzo was never this tense when it came to sex. You can\'t have changed that much. Goku licked at Huyen\'s nose, still grinning and shifting excitedly.

Huyen blinked up at him, but Goku\'s enthusiasm was beginning to have the opposite effect. \"I dunno,\" he admitted, glancing away with another feeling of guilt. I\'m just used to…taking it. Just doing it, for the sake of doing it. \"I don\'t remember those hundred years.\"

Goku pouted, but only for a moment. I\'m not giving up. \"You don\'t have to remember them--what do you like now?\" Before Huyen could reply, Goku already tilted his head into a deep, strong kiss. I won\'t give up. He set to stripping Huyen of his jacket and T-shirt, revealing pale, smooth skin. He moved down the bared chest with bites and licks, fingers working into tense muscles.

Huyen gasped as he wriggled slightly on the couch. He was shivering again, and his fingers twisted, hesitantly but encouraging, in Goku\'s hair. \"I like this.\" He let his head fall back as he murmured softly, absorbing the sensations. He\'d almost forgotten it could feel like this.

\"Good--I like it, too.\" I just...have to keep going. God he tastes good! Goku continued his playful treatment; he urged Huyen\'s thighs higher, tighter, nibbling at his ribs. And it\'s still his voice--I want to hear more. He moaned his own encouragements, just barely moving his hips, almost teasing.

Huyen let his eyes slip shut as he began to get into it a little more, moving his legs against the smaller body. He tried to remember something more he could grant his partner, but everything his mind produced was so hot and fluid that he couldn\'t draw out anything specific. But maybe that\'s enough…. Huyen reached down to draw his hands over Goku\'s shoulders, massaging and sliding over toned muscle. He murmured in appreciation.

Goku continued to make encouraging sounds, with each movement from his companion rewarding him with a bite, a kiss, or stronger fingers. I wonder...how far we\'ll go.... He made his way back up to Huyen\'s lips, allowing him to press his hips down against the other. I really want him, but...damnit. Goku rocked against him, trying to keep himself in control, trying to stay slow and small, but it was getting increasingly harder to do so.

Huyen hissed between their mouths, and found himself responding to those gentle thrusts without thinking. \"It\'s all right,\" he murmured breathlessly. He was beginning to see how Goku could wait for so long for something like this.... \"Don\'t hold back--I want to know.\" I\'m doing it for you, after all.

His eyes flashed. \"If you say that...I really won\'t,\" he replied, voice low and almost feral. Goku leaned over him, hips firmly holding the other down. \"Centuries aside, it\'s been a long time since I\'ve been with someone.\" He licked his lips. \"I\'m really horny.\"

Huyen\'s eyes widened slightly, intimidated by his companion’s strength. \"It\'s been a while for me, too,\" he murmured. But he was already stretching his chin up, his lips fumbling hungrily at the corner of Goku\'s mouth. But it means so much to him, and I…I want it to mean something to me. \"It\'s okay,\" he assured, arching his back the little bit Goku\'s weight would allow him. \"I can take it--I want it.\"

A slow grin lit his face. \"Okay. But not here.\" Goku urged the other\'s arms and legs tightly around himself, and with a sudden grunt pulled them both off the couch. He teetered and nearly fell, but with a laugh managed to keep himself upright. \"Heh, there we go.\" Stealing another kiss, Goku began to carry Huyen back towards his bedroom.

\"No--no way.\" Huyen struggled free until he was on his feet once more, blushing. \"You don\'t have to carry me,\" he muttered, giving Goku a little shove. He started towards the bedroom on his own. \"I said I take it, not that I\'m a woman.\"

Goku giggled, undaunted, and immediately pounced on the other from behind, clamoring up his back. \"You can carry me, then,\" he declared. He nibbled at Huyen\'s ear, growling softly.

Huyen stumbled. \"Hey--cut it out.\" He rolled his eyes as made his way to the bed, finally turning to spill them both onto the worn mattress. Despite his mild annoyance, though, he was beginning to see how with time Goku\'s antics might seem endearing. Once on the bed he rolled onto his side to face the boy, hoping to catch a glimpse of him before they got into things again. If we go through with this, everything\'s going to change. But it occurred to him then that they couldn\'t change for the worse--he had nothing to lose. \"Hey.\" He drew his fingertips along Goku\'s chest. \"Do you really want me?\"

The shiver that went through him was answer enough. Goku tilted his head. \"If I didn\'t, I wouldn\'t be doing this,\" he said matter-of-factly. He grinned, leaning close in hopes of a kiss. \"Do you really want me?\"

\"If I didn\'t,\" Huyen replied in kind, \"I wouldn\'t still be here.\" He drew Goku into a kiss, seeking out the warm passion he\'d felt just beneath his lips all along. I know it\'s not the same for me as it is for him, but…maybe, if he shows me.... Though it had felt like a long time since he\'d been so into something like this he found he had no trouble kissing Goku fiercely; even rolling on top of him.

Immensely pleased, Goku returned the kiss with force--if there was one good thing about having lived so long, it was experience. He wrapped his legs around Huyen\'s hips and pulled him close. \"You feel good,\" he murmured between them, drawing his nails lightly over a bare back.

\"I guess I\'m pretty horny, too.\" Huyen arched his back slightly into the touch of sharp nails. But he also kind of missed their earlier positions; he reached down to urge Goku\'s thighs to relax, so he could slip one leg free to tighten around Goku\'s. I…like it better like this.

Goku barely noticed; he was too interested in the soft flesh of Huyen\'s throat, nibbling and sucking at him just below his left ear. He pressed his one leg up between the other\'s, one hand sliding low to pull at his backside, urging him closer. He really does feel good. He groaned softly, anxiously, wanting more.

Huyen shuddered--it was almost unfair that Goku seemed to know all his most sensitive spots, how to kiss and touch him. His heart was pounding as his hips shifted in short, anxious movements. I do want him. I want-- His skin felt almost too hot, and he was surprised that he was able to concentrate on undoing the button of his jeans. \"Goku….\"

Goku watched, eyes wide, until Huyen managed to undo the button and zipper. Then he pounced, working a hand past Huyen\'s and into his pants, fingers curling around hot, hard flesh. He grinned and bit at Huyen\'s cheek. \"Mmm…there you are.\" He giggled, moving his hand the small amount he could within the confines of the jeans.

Huyen\'s breath emptied in a thin moan; again Goku\'s hands felt perfect, and for what felt like long minutes he could do little but pant against the other\'s shoulder. \"Goku...how the hell...?\" He gulped, and with a soft growl started to work his pants down.

\"Hm?\" He slowed his hands, though.... I can last a while, but do I want to tire him out already? Goku licked his lips--he wanted to hear more of that voice. He kicked off his socks so he could use his toes to help the other. \"God, I want you,\" he teased, nipping at Huyen\'s cheek. \"Take mine off while you\'re down there?\"

Huyen wanted to retort, but the hands touching him were slowly eroding what little sense he had left. He only managed a grunt as he reached down to undo Goku\'s pants as well. But just as he was beginning to push the fabric down he became distracted. \"Wait--wait.\" He pressed his hand over the front of his pants, trying to halt Goku\'s movements. Damn, I can\'t take that for very long.

Goku pouted. \"But you sound so good,\" he complained, finally using his greater strength to roll them both over. He let Huyen go, if only so he could work his pants off, then his own. His eyes gleamed as he finally brought their naked bodies together. \"So, how many times can you last?\" he asked eagerly, eyelids fluttering as he rubbed his erection against Huyen\'s.

Huyen\'s head fell back slightly as he groaned. He...hadn\'t known it was a question of \"how many\". \"I like the way you think,\" he murmured, easily parting his thighs. It\'s so hot…. He licked his lips. \"Maybe...we should find out. But...\" He pushed lightly at Goku\'s stomach to keep him from getting too close until he was ready. \"Do you have something?\"

\"Of course,\" Goku replied easily. \"But we won\'t need it yet.\" He forced a hard kiss, fingers pressing into thin hips. Slowly, he began to work his way down, finding the tastiest bits of skin over Huyen\'s neck, collar, and chest. It took me forever to get Sanzo to let me do this, but...maybe Huyen won\'t be so fussy. He grinned at the thought, gnawing at the other\'s hipbone.

Huyen gulped; if Goku was as good with his mouth as he was with his hands, he was going to be in trouble. \"Are you sure?\" he asked, even as he shivered in anticipation. \"You….\" His voice dropped a little in embarrassment. \"You\'re going to last longer than me as it is.\"

He smiled. \"I\'m used to it,\" he replied lightly, not worried by the other\'s words in the least. \"Besides, I want to hear you.\" Not wanting to give Huyen any more chances to protest, Goku brought his lips slowly around his new lover\'s erection. Good.... He didn\'t take Huyen too deeply yet, just sucking on him gently, rubbing with his tongue as his fingers massaged the other\'s hips and waist.

Huyen bit his lip as he fought not to buck his hips. I knew I was in trouble. But if Goku\'s interest was in his voice he didn\'t disappoint; it had been a long time since he\'d been treated like this, and he groaned loudly as he pawed at the mattress. \"Holy shit….\"

Goku pulled back, laughing at the wonderful sounds Huyen was making. \"Just like that!\" he encouraged, rubbing his thighs. \"Keep sounding just like that.\" He brought his mouth back down quickly, taking Huyen in deeper, increasing his affections. Please, just keep sounding like that--you\'re so perfect.

\"Little brat--\" Huyen was cut off by another moan as he trembled, tugging at Goku\'s hair and drawing him closer. But he hadn\'t been kidding before; all too soon his breath began to catch, and he choked on a thin sob as he abruptly climaxed.

Goku hummed happily, easily drinking the other down. He pulled back with a thin hiss. \"Huyen....\" Crawling close, he gently nuzzled the boy\'s ear. \"That was great. You gonna be able to keep going?\" he teasingly asked, pressing a hand against Huyen\'s heaving chest.

Huyen gulped as he struggled to gain his breath back. \"Yeah,\" he panted, reaching to hold Goku\'s hand against him. \"Yeah, just…gimme a second.\" He closed his eyes for a moment; his body was still hot, and even though Goku had stopped he didn\'t feel like he was calming down at all.

Smiling, Goku settled himself at Huyen\'s side, slightly draped over him. \"Don\'t take too long,\" he murmured, playing his lips around the other\'s earlobe. I\'ve waited long enough for you. One of his hands stealthily slipped lower, moving over Huyen\'s length coaxingly.

Huyen murmured softly, almost in protest, but he didn\'t try to urge him away. I told you so. Hoping to distract Goku for a bit he lowered his own hand, moving over him in deft strokes. I\'m not as used to this as…your old lover was.

Making a sound that was almost a purr, Goku happily took the distraction, letting the other go. \"Good....\" I missed this--I missed this so much.... His chest tightened faintly, but he pushed it hastily aside. Later. I want this right now. His lips continued to fumble at Huyen\'s ear and neck, hips shifting faintly.

Huyen kept his eyes closed, trying to recall the images from his dreams--how many times had he done this? He must have been pretty good at it, to satisfy someone like Goku.... He continued to murmur wordlessly as he turned his hand, hoping that somehow instinct would guide him in the way his partner had touched him earlier.

\"Mmmm....\" Goku pressed his forehead into Huyen\'s neck, jaw clenching. \"More,\" he hissed. His hand slid over the other\'s stomach and chest as his voice rose. \"Stronger--strong as you can. I...I can take it.\" Please--please more! He growled, hips moving anxiously.

Huyen couldn\'t help but shiver at the sound of Goku\'s voice, the rasp of ragged breath against his collar. But he was a little afraid that even if he complied, Goku would still be ready for another round before him. So instead he softened the movements of his hand to long, slow strokes.

Goku groaned plaintively. No--harder! But he found he couldn\'t bring the words to his lips. Instead he just wiggled closer, lips fumbling after weak kisses. \"Huyen...please? I\'m....\" I\'m so hard.... He pawed at Huyen\'s stomach and kicked at the blankets. \"Huyen....\"

Huyen chuckled, smiling to himself as he continued to tease his partner. It kept a tension between them that was swiftly replenishing his own strength. He\'s…begging for me…. He pulled his hand back abruptly, turning to grant Goku a full, firm kiss. It\'s still so hot. It\'s hard to think….

Goku returned the kiss eagerly, wiggling closer, trying to get that contact back. \"I want you,\" he hissed, kissing him with every breath. \"Please...ready? Ready now?\" He reached down to touch Huyen, lightly coaxing. \"Please, Huyen...?\"

Huyen scoffed lightly, but he was already just as hard, just as desperate. \"Yes,\" he breathed, rolling onto his back. He tried to touch all of him at once, rubbing together every inch of available flesh. \"Yes, come on--fuck me.\"

Relieved, Goku just barely remembered to break away a moment, fishing a box out from under his bed and retrieving a bottle. He grinned as he twisted off the top, spreading some of the oil over his fingers. \"I\'m gonna take good care of you,\" he teased, crawling forward for a kiss. After all, I\'ve grown in the last few hundred years. Watching Huyen\'s face for his reaction, Goku slid a pair of fingers within his new lover. So hot....

Huyen gasped softly and titled his head back. It hurt, but he\'d been prepared for that--it felt good, even, to feel something that raw and real inside him. He shifted his thighs further apart to welcome him deeper. \"Shit, Goku...come on...\" He could almost feel that Goku himself was already in him, that too many phantom hands were touching his skin….

\"Not until you\'re ready,\" he teased, forcing his fingers deeper, spreading them slowly to be sure his partner was properly stretched. His eyes narrowed--Huyen looked wonderful, spread out across his mattress. The tilt of his head, the way his fingers curled; it made his chest ache with ghost-like images. Curious, he twisted his wrist faintly, searching for that one spot that not even years alone could erase from his memory.

\"Ah--\" Huyen twisted on the mattress, his back arching helplessly as Goku stroked something deep and fierce inside him. He hadn\'t felt anything like it in a long time, and he was afraid for a moment that Goku was going to steal away all the strength he\'d built up. Damnit, how does he do that…? \"G….\" But he couldn\'t manage anything more than that as he pawed at Goku\'s chest, desperate for more.

The same. Goku tilted his head to nibble at a tense finger. \"Okay.\" He slowly removed his hand, enjoying the expressions crossing Huyen\'s face. He\'s...beautiful.... Goku gently raised his lover\'s knees over his shoulders, forcing his back into the mattress as he moved into position. \"Huyen....\" Taking a deep breath, Goku finally brought them together; he couldn\'t keep in a thick groan as he was covered in tight heat. \"Ahh....\"

For once Huyen\'s voice failed him. His lips parted, quivering but soundless, as he accepted his new lover. It shouldn\'t have been so different than his older lovers. But Goku was strong, and hot, and sincere--it made his fingertips numb and his breath short. I…know this. I know this…don\'t I? His skin burned as he struggled weakly to pull Goku deeper.

Goku gently forced his way completely into his new lover, watching every twist of emotion, every catch of breath. Reaching down, he wove his fingers through Huyen\'s, pinning his hands to the bed as he began a slow, deep rhythm. There were a few subtle differences--Huyen was a bit tighter, and his ankles had crossed behind Goku\'s neck to pull him closer in a way Sanzo never had. Rather than being upset by the changes, Goku found them more exciting. He\'s still mine, but it\'s like I get to make him mine all over again. His hips moved with more strength, adjusting the small bit needed to reach that one spot within Huyen again.

Huyen\'s voice returned, suddenly and in full; he groaned hoarsely as Goku continued to move within him. His fingers tightened desperately around Goku\'s wide palms as he tried to keep his wits together. \"Go...Gok...\" He turned his head to the side, hissing softly at the touch of cool sheets against his fevered cheek. He couldn\'t even bring himself to beg for more, he was so busy trying to take each breath.

Goku leaned forward, forcing Huyen\'s back to curl as he played his lips along a strained muscle in his neck. \"Can you...take more?\" he panted. He pumped his hips harder, faster, growling as he fought to keep his own control. \"Huyen...mmm....\" He sped up a bit more, trying to reach even deeper, to reach more....

Huyen couldn\'t reply other than to groan thinly around a weak nod. It\'s too hot. But he held on, desperate to last as long as he could for Goku\'s sake. It shouldn\'t have felt like this; he could just barely sense, at the edges of his perception, that Goku had an easier time reaching his throat--that a change in size and stature made it more difficult for him to accept all of Goku at once. It was...dizzying.

Just...a little more.... Goku was surprised to find he was quickly running out of energy, was growing almost too tense, and he reasoned it was because of Huyen. Because he\'d finally found his lover--there could be no mistake. And he must feel it too--he has to feel this! He pushed his strength, pushed deeper.... \"God....\" I...I can\'t finish yet--Huyen--

Huyen cried out sharply; Goku was too much for him, and he felt as if he were falling as his sight blurred around the edges. \"Goku….\" He held his breath as the heat flooded suddenly through him, bringing him to his climax.

That tightening--that voice--was just enough, and Goku curled forward as he reached his own release. \"Ah, God--\" He finally slowed to a stop, still buried within his lover as he savored the last remaining heat in his body. His fingers shifted around Huyen\'s.

Finally...I found.... He choked, softly, biting his lips. Damnit....

Huyen continued to gasp for breath long after they\'d both stopped. It\'s still…so hot. He\'s still inside me--I can still feel-- He whimpered softly as he tried to move, to stretch the muscles in his back that were already starting to ache. \"Goku....\"

He flinched, slowly drawing back, unwinding their fingers. Huyen.... Goku carefully pulled out of his lover, shivering as they were separated. No.

Feeling strangely small--almost young--he crawled up beside Huyen. I...I found.... Goku shivered, drawing closer to touch his nose to a damp shoulder. \"Huyen....\"

Huyen sighed, stretching out his legs and curling his cramped fingers. He gulped and licked his lips. \"Goku...?\" He wiped at the sweat that was suddenly soaking his brow. Even though Goku was no longer inside him it still felt as if he were, as if they were yet moving together--he could tell that it was just the visions that had seemed to be helping him earlier, but it was disorienting and it made his muscles ache.

\"Here,\" he murmured, wiggling up against his side. Goku laid a hand over Huyen\'s stomach, and he was a bit surprised to feel how tense he still was. I...didn\'t hurt him, did I? He propped himself up slightly, gently rubbing at the boy\'s muscles. \"Are...are you okay?\" he asked.

\"Yeah.\" Huyen rubbed at his eyes, as they had begun to sting from the sweat trying to seep into them. \"I\'m okay, I just...need some air….\" He pushed himself upright, and though it spread the ache up his spine and chilled his damp flesh, the slight space from Goku helped him to breathe a little easier. Gradually the memories subsided. He licked his lips as he ran his fingers through his hair--the tie holding it back had slipped out at some point without him noticing.

Goku lay back down, closing his eyes. I\'m...cold.... He wanted Huyen to come back, to lay with him and warm him, but...he was frightened. He didn\'t want to force anything on his lover, but…. Goku reached out a hand--he just needed some kind of contact--and blindly brushed his fingers lightly over the other\'s back.

Huyen closed his eyes as well. Goku…. \"I\'m sorry,\" he murmured, taking in deep breaths. \"I\'m all right--I just need a moment.\" As he\'d said he soon calmed, and was able to fall back with a light bounce against the mattress. \"God, that was....\" But he couldn\'t think of an appropriate way to describe it, and he settled with a faint smile. \"I\'m tired.\"

Encouraged by that smile, Goku rolled onto his back as well, watching Huyen. \"It was great,\" he answered, stretching his neck to press a playful kiss to the other\'s shoulder. \"You were really good, Huyen.\" His eyes glinted faintly. \"Maybe you\'ll do me, next time.\"

Huyen chuckled weakly. \"If I can move by then.\" He stretched, winced a little, and relaxed once more. \"God, I could use a smoke.\" He glanced about, and realized he\'d shed his coat in the next room. \"I\'ll be right back, okay?\" He slipped off the side of the bed, even though...it felt colder than he had expected, being away from Goku.

\"Kay, just hurry back,\" he said lightly, though...he was also serious. Goku abruptly sat up and began fussing with the blankets--it was definitely too cold in his bedroom. Though maybe, I won\'t have to sleep alone too often. That was a very pleasing thought, and he grinned to himself as he fluffed his pillows.

\"Sure.\" Huyen was sure to move carefully as he returned to the main room of the apartment, retrieving his coat and searching through the pockets for his cigarette pack and lighter. He felt better the moment it touched his lips, and the first breath helped him forget some of the ache in his limbs. But...when he started to leave he paused, as if finally realizing what had happened, and what it meant.

Goku and I…. He hesitated, watching the cigarette smoke curl lazily to the ceiling. It really was good. But I still don\'t…remember anything that well. I\'m still not the \"Genjou Sanzo\" Goku really wants…. He took a deep breath before returning to the bedroom. I wonder what he\'d think if I told him….

Goku smiled from beneath the thick blankets, easily opening them in welcome. He really is beautiful. His eyes paused on the chakra on Huyen\'s forehead--it was fainter than it should have been, like a shadow. \"Get in here before I freeze,\" he teased.

Huyen was about to comply but paused, glancing around for something he\'d be able to use as an ashtray; he finally decided on an old soda can that had been left out, which he set beside the bed. At last he was able to slip under the blankets with him, stretching out on his back. \"So...I guess it\'s okay if I stay the night, huh.\"

He giggled. \"Are you kidding? I wouldn\'t let you leave.\" Goku offered his ear a playful nibble before he settled down himself. \"Jeez, I\'m tired,\" he said suddenly, flopping onto his side. Tomorrow. I\'ll worry about it tomorrow. \"You wore me out.\" Wriggling onto his side, Goku tugged the blankets a bit higher.

Huyen rolled his eyes. \"I seriously doubt that.\" I\'m exhausted, but he only went through one round. But Goku did seem satisfied, so he didn\'t say anything more, instead continuing to puff lightly on his cigarette. \"Hey.\" His eyes thinned slightly; he knew he shouldn\'t bring this up, but he couldn\'t help it. \"Do you think...I\'ll ever remember everything?\"

Goku paused, considering the words seriously, though he refused to think too deeply on them. Because I\'ll worry about it tomorrow. \"Don\'t know,\" he finally said, trying to keep his voice light. \"I don\'t think the other\'s ever remembered everything. And even back when you were Sanzo, you could hardly remember anything from your first life--now there\'s another 700 years worth to consider.\" Goku touched his nose to Huyen\'s shoulder. \"Don\'t worry about it right now, okay? Even if you did remember Sanzo, it\'s not like you\'d really be him. You\'re Huyen.\" He grinned. \"And now you\'re my Huyen.\"

Huyen stared up at the ceiling as he considered those words. And just like that, we\'re lovers. He blew a soft puff of smoke. \"But if I hadn\'t been Sanzo first,\" he reasoned quietly, \"I wouldn\'t be your Huyen. Would I?\"

\"Hmm...I\'m not sure,\" he replied honestly. \"I mean, I\'ve had...other lovers. It\'s not like Sanzo was the only one.\" I...just couldn\'t wait that long. He flushed a bit at that. \"If we\'d met again, after that first time, then maybe. It\'d just be like we were normal people.\" Goku grinned suddenly--he didn\'t want to be talking this deeply after sex. \"Look at it this way--having a past life just got us together faster so we could get to some really great sex!\"

But Huyen wasn\'t so easily cheered, and he took one last breath of his cigarette before letting it fall into the can at their bedside. \"Just don\'t tell me later,\" he whispered, \"that you\'re disappointed.\" And before Goku could respond he rolled onto his side, pressing his face into the curve of Goku\'s collar. \"I\'m going to sleep.\"

\"Huyen....\" Goku watched the top of his blond head, licking his lips faintly. Very slowly, he slid his arms around Huyen\'s neck, cradling him close. \"I\'m not disappointed,\" he whispered, drawing him closer. \"I\'ve had enough disappointment already; how can I be upset when I\'m not alone anymore?\" Goku curled around him, smiling with that truth--he wouldn\'t be sad, because he wasn\'t alone. \"We are connected--I know you feel it--and it\'s enough. This is enough.\" Because I really am happy, now. Here.

Huyen stayed still, trying to draw warmth and comfort from the circle of arms. But even then he felt that tug at the pit of his stomach, a bitterness like regret at the back of his throat. Even like this he was distancing himself from how he should have been--the strong figure from his dreams, the lover Goku had described to him, should have never hid like this. \"I\'m tired.\" The words were so true they seemed to shake him.

But I came here for him. Huyen bit his lip, and pushed suddenly out of Goku\'s arms. \"You\'re right,\" he murmured, drawing Goku against his chest. Even if he says that…I want to be what he wants. That way, maybe I\'ll be…a little more like myself. \"You\'re not alone, Goku,\" he told the boy, willing them both to truly believe it. \"You did find me.\"

Goku smiled against a smooth chest, wiggling happily within the circle of Huyen’s arms. “I did.” He ran his own hands slowly over the other’s back, just memorizing the feel of him, breathing in his thick scent. I’m not alone anymore. I’m…not alone. “I’m sleepy,” he murmured, finally falling still. “Gonna…sleep….”

\"Okay.\" Huyen sighed into the boy\'s coarse hair, gradually relaxing into the mattress. It had been a long time since he\'d slept so close to someone like this, but he was quickly coming to realize how much he\'d missed it. \"Good night, Goku.\" Even if I don\'t remember, as long as he doesn\'t mind me being his…I don\'t mind either.

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