How to mend a broken Carrot

Disclaimers in Chapter 1

Chapter 3

They lazed in the garden, listening to the soft soughing sounds of the warm breeze, rustling through the tree tops. Bees buzzing through the flowers as the sun heated up the day, enjoying the warmth of the afternoon.

Laying beside Marron, Carrot kept shifting restlessly. After the fifth such restless movement and the quick searching glances that Carrot kept shooting at him, his mouth opening and closing, Marron decided to speak. Well aware of his niisan\'s restless, nervous behavior he knew that if he waited for Carrot to work up the nerve to do whatever it was thas mas making him nervous, it would be nighttime.

\"Niisan,\" Marron said quietly, putting out his hand and stopping Carrot from putting his hand to his mouth, \"What?s wrong?\"

\"Wrong?\" Carrot uttered a fake laugh, trying to recapture his old boisterous self and only partially succeeding, \"Wrong\" Nothing\'s wrong, what makes you think shinghing\'s wrong? It\'s a warm beautiful day, we\'re lying here in a beautiful garden, the sun\'s shining, the bees are buzzing what could possibly be wrong? Why would you think something is wrong,\" he said babbling nervously, blinking at Marron.

Marron eyed him sardonically, \"Oh I don\'t know, niisan. Maybe it\'s because you look like you want to ask me something. But I really think it\'s because you\'re trying to eat a caterpillar,\" he said, holding up the hand still in his grasp, preventing Carrot from raising it to his mouth. He released his grip, laughing, at the look on his niisan\'s face.

Carrot looked at his hand in wide-eyed horror, at the wiggling white caterpillar he had been trying to eat and violently threw it away.

There was silence in the garden after that. Then Carrot spoke.

\"How can you do that,\" he asked miserably, making sure he didn\'t look at Marron.

\"Do what,\" Marron asked puzzled, wondering what his niisan was talking about.

\"Let some guy put their di....their....you know, THING, in you,\" Carrot said blushing in embarrassment and misery, awkwardly glancing at Marron and quickly averting his eyes.

Marron closed his eyes, poor niisan! He opened them, gazing at the misery etched on his niisan\'s faces

\"There\'s a certain pleasure to be had, to be enjoyed in the contact between males,\" he finally said, carefully.

\"But it hurts, don\'t it,\" Carrot was insisted, speaking from bitter experience.

\"Not if it\'s done properly. Then the pain becomes part of the pleasure,\" Marron said quietly, his eyes intent on his niisan downturn face.

\"But there\'s pain,\" Carrot said again, not quite able to get past that one point.

\"Yes,\" Marron said with an almost frustrated sigh, knowing that this was the sticking point with Carrot. \"But niisan, the initial pain of entry is far outweigh by the pleasure involved. If your partner arouses you enough, then you will barely feel any pain,\" Marron said quietly.

There was silence from Carrot. He appeared to be thinking over Marron\'s words. \" I can\'t imagine allowing someone to touch me THERE, much less a guy,\" Carrot said quietly, looking up with painfilled eyes, \"I can\'t even imagine sex with a female, now. All I remember is the pain.\"

There was silence between them as Marron decided what to say, hoping that his niisan would believe and understand him.

\"There is a certain pleasure to be had in male-to-male contact. We have similar types of bodies, and with few exceptions, know what gives us the greatest amount of pleasure, where we can touch each other,\" he said calmly as if talking about the weather.

Carrot snorted, not wanting to believe Marron, \"And what do you know? One male lover not not make you an expert.\"

Marron said dryly, \"Despite the consensus opinion, I not the shy, nervous virgin you all seem to think I am or some type of celibate monk.\" He smirked watching his niisan\'s head shoot around to stare at him unbelieving.

\"You\'ve had other lovers,\" Carrot choked out, his eyes wide in amazement. He shook his head in disbelief.

\"Oh yes,\" Marron said with a smile, he looked carefully away, \"Of course there\'s something to be said about the female\'s responses,\" his lips twitching in a tiny smile at the choking sounds coming from his niisan.

\"But...but....but you\'re GAY,\" Carrot stammered, nearly in shock at the thought of his brother with FEMALES.

\"No, actually I\'m not,\" Marron said calmly, amusement lurking in his eyes, \"You\'ve just assumed that I was gay because I never reacted to the various females chasing after me.\"

\"But....when......where.....HOW,\" Carrot almost wailed, his mind whirling. Marron with FEMALES?! Marron had had multiple partners?! He felt faint.

Marron smiled wryly, \"Niisan already knows \'HOW\'.\" He sat up slowly, looking at the garden spreading its bounty as far as he could see, feeling his niisan\'s fascinated gaze on his profile. What he had to say was difficult at best, dredging up old memories.

\"Can you imagine a school filled with a bunch of young minds, struggling to control magical forces almost beyond their controith ith their tiny bodies. What our minds and bodies did to control and contain these magical forces? It requires and immense effort and a large amount of control to continuously control our magic that some of us just didn\'t have, no matter how much raw power you had.\"

\"We were taught that the more control you have over self, the more magic you could use, the more you could summon. However on the flip side, there must be a release for the control that is nonmagical. There is always a price to pay and many of us ignored our masters when told, literally playing with fire. There were certain rules enforced at the school, the most strictest, was a prohibition on fighting amongst ourselves at certain ages. Can you imagine the damage we would do if we were allowed to fight at that age? For the first offense you were sealed off from your powers for a period of time and any child foolish enough to fight again after that punishment was expelled from the school and who\'s powers were sealed away, permanently.\" Marron regarded Carrot gravely.

Carrot frowned thoughtfully, \"So I take it that having your powers, taken from you hurts you,\" he said tentatively watching the dark look on Marron\'s face.

\"Imagine having your arms and feet cut off and separated from your body. You can see your limbs, you can feel them, but you can\'t use them. You can\'t walk, you can\'t touch things, you can\'t do anything for yourself,\" Marron nearly hissed out, remembering one girl that had committed suicide after being involved in her second fight. They had found her body hanging in her room.

Carrot shivered, \"Is that what magic is like that for you,\" he wanted to know.

Marron smiled, \"Yes.\"

\"But you fight now,\" Carrot said pointed out, puzzled, now totally caught up in his brother tale, he was finally getting a glimpse into his brother\'s life when they had been apart so many years ago.

\"Yes, I do fight now,\" Marron said quietly, \"Because fighting is one of the outlets for me to release my control. I summon magic using my control and I fight releasing that control.\"

\"Is that why you\'re so controlled all the times, because you have to be,\" Carrot asked curious.

\"Yes, it is how I was trained and after a while the control becomes a part of you, or at least for me it does,\" Marron said wryly.

\"If you wished to be a successful, powerful mage you had better learn quickly how to control and how to release that control. And I was determined to be the most powerful mage I could be, because I had plans, an ambition to come home and become a Sorcerer Hunter just like my niisan.\" He swung around, sitting cross-legged in the grass, his eyes searching Carrot\'s face.

\"I saw a boy burn out of control, literally burn to death, screaming horribly as fire raced through his body,\" Marron said in a low voice, looking down and plucking a blade of grass, lost in memory as Carrot looked on horrified at what his brother must have felt.

\"Marron,\" he began softly, his eyes soft in compassion, reaching out a hand to rest on Marron\'s knee.

Marron didn\'t hear him, his eyes distant, remembering the sight of the boy burning, burning and screaming as his body jerked and flailed under theenseense searing fire, \"....until he couldn\'t scream any longer. I remember the sickening smell of burning flesh filling the air. By the time the masters had arrived, it was too late, all that was left was a pile of smoldering bones. of of us had been frozen to the spot, unable to move, to help. I could hear the sounds of retching behind me and then I was ill on the floor.\"

Marron came back to himself with a start, \"\"That was how they weeded us out. They teach us about control and about that there must be release, an outlet of some sort. Those that go to the masters, questioning them are usually the ones that will succeed. After that boy\'s death, I was determined not to let it happen to me. I approached my master and question him endlessly, he was reluctant to tell me anything saying I was much to young. But I was determined,\" Marron smiled softly at a sweet memory.

\"You said that fighting was one of the outlets,\" Carrot said, his eyes narrowing thoughtfully. \"What\'s the other.\"

\"Why sex of course,\" Marron said with an amused tilt of his head. \"I was 13 my first time.\"

\"13,\" Carrot choked out, his eyes wide with incredulity.

\"13,\" Marron confirmed, a mere quirk of his lips at the stunned look on his niisan\'s face. \"She was a year older than me,\" he helpfully, nearly laughing out loud at the bugged-eye look on Carrot\'s face.

\"A girl,\" Carrot screeched. \"You had sex with a girl,\" he whispered in astonishment. If he hadn\'t been standing he would have fell to the ground in shock, as it was he was feeling faint. He heard a faint snicker from Marron and a sudden suspicion reared in his mind. \"You SO did not have sex with a girl,\" he accused his smirking brother.

\"Actually, it was about four girls and three boys,\" Marron said helpfully, bursting out laughing at the sputtering coming from his niisan.

\"No way,\" Carrot shouted in disbelief, not wanting to believe that his little brother had started having sex before him and had had more experience, he pouted, annoyed.

Marron, seeing his niisan pouting lips wanted nothing more than to take Carrot\'s outthrust bottom lip in his mouth and suck it to a swollen fullness.

He cleared his throat and continued huskily, \"Yes way. You forget, niisan that I was there for over two years. In the beginning, as you struggle with your control, you require more partners. Sometimes students would often pair up and remain that way until they left or sometimes stay together even after they left.\"

\"Why did you,\" Carrot asked, wanting to know why Marron didn\'t pick a single partner, he looked away uncomfortably.

Marron shrugged elegantly, \"There was no one that particularly that interested me longer than it took me to achieve release,\" he said, eyes intent on his niisan\'s averted face, thinking that maybe things would have been different if his niisan had been with him.

Carrot sighed, looking down, \"Well it doesn\'t matter much for me. I just can\'t see myself doing any of THAT,\" he wrinkled his nose in distaste, feeling the fear roil in his stomach at the thought of being intimate with someone.

Marron hesitated, he thought of a way that maybe his niisan could overcome his fear, but was unsure how to say it without terrifying Carrot.

\"Perhaps, you need to replace the bad memories with good ones, ones that give you pleasure, makes you feel safe instead of feeling pain and fear,\" he said slowly, looking away.

Carrot head jerked up, startled, \"What do you mean?\"

\"Do you remember when I fell in the river one winter and almost dro,\" ,\" Marron asked, turned to face Carrot, his eyes targeted on his niisan\'s startled face.

\"Yeah, what about it,\" Carrot said, restlessly shifting under Marron\'s eyes, the intensity causing a nervous shiver to race up his spine and his breath to come faster.

Marron eyes narrowed, seeing the betraying shiver. He sighed as he looked away, not knowing how to proceed now with his niisan, not wanting to frighten him.

\"C\'mon,\" Carrot said, seeing the look of doub his his brother\'s face, \"You can\'t just stop there,\" he scolded, very curious now about what Marron was trying to say. \"You fell in the river,\" he prompted, motion for Marron to continue.

\"You remember how terrified of water I was after that? How I couldn\'t, wouldn\'t,\" Marron stressed the word, \"Go near water? No amount of yelling, pleading or promising would make me go near water. I had gotten so bad that I was refusing to take baths and was barely drinking water. But you, you helped me. You showed me how not to be afraid, you taught me patiently that there was nothing to fear from water,\" Marron continued quietly, bringing the full force of his gaze on his niisan.

\"Yeah, I helped you,\" Carrot said shifting uncomfortably on the ground, he could feel a tightening and a curiously fluttering sensation in his stomach. \"That\'s what big brothers are supposed to do,\" he said, laughing a little nervously, his mouth stretching in a wide grin before fading slowly away, he looked away in discomfort.

\"I did everything you said because I trusted you and had faith that you would never let me get hurt, I trusted you more than I have anyone ever since,\" Marron said quietly, eyeing his niisan\'s slightly averted face.

Carrot nodded, remembering the enormous trust reflecting in Marron\'s big, golden eyes, \"Yeah, you were scared to death but you trusted me, \" he said, smiling softly, the memory always having the power to warm him.

Marron took a deep breath, \"Do you trust me, niisan,\" he asked quietly, meeting Carrot\'s wide eyes when Carrot jerked his head around.

Carrot felt like he had been punched in the stomach as he met Marron\'s eyes. He fully understood what Marron was asking and he trembled, not sure if he could do this, with his own brother at that! He opened his mouth to flat out refuse and met Marron\'s eyes, seeing the fear reflecting back at him. He slowly closed his mouth, realizing that Marron was a scared as he was but was determined to do whatever necessary to heal his niisan.

Carrot looked away, as he felt tears prickle at his eyes, feeling humbled at the sacrifice Marron was making for him. If the situation was reversed, he wasn\'t sure that he could have made the same offer to Marron, he smiled wryly, who was he kidding, he would have done the same no matter the cost, the social morals on incest. Marron was his brother and he would be damn if a little incest stopped him from helping him.

There was nothing he wouldn\'t do for his brother, he smiled, and apparently there was nothing Marron wouldn\'t do for him. And with that thought in mind he looked over, swiftly catching the fear lurking in Marron\'s eyes and saw Marron open his mouth. He knew Marron was going to take back his offer.

Marron tremble lightly, closing his eyes. Whatever possessed him to make say something like that to his niisan, he thought to himself savagely. He\'s as straight as an arrow and your brother! Just because you have a pervert desire for him doesn\'t mean that he would be willing to have sex with you, even if it is to help him get over his fear. He\'s your brother! You\'ve kept it under control for years, now you\'ve blown it all away. He opened his eyes and mouth to take back his offer and apologize, when he heard Carrot say \'Yes\'.

His mouth remained open in shock, shutting as Carrot reached out and gently closed it for him. \"I said Yes,\" Carrot said again, enjoying the look of shock on Marron\'s normally serene face. Serves him right, for keeping secrets, Carrot thought smirking self-righteously.

Marron caught his breath at the smirk on his niisan\'s face, wondering, hoping that Carrot understood what he was agreeing to. \"Niisan,\" Marron began slowly, his eyes searching Carrot\'s face, \"You understand what I asked,\" he said hesitantly, uncertainty reflecting in his golden eyes.

Carrot smiled, leaned forward and placed a soft hesitant kiss on Marron\'s lips, willfully ignoring the knot of fear surging through him. He drew back, his lips curiously burning, watching Marron slowly open his eyes, almost scrambling away in fear at a look he imagined in Marron\'s eyes, before relaxing. It\'s just Marron, he silently reassured himself, it\'s just Marron, trembling under Marron\'s hands stroking his tense back.

Carrot swallowed convulsively and tried to act as if he did this every day, unaware that his eyes revealed his deepseated terror, \"So hows this gonna happen, you gonna seduce me, or something,\" he joked trying and failing to get a laugh past the lump in his throat.

\"Oh, brave niisan,\" Marron whispered, leaning his forehead against Carrot\'s, seeing how terrified his niisan was, feeling his heart almost breaking.

Carrot\'s eyes fell and he played nervously with a button on Marron\'s shirt front, feeling Marron\'s hand cover his, stopping his nervous fidgeting.

\"Niisan,\" Marron said quietly, waiting until Carrot raised his eyes hesitantly to his, color blooming on his niisan\'s cheeks.

\"Niisan, do you trust me,\" Marron asked, his heart in his mouth, and at the hesitant nod he continued, \"We are in this together, so no seduction, no tricking you. Just us, together, making better memories for you,\" Marron said quietly, his eyes steady and level on Carrot\'s, watching his niisan, seeing the shy smile bloom on the beloved face, watching the hope dawn in Carrot\'s expressive eyes.

Carrot leaned further into Marron, feeling strong, slender arms hesitantly surround him. Feeling with a sense of wonder, the ebbing of the fear that usually knotted his insides whenever Marron attempted to hold him

Marron closed his eyes, feeling tears prickling at them, at the trust his niisan had in him. He vowed that he would do whatever it took to make his niisan\'s experience painless and full of nothing but pleasure.

\"What do we do now,\" Carrot whispered shyly, feeling warm at the pressure on the top of his head.

Marron pressed a kiss to his niisan\'s head and whispered back, \"Now we go inside and fix lunch,\" trying to defuse the surreal tension running between them with more practical matters.

And as if in agreement with his idea, Carrot\'s stomach growled lustily. They looked at each other, startled and fell back, laughing heartily, feeling the uneasy tension dissipate.


After a satisfying lunch, they went their separate ways, Carrot to exercise and rebuild his strength, his body growing sleeker each day; and Marron to laze in the hammock with a book.

As he lay reading, he kept thinking about his niisan, until finally putting the book down afrealrealizing he had read the same paragraph five times. He sighed closing his eyes, he hoped his niisan wasn\'t regretting their agreement, he was well aware of the quick looks Carrot had kept sneaking at him during lunch, the look of fear lurking in those wide eyes.

He opened his eyes and almost jumped at the sight of Carrot silently standing beside the hammock.

\"Niisan,\" he said, trying to control his voice, \"Are you okay?\" Concerned darkening his eyes, watching the unusual look on his niisan\'s face as he stared down at him.

Carrot refocused his attention on Marron\'s worried gaze, quickly plastering a wide smile of his face.

\"Heh, heh, heh,\" he laughed and scratched his head nervously. His laughter petering out at the narrowed look Marron was giving him. He shuffled his feet uneasily, looking anywhere, everywhere but at the body sprawled gracefully in the hammock. He jumped when Marron reached out and touched his hand gently.

\"Niisan,\" Marron said quietly, his eyes roving over Carrot\'s face, reading the fear lurking in his niisan\'s wide brown eyes. \"Niisan, everything is going to be fine,\" he tugged gently, pulling his niisan down with him into the hammock. Carrot resisted briefly before allowing his body to tumble into the hammock, sighing as he relaxed in Marron\'s sun warmed body.

\"Do you really think so,\" Carrot whispered, his body tense, waiting for the answer..

\"Yes,\" Marron assured him, hoping that hs ris right, feeling the tension slowly ease from his niisan\'s limber body.

And they laid in the hammock in silence as the sun heated the day and warmed their bodies, gradually falling asleep together in the warm summer air lulled by the soft buzzing of the bees and the warm caress of a summer breeze.

Later that evening as they ate dinner, Marron could feel the nervous glances Carrot kept shooting at him and saw the tension rising in his niisan. Finally he had to shoo Carrot upstairs to take first turn at the bathroom while he volunteered to cleaned up after dinner, watching the relief fill his niisan\'s face before he escaped up the stairs. Marron heaved a grateful sigh, his niisan was even making him twitchy with nerves and one of them had to remain in control tonight.

After delaying long enough, he walked upstairs to their bedroom and entered, seeing his niisan sitting in a chair before the fireplace, watching him with wide nervous eyes.

Carefully ignoring his niisan, he retrieved his sleeping pants and nothing else. He heard Carrot\'s quick intake of breath at his actions and gave Carrot a slow reassuring smile before he left to take his shower.

Carrot sat in the chair, drawing his knees to his chest, wondering if he could go through with this...this.....thing with Marron, feeling the tight knot of fear and tension gripping him. He got up and began pacing nervously, fiddling with the tie on his robe. Stopping suddenly, remembering that Marron wasn\'t wearing a top so he should take his off too, trembling slightly at his decision. He fumbled his robe off and tried to unbutton his top, angry tears filling his eyes as his fingers refused to cooperated, feeling thick.

He jumped when Marron\'s hands slowly worked the buttons free and pulled his shirt off, sliding it down his body to the floor. He froze, barely breathing, and shuddering faintly in reaction, in fear. He heard Marron sigh behind him, stirring his hair, before moving away.

Carrot turned and quickly pulled his robe back on, and as a silent compromise he left it open and unbelted. He watched with curious eyes as Marron fiddled with a small cube, recognizing a song cube, suddenly curious as to what type of music that Marron listened to.

The low husky voice of a singer filled the air as Marron made his way back to Carrot.

\"Dance with me,\" he asked quietly, extending a hand, waiting for his niisan to take it.

Carrot looked at the hand extended to him and slowly, cautiously he put his hand into Marron\'s and felt himself drawn closer to Marron\'s warm body, inhaling the unique scent that was his brother, relaxing.

They danced together, Carrot slowly being lulled by the low, almost sultry accents of the various singers. He rested his head on Marron\'s chest, listening to the beating heart, swaying to the music, feeling safe and warm in Marron\'s arms.

When Marron began to sing, he shivered, listening to the words, understanding Marron\'s meaning.


//You think I\'d leave your side, baby
You know me better than t You You think I\'d leave you down
When you\'re down on your knees
I wouldn\'t do that

I\'ll do you you\'re right when you want
And if only you could see into me

Ha ah ah ah ah ah

Oh, when you\'re cold
I\'ll be there
Hold you tight
to me

When you\'re on the outside, baby
And you can\'t get in
I will show you you\'re
So much better than you know

When you\'re lost and you\'re alone
And you can\'t get back again
I will find you darling and
I will bring you home

And if you want to cry
I am here to dry your eyes
And in no time
You\'ll be fine

You think I\'d leave your side, baby
You know me better than that
You think I\'d leave you down

When you\'re down on your knees
I wouldn\'t do that
I\'ll do you you\'re right when you want
And if only you could see into me

Ha ah ah ah ah ah

Oh when you\'re cold
I\'ll be there
Hold you tight to me
When you\'re low
I\'ll be there
By your side, baby

Oh when you\'re cold
I\'ll be there
Hold you tight to me
Oh, when you\'re low
I\'ll be there
By your side, baby//

They continued dancing, swaying really, to the music until finally the cube was finished and Marron left him to activate another cube. Growing nervous again, Carrot began to babble, feeling twitchy at the look darkening Marron\'s eyes as he came back.

\"You know, I really don\'t think I believe you, afterall, when you said that you had experience with the ladies. You never acted like you liked girls,\" he pointed out, unnerved by Marron\'s silence, desperately trying to fill the silence, backing away from Marron\'s steady approach, \"Of course you never acted like you liked boys either, I don\'t think you had much practice in kissing, and...\" he was silenced by Marron\'s finger against his lips.

His eyes widen comically at the narrowed eyed look Marron was giving him as his head came closer.

\"Niisan,\" Marron murmured, his head tilting, his eyes narrowing, darkening. Warm puffs of air broke across Carrot\'s suddenly tingling lips and flushed face.

\"Ye....yeah,\" Carrot quavered out, his eyes almost crossing as Marron\'s breath washed across his lips.

\"You talk to much,\" Marron said against his lips, feeling them open, and angled his lips into the warm, wet opening, drinking the squeak his niisan made.

Carrot jumped at the first touch of Marron\'s mouth and opened his mouth to protest when he felt Marron\'s tongue enter his open mouth, languidly stroking, tempting his tongue to come out and play and he was lost. Lost in the explosive heat of Marron\'s mouth, his tongue, as hgan gan to respond, feeling Marron slipping his robe off his shoulders, dropping it to the floor, caressing his bare skin, feeling burning hot everywhere Marron was touching him.

His hand fluttered nervously, not knowing where to put them before lightly resting them on Marron\'s bare shoulders, caressing supple skin, before stealing around Marron\'s neck as he gave himself over to the warm, slick glide of Marron\'s caressing tongue and his hotter mouth.

Pressing up harder against Marron, his handst ist in silken locks, holding Marron tighter to him as he deepen their kiss, losing himself in the intoxicating TASTE of Marron\'s mouth. Distantly aware of the hungry, greedy sounds he was making and Marron\'s moans into his mouth as they came up for air and diving back in again.

Marron\'s hands tighten almost bruisingly on his niisan\'s hips, lifting him closer, almost tighter into his heat, before gentling, stroking up and down his sides, slowly easing up his passion drugged possession of Carrot\'s mouth, breaking away, breathing raggedly, aware of his niisan\'s protesting whimper at the loss of his mouth.

Gradually coming back from his passion drugged journey, he looked at Marron with wide eyes before turning in a daze and walking out to the balcony. Letting the fresh air cool his hot cheeks, struggling to get his breath under control, shocked at the heat rushing through him.

He felt Marron come up behind him and ghost his fingers across his stomach. Irritated, he slapped the teasing hands away, feel them steal back again and pull him back into Marron\'s chest, caressing his bare stomach.

\"Alright already,\" Carrot said irritably, slapping at the hands kneading his belly, \"You made your point, you know plenty about kissing.\"

Feeling Marron\'s hair slide over his shoulder, the soft caress re-awakening bewildering sensations. Shivering at the silken sensation of hair caressing his chest as it glided over his flushed skin, his breath beginning to come raggedly.

\"I\'m glad I was able to convince niisan,\" Marron murmured, kissing a bare shoulder, his hand continuing to flex against Carrot\'s stomach.

\"Don\'t be so smug about it,\" Carrot said, trying to force some sternness into his voice, shivering under the kneading hands, his head tilting to the side as Marron licked a warm wet trail from his shoulder to his neck, nibbling at his neck, sucking on his neck.

His eyes slowly becoming heavy-lidded in passion as his breath came faster.

Marron trailed one hand up his niisan\'s chest, continuing to lick, suck on Carrot\'s warm, bare shoulder and neck, feeling the pulse beating rapidly under the warm caress of his tongue and lips. Caressing and kneading the smooth chest until he reached a pebble hard nipple, he heard the little whimpering noises his niisan made and smiled into the flesh he was still nibbling on as he rubbed and squeezed the hard nubbin of flesh between his finger and thumb. Loving the cries his niisan was making as he stroked the fire higher between them, feeling his niisan arch into his hand with a hungry cry, as sleek arms stole up and wrapped around his neck.

Carrot turned his head, angling for Marron\'s hungry, teasing lips, drinking deep from his mouth as their tongues played, muffled moans of enjoyment and pleasure coming from his throat. He wrenched his mouth away with a cry, panting for breath as both of Marron\'s hands began playing with his nipples. He flung his head back, resting it on Marron\'s shoulder, tilting his head, willingly offering his neck for Marron\'s delectation, feeling the lips feasting on his neck, sucking the hot flesh into his mouth---hard. He groaned at the stinging pain and whimper as Marron laving away the pain. Desire spiraling higher and higher.

Carrot was on fire, his body burning with desire as he tried to drag air into his oxygen deprived lungs. Distantly aware of the needy moans of pleasure coming from his and he didn\'t give a damn anymore, didn\'t try to suppress them. Wanting Marron to know how much he was enjoying himself, how much pleasure Marron was pulling from his body.

It wasn\'t until Marron pressed against his back, pulling him into the hat cradle of his thighs that Carrot awoke from the sensual spell Marron was weaving around them. Feeling the hardness pressing into his back, he froze as fear blossomed in him, stilling his body, his breath coming in ragged pants of fear not desire.

It took Marron but a minute to realize that the warm body of his niisan had stilled. That the body in his arms was beginning to panic and he released him, watching him shoot away from him, fetching up against the balcony railing, breathing harshly.

\"Niisan,\" Marron called softly, quietly, trying to reach his panicking niisan. Hoping the sound of his voice would be enough and knowing he had succeeded when Carrot flicked his eyes to him but still shivering with fear.

\"It\'s okay, I\'m okay,\" Carrot rasped out hoarsely, trying to reassure Marron, trying to regain control of himself. \"It\'s just that I freaked when I felt your.....,\" he broke off with an embarrassed grimace looking away and gesturing to the front of Marron\'s pants that was tented slightly.

Marron smiled slightly, \"Niisan, it wouldn\'t work very well if I didn\'t become aroused.\" He watched Carrot carefully and asked quietly, \"Do you trust me, niisan,\" and once again extended his hand.


Carrot looked at the slender, graceful hand extended to him. Knowing that Marron would hold out his hand forever, waiting for him. He smile slowly, knowing that there was no one that he trusted more than Marron.

And he took his hand.

Marron closed his eyes as relief surged through him. Opening them he watched the fear in his niisan eyes war with his trust and tugging gently, he led them to the couch before the fireplace.

Settling himself, he looked up at Carrot, who was watched him in puzzlement, and tugged, tumbling him into his lap.

Carrot had his mouth opened to ask what was Marron doing and gasped as he landed astraddle Marron, his knees on either side of Marron\'s hips and a tremor rippled through his frame. Feeling Marron\'s hands holding his hips, thumbs rubbing gentle circles over his hipbones, slowly re-stroking the fire within him.

\"Niisan,\" Marron said quietly, watching as a hard flush of arousal streaked Carrot\'s cheeks and his eyes dilated in response. He pressed his thumbs hard on the jutting bones capturing Carrot\'s attention and his gasp in his mouth, drawing back, hoarsely saying, \"I will be dead before I let harm come to you.\"

Carrot blinked at the intensity behind the words and his eyes soften. His head tilted to the side as he really LOOKED at Marron\'s beautiful, delicate face. He studied Marron\'s golden eyes, seeing the love, fear and something elnterntermingled.

\"You\'re beautiful, you know,\" he finally said, his voice thoughtful and quiet.

Marron\'s eyes widen and dropped a little shyly, \"Niisan,\" he protested softly, a delicate rose tint coloring his cheeks.

\"Nah, I ain\'t talking about your face,\" Carrot waved a dismissive hand, from his perch in Marron\'s lap, \"Even though you\'re one of the most beautiful people I\'ve ever seen, I\'m talking about this,\" and he touched Marron\'s chest, his heart.

\"You have the biggest, most generous heart I know. Always giving to me and the girls even when we get on your nerves, most of the time, with our fighting. We don\'t deserve you and everything you give us, but you do it because you love us. You\'re always there protecting us, me, even when I do dumb and stupid shit. You are always there protecting me, backing me up, protecting us all and loving us. And sometimes,\" Carrot looked down shamefacedly,\" I don\'t tell you enough, just how much I, how much we appreciate you and everything you do. That we, that I love you,\" he said in a rush, anxious to get the mushy words out, his face red in embarrassment.

Marron looked at him, touched by the hard fought words from his niisan, knowing what he was saying or trying to tell him, words that didn\'t come easily for his niisan. He smiled and simply said, \"Thank you.\" Watching the blush fade from his niisan\'s face to be replaced by a look of determination.

Wiping his palms nervously on his thighs, Carrot studied the calm face and took a deep breath.

Okay Carrot you can do this. Juean ean in an kiss him, just like he did with you, he told himself, trying to give a little pep talk to himself, trying to get past the knot of fear in his stomach, still very aware of the thumbs stroking, caressing his bones.

Watching Marron warily, he leaned forward and pressed his lip to Marron\'s feeling them soften and part. Tentatively he extended his tongue, retreating quickly from the warm wet glide of Marron\'s. Gathering his nerve he pressed his lips again against Marron\'s quickly losing himself in the explosive taste.

Hungrily, his mouth widen, deepening their kiss as his tongue played deep in Marron\'s mouth. Loving the husky groan coming from Marron, before drawing back for air before diving back for more, trying to rock in Marron\'s lap, frustrated by Marron\'s hard hands holding his hips still. He whimpered in frustration, wanting, no NEEDING to press, to rub against Marron, against something. He fasten his hands on the back of the couch, vainly trying to rock against Marron.

His protesting cry echoed through the room as Marron removed his delicious mouth and tongue, turning into a purr as Marron trailed a line of wet kisses over his jaw and down his neck, seeking his pulse point. His head fell back on his neck with a groan of enjoyment as he slowly arched feeling Marron\'s lips glide down, down and reaching his nipples.

Carrot, lost in the sensual haze, nearly screamed when Marron glided his tongue over his pert aching nipples. My god, I never thought my nipples were that sensitive, he thought vaguely, hearing someone whimpering and realizing that it was him. And he did scream when Marron sucked hard, and bit down. His hands fell to Marron\'s head, holding him closer, tangling his hands in the heavy silk of Marron\'s hair, shivering with delight as those terrible, cruel hands loosen their hold on his hips, sliding up his back and pulling him closer to Marron\'s feasting mouth. AT LAST, he exulted!

He arched his back, pressing more of his aching hard points into the wet heat of Marron\'s hungry mouth, mewling with pleasure, with excitement, feeling Marron\'s arms jerk him harder into his embrace, lifting him higher, finally able to rubbed his aching hardness against Marron\'s equally hard stomach.

Marron clenched his arms tighter around his writhing niisan, hitching him higher into his embrace, feeling the hardness between Carrot\'s legs rubbing deliciously against him. Smiling against the swollen nubbin of flesh he worked in his mouth, enjoying the greedy sounds his niisan was making as he feasted on his flesh.

Carrot\'s head fell back as another tremor of pleasure washed over him, coming faster and faster, as he began rocking into Marron\'s muscled stomach. Rubbing faster, harder gasping at how GOOD the burning friction felt.

His breath sobbing in pleasure as he rocker harder, lowering himself slightly to gain more leverage, abruptly stopping as fear surge through him at the hard column pressing against his backside. Suddenly, shaking as fear rushed through him, he frantically grabbed handfuls of Marron\'s hair, dragging the hot mouth away from him. He attempted to scramble off Marron\'s lap in fear, feeling an agonizing relief as Marron\'s head came up, his eyes clearing, becoming dark gold.

Hearing his niisan sob suddenly, Marron pulled the shivering hiccuping body carefully to him, making sure Carrot remained on his knees, knowing what had frightened him again. Rubbing the sweat-slicked back comforting, as he felt Carrot slowly regain control of himself.

\"It\'s not gonna work,\" Carrot said miserably, his arms stealing around Marron\'s neck as he balanced carefully on his knees. \"Every time you get....hard,\" he choked out, \"I get scared,\" he added, drawing back and looking Marron in the eyes, deliberately trying to lower himself and feeling the knot of fear expand, at the brush of cloth against him. Frustrated, he surged back on his knees leaning his hot forehead against Marron\'s.

\"Niisan, you were badly abused and raped,\" Marron said, feeling Carrot flinch at the word, \"Did you really this this would be easy,\" he asked quietly, pulling his head back, searching his niisan\'s big brown eyes, before continuing, \"It won\'t. Your body remembers only the pain, it needs to be remind of what pleasure feels like. That\'s what we\'re trying to do. Relearning your body to know and remember only the pleasure of this,\" leaningwardward and licking Carrot\'s lips, feeling the answering shiver as his niisan\'s lips parted for him.

Carrot heard the words but didn\'t really believe him, until he felt Marron\'s tongue gently licking at his lips, and his mouth opened automatically, hungry for the pleasure Marron\'s lips and tongue brought. He sucked Marron\'s tongue inside, moaning in pleasure at the taste, the slick glide of their tongues playing against each other.

He tilted his head to the side, deepening their kiss, holding tighter as he took over their shared kiss, feeling the hard knot of fear being buried under the waves of pleasure washing over him.

He whimpered as Marron drew back, \"Um, umpf, um, umpf,\" soft sighs of ght,ght, licking his lips still tasting Marron, angling his head for another soul shattering kiss.

Marron heard his niisan growl of frustration as he grasped his head and pulled him back, laughing softly at the hunger on his niisan\'s face.

\"See what I mean,\" he whispered, breathing rapidly, watching the passion slowly fade from his niisan\'s eyes.

\"What do we do now,\" Carrot said, breathing harshly, easing to the side and curling up against Marron. His eyes were drawn to Marron\'s tented pants and a mixture of fear and desire warred within him.

Marron, following his niisan\'s eyes, knew that as long this part of him remained a mystery, Carrot would still be fearful.

\"Come on,\" he said drawing Carrot to his feet.

\"Where to,\" Carrot asked, stumbling slightly.

\"To bed, of course,\" Marron said.

He eyes his niisan speculatively and came to a decision. \"Tomorrow we\'re going to do something else,\" Marron warned softly as they walked to the bed.

\"What,\" Carrot asked, hardly listening, plotting ways to get back to Marron\'s tempting lips, his body still humming with desire.

Marron laughed softly, well aware of the fixated look on his brother\'s face and where his attention truly lay.

Testing his theory, he slowly licked his lips.

Carrot almost collapsed at the rush that went though him at the sight of that pink succulent flesh that he so wanted to suck on, to taste it again, to feel it caressing, writhing in his mouth. He shivered and leaned up to take Marron\'s lips, and feeling Marron draw back, he dropped back down again with a sulky look on his face.

\"Stop teasing me,\" he said angrily to the smiling Marron, watching as the smile was replaced by a look on sensual determination.

\"Niisan, I won\'t. I can\'t,\" Marron said softly. \"Your problem, our problem is that your fear far outweighs your desire for consummation. So, until your need, your desire overcomes your fear, I will continue to remind you of the pleasures that await you.\" He studied Carrot gravely.

Carrot shivered, he read the determination on his brother\'s face and knew he was in for the time of his life. He didn\'t know whether to laugh or cry. He knew how Marron was once he had made up his mind, nothing would sway him.

Silently they got into bed and Marron curled up against his niisan, feeling an arm pull him tighter, each thinking of the coming morning as desire thrummed through their bodies, preventing their rest, until finally their exhausted bodies fell into restless slumber.