A hacker's sight.

Ch.4 - A Wish for Nothing?


Clouds hung over Tokyo, on a dreary breaking of morning. The dark clouds were threatening a heavy rain fall as it obscured the sun that lay behind the banks of darkness. The overcast skies were in control of it all.

Michael was walking to work as usual, but his step was slower than it had been on his freedom walk since moving to his own place. He was seemingly very distracted as he walked very slowly. He had his head tilted down a little, never once did he glance at any of the people who passed him on the street.

The images of Robin masturbating was still flashing through his brain, just like it had been all night long. Two questions kept popping into his head about what he had witnessed, over and over again.

The first on was he never knew she did such things as masturbated. With her known upbringing in the Catholic faith as a child in Italy, he always had understood that was a ‘sin’ or something within her religion. It seemed that the young huntress was not subscribing to that part of the doctrine anymore. It was all right by him, for the though of it being deemed ‘naughty’ actually made him horny again. That fact actually surprised him about himself, and he chuckled to himself.

The other was did she actually cry out his name in the throws of her orgasm? The image of her with her two fingers stuffed inside of her, her eyes closed and calling out his name was all the image his brain actually was letting through. The image of her sweet juices flowing over her hand while she called out his name, was overwhelming. He was trying to figure out if it was as real as it seemed to be, or did he imagine it?

He soon was thinking back on the obvious tensions he had seen, and wondered if that was making his brain fake all of this. He did not know exactly, but he simply should not to pounder on it any more. He frowned, and made his mind shift away to other things. He was feeling just a little stupid in not knowing, and nor was he not going to actually reveal what he had seen, or think he had seen.

Looking up at the brooding sky, he felt the first cool slash of raindrops on his cheek, he hurried himself to get to work. He had dawdled too long in getting to work already, and he knew he had a vast amount of work to do. He quickened his steps, as the sky started to let loose it’s load of water.

He got down to work as soon as he arrived at the office, knowing he was fairly late in his arrival. Amon was there already, even though no one else was other than the guard out front. The tall hunter set Michael to work on some leads he had worked up during the night, saying little as he did so.

The hacker kid did as he was told to, feeling a little relived that Robin had not come in to work yet. He knew that it would be very hard to see the girl, after being a such a ‘Peeping-Michael’ like he had. He hoped that this work would make it difficult to face her, and not feel as awkward that he was surly going to be. That was the plan, but plans do have a habit of go awry or changing on a person..

As Michael worked, Amon was going between watching him and talking to the Chief off and on. That was just fine with the youth, as only Amon, Dojima and the chief were at work. He over heard that Miho and Sakaki were running down another prospective lead for Amon, and Robin was not in as yet. It was a relaxed feeling to the room, except for the constant broodiness of Amon.

A hand suddenly appeared, and plastered a sticky-not on his monitor. He looked over, and saw that it had been placed their by Dojima. He wondered just what this was all about.

She shushed him with a finger, and then mouthed the words ‘Just read it’. The youth nodded, looked to see if Amon was coming, which he was not, and then took the small note off of his monitor.

The note only said one long line, written in Dojima’s odd scrawling handwriting.
“ When we are on break, find me to talk”. It read, ending with her name in a very bad autograph style. He looked at the blonde and nodded. She nodded back, and hurried off to look busy.

Now the hacker youth was totally confused with everything and anything, and it felt like when he was back in grade school, passing notes something like this. Other than that oddity, this was having a overall feeling of being important, regardless of the adolescent feeling of the communication.

Dojima had never really talked to him ever or passed a note during his time here, other than when it was either work related or the girl spewing out stories from her dating life to him. Whatever was so important for the girl to actually talk to him, really did intrigue Michael. He had a feeling that discussion whatever was to be said by Dojima, was not going to be anything but important.

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Coffee time came, and Robin was finally in for work. She was over an hour late in arriving, which was unusual for the young girl. She looked like someone who had not slept well for a few days.

She had simply wandered in and started to work right off, saying only a few words to anyone once there. Amon seemed to be almost ignoring the girl, even though they were working closely the same case together. The tension in the air between them and everyone else, you could feel it hanging like the dark clouds that rained outside.

Dojima pulled Michael away, to where the well room was. The lad was shocked, as she had simply began to passed by him, grabbing him sharply and took him in tow by one arm as she headed in to the well.
“ What ?” He asked, being taken so suddenly.
“ Wait until we are out of earshot of everyone.” She whispered, continuing to lead the lad out.

In the room, Dojima glanced around, obviously making sure that they were alone. Michael’s eyes also did that, only out of reaction to what the blond haired girl was doing. She then looked at the lad.
“ We are alone.” She said, seeming very happy with it.
“ We are...” He said, looking into her eyes. “ Now, what is going on with all of the cloak-and-dagger stuff? I have been feeling like something is very different around here, and yet, I do not know. Christ, I am the information officer, and I am in the dark here.”

The lady’s face looked right at the youth.
“ You have been wondering what was happening around here?” She bluntly started, seeing the frustration that the had on his face. “ Amon and Robin broke up the other night, that is what is happening.”

Michael felt like whooping with delight, as the news was one he had been wishing on, but he held it back. Something was holding on to it. Perhaps it was the sadness Robin had on her face the past few days or something, but he could not get his overjoyed feelings out of himself.
“ Why?” Was all he could ask.

Dojima looked at Michael.
“ She broke it off, apparently stemming from two major things.” She said.
“ Two things?” He ask, that statement bring up more questions. “ What two things?”
“ The biggest part was that he always wanted to have sex... she says that it did not feel right to her to be having have sex with him right now.” She said. “ They are not even living together, and he was constantly after her. She said ‘when it was time for her to lose her virginity, she would know’, that was how she put it.”
“ Does not sound like Amon to be like that...” The lad said. “ But... we never really knew any of his lady friends either.”
“ I’ve never heard Robin tell a lie... have you.” Said the girl. “ Despite the stuff from the past with SOLOMON, I really do believe her.”

The hacker lad shook his head. He never knew the girl to lie ever, other than what she was ordered to do by SOLOMON. He knew all to well, that nearly killed her to do, and admitting everything had freed the young girl from it. This was Robin, and he felt like it was all true.
“ What is the second part of her explanation?”

Dojima looked a the lad again.
“ She broke up also because, she said that she felt like she was falling for someone else.” The girl seemed to pause, thinking on it as she told what she knew. “ Robin never exactly told me who that person was, saying that she had to work it out first, and she just could not do that with Amon around.”
“ Some one else?” He echoed, his mind flashing to the girl masturbating while calling out his name.

Michael could not help but have his questions arise from this information again. Was he the one Robin was eluding to, that he was the one she had feelings for? Is that why she had called out his name in a very intimate time? Was this fate now stepping in, that she had broke it off with Amon?

The last two thoughts he had actually unnerved him a little, as those possibilities swirled around his mind. It seem so implausible, but still quite plausible.
“ That was what she said...” Dojima nodded, never once seeing the lad’s reaction to all of her news. “ She said that those two things, really told her that the relationship was already over. He got mad and left, calling her a ‘tart’, among other less colorful things and putting his hand through the wall of her apartment.”
“ Now that is not Amon.” He lad said, thinking as objectively as he could have. He is usually in such great control.”
“ I see it different though..” Came back the lady, thinking out loud to herself. “ I can see that it is in the realm of possibilities for Amon, to act like this.”

Michael did not want to talk ill about Amon, but he did see that point clearly. He had never seen Amon like how he was being described, but the hunters deep moods made that more of a possibility rather than one to be dismissed lightly. The news made him feel conflicted, between the loyalty he felt towards Amon and his increasing feelings he was experiencing for the young Crafter. He was stuck in between.

The STN workers then broke off the conversation suddenly upon hearing the familiar footfalls of Amon coming into the room.
“ Lets get back to work here, dammit!” He snarled, standing there with his arms crossed his chest. “ I am not going to simply wait, while you stand around doing fucking nothing.”
“ We were discussing going off to having tea with the queen of England... do you mind?” Quipped Dojima, her face showing her growing displeasure she was having towards the man
“ Enough of your adolescent ways, Dojima...Just get back in here.. I want this witch stopped and stopped as fast as we can!” He snapped back, obviously annoyed at the girl’s flippant and sarcastic words. “ We have to waste no more time here...”
“ Gheesh, mellow out Amon.” Was all the lady said, shooting a icy stare at the man.

Michael and Dojima went back in to the computer lab to resume their jobs, following the very angry man. They knew that he was not in the best frame of mind, but there was little they could do to persuade that out of him. Getting Robin back with him was out of the question right about now. It would not do any good for either one of them, that was all too clear right from the get-go.

For the hacker lad, he hoped that it was not going to happen, or at least he was praying for that. He also wanted that too in a odd way, only if that would make young Robin happy again. It was such a very contradictory thing.

He just shook his head, as the thoughts all swirled around in his head, causing a little pain behind his eyes.
“ What in hell should I be hoping for right now?” He asked himself over and over again, while taking a seat back at his workstation. “ Fucking goddamn!! I don’t even know any more.”

This was one of those days people dread. The lad would rather be sick or out on a call, rather than struggle with himself over all of this stuff. He sat there for a second, rubbing his temples slowly with his fingertips.

What does he wish for? That was definitely the question of the day.