Night I Cry, Night I Bleed
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Gensomaden Saiyuki › General
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
7
Views:
2,941
Reviews:
1
Recommended:
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Currently Reading:
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The Solution?
~Hakkai~
They’re arguing about me again. I can hear Goku yelling at Kat about me. I know what he’s thinking. He wants to kill the ones responsible for this. So he takes it out on the nearest person in the same vicinity as him.
Please stop fighting. I’m sorry ,I’m sorry, I’m sorry ,I’m sorry.
Maybe those guys are right. I am just a slut, a dirty mongrel, a whore. They are right. They are right. I stiffen at the sounds in the hallway. Goku was leaving. Gojy was left alone at his post.
I don’t want this. I don’t want people doing this for me, I don’t want them fighting or blaming themselves. I ‘m tired, I just want to sleep. Sleep… Sweet sleep. I want to sleep forever. No one will have to worry if I sleep forever. No one will suffer because of me anymore….
I crept into the adjoining bathroom. I locked the door to ensure my task would be completed. I watched the light dance across the ceiling for a moment. I pulled up my long sleeve and gazed at the marks left on my wrists. They were black, blue, red ugly marks, making my skin crawl. I reached for the knife I had taken from the kitchen earlier.
“Such ugly little marks. Such filthy, disgusting marks.” I said to the darkness, a faint smile graced my face.
I plunged deep into my skin, hardly noticing the pain. I laughed slightly. This was how I was going to end it all. This was how I was going to stop the pain, the worry, and the hurt for those I loved. How ironic.
I attacked the marks on my thighs, my ankles, even the one on my neck. I finished my task, letting the knife drop to the floor. I didn’t care anymore. I wanted to be free of everything. I dropped as well, resting in the puddle I had created from my blood. I didn’t care anymore.
‘I feel really tired now… Sleep. That’s what I want…. Just to sleep…’
I vaguely remember someone cry out before I slipped into complete darkness. I also remember a floating feeling. I do remember the voice though. The voice that asked me the question I had no answer to.
“Why, Hakkai?” Gojyo asked me.
They’re arguing about me again. I can hear Goku yelling at Kat about me. I know what he’s thinking. He wants to kill the ones responsible for this. So he takes it out on the nearest person in the same vicinity as him.
Please stop fighting. I’m sorry ,I’m sorry, I’m sorry ,I’m sorry.
Maybe those guys are right. I am just a slut, a dirty mongrel, a whore. They are right. They are right. I stiffen at the sounds in the hallway. Goku was leaving. Gojy was left alone at his post.
I don’t want this. I don’t want people doing this for me, I don’t want them fighting or blaming themselves. I ‘m tired, I just want to sleep. Sleep… Sweet sleep. I want to sleep forever. No one will have to worry if I sleep forever. No one will suffer because of me anymore….
I crept into the adjoining bathroom. I locked the door to ensure my task would be completed. I watched the light dance across the ceiling for a moment. I pulled up my long sleeve and gazed at the marks left on my wrists. They were black, blue, red ugly marks, making my skin crawl. I reached for the knife I had taken from the kitchen earlier.
“Such ugly little marks. Such filthy, disgusting marks.” I said to the darkness, a faint smile graced my face.
I plunged deep into my skin, hardly noticing the pain. I laughed slightly. This was how I was going to end it all. This was how I was going to stop the pain, the worry, and the hurt for those I loved. How ironic.
I attacked the marks on my thighs, my ankles, even the one on my neck. I finished my task, letting the knife drop to the floor. I didn’t care anymore. I wanted to be free of everything. I dropped as well, resting in the puddle I had created from my blood. I didn’t care anymore.
‘I feel really tired now… Sleep. That’s what I want…. Just to sleep…’
I vaguely remember someone cry out before I slipped into complete darkness. I also remember a floating feeling. I do remember the voice though. The voice that asked me the question I had no answer to.
“Why, Hakkai?” Gojyo asked me.