After You

“So your magic is completely gone?” Kurogane asks as he softly stroked the head of soft blond hair and watched the mage sigh and snuggle closer to his body.

“Don’t worry yourself over it…it was my decision to make.” Fay answered.

“Are you trying to lose all of yourself? I can’t keep paying Yuuko to keep you around.” Kurogane said as his arms tighten around the mage. How grateful he was to Fay for returning his arm would never be shown verbally for it was a price that Kurogane himself could never repay. But he was insanely happy that Fay did that because it shows just how much Kurogane means to him and that it was an affirmation of the mage’s feelings towards him. Yet it was amusing the way they keep paying for each other’s life…he hoped the journey would be ending soon, they don’t have much more of themselves to pay for their wishes anymore.

“Your arm is important to you…you wanted me to stay alive isn’t it? I am still here, my magic is a small price to pay.” Fay said as he reached up and gently cupped Kurogane’s left cheek and gazed into crimson eyes. It was true, nothing was too heavy a price to pay as long as he could stay with the man who had saved him countless times and showed him the meaning of living and loving oneself. He could no longer image a life without him and had unconsciously, over time found himself making impromptu decisions to save the other’s life because the thought of losing him sent his mind into a frenzy. Which was why he had made a deal with Yuuko for her to sent them back to Nihon and give Kurogane a new arm…a man as perfect as him cannot live with a defect, whether it was physical or not. Fay needed him to be perfect so he could draw strength, love and life for him to continue their arduous road ahead. It sounds selfish but Fay felt that he deserves it after being through so much and he was sure Kurogane would not mind him for thinking in such a way.

“As long as you are still here…with me…Fay.” Kurogane said as he took Fay’s hand away from his cheek and placed a kiss on his knuckles, his gaze never leaving the mage’s amber eye before he realized that Fay is no longer a mage after stripping all of his magic powers. He is now truly a vampire. He wondered if Fay’s eyes would turn back to those beautiful azure that he loves so much if they found the other missing eye but then decided that amber suits Fay just as well if not better, it made him look more determine and sure of himself, his glare more penetrating and deadly. It gives Fay an edge that he never had before. It also made him so much more enticing and a totally different person altogether…

‘It was losing the most important parts of ourselves that we are given the opportunity to be born anew, it is a rebirth. It was giving up something that was most important to us that we realized why exactly we did that…it was because there was someone else who is more important and above all those things that one once considered precious to them. It is a sacrifice to understand what your heart has been trying to tell you…that you have found the person you love and whom you would give all to without hesitation. Yes, these are the sacrifices that has pushed us together, isn’t it Fay?’ Kurogane thought to himself as he brought his lips to Fay’s, feeling pliant lips against his. So sweet, so soft, he would never tire of tasting him.

“Kurogane..” Fay murmured into the kiss as the heady sensations rushed up to his brains, effectively rendering him speechless for the moment. His kisses always does this to him, makes him feel as if he has never been kissed before. But in someway, it is how it is, Fay had never been loved so completely and deeply before. In his rapture of emotions, he hoped that nothing would go wrong and whisked all these away from his grasp.

He would sacrifice anything and everything to be by the side of Kurogane…because he is the only reason why he is alive.