Becoming Insane

There was no real noise anywhere in that room. Allen’s breathing, the light hissing sound Tyki’s cigarette made ever drag he took on it, and the sounds from the street outside of people talking curiously were the only things that could be heard in that time that Tyki sat there, waiting. Idly, he wondered where the fight had traveled to and thought maybe it had made its way down the road to where they couldn’t hear it anymore. He got up and went to the window to find the street in ruins, but no Exorcists, akuma, or Road in sight. They had all gone somewhere else to fight their battle. Tyki felt relieved, knowing he wouldn’t live this down if an akuma or another Exorcist had come crashing through the wall by mistake. The Earl would know though. He would know just by looking at Tyki and he would surely punish him for such a thing. To torture the poor boy before death in the way he did was disgusting in itself to the Earl, but to show mercy and even feel the way he did made it even worse.

He turned around and looked at the sleeping form under the cloak and sighed with a whisper, “I must be insane…”

Glancing to the side, he threw his cigarette and stepped on it to put it out. He heard Allen stir on the couch and he looked up with only his eyes and saw him wincing as he sat up, then watched as he looked around and spotted Tyki. Even at the distance he was at, Tyki could still see the shame and then the rage build up in his face. It was only a moment before Tyki had to avert his eyes. He looked at the floor, trying to keep a smug look about him, but he knew his face would give it away; at least, until he could compose himself enough to look at him with confidence and not regret. There was another moment of silence between them, and then Allen began gathering his clothes to put them on and cover his naked body. Tyki lifted his head and looked out the window, over the street where people were picking through the rubble and the police were trying to pull them all back to clear the street. “I wonder if your friends have found the Innocence yet, boy. Their fight with Rhode and the akuma has moved elsewhere. I wonder if they’re alright…and if they think you’re…”

Tyki paused. He turned and smiled at Allen’s anti-akuma weapon that was inches from his head. Allen had gotten up and ran over, activating it in the process. He had heard Allen’s footsteps and known what was coming, but what he didn’t expect was that he was hesitating killing him. The Exorcist was breathing heavily, out of anger, and his legs were shaking. It didn’t surprise Tyki, since he had handled him pretty roughly before. Allen glared out at him as he pushed the Innocence forward a little, whispering, “You bastard…”

Tyki smiled more. “Are you hesitating, boy? Why?”

Allen’s eyes filled quickly with tears and he dropped his head, but his arm was still raised, and the Innocence shook with the energy it was building up, getting ready for the slightest hint from it’s master that it wanted to kill this Noah. “Y-You’re human…”

“I’m also your enemy…”

“I know that!” Allen yelled and glared up at him.

“I raped you…”

Allen moved his arm forward, the fingers splaying out on either side of Tyki’s head in a way that caged him in. “I know that too! Just…shut up…”

Tyki didn’t say another word. He watched the young boy he had violated so horribly and his heart hurt. That’s what that was. That strange tugging feeling he felt that fought against his inner Noah so strongly was something in his human side. It wasn’t pity. It wasn’t sympathy. It was some other feeling that Tyki still had yet to figure out and even now, it was fighting the Noah inside him for control. Whatever it was, it hurt his heart and he knew that torturing this boy caused it. Tyki’s fingers itched with that feeling of wanting to kill and to destroy the innocence he faced now but he made himself have control. He didn’t want to kill this boy. Allen looked back up at him, tears still streaming down his face as he stared at Tyki, as if to make some sense of this as well. Pulling his innocence back just enough to see his face better, he asked, “Why didn’t you kill me?”

Tyki sighed. “I don’t know.”

Allen paused a moment and then asked, “Why don’t you kill me now?”

“I don’t know.” That seemed to be the only answer he could give to Allen’s questions. Tyki didn’t know, and he wasn’t sure if he would in time. All he knew was he had to rid himself of this feeling before it altered him so much that he wouldn’t know himself anymore. “You’re friends are probably looking for you, boy. Why don’t you go find them?”

Allen lowered his innocence a little and looked towards the window at the destroyed street that Tyki had been looking at a moment ago. Taking this chance, Tyki grabbed the innocence and his other arm and bound them behind his back, looking into the frightened face of the Exorcist he had in his arms who had begun to struggle immediately. Tyki stopped his protests with a rough kiss that would be his last indulgence with this Exorcist before he had to let it all fade away. “That was a suggestion that you leave, boy. I’m letting you go now, but next time it won’t be so easy for me to just let you go…remember that…”

The smaller body was still and Tyki held him a bit more loosely, finding with a bit of relief that he wasn’t going to struggle anymore. Tyki took one hand and wiped one of Allen’s wet cheeks and sighed as he asked, “You’re…letting me…?”

“Yes. I am.” He shoved Allen away and he stumbled before falling, his legs and lower half still not yet recovered from Tyki’s attentions to it before. It was a moment before Allen got up and slowly went to his clothes. He redressed in silence and after one last look, he went down the hallway, limping a little as he tried to hurry to go find his friends. Tyki listened until the footsteps faded away and he leaned against the wall. He slid down until he was sitting against it and he dipped his head, thinking. Heavier, but still lighter footsteps came into the room a moment later. The Earl stood in front of Tyki with an unusually quiet Lero in his hands. Without looking up, Tyki knew it was him just by the footsteps. The Earl was always around and always watching them. He laughed out, “I guess I’m in trouble.”

The Earl was quiet for a little while and the silence was agony to Tyki. If he didn’t forgive Tyki, then he would no longer be allowed to be under his protection and would no longer be a part of the family that was the Noah. That hurt more than anything. “Tyki. Love isn’t as strong as family ties…Do you understand this?”

Tyki was quiet, wondering what he meant by love, but he nodded. He had heard something along those lines, like maybe blood is thicker than water. “I don’t love that Exorcist. You have it wrong, Earl. I don’t know what I was doing with him.”

“Ah. I suppose.” His tone was pleasant, but he was calculating. “Come Tyki. Rhode failed to get the Innocence by herself. We’ll have to recalculate what we’re going to do…”

Tyki stood and looked around the room again before looking to the Earl. “What is my punishment?”

The Earl only turned and began walking down the hall, making Tyki follow him to hear his soft voice. “You will live with the knowledge that you have failed this family as a Noah. We are against the Exorcists. If you fail to forget that Tyki…”

“Kill me if I do.” Tyki interrupted him. It wasn’t what the Earl had in mind, but it was what Tyki wanted. The pain of going against his family was nothing compared to what he felt with hurting and letting the Exorcist Allen Walker leave like that.

The Earl sighed. “I think tonight, we’ll have jasmine tea before dinner. How does that sound Tyki?”
The Noah knew that he had listened, but just chose not to answer. It was fine with Tyki, and since his favorite had always been Rhode, it made no difference to Tyki how the Earl felt about him. In the time that it would be until he next saw Allen Walker, though, he would prepare himself to face him again. This time, there would be no slip-ups and he would kill him. Without hesitation, and without looking back on the path he chose. There was one question he wanted to ask though; would he have the strength to do it?

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Here's the final chapter
Due to recent events in the latest chapter, I think I may be wanting to do a sequel to this if anyone would like.
Just let me know. I enjoyed writing this one so much, I may do it whether or not you liked this one! :P

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