Burning Heart

It happened That's all Asuka could admit to herself.

She had sex with Misato, and that was it. Misato had walked in on them having sex and the only way for them to get out of it was to let her join. Misato was so drunk she probably didn't even remember what had happened. It was a moment of weakness and it wasn't going to happen again. This thought became a mantra for Asuka was she tried desperately to rationalize what had happened a few nights ago.

Shinji spent most of his time walking around the house with the world dumbest grin on his face. Knowing better than to bring it up, he could only sit there remembering what happened. Misato was worse. Even though she seemed to have forgotten their time together, she did seem to be wearing tighter shirts and shorter shorts. She paraded around the house, swinging her curvaceous hips from side to side like a well seasoned dancer of the exotic nature. It didn't take much imagination for Asuka to remember what Misato looked like naked... straddling her... her hot lips pressing deeply in to...

"NO! Stop it!" Asuka screamed, causing Shinji to spill the juice he was pouring for her.

Sweeping up the broken glass and messy juice Shinji said in a hurt voice, "You didn't need to yell at me. If you didn't want the juice I could have drank it."

This sort of thing was becoming normal in their home. Tensions ran so high Asuka was sure she was going to go insane years before doctors predicted. School had let out for a week long break, which for Asuka meant being forced to deal with her awkward situation. But like any well trained pilot of a multi-million dollar experimental death machine, she decided to run from her problems like a frightened child.

The mall seemed so dead during the middle of the week. Most of her school mates were out of town, hung over or sleeping in; living life like a high schooler should. As she walked from shop to shop she could help but notice that the only people she did see there at the mall seemed to be couples out shopping. Women dragging men from place to place, making them spend hours holing bags and purses and lie about how the swimsuit they were trying on didn't make them look fat, all for the off chance that their actions might lead to sex. Then she saw a strange sight, an older woman walking arm in arm with a scrawny young teenager. The woman seemed old enough to be the kid mother, but buy the way his arm was pressed up against her breast and by the way his pants were bulging, Asuka was sure he was there to tell her she didn't look fat in whatever lingerie she was going to try on.

Cougars... Asuka thought. Older women preying on younger men, seducing them with maternal charms that only a woman with a few years behind her would know.

The cloudy image of Shinji's face as he thrust wildly against Misato seductive hips crept in to Asuka's mind. His face was filled with a wild passion that she hadn’t seen when it was just them. Could she compete with a woman like Misato? Absentmindedly, her hand came up to her small breasts, knowing sadly that they were much smaller than Misato's She could deal with Shinji liking Ayanami, because there was no chance that a lifeless doll like Rei could ever return his feelings, but Misato was a real threat. Not only was she a drunken impulsive slut, she lived under the same roof as Shinji.

No! Shinji is mine. Asuka thought, slamming her fist down on the cold stone bench she was sitting on. He said he loved me and he is my boyfriend. He loves me... right?

The days passed in a haze of avoidance and doubt, but Asuka couldn't keep running from her problems. One night, hours after lights out, she snuck in to Shinji's room and shook him awake.

"Wake up, are you planning on sleeping all night?" She whispered, pressing a finger over his mouth to keep him from making a sound.

"Well I was... but I guess you had something else in mind." Shinji replied, stretching his arms and suppressing a yawn.

"Not here," Asuka said, feeling a hand groping her chest, "You wouldn't want Misato walking in on us again would you?"

"...of course not." Shinji said, but his hesitation told Asuka that he was lying.

"...Baka." She muttered, leading him out the door.

The wind whipped at their bare feet as they crossed the field in front of their house. Asuka was leading them to a secluded patch of grass that the frequented when they wanted to just sit and talk. Normally it was a quiet patch of soft grass that, even though it was surrounded by thick trees, let in enough warm sunlight for a pleasant picnic or similar outing. But now, in the pale moonlight, the familiar path that led them to the spot was covered in a heavy haze of fog and cool night air. Even as a dark chill ran up Asuka's back and penetrated her to the bone, she still felt the ping of excitement jittering through her body. Her nipples poked up through her thin red negligee and it had little to do with the temperature. Her heart was beating in a wild rhythm as their feet tromped over the wet leaves.

What felt like an eternity blinked by in an instant once they arrived. Shinji pulled his shirt off over his head but Asuka stopped him before he got to his pants.

"Look, I'm freezing out here, so unless we're going to do this, I'm going to go back to bed." Shinji said, his body covered in tiny goose bumps.

"You love me don't you?" Asuka said, in a strange awkward tone.

Shinji just stood there staring at her. "You drug me all the way out here just to talk?"

Asuka tore the clothes from her body. "Is this all you want, my body! Do you love me or don't you?"

Shinji picked up the red negligee and handed it to her. "Of course I love you, you know that."

Ignoring his outstretched hand, Asuka stood there, naked in the night air. "Then what about Misato?"

"What about her?" Shinji said, trying awkwardly to cover her.

"Oh, don't pretend like you don't know. I saw how you fucked her... I know you loved it!" Asuka spat.

Shinji felt both hurt and annoyed. "Yeah I liked it, but don't tell me you didn't like it too. And if I remember correctly, you were the one who said we should do it. I liked it but it was weird."

Fuck Asuka's mind reeled, "But you..."

Shinji stopped her with a kiss. "You know I love you, and only you. You're my girlfriend."

"Stop," Asuka said, "Just stop."

"No." Shinji said, kissing her neck.

His hands came up to her breasts, his lips over her shoulders. The wind blew cold and they clung to each other. Through her breasts, Shinji could feel her heart beating timidly, but beating just for him. Asuka wanted to hate him to call him a liar, but she knew it in her heart he was telling the truth, or at least, she needed desperately to believe him. In an act of desperation she flung her naked body on top of his and they toppled to the ground. She hit him, pounding her arms against his chest, but she kissed him too. She scrambled his pants off, kissing his chest his stomach, desperate for every inch him.

No foreplay, no toying, no teasing, Asuka just wanted to feel Shinji, to reconnect the bond that fell apart over the last few weeks. To feel his chest pounding, his breath on her skin, the moment filled her. With a few quick tugs at his cock, she got him hard and pushed him inside of her. She was dry and cold, and it was uncomfortable but she could feel the blood pumping through it, through him. The cold frigid ground grew distant as Asuka rolled over on her back and let Shinji guide himself. As he started to hump her they moved in unison, so that his cock stayed where it was, and their hips moved back and forth.

He's mine. Mine.

Body heat turned the goose bumps on Asuka's skin to beads of sweat, her body growing hot despite the cold night air. Shinji's cock began to slip in and out of her vagina with ease, coated in her growing excitement. She was overwhelmed with the felling of being pressed in to the ground, stomachs slapping together, hot thick cock reaming deep within her. Everything she knew was in this moment, every ounce of her body consumed with longing, to be one with Shinji. The tip of his cock hit deep within her, deeper than ever before. She raised her hip to allow him even better access, she could feel it pressing up against her stomach, every twitch of his cock felt by the sensitive walls of her dripping vagina. Every breath breathed raggedly, desperate for the strength for the next thrust. Their eyes were connected like lasers, burning right in to the other's soul. She saw Shinji's eyes grow tight with focus, his teeth grit like an animal and she knew what was coming. Digging her fingers in to his back she wrapped her legs around him and braced her body to receive his love. She felt the hard bone of Shinji's pelvis hit against hers as his last thrust sent him as deep as he could go, his cum bursting up within her, flooding her insides with a hot fluid sensation. He continued to pump his hips, pushing his whole body against hers with every thrust, with so much passion that Asuka could feel the dirt and grass embedding in to her skin.

Shinji backed off of her, his cock leaving her wet hole with a sticky sound. Feeling the slowly oozing from her body, Asuka reached down to feel the proof of his love. It was enough for her, words meant nothing compared to the connection she felt for Shinji at that moment. Her heart was beating so hard it hurt, but it was the greatest hurt she had ever felt. She was so overcome with emotion, that it took her a few second to realize Shinji was talking to her. The blood in her ears made it hard for her to hear much, but the message didn't need words to be conveyed.

"I love you so much, Asuka." Shinji whispered in her tender ear.

Staring up at the night sky, Asuka breathed the first relaxed breath she had taken in weeks. "I love you too, baka."


End

Author’s notes

Kinda different this chapter, compared to the last, but I felt like going back to the more romantic arc of this story, I hope it didn’t let anyone down. And to the people that made suggestions, thanks and I’m trying to work them in where I could. Read and review, and really, thanks for all the support.