Sugar Suicide
Stones
~Friday~
7
in the morning and Darien
He’d kicked some people out during the night, and now was attempting to get the
rest out, though most were just dozed off about his apartment. He wasn’t really
focused on that though. Todd and Serena had disappeared somewhere during the
party, and no one knew where; no one that wasn’t wasted anyways.
Darien
been thinking about Serena all night. He just wished he hadn’t said what he did
to her. She, for once in a long time, said something nice to him, and he ruined
in. That wasn’t what was important though.
Where
was she?
Darien
‘friends’, with a shake of the head. Half of them he really didn’t know that
well. In fact, and good 1/3 of them he probably couldn’t tell you their names.
He laughed at that.
He
heard a door fumbling open from down the hall, and he saw Todd going into the
bathroom, looking like shit.
“Hey
man,” Darien
looked up, and grinned.
“Hey,
did you and that brunette hook up?” he asked, remembering that
to a brunette sometime during the night. Darien rolled his eyes. Because
consider a girlfriend, everyone was all nosey anytime he even talked to a girl.
Fortunate for him, he’s never had to go through that with Serena.
“No,
but about Serena-“
“That’s
awesome man,” Todd blurted, “But dude, I gotta piss so…I’ll be back.” And with
that he wobbled into the bathroom, slamming the door shut.
then, he heard a soft moan from the door Todd had come out off. Cautiously,
peeked in the door.
Darien
gasp in his throat. There was Serena, fast sleep on the spare bed. Her skirt
was hiked up just a little, and her shirt a little torn in the front.
“Serena?”
Darien
to the small girl, and shaking her a lightly. She was freezing. “Serena?” he
said a little louder. Serena cringed a little, and then slowly opened her eyes.
The moment her sites laid on Darien, she yelped, and shot up in the bed. “Hey, it’s okay!”
to touch her, just in case that might alarm her. Serena looked around,
panicked, but quickly began to calm down. She brought a hand to her head,
“What
time is it?” She asked.
“Seven.”
Darien
help her up.
“Seven?!”
Serena repeated. “Oh My God, I have to get home!” She abruptly sprung up from
the bed, but the second she took her first step, she stopped. She wanted to
fall on the floor and cry.
“You
okay?” Darien
head.
“No
…” she mused. She fell to her knees, buckling her legs together. She couldn’t
remember completely the whole evening, but she knew good and well what she did
with Todd last night.
“Serena?
You okay?” D"'>Darien
up at him, tears in her eyes. She wanted to tell him. She wanted him to know,
and do something about it. But she couldn’t; that’d be more than embarrassing.
Besides
“Why
do you care?” Serena spat. Darien sighed, though still helped her as she got up.
Wish
I was too dead to cry
My
self-affliction fades
Stones
to throw at my creator
Masochists
to which I cater
“You
don’t seem like you have a hang-over.” Darien murmured, “So what’s really wrong?” Serena
pulled away from him, practically limping to the door.
“It’s
none of your business.” From the way she moved, 10.0pt;font-family:"Times New Roman"'>Darien could tell, and he lowered his head.
“Do
you want to take a shower?” He asked. “You know…clean up, soak for awhile. It
might help with the pain.” Serena didn’t know what to do. The dead tone in
what scared her more is that he knew now. She had sex with Todd, and he knew.
“It might help Serena.” He said. Serena nodded, refusing to look at him, but
she was thoroughly surprised when he lifted her up, princess style. “Does this
hurt?” He asked. Serena shook her head,
“No.”
Darien
down the hall, he didn’t enter the bathroom though. He went into his room.
“You
can use my bathroom.” He said, still refusing to look at her.
“This
is your apartment?” Serena asked. Darien nodded. He set her down at the door.
“Will
you be okay?” Serena wanted to say no. She wanted to tell him that she hadn’t
wanted to do it. She wanted to let him know she wasn’t what he tho she she was,
but that wasn’t true now. She had sex with Todd. She really was that kind of
girl now.
“I’m
fine.” She blurted, and then closed the door. From the other side,
before she turned the water on.
You
don't need to bother; I don't need to be
I'll
keep slipping farther
But
once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds
“Hey
Man.” Todd said, entering Darien’s room. Darien didn’t move or say anything. “What are you doing? That was
some crazy party you know. Hey, have you seen Serena?” he said, all in one
quick sentence. Darien
fisted his hand, his muscles visibly flexing, but Todd was too gone to notice.
“You in there-”
“You
Bastard!” Todd didn’t even see Darien turn before he felt his fist against his face.
floor, holding a hand at his throat, and with a fist up behind him.
“Man,
what’s wrong?” Todd struggled, terror obvious in his eyes.
“Stay
away from Serena.” Darien
reflected a secret in them.
“What
do you mean?” he asked. Darien
him a little more.
“Stay
away from her. I never want to see you around her again. Do you understand?” he
asked, when Todd didn’t answer, that only made him angrier. “Do You
Understand?!” he repeated, leaning down closer to his face. Todd frowned,
“Man,”
he said, seemingly not as scared anymore, “We just had a little fun.”
Todd, and punching him again. “Besides,” Todd continued, whipping the blood
from his lip, “She wanted it.” Darien charged at him again, but missed this time.
Todd
fought back after evading Darien, and got in a good punch to his abdomen. That didn’t stop
him though. Darien
shoulders after the contact was made, then tackled him, slamming him up against
the wall. Todd slammed his elbow into Darien’s back, forcing him to draw back. Todd again
went to charge at him, but Darien saw it coming. In the corner of his eye, he also saw the
bathroom door swing open, and Serena stepped out, astonished. It averted Todd’s
eyes as well, giving Darien
the jaw, and Todd fell to the ground with a thud.
“Stay
away from her!” he said, one last time. Todd cursed, struggling to his feet,
and walking out the door. Theirtle tle scene had gotten the attention of most
of those in the house. They peeked in through the door, watching and waiting.
“
into the room. “What was that about?” He asked, helping
from his brow, and sighed.
“Nothing,
can you get everyone out though?” he asked. Andrew nodded, and pushed all the
bystanders away. As they protested, Darien moved to help push them all out. He led them to
the living room, yelling at them to find some other place to crash at. As they
bickered at him, Darien
was done with her shower, and in the door, redressed in her wrinkled and torn
clothes.
She
spotted Darien
hall, yelling at his friends. She also spotted Todd, who was hurriedly picking
up his things.
“What’s
up with you Darien
asked. Darien
“Playboy
here is upset because I got a piece of ass last night that he wanted.” Todd
snapped before slamming the door behind him. Darien gritted his teeth as everyone looked
around at each other confused. Tears welled in Serena’s eyes, and she sprinted
across the apartment, grabbing everyone’s attention as she disappeared out the
door. Darien
could he do?
Wish
I was too dead to care
If
indeed I cared at all
Never
had a voice to protest
So
you fed me shit to digest
I
wish I had a reason; my flaws are open season
For
this, I gave up trying
One
good turn deserves my dying
“
haired-man’s ears perked as Andrew called his name across the arcade. With an
agitate sigh, he lifted himself from his slumped position at the counter, and
strolled across the checkered floor to where his friend stood. “Hey man.”
Andrew mused, “Where you been all day? I expected you here bright and early!”
he exclaimed. Darien
now, 8 hours since Darien
everyone out of his house.
“Yea,
I’ve just been around.” Darien
work the 3
to 11
shift, and figured that by the time he was there,
considering he hadn’t drunken much of anything the previous night.
“Have
you talked to Serena?” Andrew asked. Everyone knew something had gone on
between Todd and Serena, and Darien had a problem with it. Darien couldn’t help but feel heartbroken.
When
Darien
walked away, knowing it was better not to press at this.
the counter as he sat, and he leaned his lips into his folded hands. He was
slumped over, and curled up almost. Something you would never see out of Darien
Chiba.
As
Darien
they led him down a path he hadn’t dare taken before. Why was he so upset?
Serena had the right to do whatever her heart desired. If she wanted to have
sex, with Todd specifically, then she had every right. His thoughts were
critical, yet they betrayed him.
He
was upset because it wasn’t him. Because he wanted to be the one that Serena
was gushing and giddy over.
He
spat at himself. He’d always known it. He’d always know deep in the crevasses
of his mind how he felt about Serena. He had fallen for her.
Head
over heels
lasslass=MsoBodyTextIndent>Somehow,
he’d found a way to surpass it.; to ignore it. Pretend it wasn’t there. He
regretted that now more than anything.
Serena
had moved on; on to Todd. Darien wouldn’t have tried to have sex with her. He wouldn’t have
wanted to push her into that at such a tender age. It was too late now for that
knight and shining armor though.
Darien
tear tickled at one of his lashes. He had let her slip away like sand through
his fingers. She would be different now. She wouldn’t be the Serena he once
knew and loved.
You
don't need to bother; I don't need to be
I'll
keep slipping farther
p;
But
once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds
“Excuse
me? Darien
brought his out of his thoughts.
“Hmm?
What?” He replied, turning quickly and blinking the tears away. Molly blushed
as she looked at him, and then looked down sorrowful.
“I
was wonderin’ if you’d seen Serena?” She asked, her little accent standing out.
Darien
“Because she wasn’t in school today, and I’ve called her house a million times,
and no one answered.” She finally looked at him, this time, her eyes filled
with worry. “You seem to talk to her everyday, so I was hopin’ you’d know.”
“I’m
sorry, I haven’t seen her.” He replied. Molly winced as he turned away coldly,
then lowered her head, and left. Darien clenched his fists tightly on the counter.
This
was wrong. There was just something very wrong about it all. Serena hid
something from him, and so had Todd. Darien wouldn’t be able to rest unte foe found out.
Slowly, he rose from the seat, and then darted out of the arcade, determined to
speak to a particular blonde, if he could find her that is.
Wish
I'd died instead of lived
A
zombie hides my face
Shell
forgotten with its memories
Diaries
left with cryptic entries
Serena
couldn’t get the song out of her head. She hummed it mindlessly as she walked
down the streets of Tokyo
where she was headed. She didn’t particularly care. Her father would be furious
when she got home, and she didn’t want to face anyone with what had happened.
As
she had been going home from Darien’s, she had run into some people who saw her from the party.
They’d picked fun at her, calling her a little whore and a slut.
She
deserved it; after what she did. Todd was a college boy, and Serena was 14.
She’d barely known him and just look at what she let happen. Still, her
helplessness plagued her.
Serena
coughed, realizing the sun had set, and it had grown cold out. She glanced down
at her watch, as if just knowing was important; 10-o-clock. She’d really been
wandering around that long? Where she she even? Serena finally took notice
her
her surroundings, and found irony in it.; Darien’s apartment building. Serena looked up. The end
of the complex seemed hidden in the clouds.
Serena
longed to touch those clouds. She wanted to; right now. Gritting her teeth,
Serena entered the building, and headed up the elevator, all the way to the top
floor. It was so chillingly familiar to last night. Todd was right next to her,
and though he wasn’t this time, his presence still lingered. Serena closed her
eyes, willing the thoughts to disappear, but in doing so, the image of him only
flooded her mind. Serena near choked as tears threatened to spill, and she was
greatly relieved when the elevatame ame to a stop.
Serena
practically flew out when the doors slid open. She gasped for air, as if her
thoughts had suffocated her. With an exasperated sigh, Serena began to walk
down the hall, past the deaf-man’s door, and past
familiar scent of rose and spice tickled her nose. She almost cried.
Her
eyes laid on a sign though that read: ROOF. With a small smile, opened the
door, and began to head up, letting the door slam behind her, though it bounced
back open carelessly.
And
you don't need to bother; I don't need to be
I'll
keep slipping farther
But
once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds
“Hey!
Hold the elevator!” a woman called as Darienfont-family:"Times New Roman"'> prepared to head up to his apartment. He had
resentfully given up his heroic search. She was no where to be found, and he
HAD looked everywhere. He’d even stopped at her house, and sat through the
wrath of her enraged father. Darien reached out and stopped the doors from closing as the
familiar woman entered. “Hey Darien,” The middle-aged woman mused.
reached out reflectively to aide her with her bags.
“I
see you went shopping.” He said. The woman smiled with a roll of the eyes.
Since Darien
fat bubbly woman with her groceries. She was a vibrant n, fn, full of live and love,
despite the fact that her forsaking husband what never home, but out drinking.
Over the years though, she just seemed to care less and less about that and
more and more about her 9th floor garden, which
beautiful.
“I
heard about your big bash last night.” She said, “Did you and you’re friends
have fun?” She asked gleefully. Darien smiled, with an almost sorrowful look. Weather
it was for the events of the night or for the fact that she thought a college
party evolved a bunch of boys eating and playing video games, he didn’t know.
“Yes,
of coarse we did!” he said happily as her floor came up, and he carried her
things into her apartment and to her counter.
“You’re
such a gentlemen!” the plump woman squealed. “Such a darling! If I were
younger, I’d snatch you up as soon as I could!” she said, her squinted eyes
marked with laugh lines as she went to the counter, seemingly wrapping
something up. “They aren’t freshly baked, but its what I have at the moment!”
she said, hol him him a small plate of homemade cookies.
“Why
thank you Eve, you know how I love your cookies!” he said. The woman laughed,
blushing brightly.
“I
know I know!” she said, “now you just run along now!” she said. As she hurried
him out the door, insisting that he knew a young lady was waiting for her
gentlemen caller, he laughed.
He
shook his head as he once again entered the elevator. Such a strange woman, but
it was that strange this abour thr that made listening to her non-stop babble
all worth while. His dismay was momentarily forgotten, but as soon as he
arrived at his floor, so did his thoughts. With a long sigh, he stepped out of
the elevator, and headed for his apartment, but as he pulled out his keys, he
heard the roof door slam, just as the elevator rang and went down. An ominous
silence fell as he stared at the swaying door. Brows forced together, her
stuffed his keys back in his pocket, and headed up the stairs.
You
don't need to bother; I don't need to be here
I'll
keep slipping farther
But
once I hold on (once I hold on)... I'll never live down my deceit
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Well, what do you think? I
know, it’s not quite what you wanted, but hey, that’s how life really is
sometimes!
R&R!