Stripping the mask

Kyoya gradually calmed and the mask slowly returned. Disappearing into Tamaki’s ensuite he washed his face, dressed and tidied his tossled hair. He didn’t dare look at himself more than he had to until he looked quite himself again. He didn’t know yet if he loved or hated this new experience. He didn’t know if he liked or hated the Tamaki that hit him and bound him and made him do things. 

Tamaki meanwhile gave Kyoya space for which Kyoya was very thankful. The blonde seemed to know that he needed to process things. When he re-emerged Tamaki didn’t move to smother him like he normally would. Instead he gave him an enquiring look.

”I’m okay” Kyoya reassured him and Tamaki nodded, uncharacteristically quiet.

”I thought you liked ordering people about and taking control” Kyoya sat opposite the blonde “why so quiet?”

”I do like it... That’s what disgusts me... I made my best friend cry and humiliated him... And I liked it” Tamaki said quietly “What kind of man does that make me Kyoya? I keep asking myself that... It’s like I want to hurt someone because I hurt and I want someone to pay for it...”

”Well... It seems to me you are just human...I can’t believe you made me sob like a little child though... How humiliating...” 

“Well... If it’s any consolation no one but me will ever know...” Tamaki smiled slightly “Thank you for trusting me... Even if it’s just once”

”Perhaps I need it... I feel... Lighter somehow...” Kyoya said thoughtfully “Just a little...”

”I have to admit I feel a little better myself...”

”That other guy... He really won’t ever tell?” Kyoya asked curiously.

”We have a contract... Not only that but if he speaks out then he will have to admit his side of things too... It benefits both of us to keep our mouths shut...”

”You sound like me” Kyoya said, looking surprised.

”Hmmm... Perhaps I learned well after all” Tamaki said with a very Kyoya like smirk and inspected Kyoya’s wrists again.

”So... If I did want to explore things further...What would be next?”

”I know I said your mask was gone but to be honest there were only cracks. It all depends on how vulnerable you want to be...” 

“You really think you can break through everything? I don’t know if I can even do that anymore...”

”Oh I know I can...” Tamaki said without hesitation “the question is whether we both can handle it if I do...”

”Is that so... Very well...Let us see if you can manage it.”

“Kyoya... This isn’t a game. I can already tell you it’s going to scare the hell out of you...Are you sure?”

“I’m still curious... Today was certainly an experience... Perhaps servant and master isn’t quite me yet but this was just a taste yes?”

“Oh yes...” 

They talked well into the night about what Kyoya had liked and not liked about the experience. Kyoya decided that the shock of Tamaki’s blows had been a good thing. Looking back on it in hindsight the adrenaline rush had been amazing. He didn’t like being a servant though. He had already had to meet challenges and behave. However, being dominated made his heart race despite all that and especially when it was the usually all too eager to please Tamaki dominating him. 

It was decided that this little experiment would continue. Next time with other elements thrown in.