Open Your Eyes

Forgive Me

Written By: Fox

Notes:

*laughs* Sorry if this story is making people hate Yue. I personally like him, but he makes for great angst...

Also, drug chappie. Anyone queasy about drugs and usage and overdose, wait til next chappie to read some more, k? I DO NOT support the use of illegal drugs, I do not agree with it in the slightest, nor do I wish anyone would take them. They just happen to further the plot some and add a real life angst situation to the plot.

~(~ = Flashback territory.

And sorry it's so late. Real life sucks some times.

Also, last add on here:

Thank you so much to kritiker and Havesomehats. I love the praise! *basks*

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Chapter 4: Forgive Me

Two weeks passed before Touya saw Yukito again. In the latter of the two weeks, Touya had found the courage to beat his macho exterior down and had been calling Yukito to go out. He left messages, wrote emails, even waited outside of Yukito's classes, only to find out that Yukito hadn't shown up for class or had left early.

He was about to give up when he got the underhanded idea of being a guest to one of Yukito's classes. So he took a gamble and went early to Yukito's English class, making the excuse that he wished to use the class as a basis study for a term paper, and waited in the back row.

After sitting there only for a few moments Yukito appeared through the door. He smiled and greeted the teacher and took his seat in the second row, not willing to look toward the back of the class. In fact, he rather ignored the back row completely to Touya's surprise.

As the class wore on he watched Yukito carefully, and noticed that the other young man was nervous in his actions. He would glance at the clock and then back to the board, scribbling notes and feigning paying attention to the teacher.

Twice the teacher called on him and twice Yukito was unable to answer because he hadn’t even the slightest clue as to what the teacher had asked.

Soon the class was let out for a ten minute break and Touya decided to make his move. He caught up with Yukito out the door. “Snow bunny...”

Yukito blinked and looked up at him. “Touya...?” he asked shakily. His eyes were red rimmed and he seemed to be a state of shock. He then shook his head and wandered down the hall to the bathroom, a small case in hand.

Touya looked at him in shock, then anger and began to storm after him, following the path he had taken and slamming the door of the bathroom open. He stalked along the line of stalls before stopping at the last one. Immediately as he stood there his face went from anger, to shock, to sorrow, and finally to a look of illness.

"Yukito..." he whispered softly.

Yukito was sitting on the toilet, the lid down and a shoelace acting as a tourniquet tied around his upper arm. In the junction of his elbow was inserted a needle, the hammer down, and empty of it's contents. Yukito had a pleasantly empty look on his face and Touya felt like his heart was ripped out of chest.

Immediately Touya went to Yukito’s side and carefully pulled out the needle before undoing the shoe lace. Yukito murmured as his head lolled to the side, his eyes unfocused and his words garbled. Touya was on the verge of tears.

“I’m sorry Bunny... I drove you to this... I never noticed, I never thought... I am so stupid! Such a fucking ass!” he said as he picked up Yukito and the small case Yukito had been carrying before rushing off to the school nurse.

The nurse looked him over, then picked up the phone and called the city hospital.

The ambulance ride to the hospital was something Touya had wished to forget, but somehow his mind wouldn’t shut out the sight of Yukito laid out on the stretcher, multiple IV’s connected and piercing into his skin as the drug was being forced out of his body and blood. Yukito would occasionally scream in madness, his words not making sense.

“Yukito...” he would whimper as he took the boy’s hand and gripped it, willing him to fight back to life.

In a moment of lucidity Yuki looked up at Touya. “To-ya...” he whimpered as he saw him, tears filling his eyes. “I... I can’t... I can’t love you... because you hate me... Forgive me, but I love you... Let me die...” he was able to murmur. The three paramedics around them stared at the two for a moment before understanding crossed their faces and they shook their heads.

“No Yuki! Don’t you fucking leave me! I don’t hate you, oh god I love you!” Touya cried out. “Don’t you leave me too...” he sobbed.

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Touya was pacing the small livingroom of the house he shared with his father and younger sister. He knew what was happening in his sister’s room, and he knew he should stop it, but somehow whenever he approached the staircase it was like his feet were permanently stuck to the floorboards.

A creak above his head and a loud moan broke the silence. He looked up at the ceiling, balled his fists and stormed toward the staircase.

No matter how many times he had walked in on his sister it always shocked him to the core.

Sakura had her eyes closed in obvious bliss, her boyfriend Li above her. Sakura’s body was spread wide on the creaking and complaining bed, her legs wrapped tightly around the small waist of Li, her hair fanned out on her downy soft pillows.

Li’s small but muscled body was the only cover for her, and his fairly nice sized cock was buried to the hilt in Sakura, pumping in and out furiously. His hips bucked and he threw his head back, mouth wide open with his panting breaths, eyes closed in bliss. The smell of sex was everywhere.

“SAKURA!” Touya bellowed. “LI, GET THE FUCK OUT, AND NOW!”

Two sets of chocolate eyes opened and then narrowed on Touya as they continued their activity, rolling over so that Sakura was on top of Li, her body bouncing. “Fuck off Touya.” she groaned.

“I said stop!” Touya growled as he walked over and began to yank his sister off of Li. Only her skin was cold instead of hot like it should have been. He blinked and stared at the two moving bodies. Sakura laughed coldly.

“Yeah Touya, back off. I’m going to die, and so is Li.” she said.

That was when Touya noticed their eyes. The faces were gaunt and haggard, but their eyes were red rimmed and crusty around the edges. He stepped back, then turned and ran for the phone, calling the emergency line.

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That had been the worst night of Touya’s life. Paramedics hadn’t been able to do anything for the two young teens, and they had passed away laying naked next to each other. A month after the double funeral Touya’s father had passed away in a car accident, leaving Touya alone. Touya ended up selling the house and possessions, minus a necklace of his sister’s and his father’s ring which he always wore. The money he got from this was put in a bank account that he regularly fed off of in small amounts.

He looked over Yukito and slid his father’s ring off of his hand onto Yukito’s tiny finger.

“Please Yukito, hang on.” he said as he watched the paramedics rush Yukito into the hospital while he went to the desk and filled out all the forms for Yukito, knowing all the vital information from their many talks.

He spent the rest of the time in the waiting room, feeling numb as he watched the clock tick away the hours. He waited, holding himself about his middle, feeling sick as he sat in the chair and stared blankly at the white wall with the small picture of a vase of flowers that was supposed to brighten the room.

After about three hours Touya heard his name called and looked up to see a grandfatherly doctor approach him. He stood and waited.

“Yukito is very weak right now, however, he will be fine. So long as he keeps trying to live, which it looks like he’s doing, he will make it. You are welcome to stay overnight at his side as his lover.”

Touya blushed furiously but nodded. In his mind he hoped that he would indeed become Yuki’s lover, but his heart didn’t dare hope.

He followed the doctor quietly and was relieved to see Yuki was indeed looking better, and only hooked up to one IV. Touya settled down quietly beside him, taking his hand and looking into his face.

“Please live Yuki. I need you to live.”

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Yay, another chappie done. Don’t worry, Yuki’s gonna live. There’s still at least 3 more obstacles before the story ends, so this is not the end.

Thank you to the reviewers, I love the attention.

Next chappie will be up sooner, I promise.