Cinnamon and Jasmine

CHAPTER SIX

\"I\'m suprised you made it all the way here.\" Mugen entered the kitchen to see Jin sitting, now wearing the robe as it was supposed to be, eating quietly.

He didn\'t speak, just nodded, herb halfway done sitting on the table next to his glasses.

\"Do you want that?\" Mugen pointed to a few dumplings pushed to the side.

\"Take it.\"

A tanned hand plucked them from the plate, fingers touching some other food.
Jin sat down his chopsticks and looked away disgusted.

\"What I do now?\" Mugen knew the tension was directed at him.

\"First your mouth, and now you\'re touching my food with your bare hands. There is a reason for utensils.\"

\"Sorry.\" The sighed comment ended the discussion. Jin sighed as well and picked up the still burning herb Mugen sat down. \"Hey!\"

\"Be quiet, I\'m just using it as a light.\" Jin lit his own off it, chucking Mugen\'s back in his direction.

\"Thought you didn\'t like the smell?\" Mugen began eating from the plate Jin ignored.

\"Why do you keep bothering me?\" There was true anguish in the ronin\'s voice.

\"I don\'t know.\"

\"Why do men always approach me like this?\" Jin looked down at the table.

\"What do you mean?\" The Ryu-kyuian slid the plate to the side, picking his own herb back up.

\"I shouldn\'t be talking. I\'m sorry.\"

\"No, no...Talk. Has another guy tried to, you know pick you up?\" Mugen couldn\'t help the smile.

Jin growled. \"Leave me alone. I do not wish to be mocked.\"

\"Wait, I\'m sorry, I didn\'t mean it that way...Tell me.\"

\"For example...That night you fought Oniwaka-maru, an assassin came for me. That\'s why my clothes were ripped. He first approached me when I was in the hot spring. Coming on to me with some tactless line about fireflies...\" Jin smiled. \"That\'s happened a lot in my life. Men approach me with perverse intentions...I usually kill them.\" He turned his eyes to Mugen who had returned to eating.

\"So, if I tried to hit on you, you\'d kill me?\"

The ronin paused for a while letting the smoke frame his face. \"No.\"

Mugen almost choked. \"But why?\"

\"If I ever find out, I\'ll reveal it to you.\" Jin smiled.

The tanned one recovered from the shock smiling, \"You know, I\'ve kinda lusted after you for a while now...I can\'t help myself. I realize things may never be peaceful again saying that, but fuck it. Heh\" Mugen lazily took another hit.

\"You have?\" Jin looked honestly shocked.

\"Mmhmm.\"

\"But...You said I looked like a fish.\"

\"Huh? I did? Oh yeah, well...you kinda-\" Mugen stopped when he seen an expression he\'d never seen on the ronin\'s face. It was hurt maybe... \"You kinda looked like one, but now I can\'t lie about what I see.\"

Jin lifted his eyes staring Mugen down. \"What do you see now then?\"

\"Someone I\'d love to fuck.\"

Jin blushed then looked angry. \"So that\'s it huh?\"

\"What did you want me to say, marry ya and have kids?\" Mugen scratched his head.

\"I\'m not a female Mugen.\"

\"I\'m just kidding.\"

Jin sighed. \"So that\'s all other men see me as, someone they would like to fuck?\"

Mugen felt his heart jump.
//Where did that come from?//
\"I said \'love\' to.\"

\"Shut up that\'s not the point! Nevermind, I\'ve spoke far too much to ever regain dignity again.\"

Mugen gave up, talking was never his thing anyway, action was.

He in one movement stood up and knelt next to Jin who stared in shock. Mugen grabbed the back of the struggling neck and crushed their lips together. Jin could not move, he closed his eyes.
//What is he doing?!//

//What am I doing?!//
The Ryu-kyuian thought panicked as his tongue began to trace the fine outline of Jin\'s lower lip.

He was about to let go when a small gasp opened the mouth he so badly wanted to taste. Moaning a little as he found and began to suck on the soft cold tongue. He could feel Jin\'s arms stiff as an oak at his sides. Kissing the ronin was like kissing a doll.

Mugen slowed his exploration of the warm cavity to kiss roughly along the chin and throat of the man, earning small gasps through clenched teeth. His need burned greater and he became more aggressive. Pulling the robe forcefully open to expose the pale smooth chest that haunted him for days.

\"Mmm...\" He remarked before taking the soft pink nipple into his mouth.

Jin whimpered this time, quickly covering his mouth with his hand after. This just made Mugen suck, bite, and tease faster.
//Not so fucking composed and proper now huh?//

He couldn\'t take it. He felt like he was going to rip the fabric of his shorts. Too many days had he felt this need, and not been able to act on it. He knew he may never get another chance. Letting go of his hold on the ronin, he undid his pants, and sighed a little as his throbbing member was freed of it\'s cage. Jin peeked over and his eyes widened in suprise.
//He\'s so much bigger than me...//
Suddenly the ronin felt inadequate, and then scared knowing what Mugen intended to do with the fleshy organ.

\"Wait...Are you going to...\" Jin tried to speak, Mugen looked at him like he was insane.

\"Where else would is go?\" He was too caught up in the moment to want to talk, he wanted to act. He took Jin\'s thin wrist\'s into his hands and pulled them, causing the ronin to lay back. He was still careful to not hurt his injuries. Jin tried to struggle against the hold.

\"Wait!..Are you sure you-\" Jin was cut off by another of Mugen\'s kisses.

\"Just shut up...\" Mugen breathed deeply into Jin\'s ear, before taking the lobe into his mouth. Jin had to wither under the touch, but was still scared about what was happening. It was too fast. Then he felt something hot and large press against his opening.

\"Stop..don\'t-\" Jin stopped and screamed. He felt Mugen tearing into him. He clutched the tan shoulders hard enough to draw blood with his nails. Mugen slapped a hand over his mouth to quiet him.

\"I said shut up! Or else everyone will hear.\" Mugen continued to press in.

Jin felt blood trickle slowly down his thighs, in some morbid way adding a little lubrication. He couldn\'t breathe or scream with Mugen\'s hand in the way. It hurt worse than anything he had ever felt. He scolded himself mentally as tears began to flow from the corners of his eyes.

Mugen didn\'t notice the crying, shaking figure next to him, just the hot velvety walls surrounding his most desired need. He closed his eyes and sighed a he began his thrusting. Jin whined from under the hand, Mugen just moaned a little and began speeding up. On one of his strokes he hit the magic spot and Jin bucked against him, this time whining in pleasure.

\"Ahh, so fucking tight...\" Mugen began kissing the pale shaking shoulders, as he used both hands to get better control of his thrusts.

\"M-mu-gen...\" Jin hated himself for saying the others name but it seemed to be the only spoken word in his vocabulary right now. It still hurt like hell, but there was something else riding the edges of it. Something he could feel building within himself, worth the pain and humiliation.

\"That\'s right...\" Mugen smiled and pushed a little deeper. Jin sighed and arched closer into him. Tanned hands pulled the pale man up. Soon Jin found himself laying on his stomach on the kitchen table as Mugen thrust from behind. He folded his arms over his head and lay his face on the cold surface.

\"Gods...\" Mugen moaned almost too loudly as he began to grind Jin. He knew he was about to explode. The tan one had planned to last a little longer, to enjoy this moment as long as possible, but the urgency of it was quickly bringing it to an end.

Before Jin could realize what was happening he came silently. Biting his lip to suppress the need to scream Mugen\'s name, tears still flowing. Mugen felt the velvet walls constrict and all control was lost. He came hard into Jin never stopping his heated pace.

\"F-fuck!\" He squeaked before falling over on the ronin. Both breathing heavily, he only half heartedly took into fact he was laying on his injuries. With a groan he pulled himself out, and flopped to the ground. \"Damn that was good...\"

Jin opened his eyes and tried to sit in a more dignified position. All pleasure soon fading into the dull ache of the nights event\'s.

\"Here.\" Mugen chucked him the robe, and he stiffly wrapped it around himself.

The Ryu-kyuian found his herb amidst the mess they made and lit it on the almost burnt out candle. He took a few drags and tried to pass it to Jin, who shook his head no, rubbing his eyes with the backs of his hands.

\"You okay?\" Mugen felt a slight tinge of guilt, Jin stood up slowly.

\"Fine. That was rather suitable for my first time. Goodnight Mugen.\" The ronin said without emotion making his way out of the kitchen, totally ashamed of himself.

//First time?!//
Now Mugen really felt guilty, seeing blood on the floor.

- - - - -

That morning neither Jin nor Mugen showed up for breakfast or lunch. Ku knew they were somewhere around but staying hidden. He just hoped he hadn\'t messed things up for Fu with his need to meddle into the love life of others. Dinner was almost ready, if they didn\'t show up then, he would go looking for them.
//Hope they didn\'t kill one another.//

- - - - -

Mugen sat under a large tree, he had returned to the woods outside of the farm. He didn\'t feel like seeing anyone, especially Jin. In all his years of promiscuity he never felt anything other than lust. That\'s what he assumed his and Jin\'s situation to be. But something about the ronin made Mugen care. Made him feel bad for being so rough.
//How could you have know he was a virgin? He was all talking about how men hit on him and shit...//
The Ryu-kyuian didn\'t buy his own escuse.
//You were just horny and didn\'t care. You used him like some kind of slut.//

He shuddered a little as he realized he clearly heard Jin saying stop right before he entered. The mood was too heavy for him to stop. How morbidly lovely the uncharacteristic tears on the man\'s face were.
//That\'s no escuse.//

Mugen growled and messed his hair up with his hands.
//Why the fuck do you care? So what, it\'s not like you love him or anything!//
He paused mid hair rustle and froze.

\"Do I?\" He asked himself and the forest loud.

- - - - -

Jin sat quietly on his knees by a small stream. He finally felt a little better, so he walked around exploring the property. The stream flowed down a hill into a tiny lake at the bottom. Sighing deeply, he watched the water endlessly travel in it\'s hypnotizing manner.

//If you have any honor at all left, you should kill yourself. It\'s better to be dead than one of his one night stands.//
Jin closed his eyes.

//
\'Someone I\'d love to fuck.\'
//

His mind replayed.
//That is all other men will ever view you as.//
The ronin did share some of Mugens \'I don\'t care\' attitude towards people\'s opinions. But deep inside he did care what people thought of him. All his training, all his skill and tact, and no one respected him. They just wanted to fuck him.

He shivered slightly, thinking he actually wanted the Ryu-kyu swordsman\'s respect.
//Like you\'ll ever get it now, whore.//
He scolded. Despite his words and actions, the ronin knew he had feelings for Mugen now. He was in love with the wild untamable spirit that matched his body so well. He expected sex with Mugen to be rough, but not how it felt last night. Hating himself for feeling like he had been raped.

His body was still very sore from their encounter, and he wondered if Mugen even cared. In fact he knew he didn\'t care. He\'s probably forgotten all about it.
//It\'s your fault for allowing it to happen. You could have gotten away if you wanted, ecchi...//
He held his head down and took a deep breath.

He didn\'t want it to end.

Even if it was just physical to Mugen, to him it was much more. He smiled solemnly as he thought he\'d rather be used by the swordsman than not noticed at all.

He heard the dinner bell; but there was no way he could look at everyone now, especially not eat off that table. The ronin just returned his eyes to the stream, tears welling up.

//You\'re pathetic.//
He thought before the shame he felt was voiced with sobs.

- - - - -

\"Where is Jin?\" Fu asked as Mugen entered the kitchen.

\"Why the fuck does everyone always think I know?!\" His response was a little more gruff than expected. Fu and Ku stared for a moment before returning to their food.

\"Perhaps I should go out and look for him?\" Ku asked the tan one. Mugen just shrugged, stuffing some food into his mouth. \"I will return.\" Ku stood up and exited.

\"All right you, what happened between you two?\" Fu made a determined face.

\"Nothing.\" Mugen didn\'t acknowledge her eyes.

\"That\'s bullshit. All day you\'ve been stalking the forest, and I haven\'t seen Jin anywhere. So something happened or you both went crazy.\"

\"Just shut up, I\'m not in the mood to talk to you.\"

\"Who cleaned the kitchen? When I came in here this morning everything was cleaned, in different spots than I usually leave stuff. A candle was burned almost all way out...Who was it?\"

Mugen froze for a second.
//There\'s no way she knows...//
He cleared his throat. \"I dropped some stuff and cleaned it up.\"

\"What did you drop?\"

\"Damn bitch, just shut up.\" Mugen stood up from the table.

\"Don\'t you walk out on me, something happened between you two...You better hope you didn\'t case Jin away. I need you both for my plan, and you promised damnit!\" She stood as well.

\"I\'m going for a walk...\" Mugen walked out the door.

Fu growled before sitting back down.
//Great, now I\'m alone...//
She angrily took a bite of fish.

- - - - -

\"So, this stream draws you to it as well?\" Ku spoke as he seen the form of the ronin. He only noticed a slight start, as he turned around to face the red head.

\"I\'m sorry, I didn\'t intend on you coming all the way out here. Forgive me.\" Jin bowed some. He didn\'t have much interaction with the man, but knew he owed him a lot.

\"No worries, it is a beautiful night out. Full of stars and the moon...\" Ku gazed longingly up at the twinkling scene. \"Mind if I join you?\"

\"It\'s your land...\" Jin turned his eyes back to the stream. Ku only smiled and sat next to him.

\"You\'re wearing clothing on your back, I take it your wounds have healed?\" Ku kept his eyes on the stream as well, although it was not his main concern. Just from his brief look, the moonlight was bright enough to see the pale one had been crying.

\"They are bearable. Thank you for your treatment, if I ever have money I\'ll repay you.\"

\"No need. It gets lonely here...You three have provided me with much entertainment. I just wish your stay was more enjoyable.\"

\"With all due respect, we\'re not here to enjoy ourselves.\"

Ku laughed. \"That\'s true, but life is too short to not enjoy simple things. Like this stream for instance. It does nothing for you, it doesn\'t make you wise, or teach you anything...It\'s simply only beautiful. Constant. Some people live their entire lives never once stopping to acknowledge this small piece of nature...Yet here are the two of us staring at it as if it contained the answers of the world.\"

\"Water provides life...\"

\"No, water sustains life. The life was already there. Kinda like love. People can live without love, and can continue on blindly. Their life existed before it. But to sustain a healthy human soul one needs love. Love is the true stream no one acknowledges.\" Ku smiled facing Jin.

Jin felt himself begin to feel uncomfortable, and wondered only momentarily if Ku was going to try and hook up with him. //I don\'t care anymore.//
So he decided to relax again and just take whatever came.

\"Your posture tells me there is something heavy on your heart. Could this one be of any service?\"

\"I\'m not a whore.\" Jin wasn\'t sure why or when the words came from his mouth.

\"Well, of course you\'re not.\" Ku laughed some rubbing the back of his head.
//Oh my...//

\"That\'s what your intentions are, aren\'t they? Come out here, console me and fuck me into the ground?\" Jin turned his pain filled eyes to the larger mans. Ku stared before laughing loudly.

\"No, no, you misread my attempts. I just wanted to know what troubles you so much.\"

Jin looked away now, feeling even more stupid. Ku sighed in the awkward silence.

\"Forgive my assumptions...\" Jin whispered.

\"Like I said, it is not a problem...Forgive me for coming at you the wrong way. Many men have approached you in that way haven\'t they?\" Ku returned his gaze to the stream. Jin nodded silently, not sure why he was having this conversation.

\"Even if you bedded every one, you would not be a whore unless you didn\'t care. Just by you stating you\'re not one, proves to me you do not think casually of sex.\"

\"Casual sex sickens me...\"

\"It is the downfall of many people, man or women.\"

A long silence filled the area. \"What if no one else wishes for something more than casual sex?\" Jin went out on a limb and asked.

Ku laughed, \"Everyone truly wishes for something more than that. It\'s just harder to force it out of some. You must do what feels right in your heart, only then will you have a calm spirit.\" Ku stood slowly and stretched. \"Well, I should be getting back, I\'ll keep our little conversation secret if you wish.\"

\"That would be good, thank you for your words.\" Jin bowed his head, eyes still on the stream.

\"You are welcome. Try to relax more and go with things as they appear. Remember the stream is constant, it never stops even if it wants to.\" Ku began to walk away.

\"Wait, what does that mean?\" Jin stood up himself.

\"You\'ll know when it reveals itself to you.\" The large man disappeared into the night.

Jin stood staring trying to figure out what just happened.

- - - - -

\"Mugen!\" Ku approached the walking man.

\"You stalking me?\" He raised an annoyed brow.

\"No. I wanted to give you something. Here, it was left over from last night.\" Ku produced two more paper wrapped sticks of herb.

\"Thanks! You sure you\'re not dealing or something?...Two night\'s in a row...\" Mugen smiled taking the contraband.

\"No, no. I bought four, and forgot to give them both to you. I was going to do it this morning but neither of you showed up. Are things all right between you and the ronin?\"

\"I don\'t wanna talk about that trout okay?\" Mugen turned to head back toward the hut.

\"He is not a trout. He is a human being with a heart and soul, feelings...\" Ku frowned at the comment.

\"Go push that feely shit on someone else man. I\'m not for it.\" Mugen stopped in his tracks. Inside he felt the impact of the mans words. He knew he hurt Jin somehow, in more than a physical way.

\"You know...You are a very typical rooster. You go around and take any hen you want because to you they\'re all yours. Do you ever stop to think that the hen\'s didn\'t get to choose you as their mate?\"

\"I don\'t fuck chickens...\" Mugen turned around and met the sad eyes of Ku with his own smiling ones.

\"You must really hate yourself to be joking about such a matter.\"

\"Since when did you get so interested in me?\"

\"Some people think more about others than themselves.\"

\"Then some people must be fucking idiots. I\'m leaving now Ku...Bye.\" Mugen tried to leave again but Ku held his wrist. \"Don\'t you fucking put your hands on me...Fu\'s friend or not no one touches me, got that?!\" Mugen tried to pull his arm away but the grip was too strong.

\"Doesn\'t feel good to be held against your will, ne?\"

\"What are you talking about?\"
//Could he mean...?//

\"You may be in control of battle, or your human feelings, but some people aren\'t. Some people get hurt without anyone knowing why or how. You don\'t start thinking more about the seriousness of your actions you will lose something most precious.\" Ku let go. Mugen continued to stare angrily.

\"Oh yeah, and what\'s that?\"

\"The love and adoration of the ronin...\" Ku turned and walked away. Mugen couldn\'t speak. He felt like his blood was ice.

//How the fuck does he know about that?!//
He fell to his knees. He wasn\'t sure what was registering first. The fact someone knew he had the hots for Jin, or the fact he said Jin loved and adored him.

\"I...I still don\'t fuck chickens, asshole!\" He shouted back at Ku, knowing he was already gone. He sighed and got up. //You\'re such an asshole, you know that?//
He walked back towards the woods. Sleep would not come tonight, he was sure.

END CHAPTER SIX