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Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
18
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4,204
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11
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I do not own Junjo Romantica, or any of their characters, though i wish i did own Usagi-san ): I am not making any profits out of this, just happiness and satisfaction.
Chapter 6
Chapter 6
After what seemed like eternity, Hiroki finally had the strength to get up and going. It was the weekend, so he didn’t have much to do. But if he was going to go through with leaving Tokyo and Nowaki, and heading home to undergo treatment, he had much to prepare for.
And so with a heavy heart, he got down to making a bunch of phone calls. First he rang his parents, informing them of his condition and that he wanted to go to their place in Kyoto for his treatment and recuperation. He was totally dreading this call, as he felt all the anguish he would cause his parents by informing them of his illness was extremely unnecessary, and if it weren’t for the fact he had to leave Tokyo and required someone to care for him during his treatment, he would have preferred to keep them in the dark.
Twenty minutes later, after calming his sobbing mother down over the phone, and settling the minor details of his move to Kyoto, he finally was able to get off the phone. Next he had to contact his doctor to arrange for a referral and treatment in a Kyoto hospital, type out his request for one year unpaid leave from the university (he felt that the fewer people who knew about his condition, the less likely Nowaki would find out and the less fuss he had to deal with), arrange for his train ticket, call up the housing agent to include Nowaki’s name in the title deed with his and many other more miscellaneous things.
Hiroki went about this in a mechanical, detached manner, for he was numb inside. He had cried his eyes dry, and the emotional anguish and pain that stemmed from him having to leave Nowaki had left him feeling all hollow and empty inside. It had hurt so much that he couldn’t feel anything at all. He just had to do what he had to do.
Suddenly, the thought occurred to him. What was he going to tell Nowaki? I’m leaving you? I will be back in a year’s time, please wait for me?! There was no way Nowaki would let him just waltz out of his life like that without demanding a reason. What could he say then? Furthermore, who was to say that he would definitely recover after the treatment? His condition could easily worsen, or the cancer could get more aggressive, or he might even die. With a ticking time-bomb in his hands, and such an uncertain future, it would be extremely unfair to Nowaki to ask him to wait. Hiroki might never get the chance to return to Nowaki... He couldn’t just leave Nowaki hanging there like that, he had been through it before, when Nowaki had left for the States to pursue his further education. It was a horrible feeling, and a pathetic situation to be in. Constantly wondering how the other was, why the person left, what had he done wrong or how he could get the person back.
No. He could not leave Nowaki like that. Hiroki was leaving Nowaki for Nowaki’s sake. He did not want Nowaki to worry about him, or wait blindly for him to come back. He wanted Nowaki to be able to concentrate on pursuing his dreams, and to achieve success in whatever he wanted to do. If he had the chance to recover, maybe he could try coming back then. Only if he was healthy, would he come back, and perhaps Nowaki might forgive him and give them another chance. He couldn’t possibly be so selfish as to ask Nowaki to wait alone for him for an unknown period of time. If Nowaki could find someone else he loved, who loved him back, and find his happiness, he would wish them the best and move on with his life.
A sharp pain tore through Hiroki’ss heart suddenly, brought on by the thought of Nowaki holding someone else, loving someone else, making love to someone else. He drew in a sharp jagged breath as cruel images flooded his mind.
Clenching his teeth, he forced his rollercoaster-like emotions down, and resolutely decided that he had to break up with Nowaki. Especially if he wished to keep his illness a secret and disappear quietly, while ensuring that Nowaki would continue working towards being a paediatrician, for he knew that based on Nowaki’s character, he’d throw himself fully into working, so as to avoid whatever pain or hurt he might feel from the breakup. Given time, Nowaki would immerse himself fully in his job, and move on from Hiroki, protecting both Nowaki’s future and Hiroki’s secret.
After what seemed like eternity, Hiroki finally had the strength to get up and going. It was the weekend, so he didn’t have much to do. But if he was going to go through with leaving Tokyo and Nowaki, and heading home to undergo treatment, he had much to prepare for.
And so with a heavy heart, he got down to making a bunch of phone calls. First he rang his parents, informing them of his condition and that he wanted to go to their place in Kyoto for his treatment and recuperation. He was totally dreading this call, as he felt all the anguish he would cause his parents by informing them of his illness was extremely unnecessary, and if it weren’t for the fact he had to leave Tokyo and required someone to care for him during his treatment, he would have preferred to keep them in the dark.
Twenty minutes later, after calming his sobbing mother down over the phone, and settling the minor details of his move to Kyoto, he finally was able to get off the phone. Next he had to contact his doctor to arrange for a referral and treatment in a Kyoto hospital, type out his request for one year unpaid leave from the university (he felt that the fewer people who knew about his condition, the less likely Nowaki would find out and the less fuss he had to deal with), arrange for his train ticket, call up the housing agent to include Nowaki’s name in the title deed with his and many other more miscellaneous things.
Hiroki went about this in a mechanical, detached manner, for he was numb inside. He had cried his eyes dry, and the emotional anguish and pain that stemmed from him having to leave Nowaki had left him feeling all hollow and empty inside. It had hurt so much that he couldn’t feel anything at all. He just had to do what he had to do.
Suddenly, the thought occurred to him. What was he going to tell Nowaki? I’m leaving you? I will be back in a year’s time, please wait for me?! There was no way Nowaki would let him just waltz out of his life like that without demanding a reason. What could he say then? Furthermore, who was to say that he would definitely recover after the treatment? His condition could easily worsen, or the cancer could get more aggressive, or he might even die. With a ticking time-bomb in his hands, and such an uncertain future, it would be extremely unfair to Nowaki to ask him to wait. Hiroki might never get the chance to return to Nowaki... He couldn’t just leave Nowaki hanging there like that, he had been through it before, when Nowaki had left for the States to pursue his further education. It was a horrible feeling, and a pathetic situation to be in. Constantly wondering how the other was, why the person left, what had he done wrong or how he could get the person back.
No. He could not leave Nowaki like that. Hiroki was leaving Nowaki for Nowaki’s sake. He did not want Nowaki to worry about him, or wait blindly for him to come back. He wanted Nowaki to be able to concentrate on pursuing his dreams, and to achieve success in whatever he wanted to do. If he had the chance to recover, maybe he could try coming back then. Only if he was healthy, would he come back, and perhaps Nowaki might forgive him and give them another chance. He couldn’t possibly be so selfish as to ask Nowaki to wait alone for him for an unknown period of time. If Nowaki could find someone else he loved, who loved him back, and find his happiness, he would wish them the best and move on with his life.
A sharp pain tore through Hiroki’ss heart suddenly, brought on by the thought of Nowaki holding someone else, loving someone else, making love to someone else. He drew in a sharp jagged breath as cruel images flooded his mind.
Clenching his teeth, he forced his rollercoaster-like emotions down, and resolutely decided that he had to break up with Nowaki. Especially if he wished to keep his illness a secret and disappear quietly, while ensuring that Nowaki would continue working towards being a paediatrician, for he knew that based on Nowaki’s character, he’d throw himself fully into working, so as to avoid whatever pain or hurt he might feel from the breakup. Given time, Nowaki would immerse himself fully in his job, and move on from Hiroki, protecting both Nowaki’s future and Hiroki’s secret.