Secret Confessions

In the depths of the ocean off Okinawa shores, in an undersea abandoned facility of Gehirn. Regna walked into a conference room full of darkness and the plotting of world conquest.

“Sorry I’m late Kaw–”

“I no longer live by that name Regna, my name is Tabris.” Tabris wore a black cloak and hood that covered his face, but beneath it he had a white mask on, leaving his mouth and eyes uncovered.

“Let’s get a few things straight Regna” Tabris pinned Regna to a wall. Tabris had a flicker of malice in his crimson eyes as he peered into Regna’s twilight yellow. Stealing his lips and passionately stopping Regna from further debate. He ripped Regna’s clothes off and moved him on his stomach. Tabris removed his pants taking his erection and inserting it into Regna, not caring to add lube or to stretch Regn, but to cause him pain in the bowels of pleasure.

Regna began whaling as Tabris went in and out and slowly, he began to pant louder and louder as the pain morphed into pleasure.

“Shinji is mine even in this world Regna. Remember, if you pleasure Shinji, I will inflict pain on you threefold.” Tabris said between thrusts into Regna. He moved faster, thrusting quicker as his albino skin rubbed against Regna; slowly Tabris climaxed releasing his seed into Regna. He pulled out and zipped his pants back on, leaving Regna on the floor naked, his clothes shredded, and cum leaking from his rectum. Tabris left the room entering a small chamber, a lone chair standing in the middle with a figure sitting.

“Schar forgive my rudeness to Regna.” Tabris bowed,

“You needn’t worry Tabris, but I warn you not to have any more incidents like that. It’s not good to bring your personal emotions into these matters.” Tabris stared off remembering what will happen to this world now that everything was back to normal.

“Shinji will make our decision; we have given him the power of God from the S2 engine in EVA Unit 01. We only wait for the awakening of the EVA.”

Tabris looked directly at Schar, he wore a black cloak with also a mask covering his face, but blonde hair flowed from his hood.

“What about fusing Lilith with Adam? Could that solve our problem?”

Schar got out of his seat, walked over to Tabris and slapped him.

“NO you fool! That is a forbidden art that even we the angels dare not use, it could lead to ultimate destruction and far worse than instrumentality. There’s no way I’d let this organization go against Heaven.” Enraged, Schar put a hand over Tabris’ head, red energy flowing from Kaworu into the hand and forming into a ball,

“Let’s see what you’ll do without this.” Schar smirked as he slipped the crimson orb into his pocket.

Now at Misato’s apartment Shinji stared off on his bed, the sound of crushing Kaworu reverberating on and off in his mind.

“Shinji dinner is ready.” Misato yelled. Shinji got off his bed, yuck, instant dinners. Why is it, Misato can’t cook for her life? He went into the kitchen and consumed his mass produced microwave-heated meal. The next day Shinji went about his normal activities, attending school, going for a synch test, and returning home to stare at his ceiling. He wondered if his experience with Kaworu was all a dream, but before he could decide on that, there was a knock. Shinji quickly opened the window from his room.

Regna fell on Shinji, both of them collapsing to the floor.

“This is how I prefer it, you on the bottom and me on the top.” Regna smiled. Shinji pushed him off in response.

“I’d prefer not having you on me at all.” Shinji gave Regna a look of disdain. “So what are you here for? Are you going to try and get me to fall in love with you just so you can disappear from existence too?” Shinji was a pile of uncontrolled emotion thanks to his dream-like times with Kaworu.

“Was it even real? Did I just dream it all?” Shinji started to shake a little, Regna put a hand on his shoulder.

“This’ll be the one time I’ll be nice to you on orders, Shinji. The Kaworu you know is dead, but Kaworu still exists. I’m here to take you. We need you Shinji, you’re the only one that can set things right.”

“What’s so wrong with this world? You took away my Kaworu, my old life; what else is there to take?” tears ran down Shinji’s cheek.

“I-…it’s the way things are Shinji, you have to help destroy Adam. Humans can survive with the angels as long as there is no means of creating a third impact. So without Adam, both races will neither attain the future. We may die long before humans do, but you humans won’t be able to survive forever.” Regna gently embraced Shinji on the ground, huddled against a wall.

“It’s your choice; I can always say you ran away from me. Take the step you want to take into the life you want to live.” Regna added. Shinji wordlessly got up, wiped the tears from his eyes and nodded his head in confidence.

“Let’s go.” With that, Regna took a hold of Shinji and they flew far above the clouds. Shinji could make out stars even though the Sun was still high in the sky. He could see the moon slowly rising in the distance too. They continued flying southward away from Tokyo 3, away from the real troubles yet to arise. Passing the main island they reached a small cluster of islands, one of the bigger pieces of land was Okinawa.

Both Regna and Shinji landed in a secluded forest next to a mountain. The trees were lush in green, and the weather was quite mild. It felt like summer if it weren’t for the strong breeze coming from the sea.

“So what do we do now?” Shinji asked, looking around trying to find any hidden switches or secret doors. “Now we do this.” Regna said triumphantly, he walked over to a large rock, there were a few pebbles resting on top. He picked the smoothest and plucked it into the ocean, the pebble caused ripples on and on before it sank into the ocean.

“Well a lot of good that’ll do.” Shinji said, Regna just grinned and then the ground began to shake and the spots where the pebble had rippled began to glow. Platforms began to rise from the waters and lay out a path towards an entrance that also floated to the surface. Shinji showed sincere excitement and glee,

“Yes well, the sensors pick up on wave patterns. Only the smallest of them activate this doorway, in other words only the rippling of pebbles, rain doesn’t even register on the sensors so we’re safe from unsuspecting townspeople.” Regna seemed to usher Shinji to the angel’s headquarters. Who would’ve thought the angels actually had a base…and in Okinawa no less! Why can’t NERV be in such a nice summer hot spot!?

Shinji and Regna continued to descend, the labyrinth waiting for them, full of artificial light fixtures and dank corridors.

“Not much of a base is it?” Shinji asked. Regna didn’t even acknowledge the remark, but kept on walking. They passed by light fixture after fixture until they came to a door.

“This is your fate Shinji, make the right choice.” Regna said and opened the door. A single lamp hung from the ceiling illuminating the darkness and out of that darkness Kaworu came, clothed in a black cloak covering his school uniform. Kaworu had taken off his mask and so when Shinji first saw him he sprinted into the arms of his lover. Reunited at last in reality,

“I’ve missed you so much Kaworu” Shinji shed a few tears. He was caught up in the moment and kissed Kaworu, but he did not respond to Shinji’s lips. Kaworu was a statue, full of no love or any other emotion. Shinji looked into his eyes seeing no spark, only a dull flare of loyalty.

“Wha – what’s wrong?” Shinji stammered. Another person came out of the darkness. He had blonde hair and green eyes, a mask rested in his hand.

“Kaworu is my servant, I took away his heart. I knew it would only get in the way of things.” He smirked. Shinji looked at him,

“And who are you?” Regna blinked wide eyed at Shinji’s remark. He quickly moved to Shinji and put a hand over his mouth,

“I’m sorry your holiness, pardon his impertinence.” He walked over to Shinji and put a hand under his chin, looking at Shinji in the eyes.

“I am Schar, the leader of these angels you’ve been trying to destroy. Listen Shinji, we need your help so we all can co-exist. Help me and I’ll return Kaworu’s heart.” Regna let go of Shinji and he fell to the floor, Shinji stared at his hands on the cement floor.

“…I-I’ll help” he said, looking up with determination at Schar. He put a hand on Shinji’s shoulder and said,

“Good, we must destroy Adam, so I want you to look around NERV for us. You can be our eyes and ears; and if you see anything tell Regna about it.” Schar left Regna and Shinji in the room, he ventured further into the base.

“Well I’ll be spying on you now and then so don’t worry about keeping in touch.” Regna teased. “I think this is where you take me home Regna, and no spying on me!” Shinji stammered. He moved over to Kaworu and gave him another kiss,

“I’ll try my best and bring you back Kaworu.” Kaworu only nodded and then walked off, following the same path as Schar. Regna and Shinji exited the base, taking flight. Spending a few hours in the air, the Sun was setting and the moon was finally high in the sky as the stars twinkled. They descended into Shinji’s room.

“I’ll be off, see you later sweetie.” Regna gave Shinji a kiss on the cheek and flew off. Shinji was a little flustered and threw a pillow at Regna but he was long gone, already flying off to Okinawa or wherever. So I have to go find Adam and kill it, how am I supposed to know what the first angel even looked like? I guess I can always ask Ritsuko or Misato for some information on Second Impact, that’d help. Better ask Ritsuko instead of Misato though, considering Second Impact is a bad memory for Misato.

Shinji grabbed a cotton blue short sleeve shirt from his drawers, and took of his pants. He crawled into bed thinking, Second Impact…the day Kaworu was born. Why’s everything about the past; nothing is going forward. It’s all going backwards. Soon Shinji fell asleep, dreaming of a place where he could be free from his problems, and where he and Kaworu could live together as family along with Misato.

Off in the distance Rei Ayanami could be heard singing a lullaby of sweet sorrow. She sat on a telephone pole, watching the night traffic go by; the world running by as her white frilly nightgown blew in the night air.

“So, Schar plans on destroying Adam; why can’t he be more calculating. This could lead to misfortune if played wrong, but that’s why I’m here; to make sure Shinji’s cello is finely tuned before he plays the concert of his life.” Rei for once in her life had a smirk across her face, thinking of plans and catastrophes. She jumped off, flying back to her grungy apartment. The full moon lit the night sky, few rays made it down to NERV where Gendo sat, waiting for another angel to attack. Gloves off, his right hand holding burns from previous endeavors and his left hand mutated and morphed. It was a new life contained hoping for a time of awakening.

TBC…