Darkness Within your Light

Warnings: really pissed off L, some Angst, and Bad language again (you can expect this warning in every chapter), violence, some humor, also some fluff, yep you heard my I said FLUFF. (Not in this order)

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Ryuzaki didn’t say anything after entering the room, so Raito believed it would be safe enough to take a quick to look around before trying to address the problem at hand.

At first glance it looked like he was staring at nothing, nothing at all but glaring endless white space. After his eyes had adjusted to the glaring whiteness he was able to identify what he had missed at first glance.

The room itself was in a perfectly square shape, evident white walls lined the four corners that made up the enclosed area, the room also had no windows or any other type of entry point expect for the one door which they had come threw, and it was also quite small, there was barely enough room to pace 10 or so steps back and forth, also there was no furniture or any type of chair or table in the entire room. It was a completely empty sterile room.

Raito felt cold chills go up and down his spin as soon as he entered the room. Quickly coming up with a terrifying theory he frantically looked around for any signs of hidden cameras or things of that nature. His heart sank.

There was nothing. Nothing at all.

Raito quickly tried to back out the door before it closed. But Ryuzaki who seemed to follow his trail of thought quickly yanked the chain forward, knocking Raito into him and had the desired effect of bringing Raito into the room completely. Ryuzaki quickly put his arms around Raito to help steady both of them to keep them from falling to the ground.

Raito quickly pushed himself from where he had fallen into Ryuzaki and looked at the door frantically. His eyes grew wide.

Where once there was a door was now nothing but a seamless white wall.

One thought crossed Raito’s mind while the rest of his brain seemed to be frozen in a blank form of terror.

‘Oh shit.’

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Raito just stared at where the door had been just moments ago, as if just willing the door to come back will make it appear.

“Ahem”

Raito slowly turned around to look at the emotionless faced Ryuzaki…no, the person who was standing in front of him was no longer the Ryuzaki that he knew….at this moment…the person that Raito was now facing was the world’s greatest detective…L.

‘Oh, double shit.’

Raito decided that he would try to deny everything as long as he could. Which in reality didn’t seem like it would be long, at least not with the look that L was now sporting.

“If you are done staring stupidly at the wall Raito-kun, I believe we have much to discuss, but first…”

Before Raito could once again replay to L’s harsh insults he was interrupted, this time by L who was again digging into his pants. This time he pulled out a different key, this one was really small and was a silvery color.

L then proceeded to unlock his side of the cuffs from his wrist. He then looked at Raito expectantly.

When Raito just stared at him with a look of uncertainly and confusion, L gave a huff of aggravation and moved towards the unmoving form of his suspect, then proceeded to take Raito’s unresisting hand and uncuffed him as well.

He then put both the handcuffs and the key that unlocked them back into his seemingly bottomless pocket.

Raito was continuelessly trying to come up with a plan of attack or at least a good enough justification for his defense. But it was hard, because for some reason he was scared. His brain scoffed at the idea of being scared of L, that there was no reason to be afraid of him, it knew that L no matter what would not harm him, but for some reason his body wouldn’t respond to that reinsurance.

‘I’ve got to calm down, L might be a manipulative bastard but he wouldn’t do anything too damaging to me, and this time I can fight back if he does anything to…to what? Hell I don’t know what goes threw that sugar addle mind of his, I’m not sure I want to know. Why would he take me to a room without any type of camera or any kind of escape route…what is he planning? God I hope we can skip the mental attacks that are bound to happen between us and just have a good old fashion throw down. My fight with Kira wasn’t nearly as satisfying as mine and L’s usual past fights. God, what kind of sick individual am I to think that? Well what happens now is all up to fate I guess…hah yea right. When have I ever let fate dictate my life for me? I take my own fate in my own hands, this will be no different. I will get L to see me for me. The person that I am right now. Not the Raito…Kira that he knew before.’

“So L…what exactly are we doing in here?”

While Raito had been preoccupied with his thoughts L had moved to the far side of the room, he was currently leaning on the opposite wall of where Raito was. The room that they now seemed to be stuck in suddenly had the stifling air of a showdown. Raito had a sudden urge to whistle a tune he had once heard in an American western movie that he had saw as a child. The one where two gunmen had been facing off against each other and tumble weeds seemed to almost silently breeze by. He quickly shook that urge away, but couldn’t help but be mildly amused at himself for finding humor in this tense situation.

Raito was suddenly shaken from his internal amusement as a sudden noise filled the air.

Raito couldn’t help but gap at the smirk that now L was now sporting, the previous unemotional mask that L had been wearing was gone completely.

L…who was now whistling the same American western theme song that Raito had just been thinking himself of whistling, the same one that fitted their standoff so well.

After finally getting over his shock of the fact that L was actually whistling, even more he was whistling in a tense situation.

Or what had once been a tense situation.

Raito couldn’t help but let out a small laugh. Even the idea of the stoic L actually having the nerve to do that was unbelievable. But to have him actually do it was something else. It was really funny.

L’s smirk turned into a small smile as he got the desired effect that he had been aiming for.

Raito was amazed. Why would L go to the trouble to make Raito feel more relaxed? Especially if he had not even 5 minutes ago been really angry at Raito?

‘I keep on forgetting that L is full of surprises, he’s as unpredictable as me sometimes. I can’t believe that he had the same tune stuck in his head as me…no…that shouldn’t shock me, we are alike after all. Even though it may not look like it, we think on almost the same thought pattern. Heh how interesting, let’s see where he’s going to go with this now that he got me to relax. I don’t think we need to be on friendly terms quite yet…maybe a bit of mental sparing is just what we need before anything else.’

The fear that Raito had been feeling earlier has completely dissolved like it had never been there in the first place. He had no clue on why he had felt it in the first place but he was glad that it was gone now. He wouldn’t be able to enjoy any type of spar with L if he had been holding back because of some nameless fear.

“I can’t believe that you also had that tune going threw your head Ryuzaki.”

“Yes well, it seemed appropriate somehow, Raito-kun.”

Raito raised his eyebrow while inside he was smirking in triumph. It was time for him to unexpectedly turn the tables on L.

“What? No more Kira-kun? Have a change of heart...L.” Raito pasted a fake innocent smile. He quickly put on his polite mask that he wore for the rest of the world. The one that everyone else but L seemed to believe was really him.

L’s eyes narrowed, and after a moment he titled his head in a slight nod.

It seemed he understood Raito’s challenge and accepted.

Now there was only the game, the game to see which one of them broke their mask before the other.

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“So Raito-kun…how about you tell me now on how you acquired that name?”

Raito expected the question, and wasn’t surprised at all that it was the first question that L had asked, since it was kind of fun being able to playing dumb, at least on this subject and it had the added benefit of pissing L off he decided to continue doing just that for a while. At least until L found either a more creative way of asking, or until Raito got tired of faking it.

“I really don’t have a clue as to what you are talking about. Wait are you talking about what Matsuda said? Really L, you don’t actually believe that he really heard anything do you? How would I even be able to call out a name when I was to busy crying out in pain? Not to mention I have no memory of doing anything of the sort. Now why don’t you answer a real question…like where in the seven hells are we?”

L seemed to expect his answer. They were playing the game after all. It would be no fun on either side if someone broke too easily or too early.

“First off my question is a legitimate question, but to answer yours this is a secure room I had made sure to have built for such a case, when I had the building created. It is virtually an inescapable room. There is no other way out then that one door that we had just came in threw, but it can only be opened from the outside. This entire floor is actually not on any of the buildings blue prints and only myself and Watari know about it. First off you need to know the right entry code when you enter the elevator and it changes randomly every 10 hours, only Watari’s and my cell phone is sent the new code numbers. After that you need to have the key and right now I have the only one. Watari has a spare but I believe that its location right now is somewhere in Europe. Also you may not have noticed this but there was a rectal scanner that scanned my eye before the door had opened. I wouldn’t be surprised if you hadn’t noticed. The scanner is virtually naked to the human eye. You have to stand at my crouched height and stare at a certain point on the door. Only mine and Watari’s eyes can also open the door. After the door closes it is impossible to open it from this side. We are sealed in here until I give the correct access number into my phone to Watari. Who will then express mail the spare key which should only take a few hours to get here by a jet stream plane that would deliver it to a secure location for Watari to pick up, and I will only send the code when my questions have been answered satisfactory.”

Raito just uncomprehendingly stared.

“Wait-your saying that we’re locked in here without food or water or anything like that for who knows how long especially with your pig-headedness, not to mention if what you say is true and this room is as sealed as you say…what the hell are we going to do about our air supply?!”

“Oh yes I forgot to mention, while this room is very, very secure there are microscopic airways that filter clean air in and out of this room, but there are also 20 foot thick stain steel walls behind the outer walls. So there is no possible way to dig yourself out Raito-kun, even with proper tools. Now I answered your question honestly Raito-kun…why don’t you do the same.”

Raito was speechless. To think that L would go this far…he had not predicted it at all.

Raito couldn’t stop the shiver of…something from coursed threw him.

It felt like…excitement?

‘Yes…that sounds about right. I haven’t been challenged like this for so long…I missed it. I missed you L, and this time I’m not going to let you go.’

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Raito had figured that L would keep at his question, well he had hoped that L would at least tire of it, but that didn’t seem like the case. No matter how much he dodged the question L would always bring it back up almost eminently.

Frankly it was starting to piss Raito off.

“Gods, will you stop it already? I’ve already given you my answer to your blasted question over 139 times! Could we just please move on?!”

Raito hated to break first on this matter but frankly he was almost too frustrated to care at this point.

L just smirked in satisfaction at the break in Raito’s polite mask, the frustrated that he was clearly feeling had leaked out a bit into his voice.

Gods Raito just wanted to punch him in the face, to wipe that smug look right off.

But no, it had only been 7 hours since they had been stuck in the room. Raito couldn’t help but be happy that his body had gone to the restroom and had eaten just right before he had the attack. He may have been asleep for over 17 hours but it seemed that some of his shinigami powers were the ability to go long periods of time without the need for such human basic functions.

‘Heh L himself is probably trying to find out the answer to why I’m doing so well at the moment. Any other human would have broken at this point. It’s been almost 24 hours since I had any kind of water or food. He’s probably confused as hell right now. Well serves him right for doing such a stupid thing as this. Heh I wonder how he’s doing? I bet this is the longest he has gone without some type of sugary substance. Hahahaha he is most likely suffering right now. To bad he’s so good at his own type of mask. I would love to see the suffering look right now. I may care for him and all but I’m still wicked enough that when he brings suffering to himself I’ll just sit back a laugh at his own foolishness. But still…how many times will he ask the same fucking question?!!’

“Until Raito-kun answers my question I will continue to ask it.”

Raito gave an internal sigh of disgust and as much as he hated to admit it admiration.

Raito decided to give, at least a little. He couldn’t help but be impressed with how L was handling all of this. Even though it was had been his own idea and he was most likely suffering L didn’t show it at all. But still, Raito wasn’t going to just cave in. Not until L himself at least caved some a little first.

But why not make this stalemate more interesting?

‘The question is though, how much should I give him? Hmmm I’m having way more fun then I should be, at least under these circumstances. I mean just one slip up could land me in a cell for the rest of my life…but there are no cameras here…so it would just be L’s word against mine, and if anyone found out the circumstances that had led to any type of confession…most likely it would be discarded as a desperate lie to get out of this room…L must know this…so why? Why go threw all this? I could understand it if we were in an interrogation room or even a modern type of torture chamber, heck even a medieval torture chamber wouldn’t have surprised me more then the situation we are in now. I mean…he hasn’t even really done anything to me expect ask me a question…nothing else. Well all I can do is ask…might as well it will at least get us off the topic about me knowing his real name.’

Raito finally sat up from his laying position on the ground. After 4 hours of standing and trying to outlast L at being who could withstand standing for hours on end, he managed to win by 30 minutes before he had to collapse onto his side of the room.

That was something that also hadn’t changed in the 7 hours of bickering back and forth. They each stayed on the opposite sides of the room from each other, keeping as much distance as possible. Most likely because they would have not been able to stop themselves from starting a fist fight if they had been to close to one another. Either that or they were making the slight space that they had from each other last. Neither of them forgot that the moment they left this room they would have to put the handcuffs back on indefinitely.

“Why are you doing this L? I mean no matter what I say or don’t say you can’t convict me as Kira…you’d have no evidence or anything like that…so why? Why would you put us both threw this torment? At least if you’d have anything to gain I would kind of understand this situation, but you couldn’t possible be getting anything other then sugar withdraws right now.”

L looked at Raito, as if weighing the pros and cons of answering the question.

Because if he answered Raito knew that L would be telling the truth. It was part of the game after all. Raito would lie and avoid any and all questions that he deemed incriminating and L would try to catch him in the act, but L would always answer truthfully or at least to the questions that he deemed worthy to answer anyway…why, Raito didn’t know but it was kind of refreshing that at least one of them wasn’t outright lying.

Finally L sighed and then proceeded to slowly get to his feet from his crouched position that he had adopted earlier when they had entered.

Raito who was startled to see L on the move, since in almost the entire time they have been in here he had not moved all that much. Raito hesitated for only a second before also getting up onto his feet.

It wouldn’t do for L to have height advantage over him right now.

L was still staring at him silently as if evaluating if he was worthy to know the reason for all this madness.
After another few minutes of tense silence pasted before L finally spoke. His voice was hesitant and unsure, something that greatly startled and strangely upset Raito. It didn’t sound like L at all.

“Would you like to know the truth Raito-kun?...Yes…I imagine you do…even though you won’t give me the same courtesy I will tell you…the reason why we are in this room has nothing to do with the Kira case.”

Shocked silence filled the room.

Raito didn’t know what his expression that was currently on his face might look like but if he had to guess it would probably greatly resemble a landed fish.

“Wh-what?!”

L being the bastard that he was had the nerve to actually chuckle at Raito’s expression and stutter.

“You heard me Raito-kun; we are not in this room because of the Kira case or anything of that nature. I’m not accusing you at this moment of being Kira or being associated with Kira. The moment we walked threw the door the case became second to what I wanted.”

“Wh-what do you want then? What-I mean how can having us locked into a bare room for hours and having you ask me that damn question again and again have nothing to do with Kira?!? You are obsessed with me being Kira! This is-I just don’t get it!”

Raito was baffled, no scrape that he was down right mystified. How could over 7 hours of questioning have nothing to do with accusing him of being Kira? It couldn’t be true, L must be lying…but why would he lie about something like this? It didn’t make any sense and if there was one thing that Raito hated more then criminals and Misa it was being confused.

“In case you have forgotten Raito-kun I have only ever asked you one question, and that was I simply wanted to know where you heard that name you called out earlier…in case you have forgotten it already let me refresh your memory…the name you called out was…Lawliet. So Raito-kun I will ask you again where have you heard that name? All I want is the truth…just something that isn’t a constant lie. I want to know that I could trust you with this...I did not lie when I said that you were my friend Raito-kun…please…please don’t lie to me right now.”

Raito froze.

He seemed to be doing that a lot lately, he wouldn’t have to if L would stop throwing him for a loop.

‘I-I don’t get him! Why…why would he-what makes him think he could trust me enough to speak the truth?! I’ll I ever done is lie to him…I don’t even know if I could tell the truth…I’m so out of practice I guess...ah Lawliet-kun you really are throwing yourself out here aren’t you? Maybe…maybe I can give you something…not the whole truth of course…I’m still not ready for that…but maybe I can show you that I have changed…that I can give as much as you. I promised myself that I would make you trust me…this will be the first step.’

Raito closed his eyes and forcefully relaxed himself. He would need to be calm when…when he said something that wasn’t an outright lie. The last time he could remember not telling an outright lie to anyone was…well truthfully he couldn’t remember, and that’s what scared him enough to try right now, even more so then L actually saying please to him.

Raito said one word, just word right now to confirm for L that he was going to try. Try to speak the truth for once in who knows how long.

Raito opened his eyes and with a determined light shining threw the darkness that had always slightly clouded them; he opened his mouth and spoke.

“Lawliet-kun”

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The name seemed to echo faintly off the white enclosed walls that surrounded them.

L just stared at Raito. As if he really couldn’t believe his eyes or ears.

Raito felt the tension in the room intensified and had the sudden thought that maybe he had made a mistake.

But not a second later as this thought crossed his mind he saw something that convinced him that what he did was the right thing.

L was smiling. And not his usual small, barely there smiles. No this was different.

L’s smile covered his face. It was a wide truly happy smile.

He also couldn’t help but notice that when L smiled widely his eyes closed and made an absolutely adorable half moon like shape. It just really added to his whole cute panda like image.

Raito had never felt better then did at the moment, not even when he had been Kira and had killed L and believed that he no longer had anyone to stand in his way to becoming a god…ok maybe not the best example but still. He had put that smile on L’s face, and he had the special privilege of seeing it. He was sure that this was a smile that very, very few people actually saw.

L started to actually straighten his back out. Raito could hear the pops that his spin made in protest. When he was totally straighten out and was standing tall Raito was actually shocked to see how tall L really was when he wasn’t hunching over, he looked to be the same height as Raito himself, maybe even a bit taller.

L then started to walk towards Raito with an emotion in his usually emotionless eyes. One that Raito could not identify.

Raito uncertainty of what L was going to try, tried to shuffle back, but he had forgotten that he already had his back to the wall and only managed to collide into it. Making a noise that was slightly louder then he would have liked.

L stopped in the middle of the room, going no further towards Raito, who couldn’t help but feel relief.

Raito was still kind of wary of how L was going to react to Raito actually saying something that wasn’t a lie. It had only been one word, not much from anyone else’s point of view. But to both Raito and L it had said a whole lot more. In that one word he had acknowledged that he had indeed spoken out loud before he passed out from pain earlier, but the most important message behind the name was when he added the kun to the name. He had acknowledged that he knew that the name he had spoken out had not been some random name; by adding the kun to the end of the name he clearly was telling L that he knew that Lawliet was L’s true name.

L was still standing in the middle of the room with that strange emotion on his face. Raito still didn’t know what it was but it sent cold and hot flashes running threw his body. L was no longer smiling but the image of it was still burned into Raito’s memory.

Before he could examine that strange expression that L wore it quickly faded away before being replaced with a self-satisfied arrogant smug look.

‘Oh…it seems that L wants a to start a fight, the time for the main event is now…I guess that L was getting uncomfortable with all the…understandings that seem to be floating between us right now. Let’s get to a more comfortable ground of bickering and fighting each other shall we L?’

Raito watched with barely hidden distrust as L finally spoke.

“Well wow Yagami-kun I have to say that I’m impressed. Who would have thought that you’d be such a sucker for a quick batter of lashes and the word please? This must be the method that Amane-san uses to keep a leash on you. It is already clear for anyone with half a brain that you are not attracted to her in any way…I always wondered about that you know, why a smart attractive young man such as yourself could not be interested in such a beautiful young women who practically throws herself at your feet. You are a teenager and it is a scientific fact that young men your age are more hormonal driven then most. Hmmm. Do you want to know what I figure Yagami-kun…well I’ll tell you want I think…and when you think of it it’s not that much of a stretch…you are not attracted to women in general Yagami-kun. Either that or Yagami-kun has a certain problem downstairs about it getting upstairs if you get my meaning.”

Raito was speechless.

‘How-how dare he?! That skinny little-god he doesn’t want a fight, he wants a massacre. Well damn it he has it. He has no right to say I’m gay! I mean I know I may not have liked women in a sexual way, I actually find the idea fairly disgusting…but I have also never looked at a guy either! The only one I have ever thought of in that kind of way is standing right in front of me insulting my…well my dick! That’s just going way to far L. You may call me Kira and accuse me of mass murder, heck you can even insult my intelligence and appearance, but if there’s one think you should never insult it’s a man’s ability to get it up! This is war L!!’

“Also Yagami-kun you never really did answer my question. I wanted to know where you heard the name…so will we have to stay in here another 7 or so hours till your stubborn pride finally burns out again? We can always pass the time by you telling me your evil murderous deeds as Kira.”

That did it.

With a wordless cry of rage Raito threw himself frenziedly at L.

Right before they both threw the first punch which promised to be the first of many more to come, Raito could have sworn he saw L smile in an almost satisfied contented manner.

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Raito lost track of time as he and L fought like there was no tomorrow. Hours seem to pass while the two of them were engaged in trying to kick the others ass.

They finally broke up at the same time and moved a few feet from each other. It seemed like they both agreed silently to take a short breather to get their second wind and take care of any wounds they could.

Raito tried not to lean too much on the wall that was currently supporting him. They had not been holding back this time. Raito was glad that in the future he had learned a bit of martial arts, if not for that L would have wiped the floor with him hours ago. He had to admit though that L was very graceful and sexy when he fought with his martial art of capoiera. Even though his kicks hurt like a bitch.

Raito started to take stock of himself after he caught his breath. His shirt had been ripped almost to shreds and was just barley hanging onto his frame. Without much thought to it he just tore the rest of it off him, leaving his chest area bare.

Raito missed entirely the sudden heated look that L shot him.

Burses and small cuts marked his body. His whole body ached, he moved his tongue around his mouth, wincing at the cut on the side of his mouth that his teeth had sliced open after a certain fierce kick that L had dealt him, even though the hygienic part of him craned at it he spat out a mouthful of blood onto the white floor, which he noticed wasn’t so white anymore with all the stains of blood and sweat that covered it.

Raito felt the back of his head where a truly impressive lump was growing after a nasty fall just moments before. He was kind of pissed off that he had been the first to fall.

Raito looked over at L who was back to kneeling in his usual crouch. L’s previous white shirt was now stained with red and there was a trail of blood running down the side of his face where Raito’s punch had broken the skin. Burses and other lacerations covered his body and face, also it seemed that L’s pants had finally taken to much stress just like Raito’s shirt had done. The bagginess of his pants had been their downfall. When Raito had started to fall only a moment ago he had tried to grasp a hold of something to help stop his decent. His hand had caught onto the top of L’s pants, incidentally ripping them down one leg while he had gone down. Right now L was in the middle of trying to tie his pants back together by holding the two ripped sides together with both hands and using one of his ripped sleeves in a rope like manner. It worked enough that it kept his pants from falling completely off his skinny ass. But it had the down side of looking completely and utterly stupid.

Raito couldn’t help but snort at the ridicules picture that L made at the moment.

A second later he wished that he hadn’t.

‘Ow, Ow, Oww, jeez that really hurts…we really did a number to each other this time. Its going to take more then just a few days to heal up these wounds…god what is dad going to say when he see us? Shit I didn’t even think about that…ah well I’ll just let L do the talking this time, since he’s the one who started all this in the first place.’

Raito took a quick look at his watch which had somehow had miraculously not gotten a scratch on it. He did a double take when he saw how much time had actually passed while they had been fighting.

“What the…how the hell did three hours actually pass!? Wh-no wonder we look like shit.”

L had looked over when he heard the shocked acclaimed, he got a thoughtful look on his face and lifted his thumb to gaw on it, only to flinch when it touched his spilt lip, he then looked at his thumb with a utter look of disgust. He then turned that look onto Raito, who got the feeling that they had moved from a physical fight back into the mental spar they had been engaged in before.

He wasn’t wrong.

“Speak for yourself Kira-kun, I happen to not have such negative thoughts on my appearance, but it seems that you might want to see a therapist if you hold yourself in such low self-esteem.”

Raito gapped at him, he then narrowed his eyes. He wouldn’t let L win this fight. No way in all of Mu.

“I’m so glad that you hold yourself so high in self-esteem...how’s the weather way up there anyway? Where the clouds a kind of greenish gray color? It isn’t always good for people in your…situation not to let reality get to you. Just make sure you don’t kill too many of your brain cells when you’re getting yourself so high in self-esteem. Also…what happened to nothing in this room is about you accusing me of being Kira? I thought we were going to leave him out of this.”

L’s eyes narrowed dangerously, before he spoke in a soft growl that did a lot of things to Raito, things that he did not want to happen when L was right in front of him. But it also had the negative effect of bring back that fear that had first taken a hold of Raito when he had first came into the room hours ago. Raito knew that if he continued with baiting L right now he just might just become severely injured before leaving this room, but just like a true addict, he couldn’t help himself. He wanted to see L lose it…even at the cost of his own health.

“Are you calling me a drug addict Raito?”

‘Oh shit, he said my name without the kun… I need to get control of my body like now! Damn that’s hot though…but he is severely pissed off right now. God this is going to be so much fun…not, God I’m a frickening pain whore that’s what I am.’

Raito adopted a thoughtful thinking expression, as to show that he was actually thinking of what he said. L looked to be getting more pissed off by the second.

“Why L…I believe I did. I mean just by looking at you anyone would get the impression of you being a heavy user. Heh, I wouldn’t really be surprised myself…maybe that’s what you’re really putting into your tea and coffee, I doubt it is actually sugar. Don’t worry though…I’m sure the investigation team and myself will get along ok on the case without you while you’re at rehab. Hey maybe they even let you have cake every once in a while…that is if they never figure out that cake is probably where you’re stash is hidden. Don’t worry though I promise to visit and send flowers. You don’t have to worry though; you can relax knowing that the Kira case is in good hands-”

Before Raito could continue to degrade L he was cut short by the speeding form of the person he had just been insulting.

Raito was too shocked to do much as L punched his viscously across his face. Sending him rearing a few feet to his left, he managed to barely stop himself from falling again. It seemed that L did not like being called a druggy at all or having the threat of having his case taken from him.

L didn’t stop there though. While Raito was still reeling from having his brains scrambled from L’s powerful punch L quickly struck out with a high kick catching Raito in the chin causing him to bit down hard onto his tongue. As blood flowed down Raito’s mouth and chin, L then gave another devastating kick, this time into Raito’s stomach, causing Raito to double over in pain, one hand holding his stomach and the other covering his mouth, not because of the blood running out of it but because he was trying not to hurl from the powerful kick that made him want to throw up, not that he had anything in his stomach to throw up with but still dry heaving and acid where not on his list of things that he wanted to do or taste.

Sadly Raito wasn’t given any chance to recover, or attack back, or even given the time to defend himself.

It seemed that L really, really didn’t like to be called a druggy or to be associated with drugs of any kind.

L continued to just beat on Raito, this was no longer any type of even fair fight, and after a few failed attempts of defense Raito decided to give up and just tried to cover any of his vital places like his head and chest from taking the brunt of L’s anger.

After an unknown amount of time pass it seemed that L’s anger was finally burning out. His punches and kicks started to lose strength as time pasted until they just stopped altogether.

Raito’s arms were covered over his head and face and he was on the ground curled into a defensive position. It was degrading for him to be seen like this but it was better then leaving himself venerable to more serious injures.

Silence filled the air, the only exception being for Raito’s harsh painful panting.

After a few minutes of nothing happening Raito finally took the courage to peak out between this fingers, not moving out of his fetal position though.

He was so startled by what he saw that he had to move his hands from his face completely just to make sure that he wasn’t seeing things.

L…Ryuzaki…was crying.

Not a lot mind you, but a few tracts of what were clearly tears seemed to spill down his face; they made up clear clean trails threw the blood that covered most of his face from his earlier head wound.

But that was not what startled Raito so much, what had startled him was the expression that Ryuzaki wore, and the distant inner gaze of his eyes which showed that he wasn’t really seeing anything in front of him.

Total devastation, disbelief and self-loathing; those were the emotions warring on Ryuzaki’s face at the moment.

It seemed that Ryuzaki had just figured out that he had been beating on a defenseless Raito.

‘He probably thinks he killed me or something like that. While I defiantly hurt and I most likely have a lot of new and colorful bruises nothing seems to be seriously damaged, also nothing seems to be broken, except maybe my pride but that seems to have so many holes in it nowadays that it hardly effects me anymore…well not that much at least. Wow L must have had a lot of built up stress and frustration to just go all out on me like that…but I’m not as badly off as I thought I would be, at least with the way I pissed him off. But with the way he’s looking right now…I think it’s him that I should be worried about. He looks like he’s one step short from committing suicide. Heh I didn’t know you cared that much about me L, later when I have the chance and time maybe I can use that to help me figure out a way for him to trust me. But right now I better make some sort of noise or something to show I’m alive…no matter how much it hurts to even think about moving anymore then I have already.’

Raito let out a choked cough that quickly seemed to evolve into full body wracks.

L seemed to finally snap out of whatever kind of self-angst flunk he had fallen into after coming to his senses.

“Raito-kun!”

L quickly moved over towards Raito and reached out to try to help him. What he expected to be able to do to help Raito didn’t know.

Raito tried to stop himself, he knew that it would hurt L more then anything else, but he couldn’t seem to help himself. When he saw L reaching out, even though he logically that L must be trying to help, he couldn’t help but flinch back away from the out reached hand, which froze instantly, not moving forward anymore but not withdrawing either.

Raito looked at L in the face and felt guilt. L had such a sad distressed look on his face that Raito wished frantically that he could take back his body’s natural reflex to seeing L’s hand move towards him.

Raito tried to say something, anything at all in the hope to get that look off of L’s face but every time he opened his mouth all that came out was hot air. No sound at all, it seemed that his earlier coughing had exhausted his vocal cords.

L seemed to realize what Raito was trying to do though because the distressed look slowly faded away and a hesitant apologetic look over took it. Raito quickly gave a semi-smile as if to say apology accepted.

L seemed to understand because he came forward again to help Raito. L’s arms then came forward to wrap around Raito’s shoulders to help him sit up.

This time Raito didn’t flinch.

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After making sure that Raito wasn’t seriously injured, he just had a lot of more bruises all over, mostly on his chest area and a few strained muscles in his arms, which he had gotten when he had strained them trying to cover as much of himself as possible from L’s kicks and punches, his tongue was also swollen from when he had bitten his tongue earlier, when L had kicked him in the jaw.

They both just sat down against the wall side by side not moving much or even talking. They both need this peace at the moment. Especially after all that happened, though after about another hour or so of just sitting there Raito finally got fairly tired of the silence.

‘Well…one things for sure, events have defiantly changed a lot from the original time-line…and I haven’t really done anything yet. All I did was scream in pain and pass out…oh yea, and call out L’s real name. Which I still can’t believe that I would do something so stupid…well I guess it kind of brought me closer to L…if you call beating each other to a bloody pulp is getting closer to each other. Still I can’t just let him get away with kicking my ass…even though I forgave him for losing his temper…something that I never saw him do now that I think about it…before we had been chained together for almost 5 months…but I don’t remember him getting anything other then mildly annoyed or depressed…he’s showing more of himself to me right now in only a few short hours then he did when we were chained 24/7 for months…I should be really happy and I guess I kind of am…maybe I feel more happy later when I’m not in such pain. Now then…how to get back at him? I don’t think I’m going to talk about him looking like a druggy anymore…he freaking scared me enough…not to mention that when he talks in that deep dark voice…Darn it! I need to focus, so…what should I do? I don’t want to do anything to bad…L need to let out some aggression; I just wish he hadn’t had to take it out on me.’

But Raito needn’t have bothered trying to figure something out. The answer presented itself, with L knowingly or unknowingly giving Raito the solution to getting some revenge. But not one that he would take, at least not without feeling like a real right bastard.

L was the first to break the silence, something which Raito was deeply grateful for; he couldn’t help but still feel as though they were still in some sort of competition.

“I would like to apologize Raito-kun, I know that you already have forgiven me which is more then I truly deserve, but I have to say it out loud. I am truly sorry Raito-kun…never in all my life have I ever lost control like that…I’m deeply ashamed of my actions, and I don’t really know how I could make it up to you but I will try.”

Raito looked sideways at Ryuzaki who really did look apologetic and ashamed of what he had done. Raito decided to let him off the hook for now. Later though…that was another matter entirely.

“Why don’t you just tell me what set you off? I mean…what was it that I said to you that caused you to lose it like that?”

Ryuzaki started to look more then slightly uncomfortable but a determined light started to shine in those usually dull eyes. After a moment he nodded his head in consent.

“Very well I will tell you Raito-kun…what you are about to hear is…well it’s one of my more unpleasant past memories.”

With that said he got out of his crouched position and moved into a more comfortable sitting arrangement. He sat on his behind and let his legs stretch out in front of him while resting his entire back and head on the wall behind him.

Seeing the disbelief that crossed Raito’s face at seeing L in any other sitting arrangement then his usual crouched position. His lips quirking a bit he explained.

“What I’m about to tell you doesn’t require high brain power, I can afford to lose that 40 percent of extra brain power…what I’m about to tell you involves more of my memories and feelings I guess…I might as well be comfortable as I tell you something about myself…though keep in mind that you will not be able to get to my identity from what I tell you…though I guess I really shouldn’t bother anymore with you knowing…that name.”

Raito kind of sheepishly ducked his head and also decided to get into a more comfortable spot on the ground. He really wish that L had put some type of furniture in this room, but he guessed that L had figured they would fight so he probably didn’t want there to be anything in here that they could have used on each other.

After they both got in more comfortable positions which included resting their shoulders together, this had Raito blushing very lightly as their shoulders just barely brushed each other.

L then started to talk, speaking only in a slightly less monotone voice then he usually talked in.


“Well I guess I should start at the beginning, at least enough so that you will get what I’m talking about, so here it goes I guess...when I was younger I often suffered from night terrors. It got so bad that I was lucky if I got an hour of sleep a night. After a while I saw the upside of this though…I got more time to work on cases and without the added stress of lost time. I started to train my body to accept its new role. It wasn’t difficult because I was used to almost no sleep by then because of my nightmares. But it did have an effect on my appearance. As the years went by where if I was lucky enough I got an hour of sleep a night, my skin became more of a sickly pallor and the shadows under my eyes became darker and more pronounce, I guess it didn’t help that I never went out much either. I admit that I did not look like a typical normal healthy human being at all. I rarely went outside when I was younger so I didn’t really think of how my appearance would look like to anyone else. Watari knew the reasons for it of course and he had gotten use to it…but other people…when I was around 13 years old I was working on a very tedious case, it wasn’t really difficult and I solved it within a few days but the paperwork and red tape I had to go threw was very boring. I had decided to take a break after about 3 hours of non-stop paperwork, I wanted to eat some strawberry cake so I went to the small fridge that we had in the hotel room that we were living in at that moment, I found out that I had already finished the cake the day before and I found nothing in there that I wanted so I started to call out to Watari in the hopes that he would go out to buy me another one. It was only after I did that did I remember I had sent him on an errand only a half hour ago. I knew I should have just waited for him to come back…but that would have probably taken another hour and I really wanted cake…so I did something I had never did before…I left by myself…I know that might not seem like much to you Raito-kun but I had never really done anything without Watari there, and I never really wanted to go out before so I had never done so. Watari had always gone and gotten anything I had ever need or wanted so I kind of took that for granted I guess…I didn’t really think about what I was doing at the time. I knew that there was a cake shop about 3 blocks away from the hotel so I thought I would just take some of the cash that Watari always left behind and just walk over and buy some…I didn’t really think of how I looked or presented myself, I had been working on a case for over 3 days straight so my eyes had gone blood-shot and my skin had turned a shallow ashen color, my cloths had a particular smell to them and I wore no shoes. Looking back on what happen now, I can’t really blame them for what they did…well almost can’t blame them…anyway I had left the room that Watari had left me in and started to walk outside. It was winter at the time and snowing. I had forgotten to grab any type of jacket when I had left so you could imagine how cold I was, also remember I had no shoes and my feet where only use to walking on soft comfortable carpet. I had wanted to turn right back and run to my room but my stubborn pride would not let me, also I really wanted that cake.”


L had finally paused to take a breather; while he was slowly getting his breath back Raito was looking at him in astonishment, L had never never talked about himself before when they had been chained together…to think that now L was actually sharing something about himself to Raito…well it was a wonderful and mildly frightening experience.

‘If this is how L reacts after he beats someone up…I just might have to let him kick my ass more often…though it would be nice if we could skip that part from now on and just get to the sharing, is it sharing when only one person is talking though? Well it really doesn’t matter in this situation, I’m sure that L has all my personal information somewhere on file. Heh that would just be like him…though it would be creepy if he had everything on file…not that it would surprise me. Wow L was certainly a sheltered child that’s for sure…I’m not sure I’m liking where this is headed though, I hope that I’m wrong but I rarely am…poor L.’

After L got his next wind he started to talk again, Raito listening in morbid silence.


“I began to quickly walk threw the crowds towards the direction that I knew the cake shop was in, I remember noticing the disproving and disgusted looks that were casted my way. At the time I barely gave them any thought because I was so cold and hungry by that point. I finally found the shop after about another eighteen minutes of wandering around. By that time my skin had taken an ugly blueish tint that mixed horribly with my already ashen appearance and my toes had turned faintly purple with the beginning of frost bite. I went into the shop and had just stood there for a minute or two absorbing the heat that the shop was emitting. I had ignored the looks that were sent my way the moment I had entered the shop and finally started to move to the counter. I admit I was slightly oblivious of what everyone was thinking about when they looked at me. When I got to the counter I had ignored yet again the way everyone got out of my way to avoid me. I was truly stupid for not leaving eminently but I was young and bull-headed, I had stood in front of the counter and had tried to order, I didn’t know why then that the man behind the counter was completely ignoring me. After failing to get his attention for a minute or two I decided that I would sit on the counter till I made the employee notice me. I was not use to being ignored and I had not liked it at all. I admit that I may have been a little arrogant and snobbish but I was hailed as the greatest detective in the world and I was not use to being over looked. Never mind that no one knew who I was and what I looked like, I might have let the notoriety of my job swell my head a little but you have to remember I may have had a very high I.Q. but I was still a child at the time. After that I defiantly got some attention and not the kind I wanted either. After I had hopped onto the counter the guy who was manning the counter finally told me in barely hidden disgust for me to leave because they did not serve my kind here. I was confused by what he said and more then a little angry that he refused to let me order the cake I had so wanted. I had asked him rather rudely what he meant by my kind, and he told me that he wasn’t stupid nor blind and that if I didn’t want to be arrested by the police that I had better leave. I was honestly outraged at this and still more then a bit confused so I just continued to sit there in the hope that the guy would change his mind. I hadn’t really believed that he would call the police on me especially since I hadn’t done anything but try to be a customer.”


Raito just stared at him as L paused yet again from his long winded speech.

“He didn’t did he…and by what he meant by your kind…oh god Ryuzaki I’m so sorry…”

L waved away his apology.


“You didn’t know any better Raito-kun so there really isn’t any reason to apologize for, as to what he did and meant…well let’s just say that after that I never took threats lightly anymore. Not ten minutes later two uniform police men came threw the door and rather roughly yanked me from the counter and precede to drag me out of the shop, I as you could imagine was very mad and confused and I admit more then a bit frightened. I tried to tell the officers that I was just in there to buy some cake and that was all. They had snorted to themselves and said that there was no way that I would be able to afford anything and that I would have to stay in the local jail until someone picked me up or I rot in there. Frightened beyond belief by now I demanded to know why I was being taken into custody. They had laughed and told me that I had disturbed the peace and that I was on drugs so they had to make sure to take trash like me off the streets for the safety of law abiding citizens. You could well imagine my shock when I heard that they though I was on drugs. I tried to tell them the truth, that I wasn’t on any type of drug, and that I wasn’t living on the street either. I even gave them the name of the hotel I was staying at but it was a very upscale place and they just laughed at my attempts to tell them the truth. After they threw me into their car after a short scuffle with me trying to escape we started to drive off. I yet again tried to reason with them but they completely ignored me. After a few minutes of that I just sat back and tried to come up with a plan, I reasoned with myself that I would be able to make a phone call the moment I got to the station and I would call Watari and then everything would be ok…if only that were so.”


“When we got to the station they eminently dragged me off to the interrogation room, I was completely ignored as I tried to ask to use the phone. They left me in the room for hours before someone finally remembered me. By that time I was desperate, I was tired and hungry and I really need to use the can, it seemed that they had left me in there for that reason. They came in and started to accuse me of all sorts of things, after trying to tell them yet again that I just wanted the strawberry cake they eminently interpreted this as a confession that strawberry cake was some code word for drugs and my contact must be at the cake shop, after yet again trying to say that I wasn’t on any type of drug I even showed them the money that I had, which I admit I did have a bit too much on me at the time, I think it was around 400 dollars…anyway they eminently assumed that I had stolen it and said that they were going to add larceny to my list of crimes. They told me that I would be going to the state prison and then proceed to tell me what they do to small boys there…I admit that I was downright terrified by this point and to my eternal shame I had broken down crying at this point. Disgusted by my display they hauled me yet again to another room…this time to a small prison cell that they put inmates in till they could be shipped out. I tried yet again to ask if I could use the phone, to just call one person…all they did was laugh and say that I had no one to call and no one would miss a piece of gutter trash like me…I was still so young and was frighten beyond rational thought, so I even started to believe them a bit by this time…after leaving me in the cell which I thank the gods even now, that I was the only one down there…I don’t want to think of what would have happened if I was put in a cell with a real criminal…I was stuck there for 3 days before Watari finally found me…by then I had retreated into my mind almost completely, leaving my body to slowly waste away…it took almost 2 years of Watari counseling me before I could be left by myself in any type of dark room. I’m a lot better now and it is only a really bad memory to me but still, I get really mad if anyone ever accuses me of being a druggy nowadays.”


When L had finally stopped speaking only silence answered. He turned to look to the ground and didn’t lift his head.

Raito was in shock, which quickly enough turned into righteous fury.

‘My god…those bastards…shit there goes my new pacification look on life, I’m going to find the names of those…monsters…and…ok I can’t use the deathnote anymore but that wouldn’t be satisfactory anyway…no I’ll kill those assholes with my bare hands.’

Raito really didn’t know what to say. He could now understand a bit about L and could sympathize with him…at least up to a point. Still what do you say in a situation like this? He knew that if he had still been Kira he would probably used this information to destroy L, but he wasn’t and he didn’t want to destroy L any longer…he already did that once and it hadn’t been all that great.

“L…I know that nothing I could say would make what happen to you any easier to deal with…but…let’s just consider apology accepted and never speak about this again.”

L looked up and sent Raito a look of gratitude, he then nodded his head. L’s face then started to grow thoughtful, as if a sudden thought crossed his mind.

Raito started to feel wary, because whenever L got that look on his face it usually was because he was figuring out a new way of either accusing him of being Kira or he was looking at a case…and since they didn’t have any type of case file in front of them he was pretty sure it was the former then the latter.

‘Ah darn it; isn’t he tired of fighting yet?’

It didn’t seem so at least to Raito as he saw L’s face grow into a full blown smirk.

“So Raito-kun…what will you do with such information now I wonder…hmm…will you use it against me? I know that Raito-kun would never do such a thing, he’s such a model student with such high and might set of morals and whatnot…but I can’t say I’m exactly talking to Raito-kun can I? Isn’t that right…Kira?”

Raito’s face had adopted a look of complete fury. His face started turning many shades of red and finally just settled on an off-white color of pure rage. His eyes narrowed dangerously. He knew that L was purposely giving him an out for his revenge, because even though Raito may have forgiven him, they both knew that revenge was needed. It was only fair after all, to make things truly even between them L need to get his ass kicked just like Raito’s had been. But that thought was very small and was quickly washed away with the rage that was currently flowing threw him at the moment. With everything that happened to him…Being killed…sent to Mu…regaining his memories…dealing with the Shinigami King and learning that he was-is responsible for the end of the world…learning that he was no longer completely human anymore…been given a chance of redemption…being sent back into time, which had hurt…then having to kill his alter ego Kira and learning about Zaki…then having to wake up with the threat of L using a crash cart on him to wake him up…dealing with seeing his father alive…dealing with L and his obsession of handcuffs…then Misa…then getting locked in that god-damned room…getting the shit kicked out of him…and dare he say it? Bonding with his ex-enemy…and now after being really hurt, hungry and tired and just plain having a really shitty day L starts to accurse him again?! It was almost enough to make a weaker person snap. To bad for L…Raito wasn’t feeling that strong at the moment.

Raito could literally feel a chain in his mind grow taunt…and then a quick snap sounded threw his mind. He literally saw red.

He saw it happen in slow motion, it was like everything had slowed down till it was like moving in water. He saw and felt his arm rise from its resting spot next to him, then it made a tight fist and then it lifted and it was like time started back up.

His fist came flying out and struck L right in the temple.

The impact made an almost cracking sound but not quite, but when L started to fall on his side and his head struck the ground it really did make a loud cracking sound.

Raito froze when he heard the sound; he then suddenly came back to his senses.

‘Shit, shit, shit…god L how stupid are you?! How could you even think of working me up after all this? Shit if your dead I’m going to find some way to bring you back from the land of the dead and kick you ass…heck I did it after all. Damn that sounded really bad though…god you better be ok, you stupid panda…”

Raito quickly knelt down next to the still body of L and started to look for a pulse. He gave a sigh of relief when he found one after taking L’s hand and feeling his wrist. He then quickly looked at L’s face to see if he was unconscious or something like that…it wouldn’t be good if he had a concussion and was knocked out.

Raito paused as he heard a weird sound he had never heard before. It seemed to be coming from L so he took a closer look. An expression of disbelief and astonishment overcame his face.

Looking at L’s slacken and strangely peaceful expression he found the sound coming from L’s mouth…he was softly snoring.

‘He’s asleep…the bastard actually feel asleep after having me punch him…I don’t know wither to be insulted or amused, gods L only you.’

Raito noticed that L had fallen in a kind of awkward position. With his body half twisted up. It looked highly uncomfortable. Looking at him gave Raito an idea. A frightful wonderful very stupid idea, ignoring L’s peaceful face Raito started to think.

‘He does look uncomfortable…yes I’m almost positive that L wouldn’t mind…and I doubt he will be waking up anytime soon…one of the things I remember from my past life was that when L did ever managed to fall asleep he slept like the dead…so just maybe…’

With that half-convincing thought Raito quickly decided that the consequences were worth it.

Raito reached out and carefully maneuvered L until he was laying with his head in Raito’s lap.

Raito could feel an involuntary blush work its way up his face, but he didn’t try to stop it with no one else to witness it but a sleeping L.

Raito looked down into Ryuzaki’s peaceful slack face and thought the soft snores coming from him were actually really cute. He made a face as this thought crossed his mind but didn’t deny it. Raito wondered why he had never heard them before. He had seen L sleep once or twice before unless…L hadn’t really been asleep at all at those times. That was slightly worrying because that would mean that L probably hadn’t slept at all when they had been chained together.

‘L you stupid man…if I hadn’t killed you then your stupid habits would have sooner rather then later. What am I going to do with you?’

Raito let out an inaudible sigh of annoyance and fondness. L was just too much sometimes.

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An hour or so pasted and L continued to sleep, Raito had taken to running his hand threw L’s hair, it seemed to smooth any impending nightmares that L might have because he seemed to only squirm and whimper if he stopped. Raito was fascinated, he had never seen so much emotion in L, it was an interesting and unusual experience. Still he hadn’t stopped petting L’s hair since that one time that told him that if he didn’t want a distressed L on his hands he better keep at it. He didn’t really mind though, L’s hair was surprisingly soft for all its wildness; it also smelled faintly of strawberries.

‘Heh that really shouldn’t surprise me…I wouldn’t be surprised if I found out he bathed in strawberries…wait I think I remember something about a certain brand of shampoo that he had used…at least he did use only when I finally forced him to use the shower after going days without one, yuck that was just wrong L…but I think that that shampoo had been strawberry scented…only you L.’

Raito looked down when he felt a slight shifting, L’s head had turned slightly so his face was facing upwards and his nose was all scrunched up. It took two seconds to figure out what was about to happen.

Raito barely managed to move his own head out of the way before L sneezed.

And it wasn’t a normal loud gross sneeze either; it was one of those cute sniffles sneezes.

‘Oh my god…I wish I had a camcorder or something like that…that was just too cute…god the blackmail that that sneeze could have given me…I need to remind myself to get a hold of something like that soon and then find a feather or something and use it…hehe.’

Raito looked back down at L whose face had started to relax again; he then had the urge to do something that was most likely the weirdest stupidest downright suicidal urge of all time.

‘I shouldn’t…I mean I really don’t know exactly what it is that I feel for him yet…not to mention Ryuzaki would kill me if he found out…that is if he found out…it’s really not that much of a big deal…it would be quick and everything…I’m just curious that’s all. It should be ok if I’m quick and he never finds out. Which I doubt since he’s asleep and all, and most likely to stay that way for a while yet…yea why not.’

After again trying to justify his next course of action, he quickly made his move.

He didn’t notice that his hand had stopped moving threw L’s hair earlier, if he had noticed he would have seen L start to scrunch up his face in such an obvious way as when people are about to wake up. But Raito didn’t see this.

Raito was to busy freaking out over what he was about to do. Finally giving up thinking about it Raito just decided to do it and get it over with.

With new determination he quickly closed his eyes then bent in half over L’s laying form and…softly kissed him.

It really couldn’t be categorized as a kiss; he had angled it at the last second to barley brush the side of L’s mouth, his lips barley touching L at all.

Raito opened his eyes, his lips still hovering warmly on the side of L’s mouth. It took a few seconds to actually comprehend what he saw. When it finally processed in his brain what he was seeing his eyes widen in surprise.

L was staring right back at him with his own black eyes widen almost comically in shock.

‘Oh…well shit.’

Before Raito could even move away much less think of an excuse for his actions L acted first.

Raito could tell it was more reflex then corporate thought which drove L to do what he did.

He lifted his hand and slapped Raito hard across the face.

Raito felt his head bounce off of the wall behind him. Right before he blacked out he saw L still looking at him in shock…but was that regret he saw too?

Raito didn’t have time to comprehend what he saw before he blacked out from the concussion that L had just dealt him.

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OK I’M GOING TO END IT HERE FOR NOW! One, because this is just getting to freaking long. Two I think it makes a good cliff-hanger. Three…well there really is no three. Sorry.

Ok…a lot has happen in this chapter don’t you think? Poor child-Lawliet…people can really cruel in life…I really did mix some stuff up huh. I mean the fluff came first then the violence then the pissed off L then more fluff then some more violence…geez.

Oh for all of you out there who want to see more of Raito’s shinigami form you’ll be really happy in the next chapter (heh I just did a spoiler ;)

Soooo…what do you think? They are bonding! Kind of. Awww poor Raito he just got rejected :-0…maybe L will apologize again and they can make up…or make out ^.^ I might just have them in denial of there attraction for each other for a few more chapters…it’s more fun that way.

Also you want to know what the very first thing that came to my mind when I was writing the description for the empty white room was?....a room with a huge bed…^-^ heheh I even wrote a small scene with it, but I had deleted it so I could write the real chapter…my god Raito’s expression was priceless! O_0 (OMG look)

This really is an extra long chapter, over 27 pages long…wow…I just had so much to write down and I can never find a good enough place to stop ;-9 oh well more for you all I guess.

Tell me what you think!! I thank all of you who have reviewed this story but I need more (I’m a selfish writer but hey who isn’t?) please review.