Creeping Up On You

SEVERE WARNING! RAPE! MENTAL TORTURE! this chapter deals partially with Kay\'s Memories! She will remember every thing about her captivity in this chapter and discribe what some of it was like!

CHAPTER 8: So Fortunate

I never thought I was strong enough
To handle raising my own son
You\'ll always fear what you\'ve never done
I hope he\'ll know me when I come home

Nothing gonna change
My love for you

I love my child
He\'s got his mother\'s smile
I\'m so fortunate so fortunate
Life can get tight
But I will make it right
I\'m so fortunate so fortunate

I had to learn what meant more to me
My family\'s became everything
I miss you more than you\'ll ever know
I wish that I could just leave go home

Adema – “So Fortunate”

~!@#$%^&*()_++_)_(*&^%$#@!~ KAY

I should have known better then to give the kids ice cream, but oh well, live and learn. Yahiko was currently bouncing around my apartment and Mae hadn’t stopped asking why for the last fifteen minutes. Unfortunately I wasn’t able to get a hold of anyone while we were at Intersteller, except Ken. There are days I think he lives there.

We headed to my apartment after we finished our ice cream and played a few games. Yahiko was talking to Ken again and Mea stayed close to me as we played Paperboy and Dance Dance revolution. She and I made fools of ourselves but had too much fun to care.

I was about to die laughing, as was Sano. He and I were back to back laughing at the kids’ antic. He was the only one around when I and my little herd of elephants came into the apartment building. I picked up Mae, deciding that it was time to see if anyone else was home yet. We headed one door down to Meg and Mia’s and there wasn’t an answer. I headed over to Aoshi’s and found him in. I felt safe with the kids around. No one could hurt me then. Sano didn’t bother me as much as his presence with out one of the girls would have normally. I felt at peace with my world for the first time in a long time, surrounded by men and children, strange.

The three of us ran into Meg and Mia on out way back from Aoshi’s. “Hey, guys, look who I have here.” I waved to the girls while holding my little sister.

Meg had a worried look that soon gave way to relief and a smile for Mae. Mia’s look was strange, as if she was angry with me for something, but I think I might have imagined that as a smile was in place on her lips.

She bounced over to Mae and I, “Well, now, aren’t you a pretty little girl.” Mia glanced up at me. “Wow, you realize she looks just like you right?” Her question caught me completely by surprise. She did, but it had to be a fluke as we didn’t share any blood. She was just too cute regardless.

“Cool! I look just like Kay?” I smiled at her as Mia nodded. “Let me introduce you to Machimacki Misao, Mia. Mia this is Shishio Tsubame, Mae, my little sister.” She had me put her down as she formally bowed to Mia, “a pleasure to meet you, Miss Machimacki. May I call you Mia?”

Mia laughed seemingly totally delighted with the child.

~!@#$%^&*()_+_)(*&^%$#@!~MEGUMI

I caught the look of rage on Mia’s face before she could change it. Kay and Aoshi were coming down the hall with a child in her arms. She waved at us. I couldn’t help but be worried about Kay. So much had happened today and in the last 48 hours.

I allowed the conversation to flow around me as I studied the four with currently with me. Mia was right, I had quite a shock when I saw the child in Kay’s arms, but what got me more was Aoshi. She was easy around him, despite what had happened this morning. Her entire body thrummed with energy and yet she was as relaxed as I have ever seen her.

Mae surprised me, while she did look like Kay, there was something else familiar about her. I chalked it up to being Yumi’s and Shishio’s, but that didn’t quite fit. There was something, ah, there it was. It was her smile. Her smile put me in mind of Sano. As stupid and inconceivable as it was, if I hadn’t known better I would have said Mae was Sano and Kay’s child.

I shook my thoughts away, Kay was introducing Mae to us and I couldn’t help but to smile more at the child as she bowed to Mia. She was five going on thirty I think.

Kay and Mae turned to me. “Machimacki Megumi, Meg, may I introduce to you, Shishio Tsubame, Mae? Meg is Mia’s older sister and both are my friends.”

Mae bowed to me and did the same has she had with Mia. She asked to call me by my nickname and who could say no to such a cutie?

Aoshi had the key to Kay’s apartment, but we realized all she needed was a third hand to open the door. We were greeted by Sano and Yahiko rolling around on my living room floor with all the furniture pushed back against the walls. Mae took off for Yahiko, kicking Sano as she much as she could.

“Woah, pixi, OUCH! What are you doing? Oww. I am not hurting him. Settle down.” Yahiko pulled his little sister of Sano. “It’s ok, he wasn’t hurting me, we were playing, it’s ok.” He looked up at me.

“The only time she sees anything like this is when I am getting the crap beaten out of me. Unfortunately, it had happened all too often with Shish around.” His voice was full of the pain I could see on his face. He hugged his sister to him as Meg and I came up to them. We enveloped them in our arms. I rested my cheek on Mae’s head. I couldn’t believe someone would do that to a child, but then I shouldn’t be surprised, it was Shishio we were talking about.

“Wow, talk about loyalty,” That comment came from Mia and Sano. I glanced up at them, I knew I would do the same for my friends, if I weren’t so weak. I felt a hand on my back, large and warm. I stiffened and then relaxed, it was Aoshi, I could smell his scent, and would recognize it anywhere.

I disengaged form my group hug, “Hey, who’s hungry?” I got “me’s” from the kids and the adults all nodded. Dinner was simple, salad and chicken quesadillas. Mia seemed to take Mae under her wing and the two were constantly whispering back and forth, it was cute really. Sano got in on it occasionally as he was on the other side of Mia and Yahiko was on the other side of Mae. She wouldn’t have had it any other way. Mae seemed very happy.

Aoshi sat next to me and was always finding a reason to touch me. It didn’t bother me. Well it did, but I made myself ignore it. I wanted to be normal, normal didn’t freak out when ever a male came with in 5 feet of me. I started to tentively touch him back, a hand on his arm, brushing his leg with mine as I shifted in my seat, little things that made a huge difference to me.

After dinner we watched a movie, to settle the kids down before I sent them to bed. I set up my guest room for Yahiko and was going to give Mae my room for the night. Sano offered to take Yahiko for the night and Mae wouldn’t leave me even though she and Mia got along so well. That night I had only Mae with me in the apartment. I hadn’t slept this well in a very long time…


~!@#$%^&*()_+_)(*&^%$#@!~MEG

I had been a long time since I had seen Kay so happy. She and Aoshi seemed to be getting very close now. She could be with out friends alone and didn’t seem to have many problems. If one of them crowded her a bit then she got a little panicky, but otherwise she seemed fine. We weren’t going to test this and have only been keeping it as just our guy friends she has been alone with, I have to admit, and I am worried about when we are in public. Though maybe what she has learned here will serve her there. I could only hope.

I was thrilled to see Aoshi was slowly moving in on her heart. He always seemed to be available to her and the kids. Yahiko has been getting very close to him. Mae was getting close with Mia but I was watching them. Mia just isn’t right and I still couldn’t say why. She asked me if I didn’t trust her with Mae one day in jest, I just turned away and walked to the next room.

The last two and a half weeks have been busy. Hiko found a house for all of us, just as he had promised. He kept hinting that he and I should share a room. I kept swatting him away, much like a fly, though I have to admit, he is every entertaining. Aoshi set Kay up with a teaching job. Mia and I baby sat for her while at work when we weren’t in school ourselves. Sano helped out around the house, being Mr. Not-so-Handy- Man, it was entertaining really. I had found work with Ken at his place. He was short a weekend bartender. We hadn’t yet moved into the house when things started to go down hill.

Aoshi apparently tried to go farther then Kay was ready for, I think it set back all his hard war and her progress. I stayed with her that night at her place. I could hear her in her room, crying. When she was asleep, she cried out for him. For him to stay, that she was sorry and a fool, that she loved him.

The shadows in her eyes that had just begun to fade, invaded with full force and all of us could see around the façade she put up for us. Aoshi was put on my castration list, it was a short list, but one that one of these days I will get around to doing. He only had one more chance with her. Lucky for him I hadn’t seen him around or I would have read him the riot act.

I was thinking of Kay and not where I was going. I soon found myself back at the apartment building we just weren’t ready to leave yet, no matter how much packing we did. The bushed to the left rustled and I ignored it. It was late but that was fine, I wasn’t afraid of the dark. A shadow came up behind me, before I could turn, the world turned to nothingness…

~!@#$%^&*()_++_)(*&^%$#@!~Mia (three days later)

“Hey Kay!” The dark haired woman in charge of two kids turned to me. “Meg said she was going to visit our aunt, she is very sick, but not to worry about her,” Kay’s face turned confused, I was afraid she wouldn’t buy the lie. She did, she turned back to Yahiko after replying, “Ok.”

“Kay, I was thinking,” that got her attention again, “why don’t we see if Dr, Gensai would take Mae for the weekend? You need some time to yourself and I am sure the little monster would love to see her friends again. Yahiko can go too if he wants, it has been a few weeks since he has seen his friends.” She agreed, good, that means it shouldn’t be to hard to get her and Mae alone for him. Our plan is falling into place, your Amei is coming home to you soon. My bittersweet thought as I love him and always have. If it makes him happy, I would do anything for him. Including kill them both… she had better not hurt him anymore…

~!@#$%^&*()_++_)(*&^%$#@!~Kay

Dr. Gensai had called to see how the kids were doing, he had been doing that at least once a week since I took the kids home with me when Yumi and Shishio Died. I could hear Ayame and Suzame in the background. He made it easy for me, I didn’t have to call him, great timing on his part. “Give me a moment, will you D. Gensai?” He replied in the jovial way he is known for. “Sure, not a problem, Kay.”

I put my handover the lower part of the phone. “Tsubame,” she came around the corner near where I had wandered while on the phone. “Would you like to go to Dr. Gensai’s house for the weekend? I am sure you miss the girl and our friends.” Her eyes widened and she gave a whooping shout. I smiled at her and removed my hand, “Dr. Gensai? Is it ok if Mae comes over tomorrow after noon and stays for the weekend?” I could hear him ask his granddaughters what they thought of the idea, it had been very well received if the noise coming from the other end was true.

~!@#$%^&*()_+_)(*&^%$#@!~Kay

I had let Mia drop Mae off at Dr. Gensai’s last night, she and Hiko had to go that way anyway, their next assignment was in that direction and they wanted to meet the teacher’s they were going to be with for the week.. It had been a while, nearly a month since Tsubame had seen her friends in the area, namely Suzame and her older sister, Ayame. And I needed some time from them, I love them to death, but I needed some time alone.

~!@#$%^&*()_+_)(*&^%$#@!~Memory

Dusk had been creeping its way through the trees in the forest. I had long since started a fire to ward off the chill of the night. I had hung my frying pan that I had washed during the day from a tree to dry. I felt more then heard the forest go quiet. Not a natural quiet, this had a twist of danger, of a predator lurking near by. My back had been to the fire, reaching for the pan. I had it grasped in both hands ready to defend myself. Cliché as it may be, I got a good solid whap on the silhouette that had crept up behind me. Not good enough to knock it unconscious, I didn’t know what it was; my brain didn’t comprehend anything that wasn’t vital to survival, but enough to stun it and make my next move. My mind screamed “RUN!” and that was what I did.

I was running, I feel the terror that has welled up in me, spilling over me. I can’t stop, something is behind me. I can hear it, it is always getting closer, so close it can almost touch me. I’m in a forest. The trees I had once thought so beautiful are almost like a cage. Running, must keep moving, never stopping. I stumble over some roots. I fall. NO! I can’t stop. I have to keep going! Please some one Help me! I can’t move anymore, NO! It’s right behind me now.

I am running, so far, so fast. I don’t know where I am in the forest anymore. I can hear him. It is male and human. Oh god, he is calling my name. “Kaoru, there is no use in this. Stop or I will have to punish you. Kaoruuuu!” My name haunts me as does his footfalls. I don’t know how he knows my name, I don’t care right now, I just have to keep moving. I failed as I tripped over an exposed root. He hauls me up by my arm. I can’t see his face, it is covered by a white porcelain mask. Before I can think to fight off my fear and him, he injects me with something. I passed out, I can’t tell you if it was from the drug or from exhaustion and fright.

I’m tied to a bed when I come to. There is no where to go, there is no give in the ropes. I start to scream. I continued until I had made myself hoarse. No one is coming, except him.

He stays in the shadows always, no matter what activity he engages us in, I never see his face but I feel his hands all over me, all I can see is his shadow and lilies all around me. This is the first time that I know of that he touched me, and I try to get away from him, but it is no use. There is no where to go, and only so much fight in my before my body surrendered. My mind never did though.

He was careless, I don’t know how long I have been here, but I have seen him 5 times and all of them included sex. I want, no need, to get out before I lose my mind. I found my clothed in the corner on a chair. He left me untied for some reason today. I quickly dressed and like every one does, I tried to just turn the door knob to get out, to my surprise, it worked. I wandered with purpose in the hall ways of the pace. The walls were rough stone yet lit by electricity. I followed one particular hallway until I noticed light, not electric at the end of it. I made a dash for the light, it was natural, I could tell.

I burst outside and just run. I am blinded by the light of day, something I hadn’t seen in only god knows how long. I can hear him behind me, I just can’t seem to escape him. I run, stopping only when I trip, which is often. The light is so bright. I didn’t see the young tree until it was too late, I slammed into it, making me spin and crash into a larger one. I hear a snap, thinking I just broke yet another stick, twig, what ever. Pain, fear and freedom keep me moving. I am always falling, landing on my right arm, crunch, snap. I get up, agony tearing its way through me, driving the fear through me even more as I once again lose consciousness.

My mind began to put up a gossamer curtain between what was happening to me and my core being. Time had long since lost all meaning to me, but there was no need to see through the haze of my mind to have a pretty good idea of what was happening.

I hated Punishment, but I earned it so many times, I don’t know how many time I tried to escape, but it was almost always to the end. I could hear the whip and feel the pain on my back as I cried for mercy and from pain.

“Mercy? You want mercy? I don’t think you do, Amei. You wouldn’t have gotten caught if you wanted mercy. Oh, Amei, stop your crying,” his voice cooxed over the slap and bite of the cat-o-nine tails he was using. “Everything will be just fine, you will see, I am only punishing you so you won’t run again, but you keep doing it. Why Amei, do you like this so much, but are such a good girl that you can’t ask for it?” the whip stilled, I was still crying, I couldn’t stop, my left arm was almost as painful as my back, but I knew that no blood had been drawn in all of my punishment. I couldn’t remember if my ribs hurt before the whipping or because of it. My legs gave out on me when he unhooked my cuffed wrists from the hook he had on the wall in “our room”.

I knew what was to happen next, he would “worship my body”. I couldn’t tell you which I hated more, the whippings or the attention he lavished on my body. He next to never took me too roughly. He spent the time to arouse me, against my will but never the less it worked. I would beg him to take me, to have mercy and he would draw it out for hours once he started to get my responses. He would start the harder stuff later when I was too aroused to care what he did as long as he sent me over the pinnacle to my climax.

Once he had me right were he wanted me he would try something new almost every time. Once he had a snake. I couldn’t tell you much about it as I never saw it, but I had to be very still, or I would be punished. He guided it into my body and I couldn’t begin to describe it. And I won’t, lets just say that it was almost a scene right out of James Patterson’s Kiss the Girls book. There were other things he tried as well.

I learned the fine art of pleasuring one’s self at his hands. Dildos, vibrators, my finges. Things with ribbed or textured surfaces verses smooth, length and shape, everything I could ever need to know he taught me and I begged him to. He taught me pain was a good thing, at times. He taught me a lot about the male body as well, and what a man wants and likes from his woman. I could give a great whore a run for her money with all he taught me.

But that last time. That last time was nothing but pain. I had tried to escape again. He decided on a new punishment. “Amei, why? Aren’t I good to you? This is going to hurt me more then you and believe me, this is going to hurt.” He had blind folded me when he had caught me, and it wasn’t unusual for him to strip me for my punishment. He cuffed me as was normal and hung me by the links of the cuffs to the hook on the wall. “Two escape attempts in forty-eight hours, you have been a bad girl, Amei.” I could feel his breath on my ear as roughly shoved me against the wall. He grabbed my hips and I could feel the heat emanating from him. His fingers probed at my body, and found my entrance. In one quick movement, he had embedded himself in me.

I let out a scream like none other I had ever voiced. The pain was shooting through my body and he rocked, very slowly at first. I screamed and cried every time he moved. He would wait long enough for the pain to just start wearing away and pull out and plunge right back in again, all the way in, to the hilt. He was huge, my hand couldn’t even encircle him and he was long, it was somewhat painful when he would bring me to nearly my climax, but this was agony like I had never before felt. It was almost as if he was tearing me apart from the inside with every movement.

I passed out when he started to pick up the pace, it was just too much for me. He would wake me ever time I passed out, made me feel it all. He broke my right leg, “never again, Amei. I am so sorry this is the way it must be, but you must never again try to leave me,” He broke it, a compound fracture, when he finally left me in a haze of pain and blood, I took what I could find in the room to make a splint. I had to set it myself. The scream that tore from my throat then would reverberate through my being for years to come. The best I could do were two paper back novels and strips of the sheet on the bed. I used one strip to make a tourniquet to help stop the bleeding, another was used as padding over the wound and yet another to hold the makeshift bandage in place. The rest went to holding the books in place.

I didn’t care that I was naked. I prayed he wasn’t still around and hobbled against the wall until I came across the room I had seen as storage. Appearently he had to use crutches at one time. “What do you think you are doing, Amei?” He startled me into screaming. I tried to turn, using my injured leg in the process and fell against the wall. I don’t remember feeling the contact my head should have made but I do remember falling for what seemed like forever.

~!@#$%^&*()_++_)(*&^%$#@!~KAY

I know I must have escaped some how because the next thing I remember is waking up in my room at my Dad’s house. The first person I saw was Sano and I screamed bloody murder. My memories had started over again that day, but now I remember all but a nine month time frame.

I had been kind of lonely today. There was no one for me to talk to, to confide what I now knew about part of the time I just couldn’t remember, about the time I didn’t want to remember.

Meg was off visiting her sick aunt, though honestly, I don’t remember her ever having an aunt. Mia and Hiko were back in the University, I couldn’t have them giving up their dreams for the future for me and my siblings. They were interning now. They would spend a week at different schools as assistant teachers. Sano was around some where, I thought he was taking Yahiko and a few of his new friends out to a near by park. And Aoshi… I haven’t hard from him since I slapped him for kissing me.

He had told me he loved me and wanted to know if we could be more then just friends. It was my fault, I asked him if he had a girlfriend, he countered the question with one of his own. Would I be his girlfriend? He kissed me when I didn’t answer. It was the sweetest kiss, a sweet soft butterfly kiss. I put my hands on his chest, I didn’t want it to end. He slowly deepened the kiss just a tiny bit. I moved closer to him. That was when the kiss changed from gentle and sweet to hungry and passionate. His taste and power overwhelmed me. His arms trapped me against his chest as he plundered my mouth. I broke free from him when I kneed him in the balls. “Don’t ever tough me again.” I spat at him, venomously. I wouldn’t listen to him as I walked away, but I heard him say he loved me. I just put it out of my mind. I was terrified by the power he held over me with a simple kiss. That was a week ago, and now I am crying over losing him. I love him, that was why I could be with him, alone and mostly unafraid all those times I had when any other male couldn’t even touch me with out me freaking out. I drove him away and now realized I love him. I have too much pride to call him up and apologize, despite the fact that I know I should. I am such a damned fool.

I picked up the phone to call Dr. Gensai. I wanted to know when he wanted me to pick up Tsubame tomorrow. “Gensai residence, how may I help you?” The doctor’s pleasant voice sounded over the phone

“Hello, Doctor, its Kay, when did you want me to pick up Mae tomorrow?”

“Huh? Mae? But I though you had her picked up a few hours ago.” The confusion in his voice spoke volumes.

“What do you mean? I haven’t left the house since yesterday when I dropped her off.” I replied.

“Well, a young man called here this afternoon, saying that you would pick her up at your father’s house, there was something you two had to do together. She was to wait in the house and you would come in a cab for her. I saw her on the porch, then the next minute I look out the window again and she is gone, I just assumed that I missed you in the cab. I haven’t seen her since six this evening. That was almost three hours ago.”

Oh, my God, oh, my God, what do I do? What do I do? Mae is missing and I don’t know the first place to look for her, or even who would have taken my baby sister. “Thank you Doctor, would you please have the neighborhood keep and eye out for her?” I am going to look for her. If anyone finds her, please call this number, 555-2320. That is Sano’s cell and he will be with me. Thank you.” I didn’t give him the chance to say anything as I hung up, I had too much to do and I didn’t know where to start.

I tried to call Sano, but he wasn’t answering his phone. Damn it! I gave all of my friends a call on their cells, hoping to get them. On Meg’s I left a message tell her what was happening and if she needed anything to call Sano’s cell. Mia picked up her phone and I filled her in, she was out of town this week for her interning. She and Hiko were together so I didn’t need to call him. Ken was next on my list. I tried all his numbers leaving his office for last, I never really knew when he would be working. He told me that he would head out to my dad’s place and look around the neighborhood. He would have come to pick me up, but I told him that as soon as I got a hold of Sano, he and I would be out there looking for her as well.

Almost as soon as I hung up with Kenshin, Sano returned my call. “Hey, I got your message, and I think I have some info that might help you find her. Meet me at your Dad’s at 11 tonight. That gives you and hour and a half to get there as I am out of town. Yahiko is with some friends of his from School.”

“Alright, 11 pm, then. Sano, I am scared. She is so special tome, I don’t want anything to happen to her, she doesn’t deserve that after what Yumi and Shishio did to her.”

“I know, Kay, she is my little sweet. I don’t want anything to happen to that child either, she is too sweet for that, and we wont let anything bad happen to her.” He gave me hope that we could find her unharmed.

I put in one more call, this one to Aoshi, “I am sorry for what I had said and done last week, it was wrong of me. I trust you more then I could ever tell you. Sano and I are going to meet at my Dad’s house and look for Mae, she has gone missing. Just to let you know. And once more, I am more sorry for what I have done then you could ever know.” I hung up then. There wasn’t anything more for me to say that my pride would let me.

I got a cab and started the long ride to my Father’s house…

~!@#$%^&*()_++_)(*&^%$#@!~

Author\'s yada Yada: i know this isnt nice for her, or even fair, but i torture the charas i like, it is just the way i work. now for my reviewer...

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