True Feelings

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Warning: Lemon in this scene

I hope this makes up to those of you who waited patiently for me to update. ^_^ Enjoy!

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~*~*~ [ In the last chapter ] ~*~*~

He put Tsuzuki’s shuddering form on the bed and climbed on top of him. The doctor straddled the younger mans hips and sat up unbuttoning his shirt. Moon light shown through the blinds in Muraki’s room. The beams hit the doctor’s face as he sat up giving him an unearthly glow. When Tsuzuki was able to speak again he questioned the doctor.

“ What are you doing?”, he asked hoping it wasn’t what he thought.

“ You’re repaying me, remember?”, he said in a mocking voice.

“ I thought that is what I just did?”

“ Really? I was just giving you a bath to get you clean. Now you are going to repay me.”, he said; his mechanical started to glisten from the moon light. Muraki threw his shirt on the ground and started to undo his pants. Tsuzuki watched him as he undid his pants; he was worried for what was to come but he could do nothing to get away.

~*~*~ [ Now for part II ] ~*~*~


The doctor sat up and slid down his boxers along with his pants, revealing himself. Tsuzuki saw Muraki naked and looked the other way blushing. The older man was semi-erect from the actions he caused earlier.

Muraki looked down at Tsuzuki and put a hand on the side of his face, turning it so they could look eye to eye with each other. The doctor leaned down and kissed the shinigami roughly. Muraki tasted the blood on Tsuzuki’s lips and figured it must have been from earlier. He licked along the younger man’s lips, the man staying still.

Muraki sat up, smiling down at his shinigami, “ I have waited a very long time for this moment.”

Tsuzuki shuddered at what he was implying; he desperately wanted to get away from here. Muraki reached down for the guardian’s nipples, his hand shot up once again and grabbed the doctor’s wrist. Muraki was getting frustrated at the way Tsuzuki was acting. When he did something the shinigami grabbed his wrists, well this time Tsuzuki wouldn’t be able to stop him anymore.

The doctor reached over the side of the bed with his other hand and came up with a ribbon. “ This will be the last time you try to stop me.”, he said as he took Tsuzuki’s hands and wrapped them together with the ribbon. He took the ends of the ribbon and tied them around the middle of the head board. There was enough room on the ribbon to turn Tsuzuki over, if needed to be, without cutting the circulation off from his wrists.

Tsuzuki tried to pull his hands free which made the ribbon ever tighter on his wrists.

“ Since you don’t want me to caress you first I might as well start.”

Tsuzuki gulped, “ Start?” His eyes widened as he saw Muraki reach into the side table drawer and come up with a tube. He started to struggle against the ribbon trying desperately to release his hands.

Muraki sat amused as he watched the shinigami struggle. The struggle was making Tsuzuki rock against the doctor. The platinum blonde slowly undid the cap to the tube to add effect of what was to come. He squeezed the bottle putting the lube on his fingers and placed it back on the night stand.

He slicked up his fingers and spread Tsuzuki’s legs apart sitting between them.

“ Muraki, please don’t do this.”, Tsuzuki begged as his legs were being split apart. The doctor just smiled spreading his ass and stuck one finger in making Tsuzuki stop struggling. He clamped down hard on the intruding finger out of reflex.

“ Relax, Tsuzuki.”

“ Please stop”, tears forming in the corner of his eyes.

“ I can’t stop now when we are this far. So just relax.”, Muraki said as he started caress the shinigami’s stomach with his over hand. Tsuzuki shut his eyes letting the tears roll down and started to relax. Muraki pumped his finger slowly in and out while adding a second finger. Tsuzuki gasped as he felt another finger enter him.

Muraki brushed over Tsuzuki’s prostate causing the shinigami to arch his back off the bed.

“ Ahhh... Muraki.. Stop..”, Tsuzuki moaned he had never felt this way before and was scared. Tsuzuki became fully erect after one brush of his prostate; his penis had swelled and hurt painfully. Muraki was enjoying himself as he was bringing the shinigami pleasure.

The doctor didn’t want this to end too soon so he didn’t try and brush the shinigami’s prostate again. Muraki slipped his third digit in, stretching Tsuzuki and finger fucked him slowly until he thought the guardian was ready. The older man pulled out his fingers and grabbed the lube once again pouring a generous amount in his hand. He put the bottle back and rubbed his hand up and down his member.

“ Tsuzuki, this is a moment in life you will never forget and trust me, you won’t regret this either.”, Muraki whispered in his ear. He spread Tsuzuki’s ass open once again and guided his penis to the shinigami’s opening. The doctor moved his lips to the shinigami’s and kissed him as he rocked his hips forward sheathing himself in Tsuzuki.

The guardian arched his back up as the pain shot up his spine. His scream was muffled by Muraki’s mouth and he clamped down of Muraki’s member. The doctor hissed and stilled inside of Tsuzuki not wanting to hurt him any further.

“ Relax or it will hurt even more, so just relax.”

“ I... can’t...”, Tsuzuki panted, his face scrunched in pain.

“ Yes you can. Take deep breathes and focus on only me.”

Tsuzuki did as he was told, he took deep breathes and tried relaxing. After several minutes the shinigami got his breathing under control and started to relax. This was obviously the shinigami’s first time judging by how he was taking this.

For the first time in his life he felt fear from what he was doing. Muraki brushed Tsuzuki’s bangs out his eyes with quivering fingers. “ Do you feel better now?”

Tsuzuki had his eyes closed and nodded his head.

“ I’m going to continue then.”; he was scared. He feared Tsuzuki’s reactions and he feared the outcome of this. He was filled up to a breaking point with lust. Muraki very carefully and slowly pulled out of Tsuzuki enough that the head of his penis was still encased. Very gently he pushed back in; Tsuzuki was focusing on Muraki and the feeling he was getting.

“ I’m ok now... I can... handle it.”, Tsuzuki really wanted this but he was ashamed and embarrassed. Muraki started to rock against Tsuzuki a little harder in compliance. He picked up the pace setting an even rhythm; not too fast and not too slow.

Tsuzuki started to focus on the feeling alone making him break out in a sweat. Pain was replaced with pleasure; he wrapped his legs around Muraki’s waist showing that it felt good now. Tsuzuki grabbed the head board and pushed against it in time with Muraki’s thrusts. His cock twitched painfully as the doctor rocked into his body.

Tsuzuki started to moan as Muraki grabbed his cock and suckled the tip with his mouth. The doctor wanted to make the shinigami feel wanted, needed. There was so many things he could do with his guardian.

Muraki lifted his head from Tsuzuki’s cock and covered his mouth with his own. Tsuzuki always longed to be touched like this. He could never turn to Hisoka, he would just call him an idiot and Watari? He was Tsuzuki’s best friend, never could have been that way even in a million years. Then there was Tatsumi, the tightwad secretary. The man had been Tsuzuki’s partner once and not for very long. Tatsumi had feelings for Tsuzuki but not the romantic kind. If the purple eyed shinigami was going to turn to the secretary, he would duct his pay.

The only one that seemed to fill Tsuzuki’s need was Muraki. The shinigami’s cock was rubbing against the doctors stomach as he was still being fucked. The friction caused Tsuzuki great deals of pleasure putting him nearly to his climax. He wanted to hold onto Muraki, run his hands along him, anything but the ribbon was stopping him.

Muraki rocked into Tsuzuki harder trying to bring the younger man over. “Ahhhh... Muraki...Mmm..”, Tsuzuki started to moan reaching his peak. “ Muraki!”, the shinigami yelled as arched his back spilling his semen across the doctors chest.

Tsuzuki muscles tightened over Muraki’s shaft bringing him over as well with Tsuzuki’s name on his lips. Muraki collapsed on top of the younger man; both of them panting hard. When Muraki was able to move again he sat up still inside Tsuzuki. “ Are you ok, Tsuzuki?”, he wanted to know how Tsuzuki felt. He wasn’t going to let him leave the house until he admitted his true feelings.

Tsuzuki couldn’t find his voice, he just nodded with a blush across his face. He closed his eyes; he felt tired. Muraki untied the ribbon and put it on the night stand allowing Tsuzuki arms to rest from their position. The doctor slid out of the shinigami slowly not wanting to hurt him.

He placed a kiss on the younger man’s forehead and walked into the bathroom to clean himself off. He walked back into the bedroom and noticed Tsuzuki was sleeping. \' I wonder what changed his mind about me. Maybe he realizes we are meant to be with each other.\' Muraki got into bed with his shinigami wrapping his arms around the man’s waist and pulled him close. The doctor closed his eyes and surrendered to sleep.

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WOOT! My first lemon. ^_^ I hope you enjoyed it. I know that my writing will get better the more I write them for those of you (if there are any) who were disappointed. Please review for this chapter. It will help me understand things that I missed or for making the scene better.