To crack a nut

Title : To crack a nut ( Chapter 7 )
Disclaimer : I’m just playing with them for a bit. They do not belong to me and I do not make any money out of this or them. This is written for pure entertaining and enjoyment purposes.
Tezuka’s point of view.
Authors note : I’m sorry if my writing style has changed a little. It tends to happen to stories that go on hiatus for long periods of time. <3

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The night that I had run into Fuji at the impeccably excellent French restaurant, was the first time in my life that I had felt that I was somehow cheating on him. The worst part was that it was considered a sort of open cheating; for the whole world to see. Only I wish to live in the denial that it was just a mere fan or friend that had come to visit me from the States.

Maybe it wasn’t about Jake, but the fact that it gave me a kick out of life. It spiced my life up to a certain extend. No, I’m not that saying Syuusuke is boring. He is, the complete opposite of that, my sexy eccentric little minx but sometimes, I guess I just want some stability in my life. The fair haired man could have unpredictable mood swings and to make matters worst, he tended to act impulsively on those feelings only to regret them later. I just wanted to be with someone normal.

Wait, what am I saying? I’m making it sound as though Fuji isn’t normal.

I shook those thoughts away as I sat in the living room. It has been a week since that evening. Though I had returned home later that night after going out for a drink at a casual nearby pub with Jake, Syuu had obviously waited up for me only to quickly dash into the room that we shared as he heard me approach the apartment. The television set was still hot as I placed my palm on it, then smirked but at the same time, my heart hurt. It was heavy, almost depressed. Confused I was. Most definitely.

But that was a week ago. Right now Fuji and I were once again maintaining a civil but tensed atmosphere whenever we were around one another. For today and two days to come, I’m rather relieved that he’s on site shooting for the spread of one of the most circulated fashion magazine for their new and upcoming line. He’d be away for 3 days since it would be too much of a hassle for him to commute everyday. Besides, the company was going to be paying so who was he to reject their kindness to want to treat him to a 3 day stay at the penthouse suite? He was being treated even better than the models themselves. Sometimes these things made me laugh but when they had to book him only a mere 3 months in advance, there surely had to be several perks to make the tensai accept their proposal.

This also meant 3 days of going out to buy or eat take out since I’m not much of a chef by nature. Syuusuke always did the cooking and I wasn’t one to complain except when he began getting creative and made dishes that only suited his taste alone. When those times arise, I always find myself at Oishi’s place for dinner of which I would subly hint and gain an invite over. After all though no longer in school, Oishi still retained his mothering ways. I chuckled at the thought of all these. Yes, I really did miss high school when we would just come together, play tennis, hang out and then after that I would go home with a sweet smiling blue eyed boy. He never failed to make me feel content. So why is it so hard for us to go back to what we were before?!

I flopped down on the couch and ran my fingers through my hair. I just want this whole thing to blow over but unlike the other times when we came to a disagreement this one seemed to stick around a whole lot longer than I prefer. It seemed that no matter what I did or tried, it just wasn’t enough and only made the situation worst. Like last week when I didn’t tell Fuji about Jake’s invitation to him. I was sure that the smaller brown haired man wouldn’t be up to meeting Jake but I guess I was wrong. Though I can probably gage what that made me look like I was doing.

In the pit of my stomach I could feel bile arising up to my throat and that almost made me gag. I was disgusted with myself. I’m a disgrace to the Tezuka family. What more I keep hurting the one person that I love with all my heart for no apparent reason. I just don’t know what to do! I’m so desperate to settle things between us but I just don’t know how.

I felt something moving on my thigh and realized it was my phone on vibrating. It was probably still on silent mode since I just came back from the gym and hated to be disturbed when working out. Syuusuke had memorized my schedule by now and knew never to call when I was at the gym because I would never answer. I was going to go for a practice session on the court but with so many things filling my head, it would be impossible to play with on top form.

Everything was out of proportion. What more I was flying off next week for a game in the States again though I hadn’t said anything to Syuusuke. I wonder if he knows. He normally does keep track of my games but I would mention it to him nevertheless. Should I say something to him? But he’s busy with his newest project. I’m sure he’d be too caught up to come along with me this time too.

Just then I remembered my cell phone and flipped it open to read the message. It was from Syuusuke. How quaint. I thought we weren’t on speaking terms. Guess I was wrong again.

‘ Mitsu, what’re you doing now? I’m having a break now as they’re setting up the set for the next shoot.’ I frowned. Surely he would have better things to do than text me.

‘ I just got back from the gym so I’m just resting. Don’t you have to prepare too?’ I replied. Rereading it, I assured myself that it didn’t sound to distant and pressed send.

‘ Not really. I have an assistant for that remember, or have you forgotten, baka. Hey, want to come over tonight? It’d be just me in the big suite. I’d be lonely.’ The reply was playful and came almost instantly. I was surprised at Syuu’s openness to want me there.

‘ I don’t think I’d be able too. I’ve got a practice session early tomorrow morning. Besides, I’d just get in your way. I know how you always sort through your shots at the end of the day.’ I really did have a scheduled practice session, which I secretly plan to cancel and just sleep in.

‘ But not the whole night…’

‘ It’d still be troublesome.’

‘ Please Mitsu-chan.’ I knew I had lost since the beginning and it was only a matter of time before I gave it.

I finally got off lazing around on the couch and went to pack my things for tonight. I probably wouldn’t be returning home in the morning and would be heading straight to the Sports Centre for practice. So much for canceling my workout session.

I arrived promptly at 8.30 pm. outside Syuu’s room but when I rang the bell nobody was answering. I frowned.

Don’t tell me that guy is sleeping. He was the one who asked me to come at 8.30 pm. and even said not to be late. What is he planning?!

“ Fuji!” I banged on the door while calling his name. One of the maids picking one of the other rooms was peaking out of the room to see what I was shouting at. I guess I looked pretty suspicious with a gym bag slung over my shoulder then banging on the door calling out what seems to be my lover’s name. I’m surprised she didn’t call security.

“ Syuu, open up. I’m outside.” I resorted to calling the smaller man’s cell phone and was annoyed that he took longer than expected to answer it. What was he doing?

“ Ahhh, Mistu, it’s that time already?” I could faintly hear sounds of water running. Could he be in the shower?

“ Yes it is. Now let me in. You were the one who asked me to come and told me not to be late so now here I am.”

“ Ano, calm down Mitsu-chan. I’m coming.” Then he hung up.

Moments later I heard the sound of the locks being unlocked then the doors opened to reveal a very wet Syuusuke who was wrapped in a small towel around his waist. Water was dripping down his chest and his locks were dripping wet that water was falling onto the carpet. There was a whole wet trail leading from where he had emerged from and I figured if you followed the trail you would find the shower room.

“ Come in Mitsu!” He grabbed my wrist and pulled me in the promptly slammed the door closed.

“ Syuu, go finish your shower.”

In that instant I was pushed roughly against the closed door and before I could react, a sloppy wet kiss was plastered on my lips. A small tongue forcefully pushed its way past my lips and was exploring my heated velvety cavern. My sly little minx, was he horny? We haven’t had sex in a week and that’s pretty long for us. I was responding much too eagerly and gasped when I felt cold wet fingers feeling my chest and pushing my shirt up to reveal my washboard abs. In the midst of it all, my gym bag had tumbled to the floor with a loud thump which brought me to my senses midst the hot passionate kisses.

“ Syuu, stop. Stop!” I gripped the smaller man firmly by the shoulders.

He looked up at me questioningly, cocking his head to one side. I drank in the sight of the sexy minx before me, my best effort gone into restraining myself from jumping him.

“ What are you doing?” He scoffed at my question.

“ What does it look like I’m doing? I obviously called you over to have sex. Or is that not allowed anymore since you have, Jake.” I realized blue orbs had turned glassy and though he may put up a strong front, this was hurting him inside; a whole lot.

“ No, of course not. You’re the only one for me.” I knew how cheesy that sounded but still took his hands in mine and gave them a little squeeze. It was my way of reassuring him.

“ Don’t say things you don’t mean anymore! It’s just going to make things worst in the end. I’m just going to get hurt more if you continue all these lies when we both know it’s been over for sometime already.” Fuji raised his voice as he pulled away from me. He couldn’t even look at me. Was I that disgusting?

“ If it’s just sex you want, I don’t care since our bodies are compatible.”

“ How can you say that!” It was my turn to get angry and I could feel my blood boil. Has it always been physical with him? Or didn’t our feelings and emotions matter anymore. Here I thought we were going to settle our issues only to have everything go even worst. God, I’m just so sick of this.

“ Then what do you want from me! I give you everything you want, and yet that’s not enough. I don’t have anything else to give. I can’t.” He begins to falter and step away from me as though searching for a place to lean on.

“ I don’t want anything but your heart.” I reached out to caress his cheek and cradled his face.

“ You had it but you crushed it so badly, I don’t think it’ll ever be able to function again.” He closed his eyes and took a deep breath.

“ Fuji..”

“ Leave.” Such resolve was thrown into that single word.

“ Syuu, come on. Don’t be that way.”

“ Get out! Leave me alone to be miserable.” I was pushed backward by a single motion from the blond. His face was flushed. Anger, frustration, sadness was reflected in those beautiful blue eyes.

“ I love you.” I wanted to just wrap my arms around his and smooth out his hair, telling him it’s all okay but the next thing hurt me so badly.

“ I loved you.”

“ Syuu-chan..”

“ It’s over. Feel free to stay the night. You can have the other room. Just be gone by morning. I’m not that heartless to throw you out.” With that he stomped off into the master bedroom and slammed the dividing doors shut.

I ran after him but he had locked the door. I banged on the door demanding him to come back out but he didn’t respond. I crumbled into a mess of limbs on the floor as I leaned on the door. My knees were propped up as I wrapped my arms around them and continuously banged my head on the door. Silently I could hear soft sobs, as though muffled by a pillow. Recently these sounds have become so familiar it was impossible not to recognize them almost immediately.

I replayed the scene over and over in my head. The hurt look on his face as poisoned tipped arrows were launched from his mouth. I can’t believe the only thing separating us now was this thin flimsy little door. What stands between my love and I is this stupid piece of hand crafted wood. I wanted to hold him. I wanted to kiss him. I wanted him. I wanted his heart back.

I want to have the chance to piece back his heart piece by piece. I just want everything to go back to before. Before Jake, before the magazine offer, before the French restaurant incident. Everything.

I tried listening through the door again and this time picked up on some muffled groans. Have I really hurt him that much? My head was buried in my hands when I finally made a decision. One that I hoped would be the right one.

I rose to my feet and banged on the door again.

“ Syuu, come out.” No response.

“ Syuu, come out now.” Only silence greeted me.

“ Fuji, you come out right now or I’ll be coming in!”

I took several steps back from the door, positioning myself right at the middle. I aimed a few times, making sure the height was just right then with all my might I gave the two wooden doors a hard kick only to have it give way slightly. After a couple of hard kicks to the weakened part, the lock finally gave way and the two sides of the door got dislocated from its hinges.

I stood in the middle of the room rooted in place. The sight before me was unbelievable. My breathing began to speed up as I felt a heated bulge make a tent of my pants. My lips were slightly parted and before I knew it, I was panting.

Sitting erotically on the bed was the tensai, eyes closed in pleasure as he began fingering himself and stroking his hard rod. The small towel that he had around his hips earlier had been discarded to the floor. His sweat mixed together with the droplets of water from his earlier shower made his body glisten under the dimmed yellow light of the bedroom.

Through half lidded eyes I knew he saw me and knew I was watching him which made it all the more erotic. His small gasps and moans as he touched himself made it hard to look away.

“ Want to know what I’m thinking about?” I barely nodded but he went on.

“ I’m imagining you touching me all over, with your lust darkened hazel eyes molesting me over and over again. Which gives me the satisfaction that you’re becoming hard because of me. That I was able to ignite such passion in you before.” I could tell he was near completion.

Cautiously I closed the gap between us and crawled on the bed behind him. I slipped my t-shirt off over my head then snaked my arms around his trim waist from behind. I lifted his damp hair and placed light kisses from his ear down to his collarbone. He lifted his gracefully curved neck to allow me better access as a moan escaped those slightly parted lips.

“ Who says you’d have to imagine?” I whispered into his ear as I nibbled and licked it.

I turned his chin upwards and leaned in for a kiss which he accepted without complain allowing me access to stroke every curve of his mouth. His velvety tongue caressed mine in a half hearted duel for dominance but he submitted. Ever so slowly I pushed him down on the king sized bed and lay him on his back as I went to taunt and lick on one nipple as it became hard under my ministrations.

He lifts my chin up to look at him as slender fingers trace my face before removing my glasses that always seem to get in the way. He puts it on the nightstand before pulling me towards him one again. Butterfly kisses are left from his sleek neckline all the way to his treasure trail. He shudders under me as he waits in anticipation for what is to come. I kiss the insides of his thighs, licking and nipping ever so often but deliberately avoiding his rod and I can almost feel his annoyance as I tease him.

“ Mitsu, don’t..” His plea is simple but pity overcomes me and I know I’m about to give in. I can never win against him.

Ever so slowly I lick the tip, amused as it twitches in response. I hold it by the base and lick the side before taking him into my mouth. He entwines his fingers into my messy hair and pushes himself deeper down my throat as I try to accommodate him. I start a relaxed rhythm and I can feel the passion all the way to my groin. His moans and whimpers only fuel me on as I bring him to completion. It doesn’t take very long before I feel him stiffen under me. I ready myself as he tries to warn me before climaxing. I drink up every last drop as he screams some unintelligebles and somewhere among the mess of words I thought I heard my name.

He pulls me up and I capture his supple lips in a kiss. I can feel him becoming hard once more as he tastes himself on my tongue and we break apart panting for air. He looks at me with an unsaid plea in his eyes and he reaches over to the nightstand and hands me a tube of lubricant. I smile at his preparations. The little minx really did have everything planned out. I wonder if the show too was part of his plan. But hell, I wasn’t complaining.

I released him for a moment and allowed him to scoot up to where the pillows were. He laid there, perfectly naked, glowing and erect. Just the way I like it. Dark hazel eyes bore into Sapphire blue orbs before I recaptured his lips again. His arms snaked around my neck as he pulled me closer. Fuji’s arm left its place around my neck and wandered lower down my back only to stop at the small of my back before pulling himself towards me and grounded our erections. The friction made me moan into the kiss and took the opportunity to sneak his tongue in as he caressed my hot cavern. We broke apart both panting as he flashed me a coy smile.

I slid of him and rolled off the bed, making fast work of the last barrier that lay between us. He watched as I undressed, his eyes swept over my muscular physique and his body began sending signals. A wiry smile made it’s way to it’s features as he parted his legs in silent acceptance as I settled over him again. I looked around for the tube that was on the bed before and found it amongst the pillows. Propping the tube open, I poured a significant amount on my palm and went to coat myself slick. Tossing the tube aside, I propped his legs forward and slid in a single digit pass the tight ring of muscle and waited for him to relax. Another finger made its way in and I began stretching him in a scissorly fashion. I definitely didn’t want to end up hurting him, not ever again.

His pale blond hair stuck to sweat-dampened forehead as he bit his lip as another finger was pushed in. I found his sensitive nub and gave it a slight rub only to have his groan and twitch even more. After I knew his was ready I folded his knees into him and pushed the head pass the tight ring of muscle and waited for him to accommodate me before pushing in anymore. Once finally seated I gave him a nod to let him know I was going to start moving.

I started with a slow rhythm but then picked up the pace as Fuji relaxed. His insides calmed around me so tightly that I thought I was going to cum instantly. No matter how many times we have sex it always seems like we’re experiencing each other for the first time. The smaller man beneath me was like a drug; intoxicating and addictive. You could never get enough of him yet he was scary all at the same time as he was as dangerous at one too.

“ Mistu.. harder.. faster..” He managed between gasps.

I plummet harder into him and the sound of skin slapping against skin resounded throughout the bedroom. Syuusuke held onto me so tightly I was sure there were going to be marks in the morning. His fingernails unconsciously dug into the skin on my back. I could feel his insides sucking me even deeper inside, clamming around me in uneven spasm. We were both on the edge of climaxing and he had his eyes closed; lost in passion.

“ Come for me Syuu.. for me.” My voice was hoarse and my throat was tight. I felt as though I could hardly breathe, gasping for each breath.

“ Mistu..” I covered his lips with mine as we both moaned into the kiss.

I hit his prostate at that moment and he shook with such intensity he accidentally bumped my chin and caused me to bite my lip but I could hardly notice. I know that taste of blood fueled me on even more as we brought each other to completion. I continued to stroke his length and then I heard him scream my name and something that totally contradicted everything he said earlier as he came all over our torso’s. After a few more thrust I followed suit and came inside him.

The intensity of the love making left us both satisfied and drained. I lay atop him for a moment, both a tangle of limbs as we recovered from our orgasm. I kissed his forehead and cheek before pulling out and rolling off. The smaller man moved to accommodate me then placed his head atop my chest as he listened to my heartbeat. His finger traced lazy circles around my upper torso as he sighed contently. Our breathing began to even out and I placed my arm protectively around him as he pulled the comforter over us.

I was starring absent mindedly at the ceiling, just thinking about the recent happenings. After a while, his fingers lay still on my chest and his breathing indicated that he had indeed fallen asleep. I kissed his forehead and looked down lovingly at the sleeping tensai. It’s scary to think how I had almost lost him all because of stupid happening and misunderstandings.

Tomorrow I was going to set everything straight, that was for sure. I knew what I wanted now and it wasn’t anything other than Fuji. His actions and words tonight had given me hope again that there is a future for us both. Though he said such words, deep down inside I’m glad he still cares for me.

“ I love you too, Syuu.” My sexy little minx. With that last thought, sleep claims me and we fall asleep in each other’s arms.

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I could hear birds chirping outside as the rays of the sun invaded my slumber. My eyes fluttered open as I tried to recognize my unfamiliar surroundings. I blinked several times before the happenings of last night came back to me. I smiled and turned to face the sleeping tensai only to find his side of the bed vacant. I frowned, at up and stretched before searching for my glasses. After locating them on the nightstand, I threw the comforter off of me and searched for my sweatpants from last night.

I ventured outside into the hall after throwing my sweatpants on. I found the blond haired man sitting at the kitchen counter reading this morning’s newspaper and a cup of coffee on the counter. He doesn’t hear me yet and has his back towards me. The article must be very interesting to keep him occupied and his normally keen senses oblivious to my presence or either he’s playing dumb.

I come up behind him and bury my face in his damp hair, taking in the fresh smell of shampoo. I kiss his neck as he caressed my neck and pulls me down for a morning kiss. He places the newspaper down and turns around in the tall chair as we remained lip locked. He pulls away and smiles at me.

“ Good morning handsome.” I greet him as he caresses my cheek and looks at me lovingly. How I had missed that look. Did this mean everything was back to normal? I do hope so.

“ Coffee, tea or me?” Fuji chuckled at his own attempt at morning humor then got up to get me my usual cup of coffee.

I stifle a yawn then blind away the tears that had gathered in my eyes from yawning. I grab the newspaper that lay folded on the counter as Fuji served me my hot drink. I take it nodding my thanks then picking up the cup, blowing slightly before taking a sip. The caffeine rushes through my body and in that instant I feel much better. I take a deep breath and continue flipping through the pages of gossip and unimportant news.

“ Mistu, would you join me for breakfast?” Fuji was looking into the mini bar, probably for something to munch on.

“ Breakfast? No I can’t. I said I’d meet my trainer first thing this morning. I’ve got lots to do before next week.” I took another sip of my coffee.

“ Shame. But why next week?”

“ I’ve been meaning to tell you. I’ve got a match next week in the States.” I placed the newspaper down and looked at him, leaving on the counter while sucking on something.

“ Sokka..” His bad habit of cocking his head to one side didn’t show any signs of stopping as he did it once again.

“ Will you be coming?”

“ Ano.. Will Jake-san be there?” He bit his lip, his eyes downcast for a moment before meeting mine.

“ Fuji, you’re the only one. Jake’s nothing. He doesn’t even matter.” I went over to him and pulled him into my arms. I rested my chin on his head. I loved the way he smelled fresh and comforting.

“ I know, but it feels like he’s stealing you away from me. Like the French restaurant last week. You never take me there but yet you went there with him..” He had his hands on my chest and I was almost afraid he was going to push me away but he just curled his hands up and rested them there.

“ That’s because I thought it’d be rude to reject him. Besides he is a guest.” I made the porcelain skinned man look up at me to let him know it was the truth and that there was no hidden meaning behind it.

“ But I’m your lover.” He sounded like a small kid complaining that his mother didn’t love him enough but was giving his younger brother more attention.

“ I know and I’m sorry. We’ll go there next time, okay.”

“ Okay..” He really did sound like a 5 year old right now. Cute.

“ Love you, baby.” I was half smiling and half grinning as I listened to myself.

Fuji chuckled at my attempt at endearments but I knew he liked it though he never said anything. The tensai liked feeling special and I would do whatever it takes to make him happy. I pull him on my lap in a loose embrace and kiss him softly. We enjoy just staying close and I realized we haven’t done this in ages. Maybe all we need is a short break every once in a while. Slow down and catch up; reconnect.

My mobile began buzzing from my gym bag on the floor where it fell last night but I just allowed it to ring. I didn’t want to leave Fuji but then the tensai got off me and frowned, arms folded across his chest.

“ Aren’t you going to answer it?” It wasn’t really a question but more an instruction. Being the good lover that I am, I made a beeline for the bag and managed to get to the phone before it stopped ringing.

“ Hello?” I leaned against the door, annoyed that someone had called so early in the morning.

“ Jake?!” My eyes were wide in surprise and then I turned to look at Fuji who had his back to me.

Don’t tell me the whole emotional roller coaster starts again..


Tbc…


There you have it. An update after so very long. I’m sorry about the mess and mix up of chapter 7. I should’ve checked it was uploaded properly but I didn’t. SORRY. My bad! I’m a horrid person leaving it at that but hopefully things will start to look up for the two.. You’ll never know what’ll happen. I have no idea how the story ended up here. I had a totally different plan at first. But then as you know, stories just tend to take on a life of their own, especially if it involves two very sexy and hot men. Please read and review!! You know it makes me happy =D Have a good week. And again, gomen!