The Scars Remind Us

Yeah, so I liked this story so much I decided to toss the ending and keep it going.I thought up some new storylines, solet me know what you think. If I get good reviews I\'ll keep writing, and I\'ll always keep your suggestions in mind.

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Everything was black. Like floating on solid ground... Nothingness consumed every corner.

\"Hello again.\" Ken\'s head snapped forward, his eyes wide. Alice batted her full lashes, smiling at him curiously. \"I didn\'t expect to see you again so soon.\"

Ken blinked, nervously. \"I thought you were gone.\"

\"I\'m not.\" Alice giggled. \"And you sleep a lot, Ken-niichan. How does it feel, wrapped in the arms of another? Is it warm? Is it everything I dreamed it would be?\"

\"You\'re just a piece of my imagination. You don\'t have dreams. Get out of here! I don\'t need you driving me insane, anymore!\"

\"Your imagination, Ken-niichan? It\'s a twisted place, isn\'t it? But I\'m not part of your imagination... maybe, you\'re a part of mine.\"

Ken grimaced, staring at her huge blue eyes. \"Get out of me, now.\"

\"Get out of you? I\'m not in you, Ken-niichan... but I could be, if I wanted.\" She smiled, devilishly. \"I miss the games we played.\"

\"What do you mean?\"

\"I watch the things you do, Ken-niichan, and I love every second of it. You make the mannequin cry red tears. We\'re a lot alike. You destroy your friends, your enemies... yourself... just like the time I killed mommy. And at the same time, I hate you, and we both know you should just die...\"

\"Get out of my head, Alice!\"

\"Very well.\" The little girl spun around, her golden curls bouncing behind her. \"But next time we play the love game... I may have to kill you Ken-niichan.\"

Ken\'s eyes snapped open, suddenly, cutting through the darkness of the living room with catlike sharpness. He released a heavy sigh and sank back down into the couch, curling into the strong arms around him and nuzzling his face into Ran\'s shirt. Ran was still there. Alice couldn\'t hurt him as long as Ran was there.

He didn\'t know why, but for some reason it seemed to make perfect sense.

He sat up gently, setting Ran\'s arm down on the couch. Ran looked so peaceful as he slept, not cold or serious, just soft and angelic. A smile formed at the corner of his lips. Just then, Ran started to shift a little.

\"Ken?\"

Ken reached out a hand and touched Ran\'s shoulder, gently, as if to say \'I\'m right here, don\'t worry.\' The taller boy sat up sluggishly and turned his head toward his love. Ken returned the gaze, hesitantly. Ran looked kind of mad when he was still partially asleep.

\"I had a bad dream, Ran. Have you ever had a dream that seemed like you were having a conversation with the same person, over and over again... a recurring one, only the places are always different and this person knows everything about your life and the things you think and feel?\"

Ran glanced about, sleepily. \"No.\"

\"It\'s probably nothing, it\'s just weird.\" Ken sighed and leaned into the redhead\'s shoulder. Ran hesitantly put an arm around the brunette. \"I want to go back to sleep.\"

\"We can sleep in my room.\" Ran squeezed Ken gently.

Ken blushed a little. \"I don\'t want to impose, Ran, besides, I have a room too.\"

\"You haven\'t slept in that room since... the incident.\" Ran was not surprised at the frightened eyes Ken then flashed him. \"I didn\'t think you\'d want to... besides, I thought it would be okay...\" Not quite sure what to say, Ken simply nodded, glancing around at the floor. \"You don\'t have to, Ken, I was just offering.\"

\"I\'m just a little shaken, I\'d be okay with that... but do you have a longsleeved pajama shirt I can wear? I don\'t have any.\"

Ran hesitated for a second, but decided it was better not to ask. \"Sure.\"

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Now that he thought about it, he wondered why he was acting so shy around the older boy. They had confessed their feelings for one another, and it felt right, but he was still embarassed to get too close. He finished buttoning the shirt Ran had given him and turned toward the bed. He felt awkward not saying anything. He was one of those people who always had to break the silence, but now that he couldn\'t he was starting to get increasingly nervous.

Ran was looking straight at him, sitting shirtless in the moonlight so that his skin resembled perfectly sculpted marble. Ken felt himself blush a little.

\"Something wrong, Ken?\"

Ken was taken aback. \"Uh, no not really... but, uh, Ran, are you like my... uh...\"

\"You\'re still afraid of me, aren\'t you? We don\'t have to be afraid anymore. Not of ourselves, not of each other.\" He pulled the nervous boy into a soft hug.

Ken managed to loosen up a bit and accept the embrace. Ran was so very warm. He hadn\'t felt human warmth this way in a long time. Not this real warmth... and he suspected that it had been even longer for Ran. He seemed to need this, to devour it and scream for more. \"I... I love you... is that okay, Ran?\"

Ran squeezed harder. \"It\'s okay, Ken.\"

Ran pulled the younger boy into a soft kiss. Ken flinched at first, but gave in easily. After all, this is what he\'d wanted all along. After a moment, Ran repositioned his arms and pushed his tongue between Ken\'s lips. He wanted to explore every inch of the boy, and Ken only wanted the same as they entwined into one another, pulling and tugging at each other\'s hair and clothes.

It was so hot, as though the fuse had been lit and it was ony a matter of time before he would explode on the inside. But he had no idea how long he could hold out. Ran\'s hands wandered down his body, tingling so much it nearly hurt. He thrust toward the boy who now lay on top of him, completely unaware as to how hard the entire situation had made him.

Ran\'s right hand came down slowly and brushed the tip of Ken\'s erection, causing him to moan and buck softly. He could barely stand the way the boy was moving into him. It had been so long since he had felt stimulation like this, the warm touch of fingers through his crimson locks, the slick sweaty touch of skin on skin. He discarded his pants on the floor, and helped Ken do the same.

Ran sat up suddenly, much to the torment of Ken\'s aching need. Ken looked up, pleadingly. \"It\'s okay, I just want to do something, if it\'s okay with you...\"

Ken\'s eyes asked simply, \'what?\'

The redhead pulled open the top drawer of his nightstand and pulled out a plastic bottle. On closer inspection, Ken realized it was some sort of lubricant. \"You just had that laying around, Ran? And I thought Yohji was supposed to be the playboy.\"

Ran nearly smirked at the comment. \"Who do you think I stole it from? I haven\'t had sex in years, I just... had a feeling, I guess... if it\'s all right with you.\"

Ken nodded. Try everything once, right?

Ran even muttering the word \'sex\' had Ken\'s cheeks flaring. He watched intently as Ran coated a finger with the lubricant. Carefully Ran spread Ken\'s legs and began to insert the first finger.

Oh, god he was so scared. Was it supposed to hurt like that? Ken clenched his teeth, hoping the pain would pass. He\'d been told that the first time for stuff like this could hurt like hell... but... it wasn\'t his first time, was it? He felt his eyes glass over a little, but he tried to keep a straight face. Ran was trying so hard to be gentle. Take hadn\'t been gentle at all. Ran looked up, looking for the go ahead to put in the second digit.

Ken nodded, but Ran had stopped and began to pull out. Ken had gone limp, and Ran was starting to lose it, too, seeing the tears run down the side of his love\'s face. He rolled off of the brunette and simply slid an arm around his neck. \"It\'s okay, Ken, we can go slow if you aren\'t ready.\"

Ken felt bad, like he was hurting the beautiful redhead by crying. He hadn\'t meant to cry. He knew why it hurt so much, and it wasn\'t Ran\'s fault at all.

Ran rolled over and grabbed a tissue from his nightstand to wipe off the lube that still covered his fingers. He stopped mid reach as he looked down to his fingers and saw blood. It couldn\'t... just couldn\'t be that soon after... then he remembered. That man in the prison, he\'d raped Ken, meaning...he turned back over to the brunette, sadly.

\"Oh, Ken, why didn\'t you say it was so soon? When did he do it?\" Ran wiped off the finger, disgusted by the fact that Ken was still in such pain.

He paused, staring straight up at the ceiling. \"Earlier today, before you rescued me, in the shower.\"

Instead of replying, Ran turned over and pulled the younger assassin into his arms. The boy hadn\'t said anything about it since the prison. Not a word. He had been so happy to have him back that he had forgotten all about it.

\"It\'s okay, I can wait as long as it takes for you, Ken.\"

Ken felt almost protected by the older boy\'s embrace. \"I\'m so sorry.\"

\"Don\'t. It\'s not your fault. Besides, you can still make love to me.\"

Ken blushed and turned away. \"That\'s not fair, I couldn\'t do that to you.\"

\"Wait then?\"

\"I\'m so sorry.\"

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Omi poured two extra cups of coffee.

He\'d peeked into Ran\'s room minutes ago, and he had to admit, the two of them looked absolutely perfect together. He was a little jealous, but it was okay. He sighed and sat down at the table. He\'d seen them the night before as well, curled up on the couch. He just wondered what those suitcases were all about.

Sure enough, Ken and Ran came into the kitchen looking rather ruffled, looking as though they\'d had quite a wild night. Omi didn\'t even want to think about it. It wasn\'t that the thought was disturbing or anything, but... well, he\'d admitted to being jealous.

\"Hey, Kenken, Ran-kun.\"

Ran stopped in mid stride. Shit. They\'d missed the plane to Germany last night when they\'d accidentally crashed on the couch. He scrambled to think up some sort of explaination.

\"Omi, I-\"

\"Don\'t worry about it. It\'s all taken care of, they won\'t come looking for Ken anymore. I\'ll tell you all about it, later.\" A big super-Omi grin passed over the young boy\'s face. \"But we\'ll have to wait to celebrate, Yohji won\'t be home for a couple of days. He has to deal with the media and all of that. He\'ll be fine, I have faith in him.\"

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