Remember my Love

Remember my Love
Chapter 9

Whoever it was that said. "Tis better to have loved and lost then never to have loved at all." Can kiss my ass. I bet he never had to go through this kind of heartache.

I love him. There I said it. I priest Genjo Sanzo love Sha Gojyo with all my heart and soul. Now shut the fuck up and leave me alone.
Sanzo's mind was whirling as these small thoughts slammed around in his mind. He had said it and accepted in his heart and mind but there was no way in hell he would say those words out loud.

Especially now. He sighed and watched as Gojyo tossed fitfully on the bed. How he wished it was back to normal, he missed the morning cuddles. Oh how he wanted his Gojyo back. And that annoyed him to no end. Missing cuddles? Love someone heart and soul? This was not normal for him. He just did not do lovey dovey stuff that was Gojyo's department. "That pervert corrupted me." he mused.

Standing to leave he glanced at the bed once more and sighed. Time to have it out with Hakkai.

Hakkai was at his usual station in the kitchen. He saw Sanzo enter and told himself it was time they cleared the air.

"We need to talk." They said at the same time.

"Please you go first Sanzo." Hakkai said politely.

"Thanks." Sanzo nodded. "What the hell is your problem? You said you weren't going to be jealous of our relationship."

"I know. To be honest Sanzo I'm not sure what's going on myself but I have to admit that I feel a bit of anger and yes jealousy when the two of you are together."

"I won't fight you Hakkai. But please don't get in my way."

"I'll try believe me I don't wish to anger you." Hakkai hung his head.

"You can't possibly hate me more than I do myself about what happened. There was no way to know he'd throw himself in there to save the girl." Sanzo was nervously clicking his lighter. "I tried to stop it I really did."

"I know that Sanzo. And I have no real rationale as to why I feel like I do."

"It should have been me."

"Yes it should have." Hakkai said dryly. "God that's awful. But it was your mission, your danger. We were just along to help you succeed. Not sacrifice ourselves." He twisted his fingers. "Oh that's not right either. I know you would have willing died at any point but…"

"Hakkai it wasn't my idea."

Hakkai made a sound of frustration that sounded surprisingly like a growl. "I just feel the need too…" his balled up fist swung out and connected with Sanzo chin.

"OUCH! GOD DAMN IT HAKKAI THAT FUCKING HURT." Sanzo screamed. "I hope it made you feel better."

"Actually." Hakkai chuckled. "It did make me feel better." He rubbed his knuckles. "I dislike random acts of violence but I believe that relieved my ire."

"Good." Sanzo's fist caught Hakkai on the same spot. "Now we're even."

They stood together over the sink pressing cold wash cloths to the sore areas of their faces. "Good thing no one saw that." Hakkai chuckled.

"Yeah that was pretty much the height of stupidity wasn't it?"

"Rather childish I think."

"Do you ever stop being the nurturing mother of this crew?"

"I doubt I'll ever find out. It's just the way I am Sanzo."

Gojyo and Goku were talking quietly to themselves in the next room. Gojyo had heard some of the conversation and Goku arrived in time to see the aborted fist fight.

"Hey Gojyo what the hell?" he said after a large hand slapped over his face to quiet the boy.

"Shhhh…..mommy and daddy are fighting." He grinned.

"What?"

"Never mind ape."

"Hey you almost sound like yourself again."

"Really? Do you think anyone has noticed?"

"Nah." Gold eyes focused on the red ones next to him. "You are back to normal aren't you?"

"No." Gojyo moved away. "Why would you say that?"

"You just called me ape."

"So?"

"So? Since you got back you've only called me kid or Goku."

"Oh! Oops my bad."

"Gojyo?"

"Okay I remember some now just shut up."

Hakkai entered the room. "Well I see we're all here now how about breakfast?"

"Great I'm starvin'" Goku called out.

"I'll pass Hakkai I'm going out." Sanzo walked past the table.

"You should eat something first Sanzo." Hakkai chided the blond priest.

Sanzo glared but sat down and poured a cup of coffee.

"Well, well I see your happy little group is back together Kouryuu."
It was a good thing that the four of them could not see the face of the true enemy. For at the moment he looked very much like a Sanzo priest of the past. "I did manage to save him for you, you know. I didn't have too and it surely wasn't easy." He turned to the fuzzy animal in his hand. "I really did want you to suffer though." He smiled evilly. "I did have to mess things up in his mind just to make it more interesting. Isn't that right Mr. Bunny-kins"

The raven haired man quickly scribbled a note and called a young boy to him. "Give this note to the man with the red hair will you?" the boy nodded. "That's a good boy." He placed some coins in the boy's other hand. He entered a small bar and waited. Soon the young man with the red hair arrived.