Relax and Hang On

“Relax and Hang On”
A fanfic of Saiyuki


I don’t own Saiyuki, I don’t claim to own Saiyuki nor do I pretend to own Saiyuki. I do however pretend to ….damn it Hakkai out of my head!

Author: Cupnjava e-mail : saiyukifanfic@yahoo.com

Rated : M for mature (18 or 21 and up depending on your location).

Contains: Humor, Foul Language, Adult Situations, M/M Sexually Explicit Activities, Anal alert. If you have an issue with M/M activities including anal sex stop thine eyes now.

Spoilers: None Known

Note: Thoughts are in *’s…*thoughts*.

Completion date: 5/01/04

Summary: This is a stand alone -- one shot. Gojyo and Hakkai paring. PWVLP -- Porn With (very little) Plot. This little story popped in my head (oddly enough in the shower --giggle) and won’t fit with “Of Her Nature.” So I figured a short break would do the creative ummm juices *a hem* good. This is my first foray into Yaoi. I hope it doesn’t disappoint.


*Oh, wow! It is so nice to finally be in a place with a little tech.* They had been traveling for how long now? Dealing with wells, fire cooking and outhouses. They finally found a decent inn that had some real civilization in it. He was going to take advantage of that civilization, starting with a hot shower.

He went into his room and dropped his things. He dug through his belongings and pulled out a towel and his toiletries. Deciding that everything else can wait until he is clean, he opened the door to his private bath and smiled.

He draped the towel over the towel rack and turned on the water. The shhhhh of the indoor plumbing was music to his ears. Soap in one hand, shampoo in the other he stepped into the shower and pulled the curtain. He stood there for a bit feeling the water run all over his body, the heat relaxing away road stress. He closed his eyes and tilted his head forward. With his head thoroughly soaked he grabbed the shampoo and began to wash his hair. Soap ran down his face and he didn’t care. He smiled and could taste the shampoo on his lips. *Heaven.*

He heard the his room door open and close. *Probably just checking on me.* Then, he heard the bathroom door open and close. He opened his eyes and had to immediately close them, that shampoo stung. He tried to get the shampoo out of his eyes. “Goku, I’m taking a shower. Can you give me a little peace?”

He heard the shower curtain get quickly pulled back and almost immediately he was shoved against the cold tile. He barely got his face to the side, narrowly avoiding a painful nose hit. The shove was more surprising than painful, but it was still uncomfortable.

He felt a hand on the back of his neck and could tell someone was leaning into him. “Not Goku,” the voice softly but firmly whispered.

He heard that voice and he knew immediately who was sharing a shower with him --- *Hakkai*. “I should have never introduced you to kink.” Gojyo softly chuckled. “I’ve got shampoo in my eyes, do you mind?”

“I suggest you close that mouth before I put something in it.” Hakkai slid his hand around Gojyo’s waist up up his stomach. His fingers traced the ridges Gojyo’s toned muscles. The water was now cascading down on him. The warmth of the water seemed to invigorhim.him. Hakkai continued the upward motion of his hand going up Gojyo’s broad chest and onto his throat.

Gojyo took in a deep breath, seemingly charged by his friend’s touch. “Ya know man, we don’t always have to play these games.”

“I warned you.” Hakkai traced his hand over Gojyo’s chin and firmly shoved two fingers in his mouth. Gojyo’s lip was caught between Hakkai’s fingers and his teeth. He traced Hakkai’s fingers with his tongue. Hakkai had learned how to apply just the right amount of pressure. Enough to keep it kink, but not so much as to make it painful. Gojyo closed his teeth around the long slender fingers and moaned.

Hakkai slid his free hand around the other side of Gojyo’s waist. His fingers cupped the other man balls. His index finger and thumb formed a ring around the base of the soft, but hardening cock. “I’ve decided I want you, you can play nice. “ Hakkai gave Gojyo am bum but not painful squeeze. “or fight.” He used his hand as leverage and pulled Gojyo into him. The two men were so similar in height; all the right parts matched up in all the right places. “I don’t really care. I always get what I want.”
Hakkai began to slowly rock his hips.

Gojyo took in a jagged breath through his teeth. *What have I unleashed?* His stomach turned in on itself and he parted his teeth as he let out a soft moan. Hakkai slowly removed his fingers from Gojyo’s mouth. Tugging on his bottom lip with a well manicured nail.

Hakkai quickly snatched his arms from around the man and turned, “Unless you really don’t want to play.”

Gojyo whipped around and grabbed Hakkai’s wrist. “Oh, no you don’t.” He pulled Hakkai into him and whispered, “You know better than to do that to me.”

Gojyo released Hakkai’s wrist and wrapped one arm around his waist and one arm over his shoulders. Hakkai mirrored his movements. Their heads tilted and their lips melted into each other. No matter how many times they shared a kiss, the reaction was always as powerful as the first time.

Hakkai’s knees went weak. Gojyo’s head swooned. Their stomachs quivered next to each other. Hakkai felt dizzy and Gojyo’s knees threatened to buckle. They took in deep breaths, capturing each others scent. Their bodies pressed into each other.

The room door opened and Hakkai froze. His eyes flew open and he trembled ever so slightly. He held his breath.

Gojyo pulled himself from the man’s lips and slowly shook his head. He offered a half smile.

Gojyo turned his head toward the door, “I’m in the bathroom.”

“Have you seen Hakkai?” That was Sanzo’s solid voice coming tgh tgh the bathroom door.

Hakkai bit his lips together and squeezed his eyes closed. He debated grabbing his clothes that were so obvious on the bathroom floor.

Gojyo did his best to stifle a chuckle, “Not since we checked in.” He put a hand over his mouth. “Why?” He pulled his fingers away just long enough to get the word out.

Hakkai wanted to smack him a good one. Why did he have to risk that Sanzo would come in and discover their little secret? Hakkai snuck a clandestine breath.

Gojyo saw Hakkai’s body curling around itself trying to hide in a place that offered no cover.

“I want to know if we need supplies.”

Gojyo shrugged at Hakkai. Hakkai slowly turned his head and quickly nodded.

“Yeah, I think he said something about that.” Gojyo yelled over the running water and through the door. He took advantage of this break to get the rest of the shampoo out of his eyes.

He didn’t really care if the other’s knew. No doubt they suspected something was going on. In a way, the outing would be nice. He was no stranger to male love. Gojyo was the first and only man Hakkai had been with. Hakkai was the best man Gojyo had ever been with.

“If you see him before I do, let him know I’m looking for him.”

“Sure will.” Gojyo looked at Hakkai and silently mouthed ‘Sanzo’s looking for you.’

Red faced and eyes trembling under a laugh that was threatening to come out, Hakkai silently mouthed, ‘Thanks’. He pushed both his hands to his face and tried so desperately to block his snickering.

They heard the outer door open and close.

Hakkai slapped his hands against the tile and let out a deep breath of relief. “Oh my god, that was so close. “ He softly laughed. His arms supported his body weight.

Gojyo smirked and shook his head. Noting that the mood was officially killed, he looked at Hakkai, “Can you hand me the soap?”

Hakkai still catching his breath looked down at the bar of soap two inches from his finger tips, “Oh sure.” He picked up the soap and lifted his hand to Gojyo, “Can you hand me the shampoo?”

Two men bathed and showered, occasionally brushing against each other. The sexual tension slowly rose.

Gojyo stepped out of the shower and grabbed his towel. He noticed Hakkai’s clothes in a lump in the middle of the floor and the additional towel hanging on the rack.

Hakkai turned off the water and opened the curtain. Through his water soaked eyelashes, he saw Gojyo’s profile as he bent over to dry his legs. The water refracted the light in such a way that it made Gojyo shine and gleam.

Hakkai took in a soft breath and bit his bottom lip.

Gojyo bunched the towel over his shoulder’s and shook out his hair. The red locks danced around his head and fell into their exact and perfect places. He looked over at Hakkai and winked. He opened the bathroom door and stepped through the door frame.

Hakkai dried himself off and ruffled the towel around his hair to keep it from dripping. He looked over his shoulder to make sure Gojyo wasn’t looking and shook his head. Water flew from the ends of his dark brown hair. He closed his right eye and looked in the mirror. He sighed and fingered his hair into place. Hakkai wrapped the towel around his waist and walked in to the bedroo
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He saw Gojyo sitting on the bed. He had his towel under him and his back was against the headboard. His far leg was bent and he had his elbow resting against it. His hand delicately held his cigarette. His other leg was stretched out and the corresponding arm was resting on the mattress next to it. He took a drag off his cigarette and let it out. He winked at Hakkai.

The smoke swirled he she sunlight that was coming from the fully open window.

Hakkai’s mouth dropped open and his body curled trying to hide in the openness. “Gojyo!”

Gojyo looked at the window and felt the breeze come in. “What? We’re on the second floor. Afraid Sanzo might grow wings and fly up here?” Gojyo smirked revealing his upper teeth.

Hakkai relaxed, “You got a point.”

Hakuryuu noticed the open window and perched in the sill. Hakkai looked at him. He didn’t want to separate the little guy from simple pleasures, but --someone-- might see.

Gojyo took a deep breath, “Relax man, let it go already.”

Hakkai looked at the happiness displayed in Hakuryuu’s body language and decided he’d take the small chance. It could be explained away if it was ever brought up, he’d think of something.

Hakkai sat on the corner of the bed, he rested one bent leg on the bed and the other was on the floor. He looked at Gojyo.

Gojyo sucked his teeth and snuffed out his cigarette. He sat the clear glass ashtray on the nightstand and looked at Hakkai. He left out a soft short chuckle as he bent down and stretched an arm to Hakkai. “C’mere.” He gently tugged at Hakkai’s knee.

Hakkai shifted his position and crawled up the bed. Gojyo spread his arms and legs to open a place for Hakkai to sit. Hakkai sat down and leaned his back against Gojyo’s broad chest.

Gojyo softly and gently closed his arms around Hakkai. Hakkai tilted his head back and rested against Gojyo’s shoulder. Hakkai adjusted the towel around him and relaxed his body into Gojyo.

Gojyo mindlessly ran his fingers over Hakkai’s chest. He tilted his head and gently kissed Hakkai’s cheek. “Why are you so concerned about Sanzo finding out? Do you two have a thing I need to know about?”

He felt Hakkai’s shoulders and back tighten, “No, not at all.” Hakkai sat up and turned; he looked straight into those sultry red eyes.

Gojyo saw the concern in Hakkai’s eyes, “Sorry man, misplaced humor. I wasn’t trying to….” Gojyo found words to be pitifully inadequate. He brushed a hand against Hakkai’s face and tilted his own head so that their foreheads would touch. Green and red locked in a trance, just the merest whisper apart. One simultaneous blink and the lips followed suit.

Gojyo ran his hand up the back of Hakkai’s nearly dry silky hair. He curled his large hands around the back of Hakkai’s head. Hakkai ran his hand up Gojyo’s chest, curled it around his neck and interlaced his fingers in soft crimson strands. As the passion of the kiss increased Hakkai grabbed a fistful of hair and tongues danced for dominance.

The embrace ended and Hakkai felt as if his entire body was tingling. He turned and sat on his shins between Gojyo’s legs. The sun was setting and the violet, scarlet and golden hues erotically tweaked the features of the focus of his desire. “You’re stunning in the sunset.” He whispered.

Gojyo looked into the green eyes that gazed upon him. The light from the setting sun seemed to bring out an ultra-violet tint to his eyes, the same inexplicable change the deep green of an old growth forest under goes at sunset. A beauty that can never be explained, it must be witnessed. He brought a hand to Hakkai’s face and cradled the face that owned those amazing and mesmerizing eyes. He smiled and whispered, “Only at sunset?”

Hakkai slowly blinked his eyes, “Well…..”. He smiled.

Gojyo looked at him, “You are particularly stunning at sunset.” Gojyo’s hand slid off Hakkai’s face and traced the soft line of his neck. His fingers seemed to glide across Hakkai’s shoulder and onto his back where they abruptly met terry cloth. Gojyo sighed and curled his fingers. He firmly ran five rounded fingernails up Hakkai’s back.

Hakkai arched his back, raised up on his knees and took in a jagged breath. Gojyo tugged at the towel with his free hand. The towel rested on Hakkai’s ass, but the front fell open.

Gojyo seized the idyllic opportunity and slid down the bed under him. Hakkai’s knees pressed into the mattress between Gojyo’s. He quickly snatched the towel off Hakkai. By the time Hakkai came down off his euphoric breath he’d be totally exposed over his lover. Hakkai tilted his head down as he exhaled and looked down at the face lying on the bed under him.

Gojyo smiled softly, “Wasn’t there something you wanted earlier?”

Hakkai grinned and closed his eyes. He took in a small breath, when his green eyes showed themselves to the world they were brimming over with wanton desire. “Yes,” he purred, as he released his elbows and crashed down on Gojyo

Gojyo let out a lustful jet of air and curled his arms around Hakkai’s back.

Hakkai nipped and licked at Gojyo’s earlobe and neck. He slid his arms between the mattress and Gojyo’s back. Hedleddled Gojyo’s shoulders in his arms. He traced his tongue along the his collar bone adding the occasional scrape of teeth.

Gojyo curled his fingers under and ten fingernails ran up Hakkai’s back.

Hakkai’s stomach clenched. His hips and very hard member smashed against Gojyo. Each could feel the other’s arousal. Hakkai’s nails dug into Gojyo’s shoulders. Gojyo could feel Hakkai’s hot breath on his chest. Hakkai drew some of Gojyo’s skin in his mouth and teethed it. A slight imprint could be seen following Hakkai’s love bite.

Gojyo rocked his hips into Hakkai’s as he nipped and licked Hakkai’s neck.

Hakkai whipped a hand out from under Gojyo and felt for the toiletry bag. He fumbled under the passion and finally brought the tube up by the pillow. He pulled his other arm out and propped himself up on elbows.

Gojyo lapped and nibbled at Hakkai’s chest. He traveled to one nipple. He tugged and teased it with his teeth eliciting moan and pants from Hakkai. Gojyo gave the same attention to the other nipple. Hakkai struggled to get a decent bead of lube on his finger.

He didn’t bother to put the lid back on as he brought his hand to his now throbbing cock. He rubbed the lube over it. His breath hitched and his chest quivered as he rubbed. Gojyo adjusted his position and bent his knees slightly.

Hakkai looked down at him. He bent down and pressed his lips to Gojyo’s. Gojyo wrapped his legs around his lover’s slender hips. Hakkai moved his hips and the slicked head found the wanting opening.

Hakkai pushed himself into Gojyo. Smoothly and solidly pushing himself all the way in. Gojyo’s eyes and mouth opened in reaction to the sudden but desired invasion. He took in a quick gasp of air, as he exhaled he whispered Hakkai’s name.

Hakkai let him calm just a little from the entrance and began to rock his hips. Gojyo rested his hands on Hakkai’s back. He felt the muscles in Hakkai’s back dance as he moved. His muscle contractions rolled down his body. Hakkai didn’t buck, he made small rhythmic circles. Hakkai slowly increased the size of those circles, taking longer and longer strokes .

Hakkai slowly morphed his circles into lines. Gojyo felt the contours of Hakkai’s cock sliding in and out of him. His eyes closed and he wallowed in the overwhelming sensations.

Hakkai continued to shift his hips in the single plane, a seamless straight line heading directly for ecstasy. He raised himself up on his arms. Hakkai felt his orgasm begin to build and he increased the speed and force behind that single plane. He transformed his movements to short, quick, hard thrusts.

Gojyo tensed up his legs and raised his hips slightly off the bed. Hakkai’s head flew back. He cried out as he as his loins exploded in ecstasy. Hakkai’s arms bucked from under him and he came crashing down on Gojyo. Gojyo slowly lowered his hips to the bed.

He felt Hakkai’s chest heaving on him and his breath against his neck. He felt Hakkai twitching inside him as his body expended the last of his orgasm.

Gojyo waited for the various quivers and twitches all over Hakkai’s body to calm. When he felt Hakkai melt into him, he tensed up a leg and rolled Hakkai over onto his back.

Gojyo looked down at Hakkai. His eyes were half closed. His lips rested, slightly parted. He’s not sure if he heard it, saw it or simply felt it, but Haks vos voice was in his head ‘kiss me’ it said. ojyoojyo bent down and placed his lips against Hakkai’s. His red hair fell and enclosed the two in a secret, private, crimson chamber.

Gojyo heard the turn of the door knob and quickly snatched the half of the bedspread they weren’t on. He held it up hopefully blocking the view of the intruder.

The door opened. Hakkai froze under Gojyo. He hoped that the haid bed bedspread hid him.

Gojyo pulled his lips off Hakkai. “Go away, I have company!” He didn’t raise up from behind the blanket.

“You perv.” Goku turned quickly and stepped out of the room and closed the door. “Aww man, he’s got some chick with him.”

They heard the fan strike Goku. “What have I told you about knocking!”

“I don’t get it. How does he get a chick when he hasn’t left his room?” The voices slowly faded down the hall.

Gojyo dropped the blanket. Hakkai gasped a breath and wanted to feel around for his heart so he could put it back in his chest. The smallest, “Oh shit” escaped his panicked face.

Gojyo softly chuckled.

Hakkai looked at him, “There is nothing funny here. I can’t believe you didn’t lock the door.”

Gojyo looked at him and shrugged, “You were the last one to bed.”

Hakkai squinted his eyes and tightened his lips, “I assumed you did it.”

Gojyo smiled, “I’ll do it now.”

Gojyo slid down Hakkai’s body and exited the bed off the foot. He walked over to the door. Hakkai could see his still hard member bouncing in the light from the all but dark sky. Gojyo looked around on the floor and found the tube of lube that went flying during their little interruption.

He crawled in the bed and sat down next to Hakkai’s hips. He looked at him, “You ok?”

Hakkai curled part of his bottom lip into his teeth and smiled, “Yeah.” He softly chuckled, “Yeah.”

Gojyo turned and put one hand on either side of Hakkai’s chest. He locked his gaze into his green eyes and slowly tilted his hips over Hakkai’s, “Good, because there is something I want.” He rested his knees between Hakkai’s knees.

Hakkai looked up at him and smiled.

Gojyo rested on his shins and straightened his back. He rubbed a good ribbon of lubed over his large hard cock. He put his hands on the blanket next to Hakkai’s hips and slid them up to Hakkai’s shoulders. He shifted his head and whispered into Hakkai’s ear. He whispered what he whispered every time. This was practically a mantra. The words had become so associated with pleasure in Hakkai’s mind that when ever he heard them no matter what the situation he became aroused. He closed his eyes as the expected words gently poured from Gojyo’s lips. “Relax and hang on.”

Hakkai felt his muscles melt into the bed. He gripped Gojyo’s shoulders. Gojyo sat back on his shins and gently lifted Hakkai’s legs. Hakkai wrapped his legs around Gojyo’s waist. o moo moved one hand to Hakkai’s hip and the other to his cock. He moved his cock until he felt himself push against Hakkai’s opening.

He moved his hand and with both hands resting on Hakkai’s hips he slowly pushed himself in.

Hakkai’s eyes flew open and he took in a sharp breath. Gojyo waited for Hakkai to calm. He slowly eased more of himself into the smaller man. Every time they were together Gojyo was amazed at how vulnerable, small and open Hakkai seemed under him. He seemed so big, strong and closed-off when they were out in public.

He was honored to be shown the many sides of Hakkai. There were sides everyone else got to see: the caring healer; the conscientious friend; the ruthless demon slayer. Then there were the sides only he got to see: the tender compassionate lover; the vulnerable sensitive lover and the brazen kink that relished in a good hard fuck.

Gojyo began his strokes slowly and methodically. He watched Hakkai’s reaction, watched his breathing, watched his eyes, heard his moans and felt his body relax.

He dug his fingers into Hakkai’s hips and pulled while he bucked.

Hakkai grasped Gojyo’s forearms, he knew the ride was about to begin.

Gojyo pushed on Hakkai’s hips as he backed his stroke. He pulled on his hips as he pushed his stroke. Their skin slapped together as the met each other. Gojyo increased the speed and intensity of his passion.

Hakkai rocked on the bed. The bed shook and the headboard slammed against the wall. Hakkai took short breaths on the back stroke. His teeth clattered together. When he opened his eyes, he saw the room jarring around him and a pair of crimson eyes locked on him. He closed his eyes and moaned. His moans changed to groans. His groans changed to y. Hi. His mouth spewed incomprehensible sounds and guttural utterances. His head spun. His body shook and convulsed. His dick reanimated. Gojyo adjusted his body so that Hakkai’s stiff member was sandwiched between their flesh.

He continued his unforgiving thrusts, his relentless pounding, his solid passionate strides. He watched Hakkai writhe in ecstasy under him. His head turned this direction and that. His breath hitching, hiuth uth gasping. He saw Hakkai’s body shake and felt the hot jizm on his stomach. Half closed green eyes finally intercepted the direct crimson gaze, Gojyo saw the unmistakable look of pure satisfaction behind those green eyes and finally allowed his orgasm build.

The lust and passion washed over him and crashed into him like a wave on a beach during a hurricane. He gripped Hakkai’s hips and plowed into him. He arched his back and his head flew back; he cried out. His orgasm hit fast and slowly rolled away from him. He lazily brought his head forward and rested on his shins.

Hakkai felt Gojyo’s spent member leave him. Although he was extremely satisfied there was always a sense of loss as the rude air dared to come between them. Hakkai saw Gojyo look at him; the mixed-blood’s chest was heaving. His hair bouncing with his breath. “God damn,” breathlessly and slowly rolled from Gojyo’s mouth.

He bent down and kissed Hakkai gently. He lifted himself up and winked at him. Here came the other sentence. The other predictable sentence. He couldn’t even remember how the joke got started, but it stuck. Gojyo softly smiled, “Wait right there, I’ll go get you a towel.”

Gojyo tilted off the bed. Hakkai saw his knees falter a bit as he tried to walk. He found Hakkai’s towel and wiped off his stomach and handed it to Hakkai. Gojyo walked around to the other side of the bed and slid between the sheets as Hakkai cleaned himself off and slid between the sheets.

Gojyo laid on his side facing Hakkai. Hakkai laid on his side facing away from Gojyo. Gojyo wrapped his arms around Hakkai and Hakkai pushed himself into Gojyo. In that comfortable spoon position, they slept.

They slept holding each other until Hakkai did his predictable action. He did what he did every time they spent the night together. He got up in the middle of the night and slipped out of the room. Gojyo always pretended to be asleep as he felt Hakkai slide from his embrace and as Hakkai softly kissed him on his cheek. He longed for the time when Hakkai’s face would be the first thing he’d see in the morning.

He went to his own room, he had to keep up appearances. Just in case he overslept and --someone-- cam wak wake him, he had to be in is own room. Very rarely did Hakkai sleep after leaving Gojyo. Most often he did what he did this particular night. He rumpled up the blankets and clutched the pillow to his chest. He cried the sun up longing for the time when Gojyo’s face would be the first thing he’d see in the morning.

After the sun as found its way into the sky, Hakkai pulled himself away from the pillow and took a lonely shower. He walked downstairs and enjoyed a cup of coffee as he waited for the others to arrive.

Sanzo and Goku came down stairs, followed quickly by Gojyo. They ordered breakfast. Gojyo never asked anymore, but every now and then Goku or Sanzo would ask why he was being so quiet. They’d ask if he was ill because he barely ate. He came up with some grandiose thing about their mission being on his mind. They usually accepted that and today was no different. *Goku must think I think about the mission a lot*. This particular morning he was able to avoid Sanzo’s gaze completely.


Hakuryuu transformed and Hakkai checked and rechecked their gear. Sanzo noticed Hakkai checking the same spot of gear for the fourth time and pulled Gojyo aside.

Sanzo looked at Gojyo, “When are you going to tell him I know?”

Gojyo took a drag on is cigarette, “I’m not. He’s got to come to terms with his sexuality on his own time in his own way. I’ll play this charade until he’s readr itr it to end or you catch us.”

“I wish I could have seen his face in the bathroom.”

Gojyo laughed, “Y I t I thought for sure he was going to lose it. Thanks for playing alon

Sanzo nodded as Hakkai announced they were ready to head out.

Sanzo sat down and looked over at Hakkai. As Hakkai pressed on the accelerator Sanzo spoke up, “Ok everybody, just relax and hang on. It’s going to be a bumpy ride.” Sanzo simply couldn’t resist.


Endnotes: I truly hope you have enjoyed this little one. Certainly was interesting to write --- a heterosexual female writing Yaoi. I have no reference point, so I hope there is enough realism that you could visualize the action.