diary of a madman
diary of a madman
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DIARY OF A
MADMAN.
In the middle of the night,
Touma was sitting near the lake, his diary resting near him. Above him, the
stars were shining like to comfort him. It's been two days since he eat, but he
didn't mind.
For him, the end was near.
He didn't want to suffer anymore, plus his mind can slip and he didn't want to
impose this on the others, especially Seiji. He loves him so much.pan>pan>
He takes his diary and
began to write.
[what a beautiful night.
I'm so afraid, I will loose this battle, I know it. I'm not strong enough. I'm
so afraid to vent this on seiji or another guys. I couldn't bear to make them
suffer, especially Seiji. I would better end this here before it could be to
late.]
He was going to take the
knife he brought with him, when a cry stopped him.
&qNo, No, Touma. No,
please. Stop it please.
- Seiji? What are you doing
here. Are you spying on me? HOW DARE YOU?
- It's not what you think.
I was afraid mademade something. And I see I was right.
- It's not you're problem.
Go home. I don't need you.
- But Touma...?
- No But! I said GO
HOME!"
Touma began to walk away,
leaving Seiji there.
I don't understand why
he’s like that lately.Something is gnawing at him. I must know what’s going on.
There is his diairy. He will kill me when he founds out that I read it but I
need to know what's wrong in order to help him.style='font-family:"Arial Black";mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>
frightening. Touma was slowly slipping away from them and mainly from him.
Why is that? Why didn’t he
tell me? Why especially on me? Did he...? maybe!
But why didn’t he tell me
his problem? I must talk to him.
Seiji took the same road
Touma did, in order to find him. He found him, near the lake he was sitting
there, looking at nothing.
#Shit! I forgot my diairy,
Seiji must have find it.
-Don’t worry, you
weakling, he won’t understand tyou you love him but he will know that you’re
nut.
-Oh you! Shut
myself .
-
-
-<'>-simple I’am you, but
I’m not afraid or weak like you.
‑
-right, thanks to our
father.
-oh please spare me!
-ok I will for now.#
“Touma? Can I talk to you?
-
Please
Seiji not now.
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Why
not? It seems to be the great time.
-
Don’t
you understand I’m mad. I’m earring voices.
-
How
so?
-
In my
head.
-
Touma?
-
Leave
me alone, jeez. Can’t I die alone?”style='font-family:"Arial Black";mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>
Seiji was taken aback, the
last words were not Touma’s usual voice.
“Touma?
-yeah! It’s me.
-You sure?
-Maybe not the Touma
you know, but I’m Touma as well. So you see, I’m really mad plus I’m dangerous.
-
-are you sure?”
Touma approach Seiji with
his knife, visibly he was going to harm Seiji, but he can’t believe it.
“Now you’ll leave me
alone you I’ll make you leave.
-
Touma
you can’t.
-
-
Because
I’m you’re friend.
-
-
I
can’t .
-
Then,
be sorry.”
Seiji see Touma approach
him with visibly the intention to hurt him.
“Go Seiji! Go now before
I make something I’ll regret.
-
-
You
don’t understand, don’t you?
-
Understand
what? I can’t if you don’t explain.
-
I
can’t. Now leave me alone.
-
You
know I can’t.”
Touma launch himself at
Seiji, the knife in front of him. Seiji
avoided the knife but not the punch that Touma through at him. Seiji
took Touma’s hand and made him let go of the knife. Touma took Seiji down with
him, and beat him senseless, Seiji let him do hoping that Touma will regain his
sens. When Touma thought that Seiji won’t get up, he leave him there and took
the knife that he had let drop. He went near the lake and drop to his knees;
then he brought the knife to his left wrist and cut it deeply, he sighed when
he saw his blood pour from the gash, he went to do the same to the other but,
Seiji had get up and stop him before he cut it too deeply.
“Touma? Why?
-
and
why not? Why don’t you leave alone?
-
know I can’t.
-
Why
that? You don’t understand don’t you.
-
Explain
to me then.
- &;&nb;
If
I do so, will you leave me alone then?style='font-family:"Arial Black";mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>
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If
that’s what you really want I will.
-
I can’t
go on living like this…
-
Why that?
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Seiji
are you blind or what? Don’t you see that I’m mad? One day, I’ll slip away
completely and I’ll end up hurting you like I did. Seiji look at you, I beat
you senseless. Why are
you trying to help me after what I did to you?”style='font-family:"Arial Black";mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>
Seiji took notice of the
tone, he knew right away that the last sentence was pronounced by his friend.
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“Touma…
you’re my friend. I know that you have problem, and if beating me, can help you
I’m willing to take it.
-
No seiji,
I can’t let you take my madness, st est end it now before I kill you.
Now
that you know, can you leave, please.
-
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-
You
liar, you said that if I tell you, you’d leave me.style='mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>
-
I can’t
touma, I need you.
-
No you
lousy shit, you don’t need me, you need the armor.”style='mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>
Touma
take the knife and get up to leave but the bloodloss began to make effect so he
went back to the ground his world spinning.
“after
all, I won’t need to cut the other wrist. You can stand here if you want, at
the moment you don’t intefere.
-touma why? I
need you, you can’t leave me.
-and why that? Nobody needs me. Nobody loves me, not even you. I can’t
seiji, I can’t wait for you to find someone you will love and for them you’ll
leave me…
-is
that the problem?
‑oh
shit, my secret is blown off. It’s not a matter, I’ll die soon.
-
you
think that I don’t love you..
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of
course, you love me but not the way I would want. Seiji I love you, I am in
love with you, I fall in love for you so far long ago that I don’t remenber.
-
Me too
touma.
-
Sure.
I believe you.”
Seiji seeing that touma won’t
believe him, take the first step and kissed him. That’s when touma found that
seiji was crying over him. He brought his hand in contact with seiji’s cheek
and wiped away his tears.
“-seiji my love.
-touma don’t leave me.
-I can’t do much to prevent
that now… seiji I don’t see you face anymore… I love you, I will always love
you.
-touma, no… can I heal you?
Please love tell me that I can.”
Touma opened his eyes
briefly.
“you can, if you want.”
His breath began to fade
and seiji react quickly. He summon korin to heal his friend. When korin faded
he wait, hoping that touma’s will was strong enough. When his love open his
stormy blue eyes, his tears flowed on his cheek. Touma redress himself and took
seiji in his arms.
“shh! Don’t cry my love, it’s
over, I’m here. I won’t leave you anymore.
-
touma,
please tell me , you won’t do that again.
-
Promise,
love.”
Seiji help touma stand up,
then touma take a look at is love.
“seiji love, you look
awful.”
Seiji chuckled.
“it will fade.
-what will you tell the
other.
-nothing, they don’t need
to know.”
And they leave hand in hand
in direction of the manor. Touma was relieved ‘cause he knows that his madness
was now keep at bay thanks to seiji’s love.
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