Evergreen

Evergreen

Written By: Oni Kitsune

Disclaimer: I (sadly) own nothing but the plot and the idea. If I did own more than that the world would be screaming in terror while rabid yaoi fan girls and boys would have a love/hate relationship with my writing.

\"Evergreen\" is originally in Japanese and belongs to Haido (Hyde).

Rating: NC-17 for graphic consensual sexual content.

Notes: Gift one-shot songfic for Hirochan.

//...// means lyrics.

AU-ness because this takes place after the manga and because I’m pretending nothing will happen despite where the mangaka has left off in the series and how it’s looking to end up.

A note about torii- At the entrance of a shrine there are large wooden or stone “doorways” over the steps or on the path to a shrine. These are called torii and when you pass under them you are supposed to be focusing yourself and praying for purification. The torii symbolize a doorway between the “dirty” energy of the world and the “clean” energy of the shrine.

Summary: Hisoka and Tsuzuki\'s first time.

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//I lie awake beside the windowsill
Like a flower in a vase
A moment caught in glass.. Mmm//

He looked so beautiful that night, his honey hair shining from the stray light of a nearby street lamp filtered through the window behind him. His head was turned toward the window over his shoulder as his emerald eyes scanned the house tops next to the hotel we were staying in.

He was taking note of everything outside, memorizing the feelings of the world around him and trying to sift them aside so that he could stumble through his own maze of emotion. His pale skin was lightly kissed with the remnants of his sweat and sparkled in the halogen light as if it was lightly dusted with glitter.

Earlier that day he had approached me in Meifu, stating that he was ready, that he knew he could ignore what had happened to him in his past if I would just teach him the difference between what that monstrous beast Muraki had done to him and what I promised I would do to him.

I was floored to say the least. I had been wanting to hold him in a lovers embrace, his heart pounding next to mine and separated only by bone and flesh instead of the jackets and the shirts that normally kept them distanced.

He promised to come by my apartment later with the details once he had made arrangements in the living world. I smiled and kissed him on the cheek and he blushed crimson as he left.

Since we had been given vacation time after things were wrapped up between Gensoukai and the Kurosaki household I had nothing to do but watch tv and wait by the phone. Hisoka called me a couple hours later and told me when to meet him in Nara and I was only too happy to agree.

//The rays of sunlight come and beckon me..
To a sleepy dreamy haze
A sense of summer days.. aa//

When I arrived at the front of the shrine a block from the hotel that we are staying in he seemed a little jumpy as he stood next to the torii, but I understood why. Sakura were in full bloom and the delicate pink and white petals were falling like snow mixed with blood.

I walked up to him and he blinked as if he hadn’t even seen me coming then stepped toward me. I held my arms out to him when he reached for me and he gripped my shirt tightly in his small delicate fists as I wrapped my arms around his shoulders.

He didn’t cry, he merely looked around himself lost in a daze of emotion and fear. I gently took hold of his chin and lifted it to look in his eyes, and without having to say a word he nodded.

“I know Tsuzuki. It’s not the same as that time, and it won’t be the same. But it’s hard to think that when I’m feeling someone else’s pain from a similar experience at this shrine at the same time as my own right now.” He stood on his tiptoes and kissed my chin before walking out of my embrace and down toward the hotel.

//If only I could stop the flow of time
Turn the clock to yesterday
Erasing all the pain.. mm//

When we checked in he walked straight toward the elevator, not daring to look around himself. I smiled politely at the clerk whom blushed but smiled back, watching Hisoka sympathetically. He nearly ran away, but kept himself in check and quietly made his way to the elevator. He stayed on his side of the elevator and I stood beside him, one foot propped on the wall behind me, watching the numbers change until they stopped at the fifth floor and the doors parted.

Hisoka led me out and down the right hallway. His steps were even and he seemed to be breathing quickly. I tapped his shoulder and he stopped to look at me.

“Nani Tsuzuki?”

I looked away for a moment. “You know, we don’t-“

“I want to Tsuzuki.” He said with a small smile. His perfect little pink lips were slightly parted and he was breathing harder than normal, but his face was flushed from want, not fear.

I blinked and nodded, feeling my own face flush as other parts of my anatomy started to fill with blood. He looked at my face and then chuckled.

“Can’t you control yourself for five more steps Tsuzuki?” he teased.

I blushed harder and looked away. “Not when you look so sexy.”

He stopped laughing and blushed in embarrassment.

//I\'ve only memories of happiness
Such pleasure we have shared
I\'d do it all again//

It couldn’t have been more than five minutes before we were in our room and laying in bed, our shirts and jackets abandoned to lay on the floor together. Hisoka was shy but curious, testing himself and my ability to control my desires as he touched me. His fingers were like fire dancing across my chest, his mouth and tongue on my nipples a sweet heated caress of the best kind. I know I moaned his name as my fingers twisted in his soft hair, pulling his head down and crushing his mouth to me as it touched my skin.

His hand was slow as it moved over my clothed erection, dragging the scratchy cloth over it and then rubbing down. Unknowingly with these touches he was pulling my foreskin down to let my tip peek out and then covering it in it’s protective sheath as his hand moved back up it. I was mumbling and begging and he was so excited I could feel his own eternally juvenile erection digging into my hip and side as it poked me. There was also a dampness in his jeans where it’s tip was leaking prodigiously through the cloth.

Then suddenly I couldn’t breathe for a moment as he pulled back and undid my pants, pushing them down and off my hips to land in a heap next to the bed, his own jeans crumpling on top of them a moment later.

He kneeled over me, his legs on either side of my hips, his tip dragging over my length to leave a trail of his sweet liquid over it. From somewhere I was handed a tube of lubricant and I remember moaning and almost cumming as my fingers slid into his tight entrance. He was so warm and relaxed, he wanted this.

When he was loose enough he kissed me so deep and searing that I nearly cried for joy at the equal passion he was showing. When he stopped I realized he had my slick cock in his hand and was adjusting so that the tip pointed toward his heaven. I looked in his eyes and fell so deep that I nearly missed the strangling sensation around my cock as he started to slowly sit on it.

//This scenery is evergreen
As buds turn into leaves
the colors live and breathe
This scenery is evergreen
Your tears are falling silently//

This was my Hisoka, my now consummated lover in his finest and giving me as much love as I was giving to him. He leaned over me and looked between his wide open legs and moaned as he watched himself slide up to expose a good portion of my cock to the air and his eyes as it hid behind his slightly hanging cock. I felt tears hit my chest as he watched it disappear between his legs, his muscles squeezing it as it glided deep into his small body.

I reached out and held his hips still and he looked at me, trying to raise his hips.

“Don’t want to hurt you...” I said quietly in explanation. He blinked, then shook his head.

“I’m crying because it’s good. It’s so good. It doesn’t hurt...”

I pulled him down and kissed him roughly until we were both panting, my own tears smearing with his on both of our cheeks before I released him. He laughed and I shivered at the tightness this produced.

I gently bucked under him and he moaned, caught off guard by how good it had felt. He leaned forward and I knew without words what he wanted.

//So full of joy you are a child of spring
With a beauty that is pure
An innocence endures.. aa//

I held him gently by the hips, keeping his body steady as I placed my feet flat on the bed and lifted my hips, pumping into him quickly. He groaned and closed his eyes, trusting me so much that my heart broke with the realization of it all.

Maneuvering carefully I rolled us both over, trying not to put too much weight on him as we shifted. He gasped as his now hot and sweating skin touched the cool comforter of the bed and then hissed in pleasure as I started a gentle thrusting, my hips bucking on their own instinct as my cock drove in and out excitedly.

He looked so pure under me like that, so full of want and life and youth. I was almost afraid as I touched him, and I felt more than a little guilty for smearing my sex in his young body, but he just kissed me and made me feel how good it was to be doing this here and now with him.

//You flow right through me like a medicine
Bringing quiet to my soul
Without you I\'m not whole//

He threw his head back as his nails dug tiny crescent marks into my shoulders. His body tightened around me and his voice shook as he called my name. I watched in wonder as his body arched up to meet mine, his gorgeous tiny cock throbbing as it sprayed his still semi-watery cum across our bellies.

He was flushed from head to toe, his skin so hot and perfect under mine that I couldn’t stave off the growing heat in my belly. I forced my body to curve, my cock slipping into him perfectly as I kissed his chest in my pleasure haze. I felt my body bunch, muscles gathering as the heat slid into my balls and then forced itself out, exploding at my tip to fill Hisoka with it’s heat.

//This scenery is evergreen
I need you far too much
I long to feel your touch
This scenery is evergreen
You\'ve always been so dear to me//

He pulled me down and I rolled to let us lay on our sides, our legs and arms tangled as I fought to breathe with him. He panted and blushed, smiling shyly for a moment as I held him close, our bodies humming with the pleasure that thrummed along the base of our spines.

As the feeling wore on he would lean into me and kiss me, letting our lips express the deep enjoyment of our sinful night together. He was soft and warm against me, and I was so fuzzy I didn’t even realize what I was saying until I had said it.

“It was as if you were a complete virgin ‘Soka.”

//This scenery is evergreen
It sorrows at the sight of seeing you so sad
This scenery is evergreen
I wish that I could dry your tears//

I had never been slapped so hard in my life. I deserved it.

He got up and walked to the bathroom, me still cursing myself for my words as my cheek stung. I heard him crying as the water ran and I knew I had just made the worst mistake of my life and death with my angel.

//The bells have rung the time has come
I cannot find the words to say my last goodbye
This scenery is evergreen
You\'ve always been so dear to me//

So now he was leaning against the window, looking so perfect and so cold to me. I apologized for the millionth time but he didn’t even look at me.

“Tonight... was so perfect, so beautiful Tsuzuki...”

I nodded, my tears strangling me from responding. I knew what was going to happen. I knew what he was going to say... He was leaving...

“I’ll give you one more chance Tsuzuki... One more.”

I blink and he’s looking at me, his beautiful eyes holding love and sadness, and I know he will never forget my mistake, but I also know he’s in love with me, and no matter how stupid I am sometimes... He’ll be patient and forgive me.

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My first YnM, please be gentle. ^^