An easy heart to break

Disclaimers:
This is a Sailor Moon fanfic. The main characters belong to Naoko Takeuchi,
not me. Well they only belong to me in my dreams but this is the real world so they don’t. This world sucks

A/N: I don’t like Mamoru but I try and not let that affect my writing sorry if it does!

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He always thought it was about him. They all thought it was about him. I can see why they would think that, I mean we went on a few dates but I never really felt that much for him. But it was when they got together I started acting like a kicked puppy and of course they all thought it was because he chose her over me.

He always thought it was about him…

When really it was about her.

When they approached me, no more like when he approached me, she was just there she didn’t want any thing to do with it, about ‘healing’ and ‘letting go’ and moving on for Crystal Tokyo. I let him think it was him I was pinning over because she didn’t want him to know the truth. That I was madly in love with her because she knew that he would think that this was a bad idea he knows that once you love her you cant stop he thinks that what I supposedly feel for him is lust which can be easy rid of..

I stared at her as I kissed him. God I could almost hate him all I ever wanted was a chance to love her before destiny dumped him in her lap and after that I never had a chance.

He thinks it’s about him.

As we undress it’s slow my breath hitches as I see her for the very first time in all her glory. As he bends to kiss my breasts we lock eyes she wont come near, wont touch me, because she knows that addicts always need another hit and it would be cruel to let me taste her love before taking it away.

He thinks it’s about him…

She knows it’s about her.

She lets him continue down my body ‘healing’ me lets me arch into his touch tearing me apart. She knows that this will make him feel better and inadvertently causing me to fall apart.

But in a choice of who’s heart to break it will always be an easy choice for her to make.

He comes back up to kiss me touching his tip to my opening before slowly pushing in. she watches as I squirm trying to get used to this feeling. He stops as he encounters resistance. I only ever wanted her to love me. She walks up behind him and takes hold of his hips he’s glad because he doesn’t no what to do with this new turn of events. Slowly so achingly slow she pushes his hip forward as she locks eyes with me.

It feels like he is just a tool for us that it’s really her that’s doing this making me feel so stretched to tight and as he buries his head in my neck it feels like that even more.

She can tell the very second that I break because the tears overwhelm me and I think she can hear what I’ve been silently screaming in my head. This was for you, only you not him. Though he is inside me and she is right there…I’ve never felt so alone.

As the pace picks up the pleasure threatens to over come me but as I look into her eyes she’s telling me things I cant understand and as she kisses his neck I know that she really kissing me.

As the world explodes in white light her face is blocked by his as he brings his head up to smile at me before he to reaches his release. Filling me up, breaking me apart.

I discover I was wrong as he pulls out of me he turns to smile at her and she graces him with this radiant smile that she gives to those she loves. That she has never given me. That is when I know I’ve never felt more alone.

As I get dressed and walk out she comes into the room “Rei…” but I understand and I hope she doesn’t see the tears I know they’ll make her sad so I try my best not to let them fall.

As he comes out he wraps his arms around her waist killing me a little more before saying ‘I hope this helps you move on Rei” he’s trying to be kind but I just want to hurt him but again it will make her sad.

He thought it was about him.

She knows it’s still about her.

When it came down to me or him…

Of whose heart to break…

For her there was no choice to make.