First Love

Disclaimer: All characters rightfully belong to Watsuki-san, and are definitely not mine.

Warning: Look on summary.

Note: This story happens a day or so before captain Sagara is killed. This is actually the first fanfiction I ever wrote. The original had no sex in it though. At the time I was afraid to write any, because I thought it would be weird with an underage kid. But after reading so much of it on aff.net, it doesn’t bother me anymore, so enjoy!!

First Love


It was a cold night in the camp and a small boy lay huddled in his tent, a warm blanket pulled over his head. All that could be discerned was a mess of spiky brown hair and a red bandanna peeking from the brim of the blanket. A breeze started up, making the boy groan in his sleep and pull the fabric closer to his body. He was having dreams, dreams of someone he held dear to his heart. He smiled in his slumber and rolled over. Just then the flap to his tent was lifted and a handsome man with dark hair entered. He smiled at the boy sleeping so soundly and walked silently over to his side. He kneeled over the youth, pulling the blanket aside ever so slightly to look at his serene face. ‘Sanosuke is so beautiful,’ thought Sozo to himself.

The older man had to resist the urge to awaken his young comrade with a tender embrace and soft kisses. The Sekiho captain knew he shouldn’t be having these thoughts about someone as young as Sano, but he couldn’t help it. At first he was like a son to Sozo, but over time he found himself thinking about the boy in a less than fatherly manner. Even though he had a wife, he still could not drive Sanosuke’s face from his thoughts. He tried to suppress his fantasies as he continued to gaze at Sano. Sozo almost wished that he would wake up and catch him in the act, embarrassing though it would be. But he was desperate to show the boy his true feelings, keeping them a secret was driving him mad. After many minutes he stood and reluctantly went to leave.

“Captain Sagara?” A small voice inquired behind him. Sozo turned to face the boy sitting up in his bed. His hair was wonderfully disheveled and his kimono was practically falling off him, exposing his small pale shoulders. Sozo had to stifle a gasp as he unabashedly looked at Sano’s small form.

The boy noticed the strangely acting Sozo and said, “Captain? What’s wrong, why are you in my tent?” Sagara couldn’t bring himself to answer truthfully. In a slightly shaky voice he answered, “I thought I heard something and became worried. I was just checking to make sure you were safe.” Sano smiled and let out a wonderful, innocent laugh. The Sekiho captain smiled back and said, “Now get some sleep, Sano. We have a big day tomorrow.” Sozo opened the tent flap when he heard a rustle of clothing and a small tug at his sleeve. He looked down to see Sano grasping his arm, honey brown eyes gazing up into his own. .

“What is it Sano?” Asked Sozo. Sano’s face blushed and he lowered his gaze. After a few moments the young boy said in a voice barely above a whisper, “Captain, will you stay the rest of the night with me?” The youth’s face burned an even brighter red and Sozo felt his own face starting to flush. This was what he had always wanted, to be close to Sanosuke and now that it was happening, he could hardly believe it.

“Of course Sano, I’d do anything for you.” He then scooped the youth into his arms and carried him back to his futon. Sanosuke clung to his captain, loving the feel of his strong arms around his torso and his hand delicately touching the inside of his knees. Sozo reached the bed and gently lowered Sano down. The Sekiho captain removed his jacket and gloves and then his shoes. He took the sword at his hip and laid it against the tent wall before finally joining Sano under the covers. Sozo was intensely nervous, he wasn’t sure he could trust himself in such close proximity to the boy. But Sano seemed to be nothing but content as he wormed his way even closer to his captain, wrapping his small arms around the man’s waist. Sozo in turn wrapped his arms around Sano’s smaller body, burying his face into his soft hair. He breathed in Sano’s smell, relishing the youthful scent.

Many moments passed and Sozo suddenly felt Sano’s grip tighten and the boy’s face rose to meet his own. His face was still beautifully flushed and his delicate lips were parted. They were so pink and small, and Sozo couldn’t hold himself back anymore. He brought his lips to Sano’s and grazed them gently with his own. Sano let out a surprised gasp and he blushed profusely. He looked at his captain with confusion but didn’t resist the older man.

The boy closed his eyes as Sozo lightly grasped his face and kissed him chastely. Sano’s young body reacted to Sozo’s touch despite himself and he moaned into the kiss, wanting more. Sozo hadn’t wanted to do this so soon but he was spurred on by the boy’s responsiveness, and started to draw his tongue across Sano’s lips. The youth parted his lips even more, giving Sozo entry into his warm mouth. The Sekiho captain gently slid the tip of is tongue past Sano’s lips, waiting for the boy to protest. None came and he let his tongue go deeper, filling up the boy’s mouth and making him writhe beside him. As he continued to probe Sano’s mouth a wave of guilt washed over him. He was taking advantage of a naive boy and actually enjoying it. Sozo withdrew himself from Sano, causing the youth to whimper in protest.

“Why did you stop?” Asked Sano somewhat breathlessly. Sozo brushed some loose strands of hair from Sano’s face and ran his thumb across the boy’s now moist lips. “Do you want this Sanosuke? I mean, do you feel alright with me doing this to you?” The boy didn’t even take a moment to pause before answering, “Of course I want it. What you’re doing to me feels...different, but good. I need you captain, I want to make you happy and never leave your side because I... I ...love you...” Sozo felt his heart swell with happiness at Sano’s words. It was all he needed to hear.

“I love you too, Sano.” Said Sozo in a soft voice. He drew Sano’s face back to his and recaptured Sano’s lips with his own, kissing him deeply. Sozo could feel himself becoming aroused, and he moaned painfully as he withdrew from Sanosuke once more. “Captain?” Said Sano, his voice laced in worry. Sozo tried to calm himself, but was failing rapidly as Sano drew closer, his small body pressed close to his own. “Are you alright Captain? You look like you’re in pain.” Sozo gently grasped Sano’s shoulders, and held the boy away from him. He didn’t want to frighten him with his out of control hormones. “I’m fine Sanosuke. I’m just a little... hot is all.” Sano nodded, trying to understand why his captain was acting so strangely all of a sudden. He then realized that something hard was brushing against his leg, and reached under the blanket to feel what it was.

A gasp escaped Sozo’s lips as the boy unwittingly brushed his fingers over his arousal, and Sano noticed the reaction to the touch. “Sano, please, don’t touch me there.” Sano looked puzzled, but quickly removed his hand. He didn’t want to hurt his captain, no matter how curious he was.

“Captain, what is that? I mean, your so hard....down..... there...” Sano’s innocent questions were driving him over the edge. The boy’s naivete was turning him on even more. As he tried not to think about it, he shakily answered, “You’re too young to know such things Sanosuke, now just lie back down and go to sleep.” Sano wasn’t buying it. He wanted to know what was going on, so he reached his hand back down, and stroked Sozo’s erection harder than before, causing the older man to grab the caressing hand and yank it back out.

“Sano, I said don’t.” Sano’s brows furrowed. “But Captain, you seemed to like it. Why can’t I?” Damn it, this was going out of control. But Sozo couldn’t contain his passion any longer, and finally decided to let it consume him. “Okay Sanosuke. You can do whatever you want.” Sano’s eyes lit up at the prospect of pleasing his captain, and Sozo gave him a sad smile as he reached down to unclasp his pants. He gingerly withdrew his erection, and brought the boy’s hand down to gently stroke it.

Sano marveled at the feeling of the hard flesh in his small palm. It was so silky, and every time he moved his hand along it, Sozo would moan in pleasure. He loved how he was making Sozo feel, and ran his hand faster along the aroused length.

Sozo rolled onto his back, and bit his lip to keep from crying out as Sano’s small hand moved faster, making the Sekiho captain want to arch his back into the touch. But he kept himself from moving, and pleaded for the boy to go faster.

Sano saw how his captain liked what he was doing, and he quickened his pace, though he didn’t really know why. It just felt like the natural thing to do. Then suddenly he felt a wet stickiness on his fingers, and saw the tip of his captian’s member dripping with liquid. Sano rubbed the substance between his fingers, and licked his digits to see what it tasted like.

Sozo practically came when he saw that Sano was licking his essence from his fingers, and ran his hand through the boy’s spiky hair, lowering his head down to his shaft. Sano smiled, and unhurried he ran his tongue along Sozo’s erection, making the Sekiho captain moan even louder. Sano licked off the pre-cum, swirling his tongue along the slit and slowly taking the tip into his small mouth. He couldn’t tell why he felt compelled to do so, but he wanted to. He was glad he did when Sozo gasped his name, and smiling he sucked at the engorged member, taking more into his mouth while trying not to gag.

Though it was small, the feel of Sano’s mouth surrounding him was intoxicating. Just the thought of the boy’s mouth on him was a turn on in itself, but to actually see and feel it was unlike anything Sozo had ever experienced. He could feel the white hot heat start to pool at the bottom of his stomach, and he knew he was going to come. With one last flick of his tongue Sozo came into Sano’s small mouth, and Sano was shocked at the sudden outburst of liquid.

Sozo’s essence covered Sano’s face, and the boy licked his lips of it as he gazed appreciatively at his captain. Sozo could feel himself starting to become hard again at the sight, but he wanted Sano to get something out of this, and pulled the boy to up to him, and kissed Sano deeply, tasting himself in the boy’s mouth. Sozo reluctantly broke the kiss, and rolled Sano to lie under him, loving the surprised gasp at the sudden movement.

Sano couldn’t guess at what his captain was going to do, but he would let his captain do anything to him. He knew Sozo would never hurt him, and Sano put his complete trust in the other man. Sozo saw this, and smiled as he started to untie the boy’s pants. Sano started blushing again almost instantly, and watched on as the tie fell loose and Sozo pulled his pants down part way, exposing Sano’s most intimate area. Sano’s breath came out in nervous gasps, and Sozo tried to reassure him with another kiss. “It’s okay Sano. I promise this won’t hurt. It’ll feel really good, you’ll see.” Sano nodded, giving his consent. Sozo then lightly ran a finger over the boy’s flaccid member, making it jump at the touch. Sano moaned at the new sensation’s cascading over his body, and Sozo gently too his length into his palm, massaging the sensitive skin to make it harden.

Sano started to become unbearably hot, but he wanted more of the touch and whimpered for his captain to do more. Sozo obliged, and moved his and faster, gripping it lightly at the base and harder at the top. Sano bucked his hips up into the Sozo’s large palm, and he started to groan as he felt something inside him building. It sent shivers all over his body, and the accumulating heat in his lower torso reached an unbearable high, and his whole body convulsed as he finally climaxed hard into his captain’s hand. Sozo kept gently stroking Sano until he was completely empty, and brought the boy’s essence to his mouth. He licked off the thick liquid, savoring the sweet virgin essence of his young comrade.

Sano was still panting as Sozo lay next to him, and he embraced Sanosuke, drawing his body close to his own. Sozo covered them with a blanket, and was drifting off to sleep when he heard Sano’s muffled voice cut through the silence. “Captain?” Sozo looked down at Sano, and saw the boy looking directly at him. “Yes Sanosuke?”

“Can we.... do that again?” Sozo couldn’t help but laugh. He couldn’t have guessed how well Sano would take to such things. “Later Sanosuke. We should be getting some sleep now. We move out in the morning.” Sano opened his mouth to protest, but a long yawn came out instead. “See, your tired as it is. Now go to sleep, and that’s an order.” Knowing that arguing further with Sozo would be pointless, Sano reluctantly nodded and closed his eyes. Sozo kissed him on the head as he drew the blanket up higher, covering them almost completely. Both slept better than they ever had in their lives, neither of them knowing that this would be their first and last time that they would ever be together.

~Owari~

A/N: Well, that came out a little differently than I thought it would. But I like it, and it’s much better than the original. If the style of the beginning and the yaoi scene seem different, it’s because I wrote this way back in like, March. I think my writing skills have improved since then, so that explains the gap. I hope it’s not too noticeable ^_^ Anyway, I hope you liked it, and please review. Reviews light up my day and give me a reason to keep writing. Bye bye!!