All About Soul
All About Soul
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Warning!!
Yamachi/Taito, Daiken, Mira, Jyoushiro,
Character death ahead as well!! (normal\'>no
suicide) I am now committing myself on my own will… ^_^
A/N: I don’t own any of it
except what happened!!!! Get over it. I have no money… Though I do have new
manga! (Cardcaptor Sakura!!) Ahem…
Daisuke: Billy Joel is not
hers… nor are his
Two Thousand Years, All About Soul, or
Baby Wizardmon: She also
be Tai’s theme. Oh, the song that Matt refers to that Tai was humming is Billy
Joel’s Blonde Over
Blue.
Yamato: All the songs by
Billy Joel can be found on the
can’t speak it really so, pardon if it is not entirely accurate.
All: Read and Review
please!!!
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After
all we’ve been through… you never once showed it… Never once did you ever show
any of us, except maybe Kari… Hikari.
what you felt. Her and Agumon that is.
<TK>, and Gabumon knew about me. Maybe this one time they didn’t. Maybe,
just like me you tried to keep just one thing back, just one little thing that
meant the world and meant the cosmos to you. That’s what this really meant to
me, Taichi.
I
loved you for so long Taichi. I almost told you so many times… Like on the
That
was our clue, huh Tai-chan? When you almost died in my arms? That was our
warning…
Here we are
all of us Digidestined. Everyone weeping bitterly into the
arms of their loved ones, their soul mates. Except me, that is. I stand
here tall and alone, tearstains down my cheeks. My eyes are red and puffy,
except for the proof of my insomnia, the dark bruise-like bags under my eyes.
They’ve been like that since you told us really. Told me
actually, you there on the hospital bed paler than Ken is during winter.
I was so shocked and you could see it in my eyes, you laughed it off but you
ended up in pain and just before they rushed me away because of the disturbance
on your monitors you slipped the paper in my hand with a sobbed apology. It
echoes in my ears every now and then.
in my ear drowned it out. I had thought it was what I always wanted you to tell
me. Tell me what I really meant to you, so I could tell you what you really
meant to me.
I look up at
the digital sky, it’s blue like you said my eyes are; blue as the sky when rain
will come in a week, but the sun threatens them away. I had given you the
weirdest look then… You blushed and said it was because of that creative
writing class you were taking. You suddenly became interested in it when I
mentioned I was taking it to help with my song writing. You joked how all my
papers never seemed finished. I nearly finished something though, Tai-chan.
letter to me. I described you to a point Taichi. From when we
fought, to when you… when you passed. I wrote another one when you were
sick… I meant to give it to you… But I’ll have to wait to serenade you till I
see you in the place above the heavens where you fly… my angelic savior…
That is
exactly what you are Taichi-chan… My angel, my savior, my love, my friend…
Thinking on
it now, Taichi… It’s not as depressing that you went on… Now you really are
what I saw you as, Tai-chan. An angel, the ever valiant angel who saved my life
many times, who stood by me when no one else would, when my parents started
fighting again after we defeated Apocalypmon. You met
me in the park like I asked and wrapped me in a hug and told me that it wasn’t
my fault, that it could never be my fault because that was not my nature, not
me, not my soul, nor my heart. I know that was when you really had all of my
heart and would for all eternity.
You told me
that I would make it, with or without my band when I said I wanted to be a
famous rock star. Tai-chan… You promised me, Taichi-chan, that you would always
be at my concerts and be my number one fan. You were there when I had writers’
block, when I was depressed, when we were broke, when I thought I wouldn’t make
it passed losing Mia… You were ready to hunt her down and kill her. Heheh…
I showed up
at your new apartment soaked because of the rain, crying because I had wanted
to fall in love with her, and almost succeeded, and then she left. Not even
that… She was making out with a guy where she had said to meet her. She stopped
when she glimpsed me and as she pulled him up to get out of the rain that had
started; she threw down the angel pendant I had given her. I had it when I
showed up at your place, but after that I couldn’t find it to take back…
though, time to time… I thought I saw the gold chain around your own neck.
I was with
you when you slipped into the last comma, Taichi. And I was there when they
lowered you. So inappropriate for an angel to be buried, but I wasn’t asked…
Hikari has
almost constantly sobbed into Miyako’s arms, while Takeru stands by with his
arms protectively around a silent, sad-eyed Iori. Jyou and Koushiro stand
solemnly watching them. Mimi and Sora stand near Miyako and Hikari as well.
Daisuke and Ken are near me, Daisuke seems unsure of how to approach me. They
are all afraid of how this will affect me. TK, he knows that I need my space
when something tremendous like this happens. My poor Otouto-chan didn’t know
how to tell me he knew that I loved Taichi, or how to tell me to just tell
because of the looks Tai gave said he loved me back.
Thinking
totally out of the box now, I wonder if I had told him, would he have been able
to fight? His father left only two months before he got really sick and didn’t
show back up till it was almost the end of the funeral. Hikari couldn’t even
look him in the face. None of us could. Tai was very close to his father. Tai
had once said that he told his father that he couldn’t leave Kari-chan and that
was one of the two things keeping him here, in Odaiba. The other was the rest
of the digidestined I know it. But as Agumon told me, mostly
me. He could go to the digital world whenever he wanted,
since the younger chosen defeated Malomyotismon we all have received D-3s.
My thoughts
wander now more than they ever had… He kept them order, brightened my day with
only his smile… With a mere touch, such as his hand gently on my shoulder, I
was sent to heaven for a moment. I loved him with all my heart and was too
afraid to tell him. And he himself, the Keeper of Courage and the wondrous
leader that he was, was too afraid to tell me.
Back to what
I was saying before I went off about why you wouldn’t leave, before your
father, too… Taichi-chan… Had I told you I love you, would you have kept
fighting…? I know you lost your father, your sister
has Miyako-kun, Sora-kun, Mimi-kun, and Takeru-chan at the least, but what
about me Taichi? I break down now. I’ve fallen to my knees all out sobbing down
onto the digital earth. I feel a hesitant hand on my shoulder; I glance up at
Daisuke. He’s got Taichi’s eyes, smile, that same innocence as well. Both are
naïve, but so caring.
0in\'>-------------------
“Yamato-sempai?” Daisuke
asked hesitantly. He knew Yamato was suffering far too much. More
so than Hikari-kun.
“Hai, Dai-kun?” voice rough, tears
still spilling over from their cerulean prison. “What do you need?”
“No, Yamato-sempai. It’s about what you need… Talk
to us,” he said gently. “Take-kun is very worried about you. He knows you need
your space, we all do, but you’ve been taking this harder than Hika-kun. I know
that you love Taichi-sempai… It’s not past tense… You still do, but he wouldn’t
want you to kill your spirit. A dead and broken spirit can not fly when it
comes it’s time…” And just as Taichi had been insightful at times, so could
Daisuke.
“He left me, Daisuke… He normal\'>is my heart. My spirit, my soul, all was Taichi… He was my world…”
Yamato sobs to the younger boy. He nods in understanding.
“The same with me and Ken-chan,” he glanced to the
violet haired boy standing nearby who gave them a sad
yet reassuring smile. “Taichi-sempai would want you keep on living without him.
He is still with you, Yama… He’s you angel.” Yamato looked up at him in
surprise. The younger boy was very right… Yagami Taichi was Ishida Yamato’s
guardian angel.
~Arial;mso-bidi-font-family:\"Times New Roman\"\'>Three weeks later…
This is the
day, Taichi-chan… The songs I wrote for you, the world will hear them for the
first time… The band doesn’t know them… The melodies are simple.
No drums, guitars, nothing but a piano. If I get to make an album, maybe I’ll
add some strings, like a violin… I think that Ken was learning to play before
you passed. I’ll have to ask Dai-kun. You’d be proud of him Tai-chan. He has
helped me cope without you. He, Ken, and Takeru would stop by as a group, or
him and Takeru and on several occasions just him.
heard them, but insisted since this is a concert in your honor…
It was all
my idea of course, Hikari-chan-s making a small speech before it starts, and
then we, as in the band, play our songs and, to end, Mimi is reading a poem
that sounded like you to Iori-kun, Jyou-kun, and Koushirou-kun. Takeru-chan,
Miyako-kun, and Sora-kun made the programs. The layout actually, because
Dai-kun has made the most amazing sketches and drawing of you. The cover is you
as an angel. Though it makes us giggle a bit because you are an angel complete
with your goggles and a soccer jersey and your sneakers. Dai-kun said it made
you, you. The angelic look was given your charm and innocence when he drew you
with those accents. Ken-kun helped to make advertisement. Not that it’s hard to
advertise Teen Age Wolf as you always joked to cheer me up when I complained
about the band being broke. Getting back on track again, and after Mimi-kun
reads the poem. I sing a few songs by one of your favorite American singers,
Billy Joel, and your two songs that I wrote.
“Yamato-Sempai!!”
where I’m being hailed.
As Dai-kun
runs up to me, I see the youthful you for a minute. He stops and gives me that
thumbs-up he’s famous for. He has on a triangle T-shirt and brown board shorts.
The spitting image of you actually. I lift an eyebrow as I glance over his
attire. He laughs and hands me the music for a song by your singer. He grins a
moment and looks nervous. But before I can ask, he gives me a hug and says,
“Good luck, Yama-sempai!” I accept his wish and give thanks for bringing me the
music I needed. He tells me it was nothing and says he needs to get out to the
audience and see his Ken-chan. I tell him to hurry Hikari will be on in a
minute twenty. He pales and runs for the stage door. I shake my head… He is so
much like you…
Hikari’s done…
I’ve set the sheet music out for the song on the piano I’ll use… Here we go…
0in\'>----------------------
The Teen Age Wolves played flawlessly and Yamato
held himself together as he allowed himself to flow into his music. Mimi came
out for her poem, as the band left. When she was done, the piano was rolled out
and Yamato took his seat at it as his band took their positions for a few of
the songs. The blonde musician adjusted the microphone and spoke clearly into
it,
“Yagami Taichi was my best friend. We were closer
than brothers. He was there for me when life was hard, as I was to him. Till
the very end we stayed close. Taichi, you are very
missed and I hope you can hear us up there, buddy.” Yamato sat back a bit and
started to play…
0in\'>In the
beginning
0in\'>There was
the cold and the night
0in\'>Prophets
and angels gave us the fire and the light
0in\'>Man was
triumphant
0in\'>Armed with
the faith and the will
0in\'>That event
the darkest ages couldn’t kill
0in\'>
0in\'>Too many
kingdoms
0in\'>Too many
flags on the field
0in\'>So many
battles, so many wounds to be healed
0in\'>Time is
relentless
0in\'>Only true
love perseveres
0in\'>It’s been a
long time and now I’m with you
0in\'>After two
thousand years
0in\'>
0in\'>This is our
moment
0in\'>Here at the
crossroads of time
0in\'>We hope our
children carry our dreams down the line
0in\'>They are
the vintage
0in\'>What kind
of life will they live?
0in\'>Is this a
curse or a blessing that we give?
0in\'>
0in\'>Sometimes I
wonder
0in\'>Why are we
so blind to fate?
Unseen to all, an angel had landed at the other end
of the piano Yamato was playing. It was Yagami Taichi. He leaned on the piano
staring dreamily at the blue-eyed blonde playing one of his favorite songs. He
too was wondering why they had been so blind to their
fate as soul mates, he and Yamato.
0in\'>Without
compassion, there can be no end to hate
0in\'>No end to
sorrow
0in\'>Caused by
the same endless fears
0in\'>Why can’t
we learn from all we’ve been through
0in\'>After two
thousand years?
0in\'>
0in\'>There will
be miracles
0in\'>After the
last war is won
0in\'>Science and
poetry rule in the
0in\'>Prophets
and angels
0in\'>Gave us the
power to see
0in\'>What an
amazing future there will be
0in\'>
0in\'>And in the
evening
0in\'>After the
fire and the light
0in\'>One thing
is certain: nothing can hold back the night
0in\'>Time is
relentless
0in\'>And as the
past disappears
0in\'>We’re on
the verge of all things new
0in\'>We are two
thousand years
moved slightly closer as the boy he still loved from beyond death played
another of his favorite songs. Yamato was always so handsome when he sang,
because he *became* his music. Taichi sighed a bit as
he continued to watch.
0in\'>In the
middle of the night
0in\'>I go
walking in my sleep
0in\'>From the
mountains of faith
0in\'>To a river
so deep
0in\'>I must
looking something
0in\'>Something
sacred I lost
0in\'>But the
river is wide
0in\'>And it’s
too hard to cross
0in\'>
0in\'>And even
though I know the river is wide
0in\'>I walk down
every evening and I stand on the shore
0in\'>And try to
cross to the opposite side
0in\'>So I can
finally find out what I’ve been looking for
0in\'>
0in\'>In the
middle of the night
0in\'>I go
walking in my sleep
0in\'>Through the
valley of fear
0in\'>To a river
so deep
0in\'>And I’ve
been searching for something
0in\'>Taken out
of my soul
0in\'>Something I
would never lose
0in\'>Something
somebody stole
0in\'>
0in\'>I don’t
know why I go walking at night
0in\'>But now I’m
tired and I don’t want to walk anymore
0in\'>I hope it
doesn’t take the rest of my life
0in\'>Until I
finally find what I’ve been searching for
0in\'>
0in\'>In the
middle of the night
0in\'>I go
walking in my sleep
0in\'>Through the
jungle of doubt
0in\'>To a river
so deep
0in\'>I know I’m
searching for something
0in\'>Something
so undefined
0in\'>That it can
only be seen
0in\'>By the eyes
of the blind
0in\'>In the
middle of the night
0in\'>
0in\'>I’m not
sure about a life after this
0in\'>God knows
I’ve never been a spiritual man
0in\'>Baptized by
the fire, I wade into the river
0in\'>That flows
into the Promised Land
0in\'>
0in\'>In the
middle of the night
0in\'>I go
walking in my sleep
0in\'>Through the
desert of truth
0in\'>To the
river so deep
0in\'>We all end
in the ocean
0in\'>We all
start in the streams
0in\'>We’re all
carried along
0in\'>By the
river of dreams
0in\'>In the
middle of the night
1\'> “I would never break a promise to you Yamato-
moved even closer to his love. He was slowly inching his way next to him.
Another angel watched him from by Ken and Daisuke.
Ichijouji Osamu knew what it was like to leave behind those who cared about you
and those you care about. He looked to his Otouto-chan, Ken, who was snuggled
deep into his beloved koi’s arms. He also glanced to near Jyou and Koushiro,
where Shin Kido was seated. ‘Shin-koi… I
miss you…’ thought the purple-haired angel as he floated next to him and
sat down, leaning against *his* own love. Shin Kido glanced to his side when he
felt an odd warmth and pressure. Seeing nothing he smiled, normal\'>‘Osa-koi… Ai shiteru…’ The next song vaguely reminded Yamato of his
Tai-chan, but he could remember Tai playing these three songs and one other,
but the last one he couldn’t remember. It irritated the blonde because Tai
always changed it to that song when he came to visit. No
matter what the circumstances. He had even hummed it when Yamato visited
him in the hospital. ‘Tai will remind me
later… I know it’
0in\'>She waits
for me at night, she waits for me in silence
0in\'>She gives
me all her tenderness and takes away my pain
0in\'>And so far
she hasn’t run, though I swear she’s had her moments
0in\'>She still
believes in miracles while other cry in vain
0in\'>
0in\'>It’s all
about soul
0in\'>It’s all
about faith and a deeper devotion
0in\'>It’s all
about soul
0in\'>‘Cause
under the love is a stronger emotion
0in\'>She’s got
to be strong
0in\'>‘Cause so
many things getting out of control
0in\'>Should
drive her away
0in\'>So why does
she stay?
0in\'>It’s all
about soul
0in\'>
0in\'>She turns
to me sometimes and she asks me what I’m dreaming
0in\'>And I
realize that I must have gone a million miles away
0in\'>And I ask
her how she knew to reach out to me at that moment
0in\'>And she
smiles because it’s understood there are no words to say
0in\'>
0in\'>It’s all
about soul
0in\'>It’s all
about knowing what someone is feeling
0in\'>The woman’s
got soul
0in\'>The power
of love and the power of healing
0in\'>This life
isn’t fair
0in\'>It’s gonna
get dark, it’s gonna get cold
0in\'>You’ve got
to get tough but that ain’t enough
0in\'>It’s all
about soul
0in\'>
0in\'>There are
people who have lost every trace of human kindness
0in\'>There are
many who have fallen there are some who still survive
0in\'>She comes
to me at night and she tells me her desires
0in\'>And she
gives me all the love I need to keep my faith alive
0in\'>
0in\'>It’s all
about soul
0in\'>It’s all
about joy that comes out of sorrow
0in\'>It’s all
about soul
0in\'>Who’s
standing now and who’s standing tomorrow
0in\'>You’ve got
to be hard
0in\'>Hard as the
rock in that old rock ‘n roll
0in\'>But that’s
only part, you know in your heart
0in\'>It’s all
about soul
1\'> As the song ended, the rest of the band except Yamato
left the stage. Taichi even found this odd. The only one who knew what really
was happening was Daisuke, who had a huge grin on his face. Ken glanced at his
boyfriend and knew immediately that the burgundy haired artist knew what was
going on.
1\'> “These next two songs, were
written for Taichi. Before and right after he died.”
Yamato was going to show the world exactly how he felt for his beloved
Taichi-chan, even those from high above it. Taichi moved then to sit next to
the blonde as he began the next melody. Osamu blinked then sighed and pressed
closer to his Shin-koi.
0in\'>Goodnight,
my angel
0in\'>Time to
close your eyes
0in\'>And save
these questions for another day
0in\'>I think I
know what you’ve been trying to say
0in\'>I promised
I would never leave you
0in\'>And you
should always know
0in\'>Wherever
you may go
0in\'>No matter
where you are
0in\'>I never
will be far away
0in\'>
0in\'>Goodnight,
my angel
0in\'>Now it’s
time to sleep
0in\'>And still
so many things I want to say
0in\'>Remember
all the songs that you sang for me
0in\'>When we
went sailing on an emerald bay
0in\'>And like a
boat out on the ocean
0in\'>I’m rocking
you to sleep
0in\'>The water’s
dark
0in\'>And deep
inside this ancient heart
0in\'>You’ll
always be a part of me
0in\'>
0in\'>Goodnight,
my angel
0in\'>Now it’s
time to dream
0in\'>And dream
how wonderful your life will be
0in\'>Someday
your child may cry
0in\'>And if you
sing this lullabye
0in\'>Then in
your heart
0in\'>There will
always be a part of me
0in\'>
0in\'>Someday
we’ll all be gone
0in\'>But
lullabyes go on and on…
0in\'>They never
die
0in\'>That’s how
you
0in\'>And I
0in\'>Will be
1\'> The crowd erupted into a sea of applause. Osamu had
wrapped his invisible arms around his Shin during the song, while his other
heavenly companion on the stage just happened to be crying his eyes out next to
his beloved. Osamu’s heart reached out to his new friend, Taichi hadn’t told
Yamato how he felt, and it seemed to go both ways. The next song was the last
and Taichi didn’t know if it could show Yamato’s love anymore. But in his
opinion after he heard it, it did.
normal\'>I’ll turn my courage into wings
normal\'>And fly away soon
No matter when
normal\'>I’ll always believe in you
normal\'>
normal\'>If I’m with you
normal\'>I can cross over to the other side of the sky
normal\'>No matter how hard it seems
normal\'>It will be all right
normal\'>
normal\'>That’s right
normal\'>We’re unfinished dreamers
normal\'>We’ll stick out chests out to the wind as we
go
normal\'>
normal\'>I’ll turn my courage into wings
normal\'>And fly away now
normal\'>Unafraid of making mistakes
normal\'>I’ll turn my courage into wings
normal\'>And fly away soon
normal\'>No matter when
normal\'>I always believe in you
normal\'>
normal\'>There are times when I can’t be strong
normal\'>Times when I’m disappointed in myself
normal\'>I’ll keep trying
normal\'>Because I have to
normal\'>
normal\'>That’s right
normal\'>We’re dreamers of the future
normal\'>We’ve got to make our hearts evolve, too
normal\'>
normal\'>I’ll turn my courage into wings
normal\'>Let’s start from here
normal\'>Even if I have to do it a 100 times, I’ll get
it right
normal\'>I’ll turn my courage into wings
normal\'>Let’s start soon
normal\'>No matter when
normal\'>I always believe in you
normal\'>
normal\'>I’ll turn my courage into wings
And fly away now
normal\'>Unafraid of making mistakes
normal\'>I’ll turn my courage into wings
normal\'>And fly away soon
normal\'>No matter when
0in\'>I always
believe in you
1\'>
Arial;mso-bidi-font-family:\"Times New Roman\"\'>Backstage in Yamato’s dressing
room:
Arial;mso-bidi-font-family:\"Times New Roman\"\'> “Yama-chan…”
Taichi whispered as the blonde sat looking at a picture of him. And for the
first time that night Yamato heard his voice.
1\'> “Tai-chan…?” he asked looking up and seeing his beloved
angel, literally. Yamato had Taichi in his arms so fast, that even Tai was
surprised.
1\'> “Yama-chan… you wrote those for me?” the brown-haired one
asked. His love nodded eyes showing joy and sadness all at once.
1\'> “Tai-chan, I’m sorry… that I didn’t say anything….”
1\'> “Me too, Yama-koi… Me too… Yama-chan… You forgot one of
my songs!” The teen angel told him suddenly remembering that he *had* to remind
his Yama-chan of this.
1\'> “Gommen, Tai-chan… I couldn’t remember what it was. You
tell me,” he said leaning his forehead against the other’s.
1\'> “You forgot? Yama, it’s the song that always reminded me
of you! Blonde Over
Blue!” he giggled tapping Yamato on the forehead and the nose.
1\'> The two stayed that way for a few minutes, before they
shared a kiss. Slowly, Taichi pulled reluctantly from Yamato’s embrace. He
placed his bronzed hand on the other’s cheek. “Ai shiteru, Ishida Yamato…” He
said as Osamu appeared behind him, solemnly. He knew that they were able to
watch over them, but very few people could really talk with angels… Maybe
Yamato could, then he’d be able to give messages to
Ken-chan and Shin-koi…
1\'> “Ai shiteru, Yagami Taichi…” Yamato whispered as the two
angels began to fade. “Ai shiteru till forever….”
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\"Book Antiqua\"\'>A/N: Ohmigosh!!! I actually wrote
something this depressing? At least it had a semi-happy ending!!
\"Book Antiqua\"\'>Daisuke: Oh My Gawd! You killed
Taichi!!
\"Book Antiqua\"\'>Baby Wizardmon: You B*st*rd!
\"Book Antiqua\"\'>Me: Language!! BTW, this is my new muse, Takepon! *
for one of the Campus Police Dunklyon… I think that’s
how you spell it…
\"Book Antiqua\"\'>Takepon: How can I watch my precious language when I stay with
you?
\"Book Antiqua\"\'>Yamato: He has a point…. *Lia glares at him* I mean, the two of
us also stay with you and what with your friends, Zeemon and Taylor? Well, you
can only imagine that he’d pick up something!!
\"Book Antiqua\"\'>Daisuke: *whispers* Matt… She’s the one who let him watch that
episode of
\"Book Antiqua\"\'>Yamato: *ditto* Don’t tell her that!!
*speaks louder to Lia who is still glaring at them and huggling
the young digimon* Why did you kill Tai anyway? He was, as Clare in The Lost
Temple of Ishida puts it, my love-gabumon!!
\"Book Antiqua\"\'>*Other three blink at him a bit* Me:
Yes well…. Um… Daisuke told me to try to write a Taito
since I loves you two so much!! I wrote 1
the fics I’ve been reading recently, they kill you
off!! Let’s see… you’ve been shot, had cancer, two different kinds of crashes
(one in a car and one based on the American 02 ending. You crashed on Venus),
you’ve committed suicide in three different ways, need I continue? *he looks
over whelmed and passes out*
\"Book Antiqua\"\'>Daisuke: *Catching him* Careful Lia, or you’ll give him a heart
attack… *stops when he sees she’s starting to glare* Right umm…. Please
Review!! And she says she knows it probably stank worse than limburger cheese,
but that’s not a good reason to normal\'>not review!! Tell her or Takepon and I might make her write
another!! *the two laugh evilly* *Lia tucks Matt into a bed and then smiles to
everyone*
\"Book Antiqua\"\'>Me: Thanks for reading, and as Dai said Please Review!!!