i need you

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Summary: What happens when Goku demands to know if Sanzo needed him? A one-shot with reference to an episode in Saiyuki season two. I’m not so sure about the number of that episode. Not that avid of a fan. But I do LOVE the series.
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Warning: This is lemon. Anyone who is offended by these types of stories, or who isn’t over 18, please stop reading now.
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Disclaimer: I do not own Saiyuki. I do not have any profits through this.
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I Need You
By Pink07Blossom


He hates me.

I am nothing but a burden to him. Nothing but a clingy little animal who only causes him headache and further pain.

I do not wish to cause him heartaches; rather, I want to be the cause of his happiness. I want to be his light as he is mine.

My sun.

Sanzo.

I have always needed you. I think, even before you found and freed me on that mountain where my prison was. I do not know why, but it seems like I’ve known you from before. In a past life long forgotten. A memory that I sometimes feel is within my grasp and yet when I reach for it, it eludes me.

I have always needed you. But when have you ever needed me? When have I ever been so important to you? Can you continue through your life with me gone?

That day when Homura took me, you just patted me on the head. You didn’t really reassure me and relieved me of my fear. But I went with you and continued our journey. I set the horrible thoughts aside for quite a long time. But they never really went away. No matter how hard I tried, it just wouldn’t vanish completely for so long. And now it haunts me again. This unpleasant wandering of my mind is causing me pain. It’s as if a fist is squeezing my heart. When will you answer me? When will you say what you truly feel inside of you?

“Oi, saru.”

Goku looked up, startled from his mind’s wanderings when he heard that familiar, adored voice. “Sanzo.” It came out as a whisper.

“What? You look like you’ve seen a ghost.”

“A—ano…”

Silence.

“Sanzo.”

“Nande, saru?” Why is he acting so weird?

“Do you need me?”

Sanzo was startled by this but he kept a straight face. “Eh?”

Goku sighed. “Never mind.” He looked away, looking forlorn. Sanzo didn’t like it. He wanted the saru to have that old sparkle back in his golden eyes.

“Oi.”

“Nande Sanzo?”, Goku asked softly.

“What’s all this nonsense? Where the hell did this question emerge from?”

His eyes lost more of its life at this. “It’s nothing Sanzo. Don’t think about it.”

Moments passed by. During which Sanzo kept an observant eye at Goku’s slumped form. He sighed. “I need you.”

Goku looked up, a confused look on his face. “Huh?”

Sanzo sighed again. He didn’t know why he was doing this. A lie. He knew why he was doing this. He wanted Goku to have his sparkle back. “I said I need you.”

Sanzo watched Goku’s face carefully; saw when what he said dawned on the boy making him smile that old smile he liked so much.

“Honto?”

“Hai.”

At this, Goku jumped, hugging Sanzo as tightly as he could. “Yokata.”, he whispered in Sanzo’s ear. This made Sanzo shudder. Without warning, Goku’s lips pressed against his own, making him gasp in surprise. The monkey took this opportunity to plunder his tongue. Sanzo moaned, the boy’s ministrations were making him warm all over.

When they finally parted for breath, Sanzo looked into his monkey’s eyes. “What are you doing?”

The boy only chuckled. “I was kissing you.” Then he proceeded with what he was doing earlier.

Sanzo’s mouth was still open due to his shock. He’d never seen this side of Goku before. He clasped the boy’s shoulders and leaned back a little. Searching his eyes, he whispered “Goku?”

“Don’t you like it?”

Sanzo closed his eyes. He loved it. But what emerged from his lips was a soft “No.” Contrary to what he expected though, Goku was undeterred by this response. Instead of stopping, he grabbed Sanzo’s crotch, eliciting a groan from the monk’s lips.

“Liar. I can feel how much you like this.”

Sanzo moaned; the monkey was now rubbing his hands on his manhood. “Goku—Ohh.”

Goku leaned closer to Sanzo. He nibbled on Sanzo’s jaw, making the monk shudder. “Tell me you don’t like this, now Sanzo.”

The monkey’s clever mouth was now nibbling his ears. “Tell me.” He tightened his hold on Sanzo’s crotch.

“Ahh…I can’t, damn you. You know I like this. Ohh.”

Goku, realizing he has won the battle of wills, quickly opened Sanzo’s pants. He pushed Sanzo to lie on the bed and then he removed his garments one by one, never ceasing his kisses on any part of Sanzo’s body he could touch with his lips. He then removed his own clothing as hastily as possible before returning to his sun’s side.

He touched Sanzo’s cheek, wondering what good fortune brought this being into his life. “You’re so beautiful Sanzo. I’m so lucky that Kami sent you to rescue me from my prison.”

Sanzo’s response to this was a heated kiss. Goku moaned when their erections rubbed together. He was extremely glad that Sanzo didn’t demand that he stay away from him. He couldn’t stand being away from Sanzo completely. “Ahh. Sanzo.”

Sanzo had grabbed the monkey’s cock when he noticed that the boy was a bit distracted. “Where is your mind wandering saru? Don’t you like what we are doing? Hmm?” He formed a fist in his hand, pumping the monkey’s erection slowly.

“Ohh…God Sanzo.” Goku grabbed the blonde’s eager hand. “Stop.”

The monk’s hand stilled in confusion. “What?”

“I said stop.” He then gently placed Sanzo’s hand on his chest. “I don’t want this to end too quickly.” He kissed Sanzo’s forehead, trying to straighten out the lines that formed there. “I want to prolong the moment. Indulge me.” Goku kissed the monk’s nose. “Lie still and enjoy the ride.” There was a teasing glint in the boy’s eyes.

“But—” Goku gave him an open-mouthed kiss on the lips to silence his protests.

“Shh.”, Goku said when they finally parted for air. “Please?”

Sanzo nodded, too enchanted by the feelings engulfing him to care who’s dominating their encounter.

Goku smiled. “Good. Now remember, don’t move. If you do, I’ll stop. Okay?” Again, Sanzo nodded. He would agree to anything if it will get the monkey to continue his earlier ministrations. “Good.” The boy then kissed his neck.

Sanzo arched his neck, giving the monkey better access.

“Tsk. Tsk.”

“What? Why did you stop?”

“I said no movements, Sanzo.”

“What? That was just—”

“Not even that. No movements. At all. Okay?”

“But—” Again, he was silenced by Goku.

“I will only continue if you agree to my terms, Sanzo. Do you want me to stop completely?” At Sanzo’s mumbled “no”, Goku said “Good then. Do you agree with my conditions?”

Silence.

You are going to pay for this saru, Sanzo thought. Goku moved one of his hands. He “accidentally” brushed it on Sanzo’s dick. Sanzo groaned. The damn monkey knew his weakness and was using it against him. He groaned his yes.

Goku smiled. “Good.” And he kissed Sanzo’s neck again, slowly making his way downwards to his nipple. Sanzo groaned. The kid was hell-bent on torturing him. He wouldn’t even kiss the damn nipple.

“Goku…”

The monkey chuckled. Getting the hint, he kissed Sanzo’s nipple. Sucking and licking it while rolling the other between his fingers.

“Ahh…yes.”

Goku licked his way towards Sanzo’s abdomen, nuzzling it for a moment before proceeding downwards. He grabbed the monk’s cock, eliciting a groan from him. He licked the slit, tasting the precum that was oozing from it before engulfing it in his mouth completely.

“Ahh.” Heaven. He wanted to move, to pump himself dry in that blissful warmth, but he didn’t dare for fear of the monkey stopping his action. “Goku.”, he panted. “Please.”

Goku took the intimation, moving his head up and down with increasing speed.

“Ahh. Shit. Goku. Oh, yes. Fuck.”

Sanzo was so close. He could feel it. “Yes.” But the monkey suddenly stopped, causing the monk to groan in frustration. When the boy made to get up, Sanzo demanded, “Where the hell are you going?”

Goku chuckled. “Relax. I’ll be right back. Don’t jerk off Sanzo. You’re still not allowed to move. I’ll only be a while.”

Sanzo slumped back down. He was so close. Just a few more of that movement and he would’ve come. Damn that monkey!

Goku came back shortly, carrying with him a tube of something. “What’s that?”

“Lube.”, the boy enthusiastically answered. He sat beside Sanzo. The monkey removed the cap and squeezed the container.

Sanzo was curious. “Where did you get that?”

“I took it from the kappa’s bag. I sometimes sneak this out when he’s not around.” Goku grinned. “I never really thought that this would actually happen. So, I contented myself by just thinking about you while using this.”

Sanzo was shocked. “Really?”

“Yups. But now I don’t have to. Ahh.” Sanzo looked down to where Goku was applying the lube. His eyes widened at the size of his lover. Wow. When he looked back up, Goku was grinning at him. The monkey kissed him again. “You’re still not allowed to move, Sanzo. Okay?”

“Okay.”

“Great.” Having said this, the boy inserted a finger in Sanzo’s opening. The monk yelped in surprise and pain. “What are you doing?”

“Just relax. Don’t move.” The boy inserted another finger, pumping it in and out on the monk’s opening. The boy knew when he found Sanzo’s prostate. The monk moaned in surprised pleasure. He removed his fingers and positioned himself on top of the blonde. “Ready?”

“Yes.”, Sanzo panted.

Goku slowly pushed himself into Sanzo slowly. God this felt good. He wanted to go faster but he knew that this was painful for Sanzo. When he was fully inside Sanzo, he stilled for a while, allowing Sanzo to adjust to his invasion. He then pumped himself into Sanzo slowly. “Ahh. Sanzo…”

Sanzo found the feeling odd. It was a bit painful but strangely pleasurable at the same time. He gasped when Goku’s cock touched his prostate. He groaned, the boy seemed to be aiming for that spot.

“Ahh. Sanzo…” The monkey’s thrusts were gathering speed. He grabbed Sanzo’s cock and pumped his fist in time with his thrusts.

“Goku.” Shit. He’s so close. He desperately wanted to move. But he was afraid that the monkey will stop, leaving him again with this unrelieved tension. If the boy stopped for anything, he would kill the damn monkey. Contrary to this though, Goku’s thrusts seemed frantic now. “Ahh…Goku!!! Goku!!! Yes!!!” At last, Sanzo came. His hot seed spilling over their chests and Goku’s hand.

The contractions of the monk’s body proved to be too much for the monkey. “Sanzo. Oh, shit. Ahh. Sanzo!!! I’m gonna come. Shit I’m gonna come!!!” Goku pumped himself dry in Sanzo.

When he finished, he flopped down on Sanzo, too exhausted to move even though he knew he must be crushing the monk.

Moments passed. When Goku finally gathered enough energy to move, he collapsed beside him on his back, staring at the ceiling.

“Oi, saru?”

“Hmm?”

“Do you need me?”

Goku smiled. “I will always need you, Sanzo.”

“Good.” He heard the sheets rustle. He looked beside him to see Sanzo moving to get up. When he was finally standing, Goku looked him in the face. There was an alarming playful glint in the monk’s eyes.

Sanzo smiled at Goku’s apprehensive expression. It’s payback time.

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A/N: Please review. And please be nice. This is my first ever fic. Comments on how to improve my writing is welcome. Mail me at pink07blossom@yahoo.com. Thanks.