Catching

Catching
By: Karie

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*curls up and hides from herself* I scare myself... *hops up and grins* Shini, your a jerk. Now that I've said that a million times.... Shini and someone else desided I should write another fic to go with 'Falling', my first and what I thought was going to be my only DN Angel ficcy. Ugh... I REALLY hated that fic. I posted it anyhow. So, here, for the two of you, I did as semi-requested. I don't own the song, and I don't own the characters and I'm not making anything please don't eat me. Enjoy Minna! Enjoy Shini!
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Falling... Falling... Red, white, black, yellow, purple, blue... Falling...

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Daisuke didn't know how long he'd been on the floor, surrounded by the reflecting shards of broken mirror when a soft knock on the door brought him into the horrid, sleepless reality. His voice was rough and it cracked as he called out tiredly to whoever was there.

"Go away..."

The voice on the other side almost shocked him out of his self-pity. Satoshi was on the other side!

"Niwa? Open the door, please."

Daisuke shuffled up off the floor, swaying slightly and wincing as he managed the five steps to the door from the remains of the front hall mirror. The doorhandle was cool and it was almost soothing. He tugged the door open a crack, enough for Satoshi to slide inside and keep him from collasping as he slid to the floor.

(I cannot take this anymore
I'm saying everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense)

Satoshi almost could have let himself cry at the torn, tired look on Niwa Daisuke's face. The boy had obviously been staying up at nights and was not looking well at all. The boy was whispering something, but it was so quiet, Satoshi couldn't hear him. Satoshi lifted the boy off the carpet and carried him slowly into the dimly lit bedroom he could see through a wide open door.

The bed clothes were scattered and feathers from the ripped pillow were all over the place. The mattress looked like it had been attacked with a sledge hammer and then a flame thrower. Satoshi sat the boy on the feather strewn floor, flipped the mattress to the better looking side, remade the bed and found another pillow, unripped thankfully, and put a pillow case on it.

No thanks to Krad, he unfortunantly remembered how the blonde psycho had acted and was NOT happy. He refused to even speak to the psycho. He lifted Daisuke back off the floor and made to sit him on the bed. The boy's eyes went wide, hands catching at Satoshi's clothes, fingers practically ripping the fabric at the seams as the trembling, fear-ridden voice rose to a fever pitch, always repeating the same nonsense words.

"Falling! Falling! Red, white, black, yellow, purple, blue! Falling! Falling! Falling! Red, white, black, yellow, purple, blue! Falling! Falling! Falling! Red, white, black, yellow, purple, blue! Falling!"

Daisuke was gripping at reality as waves of dreams threatened him from the shadows. He didn't know what he had ahold of, but it was real, it was something that was solid. He ripped at it with his nervless fingers until solid hands wrapped around his wrists and forced his hands away. He thrashed in the grip, fear resurfacing with a vengance as his voice rose to a horse scream. No one was ever really there, never listening anyhow.

(I find bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you'll say
But you'll find that out anyway
Just like before...)

Satoshi pinned the boy to the deep matress, avoiding being kicked as Daisuke thrashed wildly against his hold, eyes open but unfocused. The boy was asleep even when he was awake. That didn't make sense. And he couldn't hear Satoshi while he was screaming like that. It was like he didn't want to know, just wanted to get away from the awful happenings. Satoshi was confused and he wasn't liking it. He didn't like not knowing what to do. So he carefully released one of Niwa's hands and drew back then let his hand fly, slapping the boy sharply across the face. His hand locked back onto the boy's wrist as those eyes became dull but focused and he was sure Daisuke could actually see him. Then the boy wailed in anguish, tearing away from the blue haired boy, curling in on himself, eyes squeezing shut as tears marked their way down pale cheeks.

"Niwa. Look at me Niwa."

The boy just shuddered, voice quiet.

"Go away, Satoshi-kun."

"Niwa... I can't do anything about what Krad did but-"

"NO!!!!!"

The boy shot up, eyes flaming fircly, hands ripping at the bed, the bed clothes, throwing them around, tearing at the pillow until Satoshi pinned him again. The boy's eyes were angry, and he was breathing harshly.

(Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break )

"NIWA! Stop it, right now! Listen to me! I couldn't stop him either!"

The boy seemed to calm slightly, eyes casting a disgruntled gaze upon the blue-haired boy over him. The unhappy face was twisted in remembered pain.

"It hurt... It still hurts... So much... And I can't keep it away... It just...."

Satoshi released a wrist and covered the boy's mouth with his hand, shaking his head.

"Don't."

The boy went still and limp, eyes clouding over.

"Falling... Falling... Red, white, black, yellow, purple, blue... Falling..."

Satoshi shook the boy and he blinked awake again. Satoshi looked down at the boy.

"Niwa... Listen to me this time. I can't do anything about what Krad did, but, I want to try and make it a little easier... If I can."

The boy seemed to shrink away from him.

"I can't keep it away... It just... Keeps coming back... I can't close my eyes... Can't sleep. I just keep falling... Falling... Falling... Red, white, black, yellow, purple, blue... Falling... There's no bottom..."

"Yes there is."

Satoshi stopped pinning the boy and sat down with his back to the wall. He pulled the other against him, holding him hesitantly to himself. The boy started to struggle against him.

(I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break)

Satoshi held tighter to the boy and said quietly to the air.

"Breathe. In, out. In with-"

He cut off and his mouth twitched slightly.

"In with the good air... Out with the bad..."

The boy in his arms giggled slightly hysterically.

"In with the good air, out with the bad?"

Satoshi's mouth twitched again. He restrained the amused grin with ease, having had long practice at it.

"Just breathe."

Daisuke took a few slow, deep breaths and felt a little more calm. He leaned into the heat radiating from his...friend? Sure. He closed his eyes for a moment then then screeched, shooting upright, hands clutching the bed desperatly.

(I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance )

"Oh god.... Falling... Falling... Red, white, black, yellow, purple, blue... Falling... No bottom.... Just dark... Hands... Pain...."

The nonsensical babble went on for about two seconds before Satoshi shook the other firmly, yelling at him.

"QUIT IT! YOU'RE SAFE NOW!"

The boy froze like a deer in headlights then slumped against the icy-eyed boy. Nothing made sense in his head. He closed his eyes and he just went through it all again. No bottom, no ending... Just forever falling. Colors flying by.

(Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again
Just like before...)

"Breathe, in with the good air, out with the bad air... Breathe Niwa."

Daisuke giggled slightly. He didn't think he'd ever get over hearing Satoshi saying in with the good air, out with the bad. It was too funny coming from such a serious boy. He slowly relaxed again, reminding himself as his eyes fell that he was safe now. It worked for a moment, then his eyes shot open, just seeing blurs of color. He would never sleep again. If he did, it might happen again. He couldn't sleep, couldn't close his eyes even for the briefest of moments...

(Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break)

He started to get up when Satoshi's arms wound tightly around him, not allowing him the luxury of getting up. No movement at all. The calming voice was close to his ear, hot breath washing over his skin lightly, making him shiver slightly in the tight hold.

"Relax all ready. I'm here, not Krad and not Dark. You will be fine. Relax now. Before I take drastic measures and have to knock you out which I do not want to do."

Daisuke just struggled a little against the restraining arms.

"Let me go, Satoshi-kun. I can't sleep... I just fall and there is no end. Just a bunch of colors and wind. No ending to the awful nightmare. There's no one at the bottom."

The arms tightened again.

"Yes there is, Niwa."

"Who?"

The arms let go and smooth hands turned his head around so that he was looking at Satoshi. The icy cold eyes seemed to stare at him with a small flame. They weren't so cold all of a sudden.

"Me... If you want me to catch you."

The boy's voice was so hesitant that Daisuke couldn't be sure if he was actually asking or if Daisuke was dreaming again. He smiled slightly and nodded.

"I think... yes."

Those arms came around him again and drew him against the warm body of his friend. That voice was in his ear again.

"Thank you. Sleep now. I'll be there if you start to fall again."

Daisuke started to open his mouth and the single finger over his lips kept him quiet.

(shut up when I'm talking to you)

"Sleep."

Daisuke nodded. He closed his eyes, darkness enveloping him. He could feel the arms around him though, holding him. He slipped into the dream again. But, it was differant. He could see Satoshi standing at the bottom, getting closer, arms upheld. There was someone to catch him now, when he fell.

Satoshi looked at the sleeping boy in his arms and let the smallest of smiles cross his face. He kissed the top of the red hair slightly, his own eyes shutting.

"I'll catch you.... Daisuke."

~OWARI~

ARG!!!!! I wanted that to end as badly as the one that started this whole stupid mess! Unfortunantly, nothing I want ever works out, does it. Poopie. Oh well... Shini, I hope your satisfied now, you jerk. *grins* You know I'm kidding too. Ja!

KARIE *muah*