TITLE: In Your Eyes

CHAPTER:  1 - Oneshot

AUTHOR: setosgirl

DATE: 5-27-06

FANDOM: Legal (Gohou) Drug

DISCLAIMER: I don’t own Legal Drug. CLAMP does. *sniffle*

PAIRINGS:  Saiga X
Kakei

TYPE: angst/romance

RATING: R

WARNINGS:  shounen-ai,
char. death

OCs: none

BETA: none

WORDS: 492

SUMMARY:  Kakei is
dying, and Saiga doesn’t want to let him go…

NOTES: I gave both Kakei and Saiga first names here; Saiga
is Kikue, and Kakei is Saisha. I just thought they were pretty names, I don’t
know if they mean anything. I also gave Saiga a power, though that’ll be
obvious on its own eventually.

~~~~~~~~~~

In Your Eyes

Kakei smiled as well as he could
and leaned his head into the warm hand beside him.

“Saisha… koi…” Saiga’s voice was
hoarse, but he didn’t dwell on it. His hand was warm and comforting…

“It’s all right…” he said
quietly, and raised one bloody hand to weakly press against his lover’s hand. “Everything
will be okay…”

Saiga’s hand stroked his cheek
gently, his fingers combing through his hair. There was a rough edge to his caresses,
though, an almost hysterical desperation. His other hand grasped his free one
tightly, as though attempting to anchor him here. He didn’t tell him what he
knew so clearly, that it was futile…

“Do you mean that?” Saiga asked,
that terrible hope rearing its head in his voice.

He nodded wearily, his eyes
slipping closed. “You’ll have a long, happy life, an you’ll marry a sweet man
within three years…”

Saiga’s hand clenched
convulsively on his, slipping in the blood. “Koi…” he said in a choked voice. “Don’t
say that. You’re going to be okay.”

He smiled indulgently and opened
his eyes again, turning his head carefully to kiss the firm palm beside him. “No,”
he said calmly, looking at him. “Don’t do this to yourself. Accept it. Believe
me when I tell you what’s going to happen…” He smiled a little. “I can see the
future, remember…”

“No! You’re wrong, Saisha… You’re
wrong, this time…”

He smiled and shook his head
slowly. “No, I’m not wrong. You’ll be okay, Kikue, if you let yourself…”

“No…” His large lover’s voice was
quiet. “No, not without you…”

He nodded painfully. “Yes,
without me.” He disentangled and lifted his bloody hand gently to Saiga’s face.

“No…” he protested weakly.

Kakei ignored him and gently
touched the dark sunglasses he wore. “Let me see your eyes…” he murmured.

Instantaneous refusal greeted the
request. “I can’t,” he said firmly, raising his free hand to the glasses as
though to hold them in place. “You know what happens when…”

He nodded, closing his eyes
briefly against the pain. “Yes, I know… Please, show me.” He stroked Saiga’s
cheek, but made no move to take matters into his own hands. “I know what I’m
asking…”

Though he couldn’t see his eyes,
he imagined he could feel Saiga’s gaze boring through him as they sat there,
only his labored breathing for background music, the request heavy between
them. After a moment, Saiga gently pressed his palm to his lips in a gentle
kiss and nodded. Slowly, his hand moved and pulled the sunglasses down,
revealing his closed eyes.

After a moment, slowly, they
blinked open. Reflective orbs of the purest silver captured his own with promises
of relief, of serenity, of final peace…

“Beautiful…” he breathed. His
chest gently settled and didn’t move again.

Saiga slid his sunglasses back on
and moved Kakei’s glasses to close his eyes with one bloody hand, then took his
hand and sat there in heavy silence.