I Want My Innocence Back!

My first song fic in like, six years! ^-^ I hope you all enjoy it.
Song: I want my innocence back
Artist: Emilie Autumn
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The rain. It was the rain that brought it on. It seemed to fit his mood. He laid in bed, next to Voshka, the man that he loathed.... and loved. He looked to the sleeping commander and wanted to bite his throat and rip it out. He pissed him off. Then again, he wanted to bite the man's throat gently, and nip and suckle until the man awoke and took him again. That pissed him off. He was still pissed that Voshka went back on his word and actually promoted the men that slew his people, his friends, his mother. "We do need to keep face, Aranshu, dear."

Bull. He was pleased with the pillage. If it wasn't for them killing those people, Aranshu would have never warmed his bed. He's happy about that.

Well, that's how Aranshu thought of it. He lied about his mother. He lied about punishing those murderers. Voshka had just told him as they made love..... no.... as he raped him, that he meant so much to him. 'Well then, I'll take something from him like he stole everything from me! I was going to be a priest.... I was happy. I was..... a virgin.... Now... what can I be? Nothing more than his whore!' he thought. Slowly, ever so slowly, he slid out of Voshka's grip and put his pillow in his place. Voshka couldn't tell the difference. Aranshu grabbed his clothes and quickly dressed. He opened a few drawers and found some very expensive looking jewelry and a dagger with a, impressive design on the hilt. It was a dragon curling up the hilt with a ruby in it's mouth. He picked it up.

"Looking for something?" Voshka's soft, sleepy voice asked. Aranshu spun around, startled. Voshka took note of his dress, the jewelry and the knife most of all. "What are you planning, Aranshu? Don't tell me you're going to try to kill me. After the passion we just shared in this bed? Would you really spill my blood on it?"

I want my innocence back, and if you can't give it to me, I will cut you!
And I will run you through with the dagger you sharpened on my body and soul
Before you slit me in two and then devoured me whole!
I want my innocence back. I want my innocence back! I want my innocence back!!

"Yes. I would! I'm tell you! Don't move. I'm leaving. I refuse to be your whore!"

"Pet."

"What?!"

Voshka stood, completely naked and aroused. He smiled at Aranshu. "You are my pet. Not my whore, Aranshu. You belong to me. You are home. You are mine. You are my pet. Now, come to me, my darling Aranshu, and I will love you again."

Aranshu took a step forward and then caught himself, drawing the dagger and holding it up defensively. "NO!" he screamed, trying to ignore his own erection. 'He will not make me into his whore!'

I want my innocence back! I want my innocence back! I want my innocence back!! I want my innocence back...

"Aranshu. Now don't be stubborn. I can see you want me. That erection of yours looks very promising. How would you like to take me this time?" he asked, running his hands slowly down his body. He turned, showing Aranshu his perfectly sculpted behind. He ran a hand over it teasingly. "Would you like that?" he purred.

"No! I'm leaving! I'm going to find my way home and don't you try to stop me, you bloody rapist! You ruined everything for me! Who will want me now? I'm used! I'm dirty! I'm....." he paused, wiping tears from his eyes. "I'm a whore."

I want my innocence back and if you don't pacify me, I will break your bones!
You think I'm bluffing, just try me! I will never forget the words you used to ensnare me,
'til my dying day. You'll suffer for this, I swear!! I want my innocence back!
I want my innocence back! I want my innocence back! I want my innocence back....
I want my innocence back! I want my innocence back! I want my innocence back!! I want my innocence back....

Voshka sighed. "Aranshu. I want you. That is why I took you. You are no whore. Whores have sex with anyone for little or no money at all. You've only slept with me. That doesn't make you a whore. You seem to like it a lot. You call my name, you scratch me, you even wrapped your legs around me just now. You responded to me positively. You enjoyed it. Admit it. I promised you I'd take care of you. You needn't worry, Aranshu. I will give you all you need. I promi-"

"LIAR!!!!!" Aranshu screamed. "You liar! All you do is LIE! You lied about my mother! You lied about punishing those murderers! You're lying now! Everything you say is a damned lie!!" he cried. He hated this man, but he loved him. He wanted to ram his blade into his heart, but he wanted to drop the blade and let the man take him. He was trapped within his own paradox and it pissed him off.

And I demand you put my heart back in my hand and wipe it clean of the mess you made of me.

"Come now, Aranshu! You're making me angry. Can you stand there and tell me truthfully that I haven't pleased your tender body in every way you imagined and more?! I don't think so! Look at you, little love. You're trembling from your arousal. Come. Let me please you. I'll make all your anger go away.

And I require you make me free of this desire and when you leave I better be the innocent I used to be!!!

Finally, Aranshu agreed with his anger. He would deprive his 'master' of what he wanted most. Aranshu. "No. I'm leaving. You'd better not follow me. I mean it!" he started towards the door. Voshka, all patience lost followed him, anger flashing in his eyes. He lunged for Aranshu, who, in fear, screamed and drove the blade into Voshka's stomach. They both gasped. Master and pet stared at each other for a few seconds before Voshka fell to the ground, coughing up blood and groaning loudly. Anders knocked on the door after hearing his commander's pained groan. "Commander Khosi, are you alright?"

I want my innocence back!

Quickly, Aranshu ran to the window and opened it. It was a long way down, but if he was careful, he could climb down all the way. "It's now or never. Literally." Aranshu began to descend when Anders opened the bedroom door. "Commander!! Guards! Seize that filthy Aristian!" he screamed. "And bring the doctor down here stat! The commander has been stabbed!"

Aranshu didn't waist any time. He climbed down the building as quickly as he could, almost falling twice. Once he reached the ground, a few guards spotted him. He took off running, thanking Armah that the big lumoxes were slow thanks to their elaborate armor. Aranshu would sell the jewelry at a high price for tickets to get the hell off this planet. It would be tough, considering he didn't speak Alphazenian, but he was sure the name "Voshka" and a simple gesture towards the goods would be explanation enough. He ran through alleyways, shaking the guards off easily. He didn't stop until he himself was lost. He could still see the ship he came on, though, massive as it was. He followed a series of paths until he reached it. Armah must've been looking down on him with pity, because a mercenary was standing not too far from the ship's dock. Aranshu ran to the man. "Excuse me, sir?" he asked. The mercenary looked down on him and smiled, speaking very choppy Aristian.

"Ahh, hello little lad. Buy now you will?"

"No. I need to sell something for a ticket."

"Ticket? Off planet? I have. We trade, yes?"

Aranshu beamed at this. "Yes! Please! I have these jewels and stuff. They were Commander Khosi's."

The mercenary studied them with great interest. "Truly??"

"Yes. On my life. Please, can you hurry. I need to hide. I'm being chased."

The man smiled and nodded. He knew who this child was. He handed him a ticket and took one of the necklaces. "You keep rest. You need for food when on new planet. These good sell all over." he nodded. Aranshu thanked the man and hugged him before running towards the dock. One of the smaller ships was leaving for some planet called Amoi. He'd hide out there for a while until he got some cash. Then, he'd find a way to get back to Aristia.

~*~

The accelerator brought Voshka back into consciousness. He grunted loudly as pain shot through his body. Anders knelt down beside him. "Commander, we are searching for the Aristian now. He couldn't have gotten far, not without any money."

"He took.... some of my jewels. He's a smart boy. He'll find some way to sell them. Until then, make sure no ships leave this planet."

"There is a ship leaving for Amoi in less than 10 minutes. We can't stop that one, sir."

Voshka thought about this for a moment. Well, if he wasn't on Alpha Zen now, then he'd know where to go to find him, but that would be impossible. There'd be no way for him to have gotten on that ship. "Search for him. Do not stop until you have found him!" he commanded. Anders nodded and sent out the command and put a search out for the boy. "When I get my hands on him," Voshka growled, "he won't be able to sit for a week! No, a MONTH!"

~*~

Alpha Zen was really beautiful, but he longed for Aristia. As the ship drifted off into deep space, he wondered what this Amoi would be like. Sighing, he closed his eyes and drifted off to sleep, happy that he was finally away from the man he loathed and in his right state of mind again. Voshka was irate, and very worried. He'd already come to love his unruly pet and longed to have him back in his arms. "Aranshu.... for Gaman's sake, at least be safe out there. I will find you.... and when I do...." he smiled, "I will take you into my arms and love you forever, but first....." he looked up at the moon. "I'm going to tan your pretty little hide until it eve hurts for you to stand."

And thus, the search for Aranshu commenced.

I want my innocence back!