Goodbye...I Love You

We fell to the bed in a frenzy of passionate kissing, desperately tearing off our clothes. my hands forcefully roamed her body, my tongue ravaging her mouth. as we hit the bed i felt her hands remove my pants from my body, the cool air touching my skin with a force i replicated on the girl under me.

i tore my face from hers, only for my lips to become re-ocupied with her neck and hers with moaning and screaming. i heard her and groaned, sucking roughly on her neck. i felt her knee pull up and rub between my legs, and i groaned again, my rock hard member was only strained harder.

she screamed again, pleasure filling her body as my skilled hands found her breasts and i popped my mouth from the soon-to-be hickey. i moved to her breasts and her legs wrapped around my waist, and the one thing i had been trying not to think about crept into my head, the reason i was blind drunk and on top of a hot dancer at a club.

i tried to shove it away and paid even more attention to her large breasts, her bra had vanished to some distant corner of the large room. i felt it coming back and migrated to her cunt, putting her knees up on my shoulders and thrusting my tongue into her sopping pussy. i concentrated fully, but distant thoughts still held fast, and a lone tear streaked my face, onto the stripper under me.

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a girl with auburn hair and an adorable laugh danced away from me with a teasing smile on her face, she laughed again and said "you gotta catch me if you want it!

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i pulled away, shaking my head and returned to her lips. i tried to give into the sensations completely, abandoning thought, something i never did with her. i ravaged her mouth with mine and rubbed my head against her pleasure point, feeling her body arch and hearing her moan. i closed my eyes and moaned, but instead of darkness i saw her.

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"Awww! he's so cute!" the smile that lit her face could have lit a whole room. she cuddled the puppy in her lap as the little dog licked her face adoringly. i smiled softly. "do i get any thanks?" she looked up at me, smiled and put the puppy in my face so i was assaulted with his slobber. i laughed and she put him down, leaning over and whispering "i love you." she kissed me softly and held my hand lightly in her own small one. "i love you too."

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i thrust my long shaft into her vagina, and she screamed, grabbing onto my hair and holding me to her face. i felt tears drip from my eyes, and clenched my eyes tighter, trying to keep them in. i concentrated on keeping my driving movements rhythmic, in-pause-out, in-pause-out. i felt her tremble under me, on the verge of a climax. i groaned and pulled out, moving her to her hands and knees and ramming myself back in, i licked this better, she couldn't see me cry.

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as we danced in the moonlight to a distant song we sat locked in each others eyes. i smiled softly, glad to have her with me. i could spend my whole life with her. the two of us together... forever.

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i silenced myself, locking my lips so my tears wouldn't make a sound and felt a sensation welling up within me, i trembled, the tears pausing as pleasure overwhelmed my body. i dug deeper into her and felt her pussy lock down on my penis, her orgasm tightening all of her muscles. i groaned and let loose in her, my ejaculation filling her with my own semen. i knew it was ok, these dancers were all on birth control. i fell onto the bed next to her and felt the tired-ness overwhelm me, sleep grabbing my eyes, dragging them down and i felt her plop down next to me, tired as well after her long night.

i tried to fight the sleep, sleep would bring dreams, dreams would bring her. i didn't know what to do with her in my head when i didn't have her here. i felt my throat tighten, and i wouldn't again.

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she shifted her weight awkwardly. "i... i don't really know what to do here... I'm... I'm leaving."

i paused, trying to decipher her words. "to where? i could go to..." she shook her head vehemently.

"you can't. i... i have to leave, alone. i mean, i want to, I'm just not codependent like that... i... I'm sorry." she cast her eyes down, unwilling to watch the meaning of her words dawn on me as the rainbow of emotions crossed my face.

"you... don't want me with you?" i couldn't even make the words make sense, we promised, forever. she said she wouldn't leave, and i said that i loved her...

"No... not... not like that at least... i have to leave and i can't see you again. that would be too hard, i need a clean break, i don't want to hurt you any more than i have to." she squeezed her hands together, her knuckles white. i stared her her face, her eyes trying not to see my pain, and she whispered "Goodbye."

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as sleep closed my eyes, darkness overwhelming me i whispered almost silently "goodbye"