Saiyuki Serial:Beautifully Broken Evolution

Authors Note: I don’t own Saiyuki and make no claims/money on it. If I did, there’d be a whole hell of a lot of kinky shit going down.

Sorry about the missed chapter here. Life has been hectic for the last little while. This goes before chapter 32 (obviously) and I deeply apologize for the out-of-order posting. Please note that I can't reply to most comments here as AFF hides emails by default. If you'd like a reply, leave an email addy or send me one at silverirondog at gmail dot com.

Now, on to the story....

31 Confusion’s Epiphany

~Goku~

I now watched my friends as if I’d never seen them before. I kinda felt a little pissed off that they’d all slept together and never even asked me if I wanted to join them. At the same time I was really, really glad they hadn’t asked. I mean, I loved them all. Just not in that kinda way. That would be gross.

I was still having a little trouble wrapping my head around what that line drawing in the sand showed me. I knew Sanzo didn’t like to share anything of his and Gojyo was definitely his. He loved Gojyo lots. Anyone could see that. I didn’t think Sanzo would share Gojyo in that way with anybody. Not even Hakkai or me. I was almost positive about that, but that drawing in the sand said different. I wouldn’t have even taken the drawing seriously if it’d been anybody else but Hakkai who’d drawn it.

Hakkai drawing something like that wasn’t right either. Hakkai could draw stuff way better than that. I’d seen him do it. Okay, so it was just flowers and trees and shit, but still. Hakkai could do better than stick figures. And it was just plain weird for Hakkai to draw porn. Why would he draw it in the first place? It didn’t make sense and that was bugging the crap outta me.

I huffed out a frustrated breath and wished I could just ask what the hell was going on.

I knew Gojyo and Sanzo were fucking each other. I even knew they loved each other lots. I was cool with that. I wanted Sanzo to be happy. Gojyo was making him happy so that was good. I knew Gojyo had lots of love to give to the right person and that he’d been looking for that person for a long time. You didn’t need to be as smart as Hakkai to see that. I was kinda glad that the right person for Gojyo turned out to be Sanzo. Gojyo knew not to give up on him no matter how grouchy Sanzo got or how many times Sanzo told him to fuck off when we all knew he didn’t really mean it. As much as Gojyo pissed Sanzo off, I think Gojyo was good for him. Sanzo needed to learn that loving somebody didn’t always have to hurt and Gojyo was just the guy to teach him that.

Hakkai was acting a little different from normal. He was more relaxed and really smiled more often. I think he was starting to be happy. I thought it was about time he let himself be happy. The stuff with Kana wasn’t his fault, and I hoped that he was starting to realize that now. Hakkai smelled like sex a lot now. Maybe that was why he seemed way happier than normal. I couldn’t figure out who he was sleeping with though. And he was sleeping with somebody. Usually, when I smelled sex on Hakkai, I smelled someone else on him, too. It was a kinda familiar smell, but not. It was driving me nuts.

I kicked a rock out of my way as I walked out of the town we’d stopped in for the night. I’d seen a big tree on a hill as we drove into town and wanted some quiet to think about stuff without Gojyo teasing the crap outta me. I sat at the base of the tree and stared up at the branches, letting my brain jump around to try and work out what was going on with my friends.

“Goku.”

I grinned when I saw Nat hopping around in the branches of the tree. He was still following us and he was a great listener. He didn’t say much but he understood everything I said to him. I was pretty sure he was more than just a magpie. Hakkai said that magpies were sometimes messengers of the gods. That was cool, but I couldn’t think of why any gods would want to talk to me. And if they did want to talk to me, why hadn’t they told me what they wanted to say already? I shrugged. If the gods wanted to say stuff to me, it’s not like they wouldn’t be able to find me whenever they wanted. They were gods and they had to know everything. Besides, it couldn’t be all that important if they hadn’t said something yet.

“Hey, Nat. You know, if you get tired of flying after us, you could hitch a ride on jeep. I don’t think the guys would mind.”

Nat fluttered to the ground and cocked his head at me. He shook his head after a few seconds and fluffed his feathers. He opened and closed his mouth a couple of times and stared at me really hard before I laughed and reached inside my shirt. I pulled out a meat bun and broke off a piece for him. He gulped it down and waited for more. I snickered and gave him another piece. I didn’t mind sharing food with him. He was almost as hungry as me most of the time, but he never tried to steal the food from me and he was always really careful not to bite my fingers. For a bird who wasn’t just a bird, he had really good manners.

“Yeah, I guess the guys would kinda say something if you suddenly landed on seat next to me. We wouldn’t have to talk or nothing, but….”

“No, Goku,” Nat said softly.

“I don’t like keeping secrets, Nat. You’re a really awesome friend. The guys would like you. I know they would. I’m going to be able to tell them about you some time, aren’t I?”

Nat looked at me for a long time, his head cocked to the side as if he was listening to something I couldn’t hear. He did that a lot when we talked. Maybe the gods were talking to him when he did that. Whatever they said to him, he never told me. He finally nodded his head up and down and fluffed his feathers again.

“Yes.”

“Okay then. You know, I found out a secret about Sanzo, Gojyo and Hakkai. I gotta tell somebody about this or I’m gonna burst. You won’t tell anybody will you, Nat?”

Nat looked at me like that was the dumbest questions ever. I didn’t think it was dumb. He wasn’t just a magpie. I didn’t know what else he was but I was pretty sure about that. For all I knew, he might talk to other people, too. I didn’t think so, but I’d never asked him either.

I had a moment where I wondered if Nat would get grossed out over guys sleeping together. Some people got all weird about that. I didn’t get the big deal. As long as everybody had fun and nobody got hurt, it was all good. Besides, it wasn’t like they’d done anything wrong. If Sanzo, Gojyo and Hakkai wanted to trade spit and other stuff with each other, there was nothing stopping them. It’s not like they were married or were cheating on each other or something like that.

Nat bobbed his head at me and pecked at my shoe.

“Keep your feathers on, Nat,” I chuckled as I stroked a finger down his chest. “I found out that Sanzo, Gojyo and Hakkai had sex. Together. At once.”

Nat blinked a couple of times and then threw his head back and cackled like mad. I stared at him with my mouth a little open. Sure it was pretty shocking to find out they’d done something kinky like that, but I didn’t think it was worth him laughing so fucking hard. I looked around a little, worried that somebody might hear the noise Nat was making and come see what it was.

“Shhh. Nat. Besides, it’s not funny. Weird, yeah, but not funny.”

I got really worried when Nat tipped over on his side and his legs kicked the air. I panicked a bit thinking he was having a seizure or something until I realized he was still doing his birdy laugh. I rolled my eyes at him and waited for him to settle down. After a few minutes he stopped and kinda lay there on his side, panting. I swear, if birds could cry, he would’ve had tears coming down his face, he’d laughed so hard.

“I don’t get why you think that was so damn funny, but whatever. You’re a weird bird, Nat.”

Nat rolled to his belly and watched me. I don’t know how he did it, but he always figured out when I had stuff I was thinking about and needed to talk out. He never said anything then. He waited for me to work things out in my own head. I liked that he didn’t treat me like an idiot and seemed to know that I’d eventually figure shit out on my own.

“You know what’s even weirder than the three of them sleeping together? I mean aside from Sanzo sharing Gojyo like that when I know he loves Gojyo lots and lots.” Nat waited for me to continue. “Hakkai is having sex with someone, too.”

Nat twisted his head to the side and cawed softly at me. That was the first time he’d done that when I was talking to him and trying to work out a problem in my head. He bobbed his head at me as if encouraging me to continue. He kinda seemed… curious.

“I don’t mean with Sanzo and Gojyo either. It’s somebody else. And it’s pretty often. I know it’s not somebody he picks up in any of the towns we hit because he always has the same smell on his skin after. Not like Hakkai would do that kind of shit. Pick up somebody in a town we were passing through. That’s more Gojyo’s style; at least it was before he hooked up with Sanzo. Anyway, the smell of sex on Hakkai is sorta familiar, but not, ya know. I haven’t seen anybody following us, but that doesn’t mean somebody isn’t. They could just be really good at hiding or something. It’s driving me crazy to not know who it is. I mean, okay, sure, it’s not really my business, but Hakkai is my friend and….”

I sighed and plucked at the grass. I didn’t know how to explain things and not sound like a busybody retard. I was glad Hakkai seemed happier, but I knew he wasn’t quite right in the head and people behaved like morons when they found out stuff like that about somebody. I didn’t want whoever he was sleeping to dump him all of a sudden because Hakkai was a little screwed up in the head. It wasn’t like it was his fault for that either. Or for them to dump Hakkai when they found out he wasn’t human. People got all stupid over things like that and with the way the youkai were going crazy, it was even worse.

“I know Hakkai isn’t just jerking off. If he was, there wouldn’t be that other smell on his skin. If I could just go up to Hakkai and sniff him really hard, I could probably figure it out, but that would be kinda rude and I’d have to explain what I was doing and that’d probably make Hakkai mad and embarrassed and then Sanzo would probably figure out that if I was sniffing Hakkai to figure out who he was sleeping with, I could probably tell who he was sleeping with and that would probably get me whacked with the fan or maybe even shot and Sanzo would be pissed and then Gojyo would be mad because I told him I wouldn’t say nothing about knowing he was with Sanzo and knowing Sanzo, he wouldn’t let Gojyo into his bed because he’d be so embarrassed I knew about them and that would make Gojyo even more mad at me….” I trailed off when I had to take a deep breath.

Nat cackled softly and hopped over to me. He jumped into my lap and settled down, fluffing his feathers and waited. I smiled and ran my hand over his back gently. Petting Nat was way relaxing and helped me to calm down and think without my brain jumping around at a million miles a minute. I leaned my head back against the tree and stared off into space as I petted Nat and just let my brain wander. Stuff usually worked itself out a lot faster in my head if I stopped thinking so hard about it. Petting Nat seemed to help a lot, too. The sun was just a sliver on the horizon by the time things kinda clicked in my head.

“Holy shit!” I shouted and sat up straight. “No fucking way!”

“Goku,” Nat grumbled when I almost dumped him from my lap.

“Sorry, Nat. I figured out what that smell was. Holy fucking shit! Hakkai is one seriously perverted dude. Oh my god! How the hell am I going to look at him now without being all weirded out? That’s just…. And he’s…. Nat, you know who I think Hakkai is sleeping with?”

Nat looked at me and I swear he already knew. He had a look in his eyes that said he did and I wondered how that could be. Geeze, he coulda told me and saved me the almost brain cramp. Not that I woulda believed him. Maybe that’s why Nat didn’t say anything. Maybe he knew it would be best if I worked it out for myself.

“Hakkai is sleeping with Hakuryuu. Hakkai is doing a dragon! How’s that even possible? Not that I want to know. Well, I am a little curious about how they make stuff all fit, but you know what I mean. Holy crap! This is huge. Why would he even think about doing something like that? I mean, yeah, it gets a little boring to always beat your meat after a while, but… Hakuryuu? He’s so little. Wouldn’t that like really hurt Hakuryuu? Can Hakkai’s cock even fit inside him? I’ve seen Hakkai when we go to the baths and he’s not, like, freaky huge or anything but he’s not a needle dick either. Course, I’ve never seen Hakkai when he’s hard…. Or maybe Hakkai isn’t actually sticking his cock in Hakuryuu. Maybe he’s… I dunno, rubbing his dick against Hakuryuu or something. You don’t think Hakkai is making Hakuryuu do that stuff do you?”

Nat started his bird laugh again. I didn’t see what was so damn funny. I didn’t really think Hakkai would make Hakuryuu do stuff he didn’t want to and Hakuryuu wouldn’t always be hanging around Hakkai if he was being forced to do things. Come to think of it, Hakuryuu was being super protective of Hakkai lately. Kinda lovey-dovey when I thought about it. My eyes widened when a way weird idea popped into my head.

“You don’t think that it’s not Hakkai doing Hakuryuu but Hakuryuu doing Hakkai, do you? Oh god, now I’ve got a picture of that in my head and it’s really, really wrong.”

I swear to god, Nat started some weird bird giggles and fell over onto his back, his legs kicking the air and his wings flapping. I wished for like the billionth time that he would really talk with me instead of the one or two words he said at a time. I waited, getting a little impatient, for Nat to stop laughing. It was a long time before he wound down and got back onto his feet. A sudden thought occurred to me and I pointed my finger at Nat.

“You know something about this don’t you? That’s why you find it so damn funny. You were sent here by the gods weren’t you?”

“Yes. No.” Nat did the bird equivalent of a shoulder shrug.

“Come on, Nat. It’s either yes or no not both at the same time. Am I supposed to stop Hakkai and Hakuryuu from… you know? Is that it?”

“No,” Nat said in a surprisingly firm voice for a bird.

“Then what? Come on Nat, you gotta help me out here. I’m no good at these guessing games and if you’re supposed to give me a message from the gods, it could be about freaking anything and I could guess until the end of time and still not get it. Gimme a clue or something.”

Nat shook his head. “Secret.”

I scowled and huffed out an annoyed breath. More secrets. This sucked. It’s not like I was gonna go blab to everybody I met. I mean, I’d tell Sanzo and Gojyo, but we were like family. Nobody else needed to know anything. Okay, so I might wanna ask Hakkai if he really was doing Hakuryuu or if he was the one getting fucked by Hakuryuu because I really couldn’t wrap my head around that one. I grimaced when I thought about Hakkai’s reaction to that. It’d probably be safer if I didn’t ask Hakkai that kind of thing. Hakkai was pretty scary when he got pissed and me asking who he was fucking or who was fucking him would probably piss him off in that really cold, polite way he had.

“This is why I don’t like secrets. It’s too fucking hard to keep all this shit to myself. You really think Hakuryuu is okay with whatever’s going on between him and Hakkai? I mean, I’d risk Hakkai getting all pissed at me if he was… ya know, hurting Hakuryuu or something. Not that I think Hakkai would hurt Hakuryuu on purpose, but sometimes we hurt people we care about by accident and don’t know it until somebody says something.”

“Gojun fine,” Nat said quietly. “Gojun happy.”

“Huh? Who’s Gojun? We’re talking about Hakkai and Hakuryuu.”

Nat looked startled for a moment and fluffed his feathers. His shoulders suddenly hunched and he looked like he was trying to make himself as small as possible. I frowned. Nat cawed softly then snapped his beak several times like he was getting pissed. He suddenly jumped on my chest and put his beak near my ear.

“Gojun Hakuryuu. Gojun loves Tenpou. Loves forever.”

Nat beat his wings and launched himself into the air. I hissed at the scratches his claws left on my chest and scrambled to my feet, calling after him to wait. Nat flew away faster than I’d ever see him move. He was gone in a couple of seconds. I swore and kicked the dirt. I’d managed to figure some stuff out but had new questions now. Questions like why did Nat call Hakuryuu Gojun? Who the hell was Tenpou? Why would Nat say that Gojun or Hakuryuu or whatever loves Tenpou forever? What happened to make Nat act like he just did?

I sighed and headed back to the town. If I didn’t know better, I’d swear Nat just got into trouble for something. I could recognize that I’m-In-Big-Trouble look anywhere. I thought it might be a while before I saw Nat again. The way he took off like his tail was on fire could really only mean one thing. Nat was gonna get punished for… something. I just hope he had stuff to do in his room or nest or whatever it was he called home. Being sent to your room when you had nothing to do there was beyond boring. There was nothing worse than just sitting there, staring off into space because you couldn’t do anything else.